Disclaimer: This story is fiction and does not represent the real people that might be mentioned here. If you are under 18 or if it is illegal to read this in the country where you live, the city where you are, etc. then don't. Again, this is just some fantasy I concocted in my head so don't get insulted.
Author's Note: Okay, so you ask what the hell has been going on with me that I can't update my story. So here's the dealio, I've been studying abroad peeps. I'm living in the Old Country...England. Great, I'm an American in Britain. :-) So, I've been trying to adjust to this new place and trying to make some great friends. Therefore, I've decided with help from some people out there that I'm going to try and make some short installments so that the story can proceed. Good deal? Cool.
Chapter 19 Written by: Bear
"Kev, why do we have to do this again?" Howie's whiny voice echoed through the studio.
"Cause the fans like it." Kevin answered plainly.
"We did it last on the last tour. Wasn't that enough?" Howie continued. "I thought everything was cool with how its set-up right now."
"I guess they want to see us each one of us on stage by ourselves."
"Damn, I don't want to learn something new when we already started the tour."
"What the big deal anyway, D? Its just one song." Kevin asked.
"That's because Howie doesn't have anything to sing that's why. He can't do a song by himself." AJ interjected.
"Shut up, Bone." Howie answered back.
"D, you can do any song you want." Kevin replied. "Preferably a Backstreet song but its not limited to that. Just as long as you tell the band first and they know what you're gonna sing. You're all set." Kevin added.
"Fine. Fine." Howie said giving it up. "What's another thirty minutes of my life worth anyway."
"You'll only be on stage for five of those minutes D. The other time we'll be on." AJ said.
"Would you shut. I'm not talking to you." Howie said before walking away.
"What crawled up his butt?" AJ asked as soon as Howie was out of hearing distance.
"Trouble in paradise." Kevin replied.
"Oh, I didn't know they were having problems." AJ said.
"I heard him on the phone this morning. They were both yelling at each other. Not a good sign. I think they're on the verge of breaking up if this continues."
"Poor, D." AJ said sadly.
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Nick was getting dressed when he heard a knock on the door. "I'll get it." Justin said as he got off the bed. Nick finished putting on his polo shirt and grabbed a pair of socks as he pulled up his cargo pants to put them on.
"Hey, Justin. What are you guys doing tonight?" Kevin voice resonated through the room.
Nick looked up momentarily at Kevin acknowledging his presence before continuing putting on his socks. "I'm going out to see a movie with Rich and Brad."
"What you're not going, Justin?" Kevin asked as he gazed curiously at Justin.
"No, I might be intruding." Justin replied sarcastically.
"I told you he invited you but you still don't want to go." Nick said as he gave a defeated look at Justin.
"Yeah, but you had to bring it up."
"Ugh..." Nick groaned as he grabbed his shoes to put it on.
"Since you're not going with Nick, do you want to come with us and go to the club?" Kevin asked.
"You're going clubbing?" Nick asked as he grabbed he finished with his right shoe and grabbed the other.
"I want to take Howie out tonight. He's been having some girl problems and the other guys decided to go to since we have a late start tomorrow."
"Well, I can't go but why don't you go Justin?" Nick said.
"Me?" Justin asked a little bit shocked.
"Yeah, why don't you go so you won't be stuck here all night."
"Yeah...but"
"I'll go to the movies with Brad and Rich cause you don't want to go then after I'll meet you at the club, okay?"
"Fine." Justin replied as he walked towards the bathroom and gave a little smile towards Kevin's direction.
As soon as Nick was done checking himself out in the mirror he turned back towards a grinning Kevin. "Kev, now you watch my man you hear? He better not get into any trouble." Nick said as he grabbed his keycard and headed towards the door.
"Don't worry Nick. I'll take good care of him." Kevin said with a little sinister giggle.
"That's what I'm afraid of. You might have that cool exterior but deep down lies the heart of a party animal." Nick said as he walked out of the door.
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Nick got off the elevator and walked a couple of doors down the corridor. He knocked lightly a few times before hearing someone beckoning inside. Nick opened the door and saw Rich standing very primmed up for the evening. "Hey guys, you ready?" Nick asked as he saw Rich coming towards him and Brad still on the bed getting himself ready.
"I'm all set." Rich answered looking kind of behind Nick. "Um...where's Justin? Is he not ready yet?" Rich asked.
"Oh, he's not coming. He decided to go clubbing with the guys." Nick answered with a little grimace.
"Oh...okay." Rich said as wheels started to turn in his head. "So I guess its just the two of us then...cause Brad has to stay for a phone call." Rich said loudly.
"Huh?" Brad asked from beside the bed.
"Yeah, you know...that phone call that's very important." Rich said as he turned his back to Nick and contorted his face to plead with Brad.
Brad took a deep sigh before answering, "Oh yes, the phone call. Sorry Nick but I have to bail out too. I'm sure you guys will have a nice time."
"Well, you're lost...and if you're done early why don't you just catch up with us." Nick replied nicely.
"No, I'll be fine. I don't want to catch the movie in the middle of it. It would be kind of pointless."
"The offer is still on the table. So, um...I guess we're all set then." Nick said shifting his gaze from Brad to Rich.
"Yup, we are. Why don't you wait for me outside. I just have to grab something really quickly, okay?" Rich replied.
As soon as Nick walked out of the room and closed the door, Rich approach Brad and gave him a big hug. "You owe me, dude. Big time."
"Thank you..thank you." Rich replied with a huge smile.
"Uh huh...now go." Brad said waving Rich away.
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Nick entered the noisy crowded nightclub laughing hysterically. He just had one of the funnest night in his life and what happened during dinner was simply hilarious. As they made themselves inside, Nick tried to look for the guys. It took him awhile but he finally saw Kevin near the bar and approached him. "Hey...hey Kev" Nick yelled while also putting a hand on him.
Kevin turned around and gave a surprised reaction. "What's up Nick? Thought you wouldn't make it. It's already late." Kevin answered back kind of yelling.
"You're kind of tipsy aren't you?" Nick asked with a sly smile.
"No, not at all. Perfectly fine." Kevin answered with a slur.
"Yeah, I can see that. So, where's my man at?" Nick asked.
"Huh?" Kevin replied not getting it instantly. "Oh...he's over there in the booth." Kevin replied pointing to one of the corners of the nightclub.
"Thanks, I'll go talk to him." Nick replied walking towards where Kevin directed him. "I'll see you later, okay?" Nick said to the man behind him as he tried to look for Justin.
"Hey, come on why don't you join me for a drink" Kevin asked of Rich as soon as Nick left.
"Um...sure." Rich replied eyeing where Nick was going.
"So did you have fun tonight?" Kevin asked.
"I was until five minutes ago." Rich replied not giving his attention to Kevin but instead to where Nick was going.
Nick approached Justin who was sitting all alone in one of the booths with a solemn face. He gave him a quick peck on the cheek before taking a seat next to him. "So you enjoying yourself?" Nick asked perkily.
"You're late." Justin replied harshly eyeing Rich and Kevin who were standing near the bar.
Nick took a deep breath and let it go slowly. "We decided to grab some dinner after the movie. We were kind of hungry."
"You seem to be having a good time the way you walked in here." Justin said not taking even a look in Nick's direction.
"Why wouldn't I? It was a good movie and then had some good food and conversation." Nick replied as he placed his right hand on Justin's which were on the table.
"Where's Brad? I thought he was going with you guys." Justin asked not even reacting to Nick's touch.
"He had to bail cause he had some phone call to do." Nick replied innocently.
"How convenient!" Justin said harshly.
"Huh?" Nick ask shocked by Justin's reaction.
"I have to get a drink." Justin replied as he got up and snapped his hand away from Nick's. Justin walked sternly towards the bar and bumped hard into Rich who was walking the opposite way towards the booth. As soon as they collided Justin didn't even acknowledge him and kept walking towards the bar.
"Is he okay?" Rich asked of Nick as he got near the booth looking back towards Justin who was talking to one of the bartenders.
"Yeah, he's fine." Nick replied nonchalantly.
"That kind of hurt. He has a hard shoulder you know." Rich said meekly looking at Nick while rubbing his own shoulder.
"That's not the only thing that he has which is hard. He has a hard head too." Nick replied with a grimace.
"Oh..." Rich said not knowing what to say next. He looked back casually over his shoulder towards the dance floor. "Um...do you want to go dance?" Rich asked.
Nick shifted his gaze towards the sea of people enjoying their night and nodded. "Yeah, come let's have some fun." Nick replied getting out of the booth and walking towards the dance floor.
"Makes you wanna punch a hole right through a wall don't you?" Justin heard someone say to him as he stared angrily at the dance floor.
"What?" Justin said unconsciously as he looked towards the voice.
"Makes you jealous doesn't it?" Brian asked with a little nod towards the direction of Nick and Rich who were dancing with a couple of girls.
"I don't know what you mean." Justin replied as he turned around to face the bar again.
"Please, don't act like you don't see it. I hope you're not that blind." Brian said as he stepped closer to Justin. He leaned upon the bar and eyed the two blond youths that were dancing. "You know that our `Summer Boy' over there has a thing for your boy toy." Brian said with malice.
"They just went to a movie that's all." Justin said looking at the mirrors over the bar where he every once and awhile got a glimpse of his lover on the dance floor.
"And dinner I heard. He's pretty smooth. Dinner, a movie, and now clubbing. I wonder what else is going on?" Brian asked trying to get a reply from Justin but continued when Justin didn't. "That lyte funky one over there doesn't have a thing for the girl on tv. He has it for a certain blonde in a boy band which conveniently is the guy who's on the dance floor with him." Brian said with a sinister grin.
"What the fuck do you want Brian." Justin frustratedly yelled at Brian as he turned around to face him.
"Nothing man. Nothing." Brian replied bringing his hands up. "I'm just giving a little friendly advice. When it comes to our Nicky. I pretty much have had first dibs on everything."
"What are you talking about?" Justin asked.
"What you don't know?" Brian replied faking shock. "I can't believe he didn't tell you. Well, I should have guess...knowing Nick." Brian continued with an ever growing grin.
"What? Out with it Brian. What the hell don't I know?" Justin asked as his anger grew.
Brian turned his face momentarily to show his happiness before turning back to Justin with a sympathetic face. "I'm really sorry to burst your bubble here Justin but Nick's not so pure and innocent as you'd like to think. He's been used and I've gone around the block with him a few times."
"What!?" Justin yelled.
"Yeah, we were a couple. Nick has one sweet tight ass and sucks dicks like a hoover. Horny son of a bitch though, could never get enough. Had him on his knees half the time sucking my cock. Insatiable, I tell you. Wanted it every which way and hard too every time. Not very good on relationships but one hell of a workout." Brian told Justin.
"Don't fucking play with me Brian." Justin yelled as he grabbed onto Brian's shirt angrily.
"Hey, hey I'm just telling you how it is." Brian replied again bringing his hands up. "You know I'm telling the truth. You can't be Nick's dick without him giving you head. Man, I could still remember the workout he gave me on Thanksgiving. What I wouldn't give for his hot mouth on me right now." Brian continued.
"Fuck you, Brian." Justin screamed as he pushed Brian away and walked away from him.
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Nick followed Justin into their hotel room as Justin charged inside. As soon as Nick quietly closed the door he asked, "Justin, are you okay?" Nick said sincerely.
"I'm fine." Justin said not looking back at Nick as he took off his dress shoes and started to unbutton his dark blue silk button-down shirt.
"So you're fine." Nick said as he looked towards Justin who was speedily moving around the room. "You were fine when we left the club. Fine when we were in the limo. Fine when we got into the hotel. So I guess everything's fine?" Nick replied.
"Yeah everything's fine." Justin said spitefully before he walked into the bathroom and slammed the door.
"So everything's fine then." Nick said sarcastically as he sat on the side on the bed and took off his shoes and started to unbutton his own shirt.
It was a moment later that Justin burst back into the room. "No! Everything's not fine." Justin yelled.
"So what's the problem?" Nick replied raising his own voice and getting defensive.
"You! You're the problem." Justin said with anger in his eyes.
"Me?" Nick replied as his voice began to waver and his insides ache.
"Yes you! You're my problem." Justin repeated.
"I...what...what did...I..." Nick tried to say.
"You're making me look like a fool." Justin yelled. "You lie to me. You don't tell me the truth. It makes me look like an idiot."
"Justin..Justin I wouldn't..."
"Shut up, Nick. I don't want to hear it. I don't care right now." Justin yelled cutting him off. "How could you? How could you do this to me?" Justin asked.
"I didn't do anything. I don't know what I did." Nick said as tears were starting to form in his eyes.
"You were...you were with Brian. I mean you were a couple for years. How could you not tell me. I mean...ugh..." Justin said frustrated.
"It was...it was a long time ago." Nick replied. "It doesn't matter now." He added as a couple of tears fell down his slowly reddening cheek.
"What? How long Nick? How long...a month." Justin asked.
"It was over a year ago. We broke up last year." Nick answered.
"Yeah well how long since you've fucked him?" Justin asked as Nick was left speechless. "God Nick that was just like three months ago. That time...the time...during the time you said you were in love with me. How could you Nick?"
"I was confused." Nick replied as tears started to pour onto his face. "I didn't know. I was unsure you..."
"NO! No, don't you dare put this on me. This is not about me. This is about you."
"Justin please...please don't do this." Nick asked as he brought his hands up to his head slightly covering his ears. Nick couldn't look at Justin anymore as more and more tears fell down his reddened cheeks.
"Don't? Don't do what? Tell the truth. You made me look like a fool Nick. I felt stupid as I sat there listening to him tell me all these dirty things about you. Saying sick things about my...my...God, I can't even call you that right now. I put my trust on you. I trusted you and then you do this."
"Please...please...Justin..." Nick sobbed out.
"Fuck that Nick. I want to know. I want to know how you can fuck him when you knew you loved me." Justin kept yelling at Nick.
"Justin, don't do this...please...please..." Nick asked as he trembled.
"Answer me Nick. Answer me." Justin screamed at Nick.
Nick slowly got up from the side of the bed and walked up to Justin trembling. "Justin please...please..." Nick cried out as he gradually encircled his arms around Justin's chest.
"No...no..." Justin shook his head and tried to release himself from Nick's arms. "Don't touch me right now." Justin said as he pushed Nick away from him.
"Please...Justin..." Nick said as he stepped away from Justin. Nick tried to peer through his watery eyes but that only thing he could see was Justin's contempt. "I...I love you." Nick muttered out before running for the door and leaving the room.
Justin slowly closed his eyes as he felt a pain run through his body. "Oh Nick..." he quietly whispered as he opened his eyes again. He sluggishly backfooted himself onto the side of the bed and sat upon it. Justin then brought his right hand upon his face wiping off the tears that was now upon it. He then looked back up to the open door where Nick had only moments ran through. Justin once again closed his eyes trying to wipe off what had just happened.
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Justin stepped out of his hotel room wearing an open white robe over his baby blue boxers. As he walked down the corridor he tied it shut as beads of water fell down from his hair from his recent shower. He came upon the room two doors down from his and knocked lightly before the door opened. "Um...hi. Is Nick in there?" Justin asked timidly.
"Yeah, he is." Kevin replied as he stepped away to let Justin in.
"We...we had a fight." Justin quietly said as Nick came into view lying down in one of the beds.
"I figured as much." Kevin said. "He fell asleep after he cried."
A worried look passed through Justin's face. "I'm...I'm really sorry." Justin whispered as his gaze was focused on Nick's sleeping form.
"Let's talk in the hallway." Kevin said as he stepped back towards the door. Justin closely followed sneaking a look behind his shoulders at Nick before stepping back outside. Kevin closed the door to his hotel room quietly before looking back towards Justin. "What happened?" Kevin asked.
"I...I don't know. I was there waiting in the club and then Brian comes up to me." "God damn you Brian." Kevin commented. "It just happened so fast. Brian started to say some things...sick things. I guess, I...I just let Brian get to me. I just didn't expect..."
"Justin you can't let Brian do that." Kevin advised.
"I just didn't know they were...that they used to be..." Justin said.
"Justin, that's the past. You can't do anything about it now. Accept it and move on. So what if they were a couple, the only thing that matters is that Nick's with you. That's it. There's nothing more to it. Nick loves you and not Brian." Kevin said sternly.
"Yeah, it just took me off guard. And then Brian started to say all those things..."
"Don't let yourself fall into his trap. If you let Brian get to you he'll play you like a puppet. Justin, don't listen to him. Listen to your heart." Kevin admonished.
"Yeah." Justin said nodding his head. "It was our first fight you know." Justin said with a small smile.
"Well get over it and make-up with him." Kevin said as Justin made a move towards the door. Kevin, meanwhile, quickly held an arm out in front of Justin. "Don't do it again Justin. Once is enough. I don't want to see him cry like that again because of you." Kevin warned as his tone changed.
Justin nodded as he reached for the knob and opened the door. He made his way next to the bed cradling his lover. Justin brought his left arm under and around Nick's back and Justin's right arm under Nick's legs. With a little effort Justin was able to carry Nick off the bed. Almost instinctually Nick's arms went around Justin's neck as Justin smiled and placed a small kiss upon Nick's forehead. "Jus...Justin..." Nick mumbled with his eyes closed.
"Yes honey I'm here." Justin replied sweetly as he started walking out of Kevin's room.
"I'm...I'm sorry." Nick said falling deeper into sleep within Justin's arms.
"That's okay...I'm sorry too." Justin replied as he walked back into their room.
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Justin walked out groggily out of the hotel room in his white robe. He wanted to grab some breakfast to bring back to Nick. It was a prolonged night as Nick clutch onto him as tightly as he could. Every once and awhile Nick would wake up and check if he was still there and Justin felt more than obliged to comfort him. Justin finally realized that Nick was really frightened of losing him halfway through the night when he simply watched Nick sleep and tried to make sure of he was comfortable.
Justin closed the door quietly as to not wake-up Nick in the process. He even left a note on his pillow just in case Nick woke up abruptly. As he was walking towards Kevin's room a door in front of him opened. His mood made a turn for the worst as soon as he realize who the figure was. Justin tried to sidestep him but he moved in front of Justin's way. "Not even a goodmorning, Justin?"
"Goodmorning." Justin said annoyed.
"What's wrong Justin? Did you not have a good night?"
"It was fine." Justin replied with a hint of bitterness. "Now will you excuse me." Justin continued as he again tried to sidestep his harasser but he was once again blocked. Justin sighed as he knew he would not be able to get out of this soon.
"So where's Nick?" he asked.
"He's in our room sleeping." Justin answered plainly but received a flinch from the man in front of him.
"Did you talk to him?"
"If you mean did I talk to him about what you said last night the answer is yes. We're fine. We handled it. No big deal." Justin answered.
"Hey, I told you I wouldn't lie to you. I'm just trying to help you out."
"Thanks Brian for all the help." Justin answered sarcastically.
"No prob, I know Nick. He's one smooth operator. You really never know what's going on with him. Sure he's charming, sweet, and seem innocent but sometimes he can take you out blindsided. All those tears, those solemn faces, they're just work of a great actor. I wouldn't be surprised if he's cheating on you." Brian said with conviction.
"Fuck off, Brian." Justin replied harshly as he once again tried to sidestep Brian but again was stopped on his tracks.
"You know, Nick can put on the allure when he wants to and to whomever he wants. I've seen Rich and him when they're together. You know what I'm talking about cause you've seen it too. Rich is heads over heels in love with Nick and Nick's milking it for all its worth. Nick's not an angel Justin, he's a sexual predator. Acting coy and hurt but once you're in his sights you've already fallen into the trap. Nick's a cheater and a manipulator, Justin." Brian continued his attack of words.
"Fuck you Brian, leave me alone." Justin said finally fed up with the situation. He pushed Brian off to the side and made his way to Kevin's room.
"You'll see Justin. You'll realize that what I'm saying is true." Brian yelled after Justin. Justin, meanwhile, didn't even take a look back but entered Kevin's room as soon as he reached it. "There's a lot more skeletons in Nick's closet Justin. A lot more you don't know." Brian whispered to himself. "I will have you." Brian added as an afterthought as he turned towards the closed door.
To be continued...