Does He Love Me

Does he Love Me? By Adam Stewart

Author's note: Ben first appears in the story 'Blind Love' where he ruins a perfect relationship. This is Ben's story.

Warning: It contains explicit m/m sex.

My early life was far from happy. My father drank like a fish and wasn't the slightest bit interested in me and because he'd made my mother pregnant during one of his drunken bouts, he'd married her under duress. As such they didn't really love each other and my mother saw me as a burden. When I was diagnosed as having a hearing defect, she was even less interested in me. I was completely deaf in one ear and only had partial hearing in the other but as the years passed, that too became less and less although with an aid I did have some hearing in that ear.

Within five years of me being born, my parents had another child. He had everything working normally so I was pushed to one side and left to my own devices. My mother seemed to dote on my little brother who once old enough to realise his older brother was deaf, used to bully and push me around. But when I was thirteen and moved to a new school I met Lee. We immediately became good friends. Even at school I was bullied because most boys thought me stupid because I couldn't hear what they were saying but Lee always stood up for me and told them where to get off. I loved Lee from the moment we met and when in later years we both realised we were gay, that was the final thing that made us perfect soul mates. I spent hours at his house since I hated my own home and his parents were always so kind to me. I loved them more than my own parents.

When I was sixteen I came out to my parents. It wasn't intentional but somehow happened during one of the many arguments I had with them. Neither knew sign language so I had to lip read what they were saying and shout as best I could to make my own words understood. When they realised I was not only deaf but also gay, that was the end. They suddenly announced one day they were moving away from Southampton where we lived and that I was not going with them. They upped and left with my younger brother and left me to make my own way in the world. Lee's parents immediately took me into their house and from thereon I shared a bed with the guy I loved. Lee's parents had sussed their only son as being gay long before and had no problems at all with his sexuality. All they wanted was for him to be happy and if that meant having me sleep in the same bed as him under their roof then so be it.

We were both almost seventeen by then and had plans to go to university if we achieved good results at school. Since I'd had to spend so many years on my own, I read everything that I could find. I had a passion for history and excelled in the subject. I was also good at most other things and frequently helped Lee with his work. We were a team and he learnt sign language so I knew what the teachers were saying and everybody else for that matter. I'd also learnt to lip read so provided people spoke clearly I knew exactly what they were saying, often without them realising.

We both achieved top grades in our exams at school and knew we could both go to university if we wanted.

"I'm going to read history" I announced to Lee and his parents once we'd got our results. His parents were delighted and gave me a big hug. They treated me as their second son and I called them mum and dad since my own had abandoned me.

"If Ben is going to do history, what are you going to read Lee?" his dad asked.

"I'll do the same" he replied grinning at me.

"But I didn't think you were that interested in history"

"I've got no real idea of what else I want to do and history is as good as anything; don't you want me to stay with you Ben, or have you had enough of me?" he laughed.

"Don't be daft, I love you Lee, you know that" I replied and pulled him into a big hug and a kiss. His parents were well used to us kissing and cuddling so they were never bothered. "I'd love us to study together" I added once I'd kissed him.

"That's settled then" he chuckled, "It means I can be your official interpreter".

I had thought of that but hadn't liked to mention it. I knew it was possible to get an interpreter whilst at university but to have the guy I loved with me the whole time was beyond my dreams.

Over the next few days we submitted our applications to Southampton University since we knew they did a good history course. Within a few weeks our places were accepted. The next decision was where to live since we both felt we wanted to move out of Lee's home to give ourselves some freedom. Lee's parents were very nice and didn't mind what we got up to but we wanted our freedom. The problem was being local lads the chances of getting rooms on campus was pretty unlikely.

Lee's dad knew of our dilemma and fully understood our need to go independent. He then came up with a perfect solution. He knew of a flat in an old block in Southampton that was going cheap because it needed doing up. He offered to put down the deposit and act as a guarantor for the mortgage company. Lee and I both had part-time jobs. He worked for a publishing company plus he did the programming for the guy who designed computer games. I'd managed to get a job teaching sign language at a school for the deaf so between us we brought in sufficient income to pay the mortgage. Since the flat had been empty for some while, the purchase went through in record time. Lee's dad, being experienced at such things, also managed to negotiate a substantial reduction on the asking price which was brilliant because it enabled us to have the bathroom refurbished. Lee and I chose what we wanted from a bathroom supplier where we got a good deal and then asked a gay plumber we knew to install it provided we acted as his mate. We were happy to do that.

Within a period of two weeks we'd had the new bathroom installed and redecorated the whole place including the fitting of new carpets and a new floor in the kitchen. The kitchen itself was in reasonable condition once it had been given a good clean and redecorated. When all was done we bought the basic furniture we required using some money Lee had saved over the years. I had nothing to speak of but said I'd give my contribution in kind which consisted of lots of fucks!

The first night we spent in our new pad was just brilliant and we were so happy. We also made sure we had a good long fuck that night making as much noise as we wanted since we no longer had to worry about mum and dad in the room along the corridor.

The start of college arrived and we got stuck into our studies. I in particular noticed the difference from school and found everyone really helpful. No longer did I have to endure stupid remarks or bullying from ignorant bastards who couldn't understand what it was like to be profoundly deaf. Lee was brilliant and signed all the lectures which the other students found really interesting until they got used to him waving his hands around beside me. I could also lip read most lecturers so with the signing and my hearing aid we managed quite well.

Life on our own was certainly different. We now had to fend for ourselves but we were both good at cooking so took it in turns to prepare meals. We also enjoyed inviting friends round and even met more gay friends at university which resulted in a few threesomes. I'd always been interested in art and often sketched Lee when he was lazing on the sofa. On one particular night he was lying their naked since we both enjoyed stripping off and showing all.

"Keep still" I giggled, "I'm doing a nude drawing of you". Lee rather fancied that idea so adopted a seductive pose. After several attempts it came out well so we framed it and hung it on our bedroom wall. I then persuaded other guys to pose for me and was surprised how many were willing to strip off and be sketched naked.

"Do you still love me Ben?" Lee signed after we'd been in the flat for several months.

"Of course I do; what kind of question is that; you know I do" I laughed and pulled him into my arms. We'd just finished clearing up after our evening meal and were relaxing naked on the sofa finishing off our beers.

"Just want to be sure you're still happy and love me" he signed, then grinned and felt my cock. I pulled him into a passionate kiss to show him how much I loved him.

I'd noticed ever since I'd known him that he constantly needed reassurance that I loved him. Perhaps I didn't tell him enough that I did but deep down I thought he was the most wonderful guy in the world. The only thing I would have liked was more variety when it came to sex and to go to a gay bar every so often. There weren't many in Southampton and only one gay club called The Edge. I did manage to get Lee there on a few occasions whilst we were at university but not often and I actually got him to go to the one and only gay sauna a couple of times but I could tell he didn't particularly like it.

"Perhaps I should take you to bed and show you" I giggled as I went down on him. He loved having his cock sucked so he lay back and let me have full reign. When he was nice and hard I led him by the hand into the bedroom and told him to lie on his back. "Am gonna fuck that arse of yours until you beg me to stop" I laughed. He grinned and pulled his legs up over his head to expose all. We'd never used protection between ourselves so it was a simple case of lubricating my long thick shaft and pushing it into the gorgeous hole now on show.

"Fuck, that feels so good" he exclaimed. I only had to look at his face to know what he was saying since his hands were still holding his legs. I teased him by pulling right out, grinning at him and then plunging back in. I managed to keep this going for almost twenty minutes before I knew I had to reach my climax. I stuffed my cock back in and fucked him like mad until I'd shot my load. Once finished I collapsed on top of him and we kissed. Tongues flitted in and out like wildfire and I could feel his erection pressing against my stomach. I moved up, lubricated it and guided it into me. I then rode him like a stallion until I could feel his hot cum shooting inside me.

It was hard work doing our part-time jobs, keeping up with course work and doing the everyday things you have to do when you are independent. No longer did we have a mum to cook, clean or wash for us so it all had to be fitted in. But somehow we did and life throughout the time we were at university was in some respects the best I've ever had. At last we came to the end of our course, sat our exams and by some miracle both achieved top marks. We walked away having both achieved a good degree. The question now was how we used them.

I was still doing my teaching job and Lee was still working at the publishing company. Suddenly out of the blue the university invited me to join their staff and teach first grade history and do some research work which I always enjoyed. It meant I had to give up my other teaching job but the pay was good so I accepted. Within a week of me accepting that, Lee was offered a full-time job with the publishing firm so he decided to accept it. He was still not sure what he really wanted to do with his life and he was still doing the programming work which brought in lump sums once the games had been marketed. Even so, he seemed happy enough so we settled into our working routines.

We'd both reached our twenty second birthdays and thought life couldn't get better than this, but then I fucked it all up.

A new guy called Cory joined the research team where I worked and he immediately latched onto me. He was eighteen and made it clear he was gay. Since I'd never hidden my sexuality he knew I was too. He wasn't bad looking and had a nice body on him so it was difficult not to like him. He would invite me out after work for a drink and for some stupid reason I kept it all secret from Lee. One day when I let slip that Lee was going to be late home from work Cory invited me back to where he lived which was on the other side of town from where Lee and I lived.

He had a bedsit with a small kitchen and bathroom which seemed nice enough. He was good fun to be with and I suppose I was excited at the thought of having sex with an eighteen year-old because I knew that was why he'd invited me back. He had a way about him that pulled you in without you realising it and before I could say anything he had me stripped naked on the bed. He too had stripped off so I could now see his body which was pretty hot. He also had a cock to die for and I wanted it inside me. I did insist on him using protection but the way he fucked me was like nothing I'd ever experienced before. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed sex with Lee but this was different which was what I wanted; just variation from our usual routine.

Cory introduced me to all kinds of positions and sex toys and I was hooked. Having had hot sex with him I'd go home and take Lee into my arms, kiss him and hug him as if that would wash away what I knew was wrong but there was nothing I could do to stop myself. Cory provided what I'd yearned for in the way of sexual excitement. I still loved Lee and in no way loved Cory but somehow he bewitched me and I went along with whatever he wanted. As the weeks progressed he frequently took me back to his place. We also went to the gay sauna one evening having told Lee that I had to attend something at college. He never once doubted me since we'd always been honest with each other. When I got home from being with Cory I would feel so ashamed but I was caught hook line and sinker.

Then that terrible day arrived. Lee had said he was attending a computer games conference with the guy for whom he programmed. He said he'd probably be late back. I must have let this slip to Cory because before I knew what was happening he was coming back to our flat. Almost as soon as we were inside the front door he was chucking off his clothes and starting to strip me. I managed to get him into the bedroom and our clothes were strewn over the floor in his rush to get me naked. He loved sniffing poppers and I too had become partial to them. Lee and I had never taken drugs of any kind so this was another area of excitement for me. He said he wanted to imagine what it was like not being able to hear my groans and moans as he fucked me so I suggested he used Lee's WiFi earphones and listen to some music. Cory loved heavy beat music so he turned it up loud although only he could hear it through the earphones. He told me to lift my legs up high over my head whilst he proceeded to fuck me. He was well endowed and I loved the feel of his cock up my arse so I quickly obliged.

How long he fucked me for I've no idea and as usual I'd closed my eyes. Suddenly I was conscious of him being pulled off me and thrown to the floor. I opened my eyes and was horrified to see Lee standing there. I froze and watched him pick up Cory's clothes and throw them out of the window. Our flat was on the fourth floor so I knew he'd have a long way down to retrieve them. Lee then literally dragged Cory's naked body out the door into the hallway. All I could hear was shouting from both of them and was then conscious of the front door being opened. I pictured Cory being thrown outside onto the landing stark naked. I later found out that Lee had also thrown his jacket and shoes down the open stairwell so he had nothing to cover his nudity. As he ran down the stairs Cory said that Lee shouted abuse at him which caused several neighbours to open their front door to see what was going on. All they saw was a naked guy running down the stairs.

When Lee returned to the bedroom I tried to say how sorry I was but he was beyond listening to what I had to say for myself. We had the most horrendous row with both of us signing back and forth. I could see he was heartbroken and so was I but somewhere along the way I'd said I'd been seeing Cory for several weeks and Lee assumed I was in love with Cory and not him. He told me our relationship was over and I watched him pack a bag.

"I'm going to stay with mum and dad for a couple of nights but when I get back I want you gone" he shouted and signed. I gasped since I couldn't believe our wonderful relationship was over. I pleaded with him but he wouldn't listen and to be honest I couldn't blame him. I tried to put myself in his position and came up with the same conclusion.

"Where am I going to go?" I pleaded as he continued to pack his bag.

"Go and stay with that fucker" he shouted. He didn't need to sign that since I knew what he was saying.

I watched him go and I cried. In fact I cried for the rest of that night and into the morning until I was so exhausted that I collapsed into bed. When I woke up I realised I was late for work so rang and said I was feeling ill. It was no lie because I was. I sent numerous text messages to Lee saying how sorry I was but he never replied. I called Cory and told him what had happened. He laughed and wasn't the slightest bit embarrassed at having been thrown out stark naked and having to go downstairs for all to see. In fact I got the feeling he'd enjoyed it. When I explained that Lee had told me to leave the flat he immediately told me to move in with him, so that's what I did. I packed my things and made my way over to Cory.

I sent more text messages and emails to Lee and he did eventually respond saying I'd broken his heart and he couldn't continue our relationship. I made vague attempts to bring us back together again but Cory now had me well and truly under his control so I did what he wanted and let our beautiful relationship fade away. One day Lee emailed to say the flat was on the market since he couldn't afford the mortgage payment on his own. I thought about speaking to his mum and dad who I loved dearly but didn't have the balls to do so. Cory told me he'd look after me and say fuck to all of them, so I did. The flat was sold and Lee again emailed me to ask if I wanted any of the furniture but I didn't have the courage to say yes. Instead I let him have everything although what happened to it I've no idea. I did find out much later that he'd suffered several months of depression and I felt so sorry that I'd caused that to happen. I then found out that he'd moved away from Southampton and gone to Brighton. By then Cory had told me not to make any contact and like a fool I did what he wanted.

Within a fairly short time I realised what a terrible mistake I'd made by moving in with Cory. He became more and more controlling. He was sex mad and would drive us out to known cruising grounds and find guys for sex. Sometimes he'd bring them home and make me watch him fuck them. He'd laugh all the time as I watched on and he'd get me to take photographs of them at it without the guy knowing since he'd blindfold them so they couldn't see what was happening. He'd then publish them on the net using different names so they could never be traced back to him. When he found out that I was good at art and had drawn guys in the nude, he made me draw him whilst he was having sex with guys. These too would go on the net for all to see but somehow nobody ever found out it was him.

He loved going to the sauna and he'd fuck whoever was around or offer himself up for group sex in the public dark room. He'd kneel up and invite guys to stuff their cocks into him irrespective of whether they used protection or not. Somehow I managed to always get him to use protection when he was fucking me although there were occasions when he forced me to fuck him raw. I made sure I was tested regularly though.

After about a year, he suddenly became violent towards me if I tried to resist his mad schemes. He'd punch my body and bruise me or he'd fuck me so hard that my arse felt it was splitting and in pain. In the end I couldn't stand anymore so I went to the police. Fortunately the officer who saw me was very understanding and sympathetic. I made a claim of domestic violence and a doctor examined me. The evidence was clear to see so they had no doubt I was telling the truth. They returned to our home and arrested him. He swore at me and said he'd get me for what I'd done and that I'd deserved all I got because I wouldn't do what he wanted. He more or less dropped himself right in it since all that came out in court when he eventually appeared in front of the magistrate. I had to give evidence and it was the worst moment of my life. I so wanted to contact Lee but I just couldn't.

Whilst he was being held at the police station I hastily packed my things and moved out of his bedsit. The police put me in contact with an organisation that was able to provide safe accommodation. All seemed well for several months. Cory had been given a suspended sentence, community service and fined heavily. I never saw him around for a while but suddenly one night when I was leaving work late he grabbed hold of me just outside the college entrance. He punched me but the police had given me a personal attack alarm so I used it and he jumped back when it screamed in his face. I hastily ran back into the college and called the police. The stupid idiot even tried to follow me but he didn't get past the security guy who manned the entrance. He'd also been caught on CCTV so the police had footage of what had taken place. He was arrested and charged with assault. He was eventually given a hefty fine and a restraining order to keep away from me otherwise he'd be put in prison. By this time he'd lost his job at the university.

Even so I didn't feel safe so decided on the spur of the moment to go round to Lee's parents. I so wanted to see them and explain everything in the hope that I might be able to get back with Lee but whether they would want to see me after what I'd done, I had no idea. By pure chance Lee's dad was just arriving home as I reached their road. He immediately recognised me and stopped the car.

"Oh my god, whatever has happened to you Ben?" he gasped. He opened the car door and told me to get in. As soon as I did the floodgates opened and I burst into tears. He drove me to the house and took me in. When Lee's mum saw me she gasped and came running to see me.

"Oh Ben, whatever has happened?"

I spent the next hour telling them the whole story, right from how I'd been bewitched by Cory, how Lee had found us in bed, although they knew that bit, plus how Cory had become violent, been found guilty of domestic violence and assaulted me outside the college. They listened without any sign of disgust or hate towards me even though they knew I'd broken their son's heart. "I'm so sorry" I wailed with yet more tears pouring down my face.

The woman I'd always called mum rushed over to me and held me tight. "It's okay Ben, you're safe now" she said caressing my back whilst Lee's dad quietly went to the drink's cabinet and poured out a brandy.

"Here son, drink this; I think you need it". I took the glass and sipped it. Although I wasn't used to drinking brandy it tasted good and calmed me down. I couldn't believe that these two wonderful people were taking it all so calmly after what I'd done.

"I'm so sorry" I said again, "I so wish I could make it all go away and be back with Lee again. I love him; I always did; I never loved Cory but Lee wouldn't believe me."

"You can't undo what you've done Ben" dad said, "All you can do is live with your mistakes and make sure you don't make them again."

I then looked at mum. "You don't need me to tell you Ben that you broke Lee's heart; he loved you so much and worshipped the ground you stood on, that's why he had to walk away from your relationship; it would have pained him too much to let it continue and I doubt he'd have ever got over it."

I felt more tears forming in my eyes. Although I knew she was right it wasn't what I wanted to know. "Do you think he's forgiven me?" I asked.

"Only he can tell you that" dad replied.

"Is there any chance of seeing him do you think; does he come home often?" I was desperate and prepared to go on my knees to beg for his forgiveness if necessary. If there was one thing I did know about the guy I still loved it was that he was a kind, loving man and I couldn't believe he'd not let me say how sorry I was even though I knew in my heart he'd never have me back in his life as much as I wanted that to be the case.

"You're in luck" dad replied, "he's coming home for a few days later this week. I suggest you come round on Friday evening after work. If I know my son, he'll speak to you; what happens after that is up to you and him".

I gasped. I couldn't believe what I was hearing and nodded my agreement. I was conscious of mum telling dad that perhaps it would be best not to tell Lee about my visit until he was here. I saw him nod in agreement.

"I'd better go; thank you for listening" I said and started to get up.

"You're staying here young man" mum said gently pressing me down onto the chair, "You're in no fit state to go home on your own and you look as if you haven't had a decent meal for weeks."

I looked at dad and he smiled. "Have a meal with us and stay the night son; tomorrow you can decide what you want to do."

More tears welled up in my eyes and I mouthed a thank you.

The next morning I felt better. I'd been fed and watered and I'd had a good night's sleep. Perhaps that was something to do with the fact that I'd slept in the room Lee and I had shared before we became independent so I'd felt his presence. Mum drove me to work and made me promise to call them each day until I'd spoken to Lee. I did just that and the mere fact of having them there for me got me through the days. I knew in my heart that Lee wouldn't let me back into his life but the hope was there. What I wanted to do more than anything else was say how sorry I was and try and make him understand what had happened.

The days seemed to drag by until the Friday evening but eventually it was time for me to go and see him, assuming that he was prepared to do so because he might still tell me to fuck off. I left work early, rushed home, showered and changed so I looked my best although I still had a bruised face from Cory's punch and I'd lost a lot of weight so was nothing like the Ben that Lee had known and loved. His dad answered the door and he kissed me lightly on the cheek. He gave me the thumbs up sign which I took to mean that Lee was prepared to see me. As I walked in I saw his mum standing in the kitchen. She smiled as if to say 'good luck'. God I certainly needed it since my heart was in my mouth. I'd rehearsed over and over again what I was going to say when I saw Lee. As I walked into the living room he was standing waiting for me. He smiled and then looked shocked at the state of me. I didn't blame him because I looked and felt like shit. I rushed over to him and he opened his arms like he'd done so many times before. I buried my head into his shoulder and cried.

I think I said "I'm so sorry Lee, I really am" but to be honest the words were just rushing out amongst odd signing onto his hand. I know I launched into what I'd planned to say which was much the same as I'd told his mum and dad and I was also conscious that he was holding me tenderly and caressing my back like old times. When I'd finished I looked into his eyes and he smiled at me before gently kissing me. I think he said he forgave me but to be honest I'm not sure. The words that did stick in my mind, because by now he had his arm round me and was signing these quite clearly, was that he was still very fond of me and in an odd kind of way he still loved me but he'd moved on and met someone else. My heart sank and then he indicated another guy sitting at the other end of the room. His name was Simon and when I went to shake his hand Lee explained that Simon was blind and that they were getting married. My heart sank some more but I tried to show that I was happy for them and when he said I could attend the wedding and be his witness I immediately said yes. At least it meant I'd be in touch with the guy I still loved and who still loved me even though we couldn't get back together.

Mum invited me to stay for a meal during which time I got to know Simon and his guide dog Rudy. Simon was a lovely guy and by the time I eventually left to go home I was happy that Lee had found someone else to love even if I had nobody. As I made my way home I played over in my mind how Lee had behaved towards me. Despite everything he still loved me and he'd taken on another guy who needed him every bit as much as I had done for all those years, and still did for that matter but that was never going to happen. Even so it made me feel happier than I'd felt for a very long time. All I now had to do was find someone to love!

Over the two months leading up to Lee and Simon's wedding things slowly got back to normal. Lee's parents told me to go over to them whenever I wanted so I went at least once a week and often twice. Sometimes I'd sleep over using our old room and I felt so happy there. I could still smell his scent around the place and it always brought back happy memories but I knew that was all they'd be.

I decided to write Lee a letter and once again say how sorry I was that I'd fucked everything up between us and that I'd never stop loving him or forget his kindness towards me for all those years but I was happy that he'd found someone else to love and wished both of them a long and happy life together. Whilst at it I also sent his mum and dad a card to thank them for being so understanding and to say that I did still love Lee and fully understood that things had to move on but that I valued their love for me and would never forget their kindness towards me.

Lee's mum was overcome with emotion when I next saw her. "I just so hope Lee doesn't regret the separation between you because you were both so much in love and I get the feeling still are" she said as she held me in her arms.

I'm sure he won't" I replied trying to console her, "From what I've seen Simon is a lovely guy and they are well suited; as Lee says, we've both moved on but knowing that he still has strong feelings for me is more than I hoped for."

Eventually the wedding was upon us. I'd been out and bought a new suit and a smart white shirt although I decided not to wear a tie and hoped the others would adopt the same dress code. Having spoken to others who'd been to weddings it seemed ties were not an obligatory item anymore.

Lee's parents were driving to Brighton so they invited me to join them which I readily accepted. Simon had paid for us all to stay two nights in the smart hotel where the reception was to be held so we travelled on the Thursday afternoon since the wedding was on the Friday. I'd never been to Brighton so was interested to see the place. Although I'd not had any sight of Cory again I didn't feel that safe living in Southampton so frequently thought about moving away. I liked Brighton but decided it was probably not a good idea to move there with Lee so close.

The wedding ceremony was late morning on the Friday to be followed by a lunch reception at the hotel so early that morning I grabbed a taxi to go to Lee and Simon's house since they wanted me to help them get ready. I'd asked if they were planning a stag night but both said they weren't having one.

When the taxi pulled up outside a smart house in Preston Park I couldn't believe my eyes. I looked at the high brick walls and the wrought iron gate and thought this must be wrong but it was definitely the address Lee had given me. It was clearly very upmarket. I pressed the intercom at the gate and Lee's cheery voice told me to come on in. The gate opened and by the time I'd walked up the paved drive he was standing at the front door.

"Hi gorgeous" he grinned and opened his arms to give me a hug. I felt so happy since I hadn't been too sure what kind of reception I would get even though we'd left on good terms at his parents' house. It was almost like the old days except he was marrying another instead of me.

"Simon is upstairs trying to get ready so come on up and give us a hand" he giggled. I followed him up the stairs and admired the decor. It all looked very expensive and although Lee had commented that Simon was reasonably well off I hadn't expected anything quite like this. Lee had certainly done well for himself and I was happy for him.

When we reached the main bedroom I found Simon standing in his briefs. I silently gasped as I admired his beautiful body which was even more so naked, or almost, than fully clothed. Lee grinned when he saw me taking in the sight.

"Hi Ben" Simon said turning round to face me. My eyes immediately dropped down to his crotch so it was just as well he couldn't see me. "I'm all fingers and thumbs and can't seem to do anything today; could you help me please."

I looked at Lee who just grinned as he buttoned up his own shirt and tucked it into his trousers so I immediately jumped forward to help Simon. They were both wearing the same outfit which consisted of a pink frilly shirt, black trousers and jacket and I was pleased to see that they too were not wearing a tie. Once I'd got Simon dressed and all decent, I fixed a pink carnation into his buttonhole. I picked one out for my own jacket and also fixed one onto Lee's. When I'd done that, he leaned forward and kissed me.

"I've got a pink bow for Rudy" I giggled. "Must have him looking smart and I'll fix a carnation onto his harness". The other two laughed and when Lee saw I'd also made up a small sign to put on the harness to cover the bit that said 'guide dog', he gave me another kiss having told Simon what I'd done. The sign said 'congratulations to Simon and Lee from Rudy'

Finally we were ready to leave and shortly afterwards the taxi arrived to take us to the Registry Office where we were to meet everyone else.

Simon's witness was a guy called Jack. He was a year older than me and much the same height which was a fraction shorter than Lee. As soon as I was introduced to him my heart stopped. He was gorgeous. As I shook his hand I suddenly realised that he too was blind although I later found out that he did have very minimal sight in one eye but all he could pick out were shadows. Unlike Simon, his blind eye looked different to the other so on closer inspection it was obvious he was blind. He didn't have a guide dog and used a stick instead. It seemed Jack and Simon had met whilst being matched for guide dogs and during that time they had a brief fling together. Jack hadn't got on with his dog so it went back and since he lived in a flat in London he decided having a dog was not such a good idea after all.

As soon as I met Jack I knew I liked him and I had a feeling he liked me too. When Simon explained that I was profoundly deaf Jack immediately started to sign. Okay he was not perfect but it was better than nothing. I also found out later that I could use tactile signing on his hand when I needed to communicate if I didn't or couldn't make myself understood. Although I had limited hearing in one ear when I used my aid, I often couldn't judge how loud my voice was or how the words were coming out. That was one of the many reasons I'd been bullied at school because other boys thought I was stupid. Simon had also employed a signer for the day especially for me bless him, so wherever I went he went and signed what people said when I needed assistance.

Whilst Lee and Simon went off with the Registrar to deal with formalities, Jack and I gathered the guests together and got them seated. There weren't that many so it was not that difficult and the only people I knew were Lee's mum and dad. The others were friends or work colleagues of Lee and Simon but everyone was very nice and excited.

Finally the Registrar appeared and stood at the front. A few moments later the happy couple walked down the aisle towards him being led by Rudy. We all turned and people chuckled when they saw Rudy's pink bows and the placard I'd placed on the harness. He then sat obediently beside Simon once they reached the front and the Registrar commenced.

It was a beautiful ceremony and whilst the couple made their vows to each other I kept on thinking it should me standing there beside the guy I so loved but I'd fucked up and as a result it was someone else. The only saving grace was that Simon was a lovely guy and I knew he loved Lee as much as I did and needed him just as much.

Eventually my signer signed the words 'I now pronounce you husband and husband' and the guests applauded. As I watched Lee and Simon kiss my heart sank yet again as I suddenly realised that this really was the end unless Simon did something terrible to fuck up the relationship like I had but the chances of that happening from what I had seen of him was one in a million. Tears filled my eyes and I couldn't decide whether they were of joy for the happy couple or for my own regrets. As Lee's dad had said, I'd have to live with what I'd done for the rest of my life but hopefully learn from my mistake and that was what I intended to do provided I was given a second chance with someone else.

Suddenly I was aware of Jack patting my leg to indicate that it was time for us to follow the newly married couple out of the room. Having been brought out of my daze I hastily stood up. The other guests then followed and we made our way outside. The hotel where the reception was being held was just a few minutes' walk along the road so Simon had said there was no point in arranging transport since the weather for once was set fine. In fact it was a beautiful sunny day.

Once in the hotel and Jack and I had ushered all the guests to the room where we were to start off with champagne, I went up to Lee and Simon to give them my best wishes. Lee could tell I was sad but happy, if that makes sense, and he took me into his arms before giving me a big long hard kiss.

"I do still love you Ben, you know that don't you" he signed onto my hand as we kissed. I nodded and did my best for my tears not to show. I then hugged and kissed Simon and wished him all happiness.

"Now you make sure you look after him" I teased him, "He means a lot to me". Simon grinned and nodded.

After a while Jack came to find me to say the meal was ready to be served so we ushered everyone into the dining room next door. Place names had been laid out so everyone knew where to sit. I sat on Lee's left and Jack on Simon's right at the top table. The other tables had been placed in a semi circle in front of us so everybody could see us and each other. The guy signing sat on the end nearest to me so I could see him since nobody else required his services. Lee's parents sat beside him so were also nearest to me which I found comforting.

The meal was divine and throughout it the signer didn't have to do anything so just enjoyed a free meal. Once the meal was over, I stood up to start the speeches. I first explained by signing that because I was deaf, my signer would speak my actual words. Those not used to such an arrangement found it odd to start with since the voice was coming from him yet the words were coming from me. I then signed the messages from well wishers who were not present before giving my speech. I started with saying how I'd met Lee at school when we were both thirteen.

"This guy here is the most wonderful person you could ever wish to meet; he's kind, considerate and loving. He looked after me and protected me for years from the school bullies often taking the kicks and punches that were meant for me but he never complained. When I said I was going to university to study history he immediately agreed to do the same course so that he could continue looking after me and signing for me. That in my view is total dedication and I shall never forget what he's done for me."

I then paused and looked at Lee for a few moments before continuing. "Some of you here will know that Lee and I were devoted to each other and in some respects it should have been me standing beside him at the marriage ceremony but I fucked up our relationship and quite rightly he ended it. I want to say publicly to you again Lee that I am so sorry for what I did but as you know I still love you and will always do so. However, you found Simon and to be honest I can't blame you for falling in love with him because from the short time I've known him he is a loving, caring guy, apart of course from being damned good looking (this caused everyone to chuckle) and I'm one hundred per cent certain that you'll give him the same level of love and protection that you gave me all those years so I'm very happy for both of you and wish you both a long and happy life together."

I then asked everyone to be upstanding and to toast Lee and Simon and there followed loud cheers and applause. I sat down feeling drained but I'd said what I knew I had to say so that I could move on with my life. I'd loved the years we'd been together and I knew I would never forget them but I had now to find someone else to love as he had done. Lee then turned to me and kissed me on the cheek. "Thank you my love that was a beautiful speech" he signed.

It was then Jack's turn to stand up and give his speech.

"Fuck, how the hell do I follow that" he exclaimed and everyone laughed. He then proceeded to explain how he'd met Simon whilst they were both being matched for a guide dog at the association's training centre and even mentioned the brief fling they'd had together but since then they'd been good friends. "Whereas Simon found joy in having Rudy, I decided a guide dog was not for me, especially in a flat in London but seeing the relationship Simon has with Rudy it strikes me Lee that you're entering into a threesome." This caused everyone to roar with laughter, especially the gays. He then thanked the guests for coming and making it such a special day for the happy couple before Simon stood up to say a few words.

"I'd just like to say that from the moment I met Lee I knew he was the guy for me. As Ben put so beautifully, Lee is the most wonderful guy I've ever met and I can confirm that he is a loving, caring guy who has turned my life round. Before he came along I'd resigned myself to live a lonely existence because living with a blind person is not easy to say the least but Lee has this wonderful ability to make you feel wanted and special whatever your disability so I can well understand how Ben felt having Lee at his side for all those years but one thing I can promise you Ben is that I will love and take care of this special guy to my utmost ability."

By now most of the guests were dabbing the tears from their eyes because Simon's speech was very moving. Before finishing he then turned to Lee's parents and thanked them for raising such a wonderful son and said they must feel very proud of him. He then proposed a toast to Lee's mum and dad and I could see both were feeling very emotional. I briefly thought of my parents and how they'd react to such a speech. One thing was for certain, they were the losers, not me.

When Simon sat down, Lee turned to him and gave him a big wet kiss. He had tears pouring down his face and I couldn't blame him. As I watched I was suddenly aware of the guests shouting "speech, speech" wanting Lee to say something. From what I'd been told earlier Lee had not planned to say anything since he didn't think he was good at such things but he stood up and faced everyone for a moment in silence.

"Well, how do I follow three wonderful speeches like that? However, I'd like to say I too fell in love with Simon as soon as I set eyes on him because as Ben said, Simon is absolutely gorgeous." This caused a ripple of laughter throughout the room and several nods of the head again. "I'd like to thank him for making me so happy and I'd like to thank both Ben and Jack for being with us to see us tie the knot because I know for you Ben it can't have been easy and for that I am truly grateful and love you to bits for allowing me to move on. But finally I'd like to thank my mum and dad because they've supported me throughout the years through thick and thin and the ups and downs. Unlike some parents, they accepted my sexuality without question and they supported me with everything I ever wanted to do. So thanks mum and dad because I'd never have got this far without your love and support."

Lee's mum blew a kiss to her son and I could see tears of joy running down her face. I also owed them so much and probably didn't express my love to them enough but that was something else I would put right.

Finally the wedding cake had been cut and more champagne served with yet more toasts for the happy couple being proposed by Jack. Eventually the guests dispersed; some were meeting up with us at the gay bar that evening and others were going home. Lee's parents said they'd leave the young ones to enjoy themselves at the gay bar so made their leave saying they'd see those of us who were staying over at breakfast the following morning.

Lee and Simon went off to their room for a rest before the evening gathering, and if I guessed right would no doubt be jumping into bed for something else. Jack then took my arm and whispered, "Fancy coming back to my room?" I grinned, and whispered "Yes". The guy who signed for me had thankfully gone by this time. Since our rooms were on the same corridor I quickly went into mine, stripped off my suit and fancy shirt, grabbed my evening clobber and slipped on a bath robe before following Jack into his room.

As soon as we were inside, he too stripped off his suit but continued until he was stark naked. I gave an audible gasp. The guy naked was even more stunning than I'd reckoned and he had a cock to die for. Even flaccid it was big and I reckoned once it was hard it must be not far off eight inches. In addition it was thick so I was looking forward to receiving that in due course.

Having hastily stripped off my remaining clothes we fell into each other's arms and made love. For several minutes we took it in turns to stand whilst the other kissed and licked up and down our naked body taking a cock into our mouth on our way down. His was so large that in no way could I get the whole length in but I did my best which seemed to satisfy him. Having done this for a while, he told me to kneel up on the bed and open my legs out wide. I did so and felt my heart race with excitement. I loved being rimmed. I felt his hot tongue lick across my hole teasing it before gently pressing two well lubricated fingers inside. Where the lube suddenly appeared from I had no idea but if felt just wonderful. He knew precisely where to press and cause me to moan and groan with pleasure and as he did so he stretched my hole nice and wide because to take his big cock, it needed to be.

"Fuck me, please" I pleaded over and over again until I felt the head of his large head pressing up against my entrance. I had no idea whether or not he'd used a condom but to be honest I didn't care. All I wanted was to feel his hot cock inside me. I'd not had penetrative sex since leaving Cory and that was almost a year ago. Since then I'd been tested several times so I knew I was okay. As it happened he had used protection even though he told me afterwards that he too had not had penetrative sex for a long time and tested regularly.

"Yeah, beautiful arse to fuck" I could just about hear him muttering; at least that was what I imagined he was saying. I was still wearing my aid in the one ear that I had some hearing so could pick up the gist of what he was saying.

He continue fucking me for quite some time until I could sense he was reaching his climax. Suddenly his whole body tensed and he let rip inside the latex. Once done, he stayed inside for a minute or two longer kissing my back. I so wanted to take him in my arms and kiss him passionately because so far we hadn't really done that. Finally he pulled out and I turned round. He pulled off the condom and threw it to one side with a big grin on his face. I yanked him down on top of me and we kissed. In fact we kissed and kissed until our mouths were sore.

"Want you to fuck me" he then said right up close to my good ear. I grinned and positioned myself between his legs. I pulled them up over his chest and he grabbed hold of them. I then sank my face onto my prize and gave him a good licking. As I did so I pulled his buttocks apart to open him up and pushed my tongue inside. I could feel his groans of pleasure vibrating through his body. I grabbed the tube of lube that I found on the bed and fingered him like he'd done me. My cock was aching to get inside and was dripping pre-cum so I grabbed a condom, ripped open the foil packet and stretched it over my erection. Once suitably lubricated I offered it to his nicely opened hole and pressed in. "Yeah, fuck that arse" he called out. I lip read that quite clearly and grinned as I did precisely what he wanted. I fucked and fucked until I too was spilling my load inside him.

When I was finished I was exhausted. I pulled out, yanked off the latex and tossed it onto the floor with his. I then collapsed on top of him and we kissed for another marathon session.

Finally I settled down beside him and we faced each other so I could see his lips. They were beautiful and I traced them with my fingers. He did the same to me and we kissed yet again. We then talked about ourselves. He wanted to know more about me and Lee and of course what had happened to split us up. I decided to be honest and tell him the whole story. When I'd finished I could see he was really sorry for me and gently caressed me.

"That must have been a terrible experience for you, and for Lee but I can see how easily such a thing can happen when a guy like this Cory is intent on taking you over; it must be like a drug and once sucked in you can't get out."

I nodded and said that I wished Lee had understood it like that at the time but I could understand how he felt and didn't blame him for ending our relationship. "He probably felt he would never be able to trust me again but I can say now Jack, that I will never ever let anything like that happen again whatever the temptation. If I am lucky enough to find another guy to love I intend to make sure I love him to the end and be totally faithful." I said these words as well as signing him and from what I could see Jack understood all that I'd said. He pulled my head towards his and gave me a gentle kiss. It was then that I knew I had fallen in love with this guy but wasn't yet sure of his feelings towards me. I also realised how much I'd relied on reading Lee's expressions and feelings in his eyes. With Jack, it was like looking into a blank space so I had to rely on what he said which in itself was not easy for me with my disability.

Finally we decided we'd better shower and get dressed for the evening get together. We also decided we needed a walk in the fresh air. As we made our way out of Jack's room we met Simon and Lee. I knew immediately that Lee had put two and two together but I joked about the satisfied look on their faces. They both grinned which said it all. Lee then made a similar remark about us which made me blush although quite why I wasn't sure. We agreed to accompany them on their walk which was for Rudy's benefit and then go to the bar to meet the others.

The gay bar had reserved a small area for us and Simon ordered drinks for everyone which in the main were spirits. We all planned on enjoying ourselves and to hell with the hangovers we would undoubtedly have in the morning.

We all had a great time and Jack spent most of the evening at my side. We frequently kissed and had our arms round each other. I just hoped it meant as much to him as he did for me and wasn't just an opportunity to have a bit of fun with a guy.

At around midnight Lee and Simon said goodbye to those not staying at the hotel before the six of us who were made our way back. We were all feeling the effects of alcohol but we got back safely. Jack invited me to sleep with him and we fell into bed giggling like two teenagers. We were too sloshed to have sex but we did kiss and cuddle before finally going to sleep.

When I woke in the morning I felt Jack feeling my morning erection. I giggled and kissed him. It didn't take long for us to be having full sex. When I was ready to fuck him I prepared him and plunged in. It felt wonderful. When I'd reached my climax he told me to get on my back so he could fuck me. He again rimmed me and sucked my balls before preparing me to receive his large cock. Once ready he offered it to my entrance and grinned at me. He loved teasing me so before he plunged in he rubbed it against mine which was still hard. Eventually he did plunge in until he was fully inside me. It felt like nothing I'd known before. My hot channel was filled and his cock was hitting all the right spots. He was also good at making it last so he continued fucking me far longer than I'd fucked him before reaching my climax. Eventually he tensed.

"Ah, fuck" he groaned as his hot cum shot out inside me.

When we eventually went down to breakfast Lee grinned at me. "Good night" he chuckled. I nodded and Jack grinned.

"Yeah, fucking brilliant" I whispered into his ear so that his mum and dad didn't hear.

Finally we all said our goodbyes and Jack and I exchanged email and phone numbers saying we'd be in touch with each other. I then returned home with Lee's mum and dad.

Over the next few weeks Jack and I spent numerous days and nights together. Either I would travel to London which was a place I didn't know that well, or he'd come down to my place in Southampton. He'd originally come from Bristol and had an older sister by two years who also lived in London. His parents were reasonably well off and had accepted his sexuality with no problem. They'd bought him the one bedroom flat in Vauxhall when he'd moved to London for his job. The more I got to know him the more I liked him but I could never quite make out whether he loved me like I did him. We both loved our sex and I found him exciting. He loved going to the bars and clubs and having a boyfriend who could see, albeit not hear that well, was a big advantage for him so we frequently went clubbing.

I kept in touch with Lee and occasionally went to see him and Simon. I was still in love with him but had to keep those feelings hidden. Even so, I sensed that he genuinely loved me.

Jack loved anything unusual so when I mentioned that I sketched and had done nude pictures of Lee and other guys, he too wanted one. Quite why I was not sure since he couldn't see it but he liked the excitement of it all. One weekend when I was with him and we'd had a long session of sex which involved the use of dildos and vibrators, of which he had many, he asked me to sketch him naked. I was particularly pleased with the final result and had it framed for him before hanging it up in the bedroom. He also loved having threesomes with guys he picked up at the bars and the clubs. He would have loved to have gone to a gay sauna but he wasn't allowed because of his disability even when I had said I'd be with him. I presume the management of such establishments felt the risk was too great which I fully understood. Jack therefore made up for it by inviting whoever was willing back to the flat.

Jack's lack of saying how he really felt about me caused me to have doubts about our long term relationship. I knew I'd rather be with Lee but that was now out of the question so I had to settle for second best. I loved Jack and wanted to share my life with him but whenever I tentatively raised the topic he always moved on to something else as if he was trying to avoid it. I'd rather he said outright that he didn't love me so that I could move on and find someone else. As the weeks progressed I became depressed over the situation so decided to give Lee a call to see if I could meet up with him and Simon to discuss things. I hoped that since Simon knew Jack from old that he might be able to help me decide what to do. I also wondered whether Jack's blindness was holding him back as well.

I called Lee and he invited me to Brighton for the weekend so I travelled over on the Friday afternoon having left work early. My work was something else I needed to sort out because I felt I needed a change but until I knew where my love life was going to lead me I didn't want to make any firm plans yet.

Lee met me at the station on his way home from work and as soon as I saw him my heart lifted. I jumped in the car and he drove us back home. Simon was busy working in his office upstairs so I said hello to him and followed Lee into his bedroom.

"I need a shower" he grinned and immediately started stripping off. I queried whether it was okay to stay and chat whilst he did so and he laughed. "You've seen me naked enough times".

I took that to be a yes so followed him into the main bathroom which was a wet room. Like everything else in the house it was magnificent. Whilst I sat on the loo seat I watched him shower. I immediately felt a reaction in my crotch and wished I could strip off and join him. Instead I had to do my best to put the thoughts out of my mind but it was far from easy seeing him wash himself, especially when he grabbed hold of his own tackle and gave that a good wash.

When he was done he walked out of the shower area and grabbed a towel. He then moved towards me with a sly smile on his face which I felt was somewhat unfair in view of the fact that he was now a married man and his partner was sitting just along the corridor.

"You're still just as beautiful" I commented.

"Thanks; I imagine you are too" he replied as he looked at me and then asked "What's wrong Ben?

He immediately hugged me and let the towel drop to the floor. I caressed his naked butt and pressed my own erection against his cock which was also excited.

"We had good times together didn't we" I said as I placed my head on his shoulder.

"They were fucking brilliant times Ben but we've both moved on".

I nodded but it was him who'd moved on not me; that was the problem. Finally when he'd dressed we went downstairs by which time Simon had joined us.

"So, you want to tell us what's wrong, Ben" Simon said

I nodded and explained that Jack and I had hit it off and that we both liked the same kind of music and going out to gay bars and clubs and generally got on well together. I said we'd met up several times in London since first meeting him and things were going well.

"And what about sex" Simon grinned, "knowing Jack he's no doubt got you into bed several times". I grinned and blushed slightly.

"Yeah, the sex is good"

"So what's the problem?" Lee asked.

"I've fallen in love with him" I replied but there was sadness in my voice.

"And does he love you?"

"That's the problem, I don't know"

"Have you told him you love him?" Simon asked.

I shook my head and knowing Simon would not have seen that Lee said "Why not; surely if you tell him how you feel he'll either say he loves you or give some indication".

Suddenly I burst into tears and Lee rushed to my side and took me into his arms. "I so don't want to fuck up like I did with you" I wailed, "I don't know what to do".

For a moment Lee just hugged me and gently caressed my back. I had the distinct feeling that his mind was in as much turmoil as mine but perhaps that was wishful thinking. Eventually Simon spoke up and Lee and I looked at him. "Would it help if I had a word with Jack to see if I can find out his feelings for you?"

"Oh yes please Simon" I immediately responded which he seemed to understand from my signing. I knew it was probably being pathetic but I couldn't bear being told by Jack that he had no feelings for me and all he wanted was a fuck buddy. At least if he told Simon his true feelings for me I could move on without facing the reality with Jack and slowly drop him.

We spent a lovely weekend together talking about everything except Jack and taking Rudy out for walks. I could see that Simon and Lee were very much in love and for that I was happy but I also got the distinct impression that Lee still loved me every bit as much as he'd done when we were together. I still couldn't quite understand why he'd reacted so badly even though I knew I'd fucked up but if only he'd sat down and we'd talked about it perhaps he might have understood and we'd have got over it. Whenever Simon wasn't around he took every opportunity to touch me, kiss me and put his arms round me. It was killing me and I began to think I'd made a big mistake by visiting them rather than just talking over the phone.

On the Sunday evening I went home and cried. I went to work on the Monday and tried to get into what I had to do. I was becoming more and more disenchanted with the university and couldn't wait to get away. The week seemed to drag by and on the Tuesday evening when I went to see Lee's mum and dad for a meal, his mum immediately picked up on my misery. I told her about Jack and how I felt about him.

"You still love Lee don't you Ben; that's your real problem; Jack is just a substitute". I nodded as I interpreted her signing. Since I'd split with Lee I'd taught her how to sign and she'd taken to it quite well. I'd also bought myself a seven inch iPad which linked with my iPhone so that she and dad could also speak into that and it automatically showed what they'd said on the screen. It was Simon's idea and Lee had helped me set it up. It also made it easier for Jack to communicate since he too had an iPhone so when he spoke into his I'd see what he was saying or when I typed onto the iPad what I wanted to say it would automatically be spoken into his Wi-Fi earpiece. Modern technology certainly made life easier for the deaf and the blind.

"But I do love Jack" I added trying to convince myself that was what I wanted "but I don't know how he feels about me". I told her that Simon was going speak to Jack to try and get a feel of the situation but that probably wouldn't happen until the weekend so I was on tenterhooks meanwhile.

She smiled and then gave me a kiss on the cheek. "In that case why not spend the weekend with us to take your mind off it?" I accepted and said I hoped I wouldn't be too much a misery the whole weekend. She laughed and gave me a hug which always lifted my spirits.

"I probably don't say this enough but I love both of you very much and am very grateful for all you do for me."

"We love you too Ben; I don't suppose you know this but after Lee was born I was told I couldn't have any more children so we look on you as the second son we never had so you're always in our heart."

That meant a lot to me since my own parents seemed to have disappeared off the face of the earth. I'd sent a change of address card to them when Lee and I had split up but it came back with 'gone away' on it so I didn't have a clue where they or my brother were now and for that matter didn't care.

When I sent a text to Jack on the Wednesday to say hi, he replied saying that Simon and Lee had invited him down to Brighton for the weekend and they'd told him that I wasn't available due to a work commitment. It wasn't true of course but that was what I'd agreed with Simon just in case Jack might think it odd that I hadn't been invited too. "Are you going?" I replied and he came back saying "Sure".

On the following Monday evening Simon sent a text and asked me to Skype him. That was something else Lee had suggested to make communication easier since I could type what I had to say and Simon's computer would automatically speak the words for him to hear. I immediately opened up my laptop and made the connection. Both Simon and Lee were sitting there so I waved.

"Hi guys" I typed.

"Hi gorgeous" Lee typed back. Simon then explained that he and Lee had casually mentioned me to Jack over the weekend. "He says he likes you very much" Simon said.

"But not that he loves me" I typed.

"Not exactly but from what I know of Jack he finds love a difficult concept to deal with; he did say that he loves having sex with you and loves going out to the bars and clubs with you."

I chuckled; that just about summed Jack up. He loved sex and he loved socialising, very often with the intention of finding other guys he could shag. The question was, would that be enough for me? The way I was feeling at present anything would.

"Sorry it's not more positive but at least he hasn't indicated he's not interested" Simon added. I thanked him for his help and said I'd think the matter over and let them know what happened.

I did that over the next two days and then called Jack to see if it was okay for me to see him at the weekend. He immediately said yes so I said I'd go straight from work on the Friday and stay to the Sunday.

"Great, SBN after Dark is on at the Hoist on Saturday night so we can go if you're up for it" he giggled. He'd been on at me for ages to go to one of these stark bullock naked nights which went on from ten in the evening to four in the morning. He'd checked with the club that provided he was escorted by a sighted person then they'd let him in.

"Okay, you're on" I replied although I knew it was going to be one long session of him trying to get it off with other guys and me hanging on.

By pure chance I'd seen a job advertised in the publications I was now frequently looking through that looked perfect for me. It was with the same publishing firm that Lee used to work for in Southampton but this job was situated in their London office which was located at Milbank just across the river from Vauxhall. This was within walking distance of where Jack lived so would be perfect. All I now had to do was get him to agree that I could move in with him, assuming I got the job. I'd emailed my CV and to my surprise I'd received a response within a couple of days inviting me for interview. It was on the Monday morning after my weekend with Jack so it fitted in perfectly.

When I arrived at Jack's flat he took me into his arms and hugged me. "Hello you sexy beast" he laughed which was his usual salutation for me now and as he did so he grabbed my balls which I'd also got used to. I now always grabbed his and as usual found he was excited. In fact I wondered whether he was ever not so. It wasn't surprising he needed so much sex to satisfy his needs. Once we'd released each other I set to and made us a meal since being blind that was not an easy task for him although he seemed to manage quite well with convenience food.

"You want to go out tonight?" he asked as we ate.

"Would you mind if we had a night in" I replied, "especially since we're going to be out late tomorrow night".

"Yeah suits me; I can ravage you at home instead" he giggled.

"Do you think of anything else but sex" I laughed.

"Mm, not often now I come to think of it" he chuckled and put his hand into my crotch. We always ate our meals at a breakfast bar in the kitchen since it was easier than using the table in the living room so we were seated side by side. As he squeezed my tackle my cock soon reacted which made him feel some more. "See, you can't wait to get that inside me" he giggled.

"I've got an interview for a job in London on Monday so if it's okay I'd like to stay over Sunday night" I said casually.

"Yeah, course you can; it means you can fuck me more than usual" he laughed.

"If I get it I'd have to move to London" I added to test his reaction.

"That's not a problem is it; you can move in with me" he replied immediately.

I turned towards him and looked into his eyes. Not that they showed anything since they never did but it made me feel better. "Are you sure? Do you really want us to be a couple?"

"Sure, we make a good team don't we? That's assuming you want to shack up with a sad blind fucker like me."

"Jack, you're not a sad blind fucker; okay you're blind but then I'm deaf so for that matter just as sad a fucker; I like you Jack, in fact I like you very much" I added although I avoided the love word.

He took my hands and faced me as he spoke. Up to now we'd relied on the iPhone/iPad communication system. "Thanks Ben, that's the nicest thing anyone has said to me; I like you too so if you want to move in with me and be my mate then that would be great." He then moved forward and kissed me. It soon became a very passionate kiss, far more than usual and for once I began to think that perhaps he did love me even though he'd not actually used the word.

When we finally came out of the kiss we cleared up the dishes and he took me to bed. We spent the rest of the evening having sex. It wasn't tender love making like Lee and I used to have but it was good sex. I came to the conclusion that Jack wasn't capable of tender love. All he wanted was exciting sex in as many ways and using as many sex toys as he could. I knew if I lived with him I'd have to accept that.

"Oh god, I love the feel of your hot cock up my arse" he exclaimed at one point. That was something else Jack wanted when having sex, as much dirty talk as he could get but even with my speech difficulty I seemed to satisfy his needs on that count.

The following evening we made our way along to the Hoist. I don't think the guy on the door even noticed that Jack was blind since he was holding my hand as we walked in having made sure that his collapsible white stick had been put away. I led him to the changing area and we stripped off down to our trainers. We moved into the main area and found a spot where I could leave him for a few minutes whilst I got the drinks. By the time I returned he was already chatting up a guy and they were having a good feel of each other. When I appeared the guy stopped expecting me to make some comment. I just grinned so he continued having realised he wasn't treading on my toes.

Even though I'd not been particularly looking forward to it, we had a great time and had lots of guys interested in us. One in particular exchanged numbers with Jack at the end when we were getting dressed and said he'd be in contact. He did later do that and a few weekends later we ended up having a very enjoyable threesome.

On the Monday morning I attended my interview. It went well and I particularly liked the guy who would be my boss if I got the job. At the end I mentioned that an ex boyfriend of mine used to work at their Southampton office and when I gave Lee's name the manager I liked grinned.

"Yes, I remember Lee very well, we used to often have meetings with each other; he moved to Brighton didn't he?"

I said he did and had now married his new boyfriend.

"I take it you know we have a very active LGBT network within the company Ben; I'm currently the Chair"

I said I did which was one of the many reasons why I was interested in working for the company and noted that he too must be gay. Perhaps that was why we'd hit it off so well.

I came away feeling very positive as I made my way back to Southampton and just hoped I'd get the job. That evening whilst I was preparing my meal I received a call from the manager.

"Hi Ben, just wanted to say we were very impressed with you this morning and would like to offer you the job if you're interested". For a moment I couldn't believe what I was reading on the screen.

"Yeah, that's great, thanks I'd love to accept". He then told me that the formal offer would be sent by email the next day. I said once I'd received it I'd hand in my month's notice with the university although it was likely they'd pay me off rather than me work it. "That'd be great" he replied, "because we'd like you in post as soon as possible".

I came off the phone jumping with joy. I immediately called Jack and he too was pleased. I then called Lee's parents to tell them followed by Lee. They were all delighted for me although mum was saddened to hear that I was moving away from Southampton. "I'll come and see you regularly if you'll have me" I chuckled.

"You'd better" she laughed, "We love you too much to lose you now Ben." I hadn't felt so happy for months and just hoped it would all work out okay. Only time would tell.

The following morning I received the email confirming the appointment so I immediately went to see my boss and hand in my notice. It was agreed that I'd work to the end of the week and they'd pay me the rest of my notice in lieu. It suited me fine so I was soon packing up my things. The next problem was how I got them to London. Lee's dad had offered to take them in his car but I didn't want to put him to that amount of trouble. I then remembered a college friend who had a small van so I called him. When I'd explained I was moving to London and the fact that I was no longer with Lee he immediately said he'd love to assist me but there was a catch. He'd always fancied me but whilst I was with Lee he'd held back. Now he knew I was free or at least free until I'd moved in with Jack, he asked if he could come round and perhaps have a meal. I guessed what his intention was but I decided a quick fuck to get my stuff to London without paying for a carrier was worth it. Besides, Jason was a nice guy so I didn't object.

He lived on the other side of Southampton from me but the place where he worked was not far from the university so he suggested he collect me from work on the Thursday, take what stuff I needed to get transported from work to home and stay over on the Thursday and Friday nights. He would then drive me to London on the Saturday. Since all he wanted me to pay for was the cost of the petrol I agreed.

I'd packed the majority of my work things into a large box so on the Thursday evening when I'd finished I carried this downstairs and waited for him. He was soon pulling up beside me and jumped out. "Hi Ben, it's great to see you". He then grabbed hold of my box and put it into the back of the van whilst I climbed in the passenger seat. "So, you and Lee have parted" he exclaimed, "Wow, what happened?"

"Long story but basically I fucked up"

"Ah, caught you in bed with a guy did he" Jason laughed although he had no idea that was the truth.

"Something like that" I laughed.

"Fuck, really, well, well, would never have thought"

"Yeah well, sometimes a solid relationship needs something to pep it up but unfortunately Lee didn't see it like that so kicked me out"

"I'm sorry Ben; you're a nice guy". As Jason said this his hand was roaming up and down my thigh and moving towards my crotch. I was already reacting so by the time he reached it he came across a hard cock. "Wow, pleased to see me eh!"

"Yeah I am" I replied having decided to make the most of the situation. I hadn't seen Jack for almost a week so was feeling desperate for sex. I moved my hand into his crotch and found he too was stiff. "Mm, nice" I chuckled.

"It's all yours if you want" he laughed.

"Good, I shall enjoy that" I replied so that he knew I was all his.

When we got back to my place I said I needed a shower. He grinned and asked if he could join me.

"Was rather hoping you would" I grinned so we both stripped off and moved into my somewhat small bathroom. We just about fitted in the shower together and enjoyed each other's nakedness but there was certainly no room to do more than that.

"At home I spend most evenings naked" he grinned when we'd dried off, "Just love the freedom of not wearing clothes."

"Be my guest" I chuckled having lip read his words.

"You sure?"

"Yeah" I nodded and walked into the kitchen area stark naked to prepare our meal. Jason followed me and then put his arms round my waist whilst I was peeling some potatoes.

"You should have told me you'd broken up with Lee; we'd have been good together" he said as he felt my cock which was now reacting to his touch.

"Thought you had a boyfriend"

"He was only a fuck buddy, not a real boyfriend, but I've always fancied you Ben and getting my dick into this" he chuckled as he lightly fingered me.

"Once we've eaten you can fuck me as much as you like" I replied.

"Mm, can't wait" he giggled as he kissed the back of my neck"

As soon as we'd eaten we got to it not even clearing up the dishes first. By the time we were on the bed both our cocks were rearing to go so I knelt up and offered myself.

"Yeah, fucking gorgeous arse" he said, at least that was what I thought he'd said since he was now giving it a good rimming with a hot wet tongue. I then felt his tongue lick my balls and massage my cock. I'd decided I was up for anything so let him do whatever he wanted.

A few minutes later I felt his hot cock penetrate me. I suddenly realised he'd not asked for a condom although he'd taken the lube off the side table. I felt round and sure enough he was fucking me raw.

"It's okay, I'm clean" he chuckled as he continued fucking.

"Just don't come inside me"

"Don't worry, I want to shoot my load all over your face" he laughed.

His cock was short and fat but very enjoyable and he managed to keep the action going for a good long time before pulling out and telling me to go onto my back. He then straddled my chest and I watched him massage himself to a climax. Suddenly his hot creamy cum shot out all over my face. I automatically opened my mouth and tasted its saltiness. He then moved forward and slipped his cock into my mouth so I could finish him off. I could taste more ribbons of hot cum shooting out and I loved it.

"Wow, that was fucking brilliant" he exclaimed once he'd finished.

"Sure was; love the taste of your spunk". He then bent down and licked my face clean before kissing me. It was the first kiss we'd had and it was good. For a moment I felt sad about leaving Southampton and leaving him but I was excited about my new job and the thought of living with Jack, even though I was still not at all sure about his feelings towards me.

"So, tell me about this guy you're shacking up with; Jack is it?"

I gave him the low down on Jack and how I'd met him at Lee and Simon's wedding and the fact that he was blind.

"Fuck, what's it like to, you know fuck a blind guy?"

"The same as fucking a sighted guy, what'd you think" I laughed.

"And, are you two an item?"

I decided to explain that situation too and that Jack loved sex so I was more a fuck buddy than a lover at present.

"Wow, a guy after my own heart" he laughed, "Any chance he might be interested in a threesome?"

"Knowing Jack I'm sure he would" I laughed. Jason was good at enunciating his words so I could lip read almost everything he said. "Let's finish off the wine, then I'm gonna give your arse a good long hard fuck" I chuckled.

"Yeah, bring it on"

I jumped off the bed and ran over to the kitchen area where we'd left the half finished bottle of wine I'd opened for our meal. Having decided not to bother with glasses I took it back to the bed and we drank from the bottle in turns. We really had a good time together and I was glad I'd agreed he could come over for sex. I was on a high because I was about to start a new life with Jack, a new job and in a new town. When we'd drained the bottle I slapped Jason's butt and told him to get it in the air.

"Fuck me raw" he yelled, "I hate using fucking condoms". I was past worrying about the consequences so once I'd given him a good rimming and fingered him with three fingers to open him up I stuffed my raw cock inside him.

"Yeah, fucking brilliant" I roared as I slammed my cock in and out of his arse. He'd told me he wanted me to shoot my load over his face like he had done to me so as soon as I felt my whole body tense just before that moment of no return, I pulled out, rolled him over onto his back and clambered across his chest. I then let rip and ribbon after ribbon of my creamy cum shot out over his face. He opened his mouth so I moved forward and he sucked me dry. It was the best sex I'd had for a long time and that was saying something since Jack was good.

The next evening Jason again picked me up from work. At lunchtime several of my colleagues had taken me out for a farewell drink so I was feeling happy. Once again we showered when we got home and I packed the final things in readiness for the move the following morning. To save me cooking we decided to order in a Chinese which they said would be delivered in about thirty minutes.

"Just time for me to give you a good fuck" Jason laughed as he led me to the bed. I was happy for that so let him take me like he'd done the day before. He'd no sooner finished shooting his load over my face when the door buzzer sounded.

I suddenly realised I'd packed my robe so I grabbed a towel and wrapped it round me. When I opened the door a very nice looking Chinese guy was standing there. He looked at my naked torso and the towel and grinned. I grinned back as I opened my wallet to pull out some money. As I did so my towel dropped to the floor and showed off my excited organ. His eyes went straight to it and he grinned. He was clearly interested so I decided to leave the towel on the floor and waggled my cock a bit whilst I counted out the money. I noted that he almost moved a hand forward to touch it but brought it up to take my money. He then grinned and said something which I think was 'have fun' but I couldn't be sure. When I told Jason he said I should have invited him in for a threesome.

We ate our Chinese meal on the bed in between feeling each other's cock. At one point he got me to lie on my back and he poured some sauce over my cock, covered it with noodles and proceeded to eat them with his chopsticks. When he'd finished he licked my cock clean. By now it was rock hard so he lubricated his arse and lowered himself on it. We finished off our meal with him feeding me with bits of food from his chopsticks whilst he slowly rode me.

"I'm gonna cum" I shouted after a while. We'd finished the food and he was taking gulps from the wine bottle. He lifted off me, poured some wine down my cock and then took it into his mouth. I suddenly shot my load and he drank the lot. Again it was awesome. When I'd finished shooting he rolled me over onto my stomach. I then felt him fingering my hole and then I felt something hard being pushed in.

"Fuck, what's that?" I screamed as I felt round. He'd slipped the top of the wine bottle into my arse and tipped it right up so that the remaining wine that was in the bottle dribbled inside me. I could hear him laughing as he used the bottle to fuck me. Fortunately only the neck of the bottle was inside me so it felt more like a small dildo. He then pulled it out, used his fingers to open me wide and thrust his hot tongue inside to lick me out.

"Mm, you've got a lovely arse to fuck and lick" he eventually said loudly into my good ear which still had my aid in.

We spent the rest of the evening and well into the night having more sex and I decided it was the best payment possible for the use of his van. I'd never really taken much notice of Jason whilst at college apart from when we partied together and he was frequently all over me when pissed. Lee used to laugh and say that Jason fancied me rotten but nothing came of it. Perhaps if Lee had found me in bed with Jason rather than Cory he might have been more understanding but I'd never know now.

The following morning, Jason insisted on fucking me again just in case it was to be the last time he could do so. As it happened, that was far from the case but we didn't know that at the time.

Finally we loaded up the van and once I'd given the whole place a good clean and dumped the keys through the landlord's door, we set off. The journey took just under two hours on the M3. Jason couldn't leave his hand off me so I frequently had one on my thigh or in my crotch having a good feel whilst he was driving. Every so often I felt him and we both got hard. He was a steady driver so I felt safe with him despite him steering with one hand.

When we arrived, Jack had to open the door since so far he'd not given me a key. To my surprise he was only dressed in a pair of boxer shorts despite knowing that a friend of mine was driving me in his van. Okay I had mentioned that Jason was dishy, gay and fancied me but hadn't reckoned on Jack being quite so obvious when we arrived. I introduced the two guys and I could see Jason having a good look at the large bulge that was pushing out Jack's thin cotton boxer shorts.

"Hi Jack, nice to see you" Jason giggled whilst making it clear that he enjoyed the view.

"Hi Jason" Jack replied and pulled Jason into a hug before kissing him whilst I looked on. I noticed Jason pressing his crotch up against Jack's as if to say, 'yeah nice'.

"When you guys have finished, we do have a van to unload" I chuckled.

"Oh yeah, you guys do that whilst I make some coffee; you will stay won't you Jason"

Jason shouted back he'd love to and grinned at me. "Wow, you should have warned me; he's something else and he looks really loaded down below."

"He is" I giggled, and then added "Play your cards right and he might let you find out".

By the time we'd unloaded the van Jack had the coffee ready. "Are you in a hurry to get off Jason?" he asked. I'd now got my iPhone and iPad out so saw Jack's words appear on the screen. I looked at Jason and he grinned.

"Nope, I've got nothing back in Southampton to rush home for".

"You want to stay over then? I thought we'd go to the Hoist tonight Ben; S.E.X. night tonight from ten till one. Jason asked Jack what kind of event was that and he explained you could wear any kind of fetish gear including leather, rubber, skin, uniform, nasty pig, full sports kit, pants, shorts, jocks, or nothing but your shoes.

"Fuck, that sounds good, never been to anything like that; what you guys gonna wear?"

"Just our trainers" Jack grinned.

"Yeah, like the sound of that" Jason grinned excitedly. Seeing that Jack had it all planned I could see there was no point in arguing so I agreed. I had a feeling this was what my life was going to be like from now; going along with what Jack wanted with no account of my feelings.

Whilst I unpacked my stuff, Jack and Jason had sex on the bed. Jack had made no attempt to make any room for me in the wardrobe so whilst he fucked Jason I had to ask where to put things. Eventually I got everything in but I was feeling somewhat pissed off to say the least. I then went into the living room whilst they continued having fun and unpacked my other personal stuff such as my laptop and DVDs. When I was done I went back into the bedroom. Jason was now giving Jack a good fucking.

"Come on, strip off Ben and join in" Jason mouthed. I smiled and decided I might as well so I stripped off and moved up to watch his cock thrusting in and out of Jack's arse. It was then I realised he was not wearing a condom. He must have noticed my reaction because he mouthed "Jack said he was happy to do without". I shrugged and made a mental note that I must get tested more regularly than in the past.

When he'd finished and shot his load over Jack's back, he told for me to stuff my cock in.

"I want to feel your raw cock inside me Ben" Jack shouted, which I just about picked up. I moved round so I could see his face and he repeated it. "Now we're living together I think we should discard protection don't you". It was a statement rather than a question so I just nodded. To be honest I much preferred raw sex since Lee and I had done it for so many years. My cock was now aching to get inside him by now so I moved up behind him, lubricated my shaft and stuffed it in.

"Yeah, give that arse a nice hard fuck" Jason laughed as he fingered mine. I did just that until I was ready to shoot my load. I pulled out and shot all over Jack's back. Jason then bent over and licked it all up.

We spent the rest of the day lazing round in the nude having fun with each other whenever we felt the need. I cooked a meal for the three of us that evening and at just before ten we made our way to the Hoist. As before the doorman made no comment about Jack being blind since he was again holding my hand so Jason and I led him into the changing area and stripped off naked. When we moved into the main area we found guys in all kinds of gear as well as stark naked like us and as before we attracted a lot of attention. Jason bought a bottle of Vodka which we passed between us swigging directly from the bottle. Other guys were doing the same and the atmosphere was soon highly charged. Suddenly a guy knelt down and took my cock and Jason's into his mouth to give them a good suck. Another guy then did the same to Jack. Before we'd reached a climax he moved off and another guy took over.

We eventually left when the club closed at one in the morning. We'd been sucked off to a climax at least twice by then so felt satisfied. We staggered our way home since we were all sloshed by now. Once inside the flat, we stripped off, flung our clothes on the floor and collapsed into bed. Fortunately Jack's bed was a king size so took the three of us easily. It was almost lunchtime when we woke up and I made a brunch for all of us.

"Thanks guys, I really enjoyed having fun with you both; hope we can do that again sometime"

"Yeah, anytime, just give us a call and we'll do the same" Jack replied to Jason.

I thanked him for the use of his van and kissed him.

"It was a pleasure Ben, and thanks for having me" he grinned.

"And you" I grinned in reply, "I look forward to the next time".

Jason in fact became a regular visitor and would drive up on the Friday after work and go back on the Sunday. Invariably we'd go to the Hoist for more fun and at home we'd spend most of our time having sex. I really got to like Jason and wished it had been him who lived in London instead of Jack. It was clear to me now that Jack only wanted me as a fuck buddy and to take him to bars and clubs but it provided me with a roof over my head even though I had to put up with frequent guys being brought back for a threesome and sometimes a foursome but the main thing was that I enjoyed my new job immensely. One of my tasks was to set up an on-line training session to teach sign language which I'd wanted to do at the university but they wouldn't give me the funding saying it wouldn't pay yet here was a commercial company employing me to do just that.

I'd now been living with Jack for a year. I still loved my job and made a point of returning to Southampton at least once a month to see Lee's parents. Because Jason also wanted to see me when I was down there I'd travel down on the Friday evening after work, stay over with them that night and then go to Jason's small flat on the Saturday. Sometimes we'd go out to the one and only club or we'd spend the whole day having sex until I returned home on the Sunday afternoon. I'd frequently get back and find Jack in bed with a guy but I was well used to that by now and it never bothered me. If I was in the mood I'd join in otherwise I'd let them get on with it until they'd finished and the guy left. There were brief moments when Jack was very sweet and I thought that perhaps he did love me but he never said anything and I stopped using the love word as well.

Simon and Lee were still happy together and every so often they'd invite the pair of us for the weekend. Nothing sexually happened of course between the four of us apart from a soak in the hot tub which was installed in one half of the double garage that had been split in two some years before. Lee still made a point of hugging and kissing me and giving me the occasional feel when naked but that was all. There seemed to be this unspoken love between us.

Several months after our first anniversary together I came home from work to find a police car parked outside the block. I didn't think much about it as I took the lift to the second floor. When I walked in I found a uniformed policeman standing in the hallway and a plain clothes guy sitting with Jack.

"What the fuck is going on?" I asked although I wasn't sure if either guy understood what I was saying.

The guy sitting with Jack then said something but I couldn't pick it up.

"He's asking who you are Ben" Jack mouthed before turning to the guy beside him and saying "Ben is my boyfriend, we live together and he's deaf".

"Ah, I'm sorry sir" the guy enounced clearly for my benefit.

"So what is going on?" I asked again as I sat down opposite them.

"Your boyfriend was attacked outside" the guy explained, "A guy tried to steal his mobile phone and no doubt his wallet but he had the presence of mind to use his personal panic alarm which alerted a neighbour. The attacker then ran off."

"I also gave him a good knee in his groin" Jack grinned which made the officer smile.

"Yes, not the recommended form of defence but it no doubt had the desired effect along with the shrill panic alarm."

"Are you okay Jack?" I asked suddenly feeling concerned as I sat beside him and put my arm round his shoulder.

"Yeah I'm okay; wasn't gonna let the fucker take my phone whatever happened".

"Is there anything you can tell us about your attacker" the officer then asked. Jack said he had an east end accent, was about his height, wore heavy shoes which clacked on the stone stairs and he smelt of stale smoke so was probably a smoker. The officer was impressed and wrote it all down.

"So, you've just got to find a bloke about Jack's height, who has noisy shoes, stinks of smoke and is holding his balls" I grinned. The officer again smiled. "Where did this take place Jack?"

"Immediately outside the front door; I was just about to open it when I was conscious of this guy behind me so I stopped and turned round; he then came right up to me, pushed me against the wall and told me to give him my phone; I pulled out my personal alarm and set it off; he immediately backed off so I grabbed his jacket and gave him a good knee in the balls; just then the neighbour along the corridor came out and the attacker ran off down the stairs. We then called the police."

"In that case we should have him on the CCTV" I exclaimed. The officer looked at me and queried what CCTV. I took him outside and showed him the miniature camera I'd installed in the corridor. To the casual eye it looked like a lamp in a glass globe since it came on automatically as soon as someone moved up to the front door but beside the lamp there was a small camera. I'd fitted this soon after I'd come to live with Jack since I'd fitted it at my place in Southampton just in case Cory decided to make a visit. It was up high but captured whoever was standing at the door or nearby perfectly.

"And is this connected to a recorder?" the officer asked. I nodded and took him into the bedroom where the small recording unit was situated. I then connected it to my laptop and played the footage back. The guy had first arrived wearing a hood but when Jack had used the alarm he'd jumped back and the hood had fallen off his head giving a clear view of his face. "Perfect" the officer exclaimed and asked for a copy of that footage. I put it onto a memory stick and gave it to him. "We've had several similar attacks over the past few weeks and this is the best evidence we've had so far" he said clearly looking very satisfied. I then explained that I'd installed it for Jack's protection since he was blind.

Eventually the officers left and I went back to see if Jack really was okay. He said he was but the guy had punched his back and it was sore. I suggested he let me have a look so he stripped off. Everything looked fine but I offered to massage it for him so we moved into the bedroom. I too stripped off and decided to give him one of my naked massages. I hadn't done one for a long time, in fact not since Lee and I had separated. He used to love me massaging him, especially the way it always ended.

I laid a towel on the bed and told Jack to lie down on his stomach. I found the bottle of oil I always used, straddled across his buttocks and started massaging. I could sense his groans of pleasure as my hands worked their magic. His own hands fondled my naked legs and I had a feeling he knew how this was going to end. Having given his shoulders and his back a good massage, I slowly moved down over his buttocks. I noticed he tensed them with excitement. I moved my oily hands down his side and slipped them round his stomach before moving down until I found his dick. It was rock hard so I gave it several long strokes along the shaft. He groaned some more and I could tell he was enjoying it.

My hands returned to his buttocks and I massaged each globe pulling them apart as I did so. I dribbled some oil down his crack and ran my fingers across his hole. He groaned again and lifted his buttocks urging me to finger him but first I massaged his thighs and made sure my hands went right into his groin. I then ran my own long erect shaft through my oily fingers and moved myself so I could offer it to his entrance.

"Yeah, fuck that hole" he yelled. I giggled and pulled his buttocks apart to open his hole. I then pressed the head of my hot organ into it before slowly pressing the whole length inside. Once fully engorged I bent forward and kissed the back of his neck. He groaned and told me to fuck him. I raised my buttocks up and down feeling my long shaft invade his soft flesh. I thought back to how Lee always reacted to this since he loved it. He always said it felt so sensuous. I just hoped Jack felt the same way.

After a while I lifted my whole body using my hands pressing down on the bed beside him. I then thrust my long thick cock back into him. I did this repeatedly until I felt my orgasm about to explode.

"Gonna cum" I groaned into his ear and suddenly I felt my whole body spasm. Ribbon after ribbon of my seed shot out my cock to fill him up. I seemed to go on for ages until I finally collapsed back down on top of his back with my cock still firmly inside him. We stayed like that for several more minutes before I finally pulled out. I then turned him over, took his big long fat cock into my mouth and gave him a blow job. It didn't take long for him to shoot his load into my mouth and it tasted wonderful. When he'd finished shooting he pulled me into a passionate kiss which lasted for several minutes. I still couldn't make this guy out. There were times when he was so passionate yet never said he loved me. I so often wanted to say I loved him but something held me back. Whether it was because he never said he loved me or whether it was that deep down I knew I loved Lee far more than I would or could anyone else, I didn't know.

The following autumn, Lee emailed me to ask if Jack and I would be interested in joining him and Simon for Christmas. "Mum and dad have been invited to join some friends on a cruise so we thought we'd go down to a gay hotel in Cornwall for Christmas" he explained. "We've been a couple of times before and it's really nice; it's clothes optional so you can spend the whole time prancing round naked if you want. Rene and Darren (the guys who live in Rottingdean) are joining us so we thought we'd make it the six of us. The hotel only has five rooms so the most there'll be is ten; it will be good fun if you're interested."

Lee's parents had vaguely mentioned that they were going away for Christmas since they always invited me and Jack to join Simon and Lee. I read out the email to Jack and he became very excited so I emailed Lee back to say we'd love to go. Lee replied saying that since Simon hated driving long journeys because of the tragic accident with his dad that had caused Simon to lose his sight, they were going by train with the other guys. Jack and I decided to travel down from London and meet them there.

The weeks leading up to Christmas were hectic both at work and at home since Jack wanted to go to every club that was holding some form of Christmas event. We were either at the Hoist stark naked with red ribbons tied round our cocks or at other clubs with equally ridiculous outfits, most of which showed far more than they should but that was the whole point it seemed.

When the day finally arrived for us to travel down to Cornwall, I was feeling relieved that at least it would provide some rest. Little did I know how wrong I was!

The train down was busy but seeing I had a blind guy with me people were very good and made room for us. We did have reserved seats but it seemed that didn't mean much when it came to busy times. However, when I found our seats occupied I pointed to Jack's white stick and the two people immediately vacated them. Finally we reached our destination and I grabbed a cab to take us to the hotel. The two guys who ran it were brilliant and hastily helped me with the luggage. Not that we had much since we'd reckoned on being naked most of the time. He showed us to our room and I unpacked whilst Jack stripped off. The guy had already mentioned the clothes optional bit and Jack fully intended following the code.

When we went downstairs we found the other guys already there, also stark naked which I personally found rather nice. Later Jack wanted me to describe Rene and Darren to him in detail right down to the size of their cocks. He'd felt Simon of course and I'd already described Lee on a previous occasion.

"It seems there are three other guests" Lee explained, "Two guys who are just friends and a guy on his own".

"Oh goodie, so three guys to fuck" Jack exclaimed which caused everyone to hoot with laughter.

"Knowing you Jack you'll no doubt have more than that if you have your way" Simon laughed. I looked at Lee and then Rene and Darren to gauge their reaction but they were all grinning and almost licking their lips at the thought of being fucked by Jack's large organ which always looked enormous.

Soon afterwards the other three guys arrived and joined us in the large lounge area. They too had adopted the no clothes option so those that could see gave them the once over.

"Hi guys, I'm Bruce and this is my friend David"

"And I'm Dean" the third guy said as he gazed at the other six naked guys. The rest of us introduced ourselves and Lee explained that Simon and Jack were blind and I was deaf.

"But don't let that put you off guys" Jack laughed, "We've got our hands"

"And everything else from what I can see" Bruce laughed as he glanced round at the cocks on show.

"Yeah, just help yourself when you want" Jack laughed which caused everyone else to do so as well. At least it broke the ice so everybody was soon chatting merrily away.

The facilities also included a Jacuzzi and a semi dark area where porn was shown most of the time so after a while Jack took my hand and said he'd like to try it out. "Anyone else going to join us?" Jack grinned. Bruce and Dean said they would and to my amazement Lee said he would come to since Simon was deep in conversation with David and Darren. Rene also joined us seeing that he was going to be left out if he didn't so the six of us made our way down to the basement. The Jacuzzi was just large enough to accommodate the six of us and I noticed that Jack immediately got Dean to help him in the tub. I should explain that Dean was a gorgeous eighteen year-old and Bruce was twenty one as was David. Rene and Darren were in their early thirties.

As I climbed in I suddenly found Lee taking my arm and then sitting beside me. Before I could say anything he'd put his arm round me and was kissing me passionately.

"I've been so looking forward to this Ben" he whispered right into my good ear when he'd finished kissing. I'd left my aid in so I could at least hear the general gist of what was going on. I turned to face him and smiled.

"I still love you Lee"

"I know you do my love and I love you too". He then felt between my legs and took hold of my stiffening dick.

"Is this a good idea?" I asked half heartedly.

"I want to make love to you Ben" he whispered and then added "Do you want to go upstairs?"

"What about Simon?" I asked not wanting to have another situation like before.

"It's okay; he knows I still love you"

I looked over to Jack and saw that he was engrossed with young Dean; besides I wasn't bothered whether or not he knew. "Is everything okay between you and Simon?" I asked still trying to get my head round what I knew Lee was suggesting.

"Of course; I still love him but you must know that I love you more Ben". I felt like asking 'then why the fuck did you kick me out all those years before' but I didn't. To be honest I was glad to have an opportunity of having the guy I loved with all my heart beside me. "So, how about it?" he grinned as he gave my now hard cock another squeeze.

I nodded and we climbed out the water. Rene glanced up and grinned but he was now kissing and cuddling Bruce. 'Perhaps everything changes at Christmas' I told myself as Lee led me upstairs. We decided to use the room Jack and I were in. It seemed better for some reason although why I couldn't really work out. As soon as I'd closed the door behind us, Lee pulled me into a passionate embrace.

"Oh Ben, I've so missed this" he wailed as he led me over to the bed. We collapsed onto it and for the next hour made passionate love. It was as if nothing had changed between us and we picked up where we'd left off. Making love to Lee was a world apart from anything with Jack or any other guy for that matter.

By the time we'd both satisfied each other's desires, I had tears falling down my face. "You okay my love?" he asked. I nodded not able to speak. My emotions were all over the place.

When we finally went back downstairs, the other guys had rejoined the group and Simon looked over to us as we walked in. Even though he couldn't see, I could tell that he knew what we'd been doing. He just smiled and held out his hand for Lee to join him. 'That is real love' I told myself as I sat down beside Jack who also had a very satisfied look on his face so I guessed he too had made it with young Dean.

The rest of the Christmas went much the same way with couples who weren't coupled quietly going off together. Lee and I had another beautiful session on Boxing Day and I also had a rather interesting session with Rene the day after. I think Jack did it with almost everyone, except Simon who just took in what was going on without comment. Rudy sat beside him most of the time although several of us took him for a walk when he needed to go out; sometimes with Simon and on other occasions not. On one particular walk, it was just Lee and I. We walked hand in hand not caring who saw us. It was like the old days but as our holiday neared a close I began to feel depressed since I knew my time with Lee was coming to an end. On the final morning we hugged and kissed passionately saying we loved each other and would meet again soon. The problem was that these meetings were killing me and I wondered how good they were for either of us.

Lee and Simon had been married for five years when Lee called me one day to say that Rudy had suddenly contracted a condition that couldn't be treated. To save him suffering they'd had him put down that morning. I felt so sorry for them since I knew Simon loved Rudy apart from him being his guide dog, and that Lee had also become very attached to him.

"Would you like me to come down?" I asked but Lee said it was probably better if they were on their own since Simon was naturally distraught at having lost a faithful friend. I asked if Simon would get another guide dog but the matter had not been discussed as yet.

Eventually Lee did persuade Simon to have another guide dog. His name was Dusty and another golden retriever. He was a lovely dog but quite different to Rudy. Lee arranged for a bronze model to be made of Rudy so that Simon could fondle it whenever he wanted since he couldn't see the many photos Lee had taken of Rudy. It was very lifelike having been made from Lee's photos. Dusty often sat and looked at it apparently.

The next two years went by reasonably okay. I still loved my job and my relationship with Jack had settled into a routine. He was still sex mad but fortunately we'd met several willing fuck buddies along the way and Jason still visited every so often so Jack had plenty of guys to keep him satisfied without me always being involved. Then one day I received a call which changed my life. It was Lee.

"Simon's in hospital; it seems he's got a brain tumour which they reckon may be something to do with the car accident that killed his dad".

For a moment I didn't know what to say. I could tell that Lee was in shock. "Is he going to be okay?" I eventually asked but it seemed a stupid question.

"I don't know" he cried.

"I'll come straight down; are you at the hospital?" He said he was and I took a note of the ward. "I'll be down as soon as I can my love".

"Thanks; I need you Ben"

As I rushed round and tidied up my desk his last words played over in my mind. I'd never dared imagine I would ever hear them yet I had. I spoke to my boss who knew Lee and he told me to get straight off. In fact he told me to take what time I needed. Like me, he had a feeling Simon wouldn't get through this.

I rushed home, grabbed a few overnight things and called Jack. I then rushed to Victoria station and was fortunate in catching a train that left within five minutes. At Brighton I grabbed a taxi to the hospital and quickly found the ward. When I walked in I silently gasped. I hardly recognised Simon. His face was white and his eyes looked sunken. Lee turned and on seeing me jumped up from where he was sitting at the bedside. I hugged him and gently kissed the side of his face.

"He's slipping away Ben" he mouthed and tears poured down his face. I couldn't think of anything to say to console him so just held him tight. After a few moments he sat down again and I grabbed another chair to sit beside him. Whilst Lee held Simon's hand, I held his. It was all I could do as I looked at Simon who seemed unconscious.

The hours slipped by and we took it in turns to try and sleep but neither of us did for more than a few moments. I slipped out once or twice and fetched cups of tea and the nurse organised some sandwiches for us at one point.

It was in the early hours whilst I was keeping watch that I noticed a change on the monitors. Lee had closed his eyes to try and rest because he was exhausted and for a few moments had slipped off to sleep. All the lines had gone flat and I was just about to alert the nurse when she came rushing in with the doctor. I tapped Lee on his shoulder and he sat up startled. We looked at Simon and then at each other knowing what the doctor was going to say.

"I'm so sorry" was all he said and the nurse said they'd leave us with Simon for a few moments. Lee bent over Simon and kissed the top of his head. I couldn't hear what he said but imagined what it was. I then did the same and said my goodbye. I knew he'd loved Lee as much as I did and for that I was truly grateful.

We walked out of the hospital in silence. There didn't seem anything to say to a guy who'd lost someone he'd clearly loved. Lee drove us home and on our way I called Rene to say that Simon had died. They were looking after Dusty because Lee wasn't sure how long he'd be at the hospital. We agreed they'd bring him back later that afternoon to give us time to get some sleep. We were both exhausted.

Once back at the house, I led Lee upstairs and into the main bedroom. I kissed him and started to leave having decided I'd use the spare room.

"Don't leave me" he implored and grabbed hold of my hand, "I need you Ben, I need you very much". He then cried and the tears poured out. It was the first time he'd done so since Simon had passed away. I held him in my arms and consoled him as his body shook with pain. "I'm so sorry Ben" he said suddenly. For a moment I thought that perhaps I'd misheard what he said so I looked into his eyes which were now red from crying. "I really am sorry Ben for all the pain I put you through; I should have sat down with you and listened to what was wrong instead of kicking you out."

I suddenly realised he was referring to our separation all those years ago. I hugged him again and told him it was all forgotten.

"But I've not forgotten Ben; I've wanted to tell you how sorry I was for years but couldn't because I did love Simon and I know he was madly in love with me."

"I know my love; he really did love you and you made the last seven years of his life so happy so don't forget that." He looked at me with his soulful eyes. I loved those eyes and I felt tears forming in mine. "We need rest my love, let's get some sleep".

"I want to feel you beside me; don't leave me please Ben"

I smiled and nodded. Of course I would so I helped him undress and then stripped off my own clothes. Once in bed I hugged him in my arms and gently kissed him. After a while he turned over and I snuggled up behind his back with my arm round his chest just like we'd done for so many years before we split up. It was as if the past ten years had never taken place. I hugged him and gently kissed the back of his neck until he was asleep. For a while my mind kept going over what had happened and I wondered where the future would take us. Would he ask me to move back with him? I wasn't sure. Also I loved my job so moving to Brighton could mean I'd have to give that up unless I commuted to London each day which didn't thrill me. Eventually I slipped off to sleep having decided it had to be his decision so I'd say nothing.

When I woke about five hours later I was alone in the bed. I looked up and saw him standing naked at the window looking out over the back garden. I got out of bed and moved up behind him. He pulled my arms round his chest and hugged me tight.

"I love this house and garden" he said turning his head slightly so I could see his lips.

"You'll stay here won't you?" I asked because the way he'd made the remark made me wonder whether he was thinking of not doing so.

"Only if you come back to me Ben" he said having now turned to face me, "I love you so much Ben; always have and always will; I need you now Ben more than anything else; will you Ben? Will you forgive me and come back to me?"

Even though I'd thought about this I was stunned at hearing him say this so soon after Simon had died. The guy hadn't even been buried yet and here he was talking about me moving back with him.

"Are you sure this is the right time to make such a decision? Shouldn't you at least wait until after the funeral?" He shook his head and I could see he'd made his mind up. "Okay, well let's get showered and dressed and then talk about it; Rene and Darren will be here shortly with Dusty and I don't think they should find us stark naked do you". He laughed which was good to see so I told him to use the en-suite bathroom whilst I used the main one. I didn't think it was a good idea for us to shower together, at least not yet.

When we'd showered and dressed, I prepared a brunch. We were both starving having not eaten a proper meal since the day before. I cooked egg, bacon, sausages and tomatoes with toast. Whilst I did that, Lee made some coffee and set the table in the kitchen. As I moved round the kitchen looking in the fridge and the cupboards for what I needed, it reminded me of Jack's. Everything was marked up with Braille labels so that Simon knew what everything was.

We ate in silence and I knew he was going over and over in his mind what he'd said earlier as was I. By the time we'd finished and cleared up, the intercom sounded. I went to answer it and opened the gates for Darren and Rene to drive in. When I opened the front door, Dusty came bounding up to me. When he realised it was me he suddenly stopped and nuzzled my leg. I gave him a pat before he bounded off first into the kitchen and then into the living room. I guessed he was looking for Simon.

"How is he?" Rene asked having given me a hug and a kiss.

"Okay" I replied, "We've had a rest and just finished eating; he's in the living room" I added before giving Darren a hug and a kiss.

"It's such a shock" Darren said as we held each other, "We can't believe it; poor Lee must be heartbroken".

I nodded. There was no doubt that Lee was heartbroken but I also got the distinct feeling that a large cloud had been lifted from his life but I wouldn't be sure until we spoke later, assuming the conversation did happen because I certainly wasn't going to raise the matter again. I'd decided that it was Lee who had to make the running on this issue.

Darren followed me into the living room and we found Rene sitting with Lee in his arms hugging and kissing him. Darren then sat the other side of him and did the same. They were dear friends and I loved them to bits.

Dusty had now searched the whole house looking for Simon; he'd even run upstairs to see if he was there before coming back down into the living room. Whilst the other three chatted I called him over and knelt down on the floor to hug him. He was a sweet dog and I wondered whether he could tell that his master was no longer here and that his duties were no longer required. I knew of course that Lee would want to keep him and so would I if I did eventually move back with Lee since I loved dogs and I loved Dusty even though I'd only seen him a few times over the past two years.

Eventually Rene and Darren left and told me to call them if we needed anything. I said I would and watched them drive off. I went back into the living room and found Lee hugging Dusty. Tears were falling down his face again and my heart went out to him. I dropped on my knees beside them and hugged them both.

"Do you think he knows?" I asked.

Lee nodded. "I reckon he does". He then turned to me and held my hand before moving back onto the sofa taking me with him.

"You will move back with me won't you Ben; I need you and love you".

"If you're sure that's what you want, but"

He put a finger on my lips and said "No buts; before Simon slipped into the coma he told me this was what we had to do; he knew I still loved you; he'd even suggested some years ago that we invited you to come and live with us so you and I could be together but I decided that would be too painful for you so said no."

I was shocked to hear that. I had guessed that Simon knew Lee still loved me and that I loved him but to suggest I moved in to make a threesome was quite amazing. "He was a wonderful guy Lee; never forget that; perhaps fate meant that we were apart for ten years so that you could make him a happy man, because there was no doubt he was very happy with you and loved you with all his heart."

"I know" Lee nodded with yet more tears in his eyes, "but you will say yes won't you; please Ben".

"Yes of course I will; I've dreamt of us doing so but never thought it would really happen and I'm sorry it has because of Simon passing away; but yes, I will move back with you." We then kissed passionately and hugged. As we did so Dusty put his head on our laps and made a low growl. We both looked at him and rubbed his head.

"I think he approves" Lee chuckled.

"I hope so because I think he's as adorable as the man in my arms"

"You romantic"

After a while I said we should call the hospital and find out when we could go and collect the paperwork we'd need to take to the Registrar. We also needed to call them to fix an appointment and fix one with a funeral director. Although I'd never had to deal with things when someone had died before, I knew there were lots of things to do. I also needed to call my boss and call Lee's parents since they still didn't know.

Lee called the hospital and they said the paperwork would be ready to collect first thing the following morning. He then made an appointment with the Registrar at eleven that morning and one with the funeral director immediately afterwards. Whilst he did all this I sent a text to his mum asking her to connect to Skype. I'd set this up for her some years before having decided it was easier for us to see each other and type our messages when we spoke. Within a few minutes she was on-line and I waved. She waved back but sensed something was wrong. I told her the news and she gasped. They had no idea that Simon had been ill but I explained it had all happened so suddenly. She asked how Lee was coping and I said he was fine. He'd just finished his calls so I beckoned him over so she could see him and chat. She asked if he wanted them to come over but he said I was taking care of him and staying over until the funeral. We'd not talked about when I was going to move in yet because I wanted to talk to my boss about my job. She then typed a message for me that said "Look after him Ben, he needs you now". I said I would and sent them both my love.

Lee spent the rest of the afternoon contacting those people he needed to tell and I sent a text to Jack. All I received back from him was a message that said 'Sorry to hear that'. To be honest I was pissed off with him since I felt he could have at least called and spoken to me and then Lee. It was as if he couldn't care less. It made my decision to leave him and move back with Lee even easier to make since I had been slightly worried about telling him but decided to let him sweat that one out for the time being. All I told him was that I was staying with Lee until the funeral was over.

I called my boss and he was brilliant. I'd contacted him by Skype since I guessed he'd be at his computer when I called. He was very sorry to hear about Simon and asked to speak to Lee. He then told me to take as much time as I needed and of course I could stay in Brighton until the funeral. He then typed "Do you reckon you two might get back together again?" I was stunned and whilst I was trying to think how to reply, Lee had typed, "Yes, we are but Ben needs to speak to you about his job because he loves it". I looked aghast at Lee and he grinned. Terry, my boss typed back, "Great news; come and see me once the funeral is over Ben, I've got an idea how we can accommodate that". He then said goodbye and the connection went dead.

"I can't believe you told him that" I grinned at Lee.

"Well, you've said yes haven't you and you love your job and don't want to give it up; there is such a thing as remote working you know and London is not a million miles away from Brighton."

I nodded and grinned. "I love you so much" I said and took him into my arms.

"I know" was all he said.

The following morning we drove to the hospital to collect the paperwork and Simon's personal effects. We wanted to take Dusty with us rather than leave him at home on his own but we knew we couldn't take him into the hospital now he was no longer acting as a guide dog so we left him in the car telling him we wouldn't be long.

The same staff nurse was on duty and gave us everything. She again said how sorry she was and walked down the corridor with us. When we got back to the car Dusty wagged his tail clearly pleased to see us. Our appointment with the Registrar wasn't until eleven so we had time to spare. We decided to go and see Lawrence the vet since Lee hadn't been able to get hold of him the day before and he didn't want to leave a message. The receptionist knew Lee of course and smiled at him as we walked in.

"No Simon" she commented on seeing Dusty with us. Lee quickly explained and she gasped. She'd known Simon for many years and couldn't believe it. She called Lawrence and told him we were waiting to see him but said nothing about Simon. A few minutes later he came out expecting to see Simon. When Lee told him he sat down hardly believing what he'd heard.

"I'm so sorry Lee; he loved you very much, you know that don't you". Lee nodded as he held my hand which didn't go unnoticed by Lawrence.

"You remember Ben don't you" he then said.

"Yes of course, we met at Simon and Lee's wedding". I nodded and shook his hand. I could almost hear his mind working as he thought back to my speech at the wedding and knew Lee and I had been boyfriends before he met Simon. Lee explained I was staying with him until at least the funeral.

"Do you reckon Dusty will know that Simon is no longer with us?" I asked.

"Quite possibly; dogs, especially guide dogs are very perceptive; he'll need a lot of comforting like we all do when we lose someone; I take it you're keeping him Lee".

Lee nodded, "Of course, we both love Dusty very much". Lawrence smiled picking up on what Lee was indicating. I felt slightly uneasy talking about our getting back together with Simon still lying waiting to be buried, or more correctly cremated since that was his and Lee's wish but Lawrence just smiled and patted both our hands.

Our meeting with the Registrar went as well as can be expected. She was very nice and paused whilst Lee cried and I consoled him. Once we'd collected copies of the death certificate and the other documents required we went to see the funeral director. He too was very nice and arranged everything. Having spoken with the crematorium it was agreed the funeral would take place on the following Monday which was just over five days away. Lee explained that Simon had been blind and that Dusty was his guide dog. He then asked if it was okay for Dusty to attend the service at the crematorium since he felt Simon would have wanted that and the vet had agreed. The guy said he was sure it was okay but would check.

Since it was lunchtime Lee took me to his and Simon's favourite cafe for a snack. The owner immediately recognised Lee and Dusty.

"Is Simon not with you today?" Lee once again explained what had happened and the guy was shocked. Lee said afterwards that he was going to spend his time doing that for a while because Simon and his guide dog were well known and liked by everyone.

I took Lee out as much as possible over the next few days to keep his mind off the forthcoming funeral. We took Dusty for long walks on the downs as the weather was reasonably good for May. I'd emailed my boss to give him the date of the funeral and also offered to do some work at home. He took me up on the offer so I realised how easy it was to work remotely. We also agreed that I'd attend a meeting with him on the Tuesday morning after the funeral to discuss my future and he invited Lee to attend as well.

I'd also emailed Jack to give him the date of the funeral. He'd replied saying he saw no point in attending since he hardly knew Simon. I couldn't believe what I read and felt like replying 'yet you knew him well enough to attend his wedding' but instead I ignored it. He'd added "I assume you and Lee will be getting back together now since you're both mad about each other." I was really upset by his comment and replied "If I do, how will you manage?" His reply was "Don't bother your pretty little head about me; plenty of other guys around to fuck me."

His last remark really upset me considering I'd spent most of the last five years looking after him, being his fuck buddy and his escort to bars and clubs. I replied and said I was getting back with Lee and would be clearing my stuff out of his flat on the Tuesday after the funeral. He never replied and we never made contact ever again.

On the Monday morning the hearse and the official car arrived at the house to collect Lee and I. We'd arranged that we'd meet the others attending at the crematorium. Lee's parents were going of course as well as Rene and Darren. Lawrence had said he'd attend and we guessed several other people who knew Simon would also. We decided to put the harness on Dusty for the last time and Lee asked if I'd be responsible for him so having fitted it I led him out to the car whilst Lee set the alarm and locked up the house. As I reached the car which was parked outside the gate, several neighbours were standing nearby to give their respects. I found it very moving and mouthed a thank you as I climbed into the car with Dusty. Lee had followed me and once he'd climbed in we set off for the slow journey to the crematorium. Lee and I held hands and Dusty had his head on our laps so every so often we stroked him to make him realise he'd not been forgotten. I'd never had to attend a funeral before and found it very emotional. Tears were filling my eyes as I watched the hearse in front carrying Simon.

When we arrived at the crematorium I was shocked to see so many people. There must have been a good fifty or more. Lee's mum and dad immediately came forward as we got out the car and gave us a hug and a kiss on our cheek. Once Rene and Darren had done the same the funeral director asked if we were ready. Lee nodded and we watched the coffin bearers take Simon out of the hearse and place it on their shoulders. He looked so precarious perched there and I was worried that they'd drop him. They then slowly moved forward and walked towards the open door. Lee and I followed with Dusty walking obediently between us as if he was leading us in. Mum and dad followed with Rene and Darren behind them. The others I imagined followed on.

Since neither Simon nor Lee was the slightest bit religious, the service was very simple. After a few words by the guy leading it we sang a hymn Lee had chosen which he felt Simon would have liked. Lee then said a few words about Simon's life, how he'd lost his sight on that terrible day when his father died from the car accident and how despite all that he'd been such an independent person who was caring, very loving and touched everyone's heart. I could see tears running down his face as he spoke and wanted to rush up and hold him. He'd also signed what he was saying for my benefit which really touched my heart. Tears were filling my eyes and Dusty had placed his head on my knee. I looked down at his sad eyes and gave him a gentle smile. I felt sure he knew what was happening. Lee's mum was sitting beside me and she held my hand which I found comforting.

When Lee had finished speaking he walked back to where we were sitting in the front row. I took his hand and squeezed it. I knew he didn't like public speaking but he'd done it beautifully. The guy leading the service then continued but to be honest I couldn't hear what he was saying and made no attempt to lip read either. I was next conscious of the curtains closing round Simon's coffin and knew this was the end. I gently squeezed Lee's hand and knew how he must be feeling.

Eventually it was all over and we filed outside. People came up to Lee and paid their respects whilst I stood nearby with Dusty. Lee's mum had put her arm round me and was holding me tight. Lee and I had prepared a buffet so had invited his parents plus Rene, Darren and Lawrence back to the house. The official car had now gone so his dad drove us and Dusty back home with the others following on. Once inside the house I took the harness off Dusty and hung it in the hall cupboard instead of its normal hook in the hallway. He watched me and I think he knew then that he'd never again have to play his role as a guide dog. I knelt down and hugged him. "We love you lots and will look after you now" I whispered into his ear as if he could understand what I was telling him. He licked me and when I'd released him ran off into the kitchen to see what food was around.

"Are you okay?" Lee's mum signed having watched me with Dusty. I nodded and she took me into her arms. She then pulled away and signed "Thank you for looking after Lee". I smiled and kissed her on the cheek.

As the weather was nice we ate in the conservatory. The conversation mainly revolved round Simon and what a wonderful guy he was. Lawrence, who was the person who'd known him the longest, told us many amusing stories about him and how he'd loved Rudy his previous guide dog to Dusty. When we'd all eaten, Lawrence said he should really get back to his surgery and Rene and Darren said they too would make a move.

Having seen them all out I went back to the conservatory and found Lee hugging and kissing his parents. When he saw me he pulled me into his arms and stood in front of them.

"I've got something to say" he told them as he signed the words for my benefit. They both looked at him expectantly. "Ben and I are getting back together and he's moving in with me here".

Suddenly his mum jumped up and put her arms round the pair of us. "That's wonderful news; I'm so happy for both of you". She then gave us both a kiss and looked Lee straight in the eye. I'd lip read what she'd said so far but when she turned away I couldn't quite make out what she was now saying but Lee signed for me. "I understand what happened all those years ago upset you Lee and you felt you had no choice but to separate from Ben, and I know you made Simon very happy for the past seven years and I'm proud of what you did for him but you two are made for each other so make sure you never let him go again."

By now both Lee and I had tears rolling down our face. We smiled at her and then kissed whilst she watched on. His dad just sat there with a grin on his face but said nothing.

"So when are you permanently moving in Ben?" she signed.

"We've got a meeting with my boss tomorrow morning to discuss how I can continue my job and then we're collecting all my stuff from Jack's flat".

"Wonderful" was all she said before telling dad that it was time for them to go and leave us love birds on our own.

We saw them out and held hands at the front door as we watched them drive off. Once inside again, Lee pulled me into his arms and gave me a passionate kiss. I immediately felt a reaction down below which was the first I'd had ever since coming down to Brighton and watching Simon pass away. We went back into the conservatory and talked.

"You do realise Ben that I'm now a wealthy guy; Simon has left everything to me as his partner so if you didn't want to continue working we have enough money to live on for the rest of our lives."

I smiled but said I needed something to occupy my mind "Can't spend every minute of the day making love to you" I laughed. "Besides, I love my work and don't really want to give it up yet".

Lee understood that. He still did programming work for the guy who designed computer games even though he'd given up his delivery driving job for Bob Mullins several years before when Bob decided to retire and sell the business on. The computer games work had brought in significant sums of money so he had plenty apart from Simon's wealth. In addition, Simon's many books would still bring in royalties. I still couldn't quite believe that I'd now be living in this beautiful house and more to the point, I'd be living with the guy I'd always loved with all my heart. Life really couldn't get better than this.

Since we were collecting my personal items from Jack's flat, we took Lee's car to London. He'd now got a smart Mercedes C Class and I had to admit it was very comfortable. Dusty clearly loved sitting on the back seat with the dog harness connected to the seat belt to keep him safe. He looked like lord muck sitting there and gazing out the window which made me chuckle. Terry my boss had arranged a parking spot for us in the company car park so when we arrived I showed the security guy my pass and he waved us in. We decided to take Dusty with us rather than leave him in the car and as we moved through the general office everybody came up and said hello to him which he loved. Several of my colleagues had heard why I'd been away and offered Lee their condolences but something told them that he was now with me. Some knew of my relationship with Lee so were not surprised.

Terry welcomed Lee like a long lost friend and for several moments they hugged and lightly kissed each other. "I was so sorry to hear about Simon" he said as they both sat down.

"It was a hell of a shock but this guy here got me through it" he smiled as he took hold of my hand.

"And I'm so pleased to hear that you guys have got back together again; it's an ill wind isn't it". We both nodded as I waited to get on with the main reason we were there.

"So, Ben, what have you decided" Terry asked turning to me. He not only spoke very clearly so I could lip read him but he had a monitor on his desk facing towards me so I could read the words too. "Do you want to continue working for us once you move to Brighton with this gorgeous guy".

I grinned and glanced at Lee. "Yes, I do if it's possible to do so but I don't really want to commute to London every day".

"First of all Ben we certainly want to retain you; you're doing a great job and we'd love you to continue. As far as where you work we're happy for you to work from home since that's perfectly possible these days and we suggest that you come to London say once a week just to catch up on things here. How does that sound?"

"Brilliant" I gasped, "That would be great".

Terry grinned and got up to shake my hand. "That's great news". He then picked up a large box and gave it to me. "Everything you need to work from home is there; I'm sure you'll be able to work out how it all works knowing your IT skills; you know how to log in to the server to access everything and the company will pay for your broadband." Lee said there was already a BT Infinity line connected to the house that Simon used.

With everything agreed, I took Lee to my desk and he helped me pack all I needed into a cardboard box. Everyone wanted to know what was happening so I told them and they all gathered round and hugged me. I noticed that Lee received his share of hugs also which made me smile. Even ten years on he was still just as gorgeous, if not more so.

Having said goodbye to everyone and told them I'd see them in a week's time since I'd arranged with Terry that I'd normally visit the London office each Tuesday as that suited him, we took my stuff down to the car. I felt so happy and leaned over to give Lee a kiss. "Right, off to Jack's flat to get my stuff" I said suddenly feeling somewhat nervous about going back. I wasn't sure if Jack would be there or not since I knew he could organise time off from work easily enough if he wanted. We parked the car in the small parking lot that belonged to the block and made our way upstairs with Dusty at our heels. I opened the front door and called out but there was no reply. The flat was empty and not even a note from Jack. I couldn't believe he'd left that morning knowing full well that I was coming back that day to move out yet he'd not been there or left a note to say goodbye or any thanks for all I'd done for him. "Fuck him" I shouted as I started packing my clothes into my large holdall whilst Lee sat on the bed and watched. He could tell I was pissed off.

I cleared the wardrobe of my clothes and made sure that I'd left a wide open space to make the point that I'd gone rather than spreading his clothes out to fill the gap. I then went into the living room and collected together my personal items such as DVDs and the few ornaments that belonged to me. Finally I left my door key on the kitchen table. I pondered whether or not to leave a note but decided not since he'd not seen fit to do so. Once everything was in the small hallway and ready to go, Lee pulled me into an embrace and hugged me. We kissed on the lips but he said nothing. He knew how I was feeling and I suspect felt the same way. We carried the things down to the car and made our way home. Yes, Brighton now felt like home, far more than Jack's ever had which had always been his flat with me as a live in carer used for sexual favours when it suited him.

The journey back was mainly in silence. It was difficult for me to hear in any event since Lee had to keep his eyes on the road and couldn't turn towards me when speaking. Okay I could have used my iPhone and iPad to hear what he was saying but I wasn't in the mood. I just wanted to get home, unpack and feel the guy I loved and would now be living with forever more, in my arms.

The journey went well so it wasn't long before we were once again back at the house which was now to be my home. Once we'd carried everything into the hall, we fell into each other's arms and kissed. Dusty took one look at us before going off into the kitchen. "Come on" Lee eventually said, "Let's get you unpacked" so we carried my holdall upstairs. He'd not cleared Simon's clothes out yet so that was the first job to do. We did so in silence and packed the things we knew we could give to a charity shop in black bin bags and things we knew had to be thrown away into another. I took the bags into the spare room and left them there for the moment. We then unpacked my things and used the free space. Once done it seemed I'd been living there for years.

"Would you mind taking Dusty out for a walk" he then said, "I've got one or two things to do". I immediately agreed since I knew Dusty hadn't been taken out for his constitutional that morning and ran downstairs to find him. He came running out of the kitchen as soon as I called and when he saw me take his lead off the hook in the hallway, minus harness, he wagged his tail with joy. I took him down to Preston Park and let him have a good run. I felt over the moon and kept hugging myself just to make sure I wasn't dreaming it all.

I was out for about an hour and when I got back I noticed the other box of my personal things had gone from the hall as had the large box that Terry had given me that contained my new computer. Lee came out of the living room and grinned. Once I'd unleashed Dusty, he led me into the living room. He'd unpacked my box of bits and stacked my DVDs with his and placed the few ornaments on the window sill.

"Okay?" he grinned.

"Perfect" I replied and pulled him into a very passionate kiss pressing my crotch against his as I did so.

"Before you get carried away" he giggled, "I want you to come upstairs". He then led me into the front room which Simon used as his study. "Your new office" he grinned. I looked round the room and all of Simon's things had gone. The beautiful designer desk was clear apart from a very smart pen holder and clock. All his books had also disappeared and I queried where they'd gone. "Downstairs in the bookcase" he grinned as he opened a small two drawer filing cabinet that I'd never seen inside before. It was empty. "You can use this to file away any papers you need and use the book shelves for your books" he said excitedly. I looked over to the wall behind the door and saw the cardboard box of my work things sitting there along with the box that Terry had given me.

"Are you sure about this? It was Simon's study; don't you want to take it over and I'll use another room?"

He pulled me into his arms and kissed me. "Nope, I don't need much space to work so will use the table over there like I always did with Simon; he'd have wanted you to use this."

"Thank you" I mouthed; I was too overcome with emotion to say more or put it into spoken words, "It's perfect".

Having got over the initial shock, I set too and unpacked everything. I first unpacked my work stuff and placed my books on the shelves and the files in the cabinet. The few pens and pencils I'd brought I placed in the pen holder and then picked up the box that Terry had given me. Together we opened it and I gasped once I saw what was inside. He'd given me the latest Apple iMac desktop which was ultra thin and was sleek to look at with its wireless keyboard and magic mouse. In addition he'd included a 13 inch Mac Book Air laptop that I could slip in my briefcase when going to the London office. I couldn't believe what I was looking at and stood open mouthed.

"They must think a lot of you" Lee grinned as he fingered the items, "I'm jealous, think I must replace my old fashioned PC and laptop with these". He could afford to do so without question so I told him he should as we unpacked the items and set them up.

By the time we'd finished, we both realised we were hungry. We'd not eaten anything since breakfast so I said I'd make us scrambled egg on toast. Once in the kitchen and everything was under way he came up behind me and put his arms round my waist. "Happy?" he asked using my good ear.

"Of course I am; what do you think" I laughed. It seemed Simon had never existed and that concerned me slightly since he had and I didn't want Lee to totally forget him.

When we'd eaten our lunch and cleared away, I looked at him. "Are you okay? I don't want to rush things. It's still not long since he passed away."

"I know and don't get me wrong I did love him and I know he loved me and I'm glad I was able to make him so happy for the past seven years but I've felt for most of that time that my life was on hold and I was waiting for us to get back together again even though I had no idea how that was going to happen; does that sound awful?"

I shook my head since that was exactly how I'd felt.

"How about taking his things to the charity shop and then going to the Apple store; there's one in Churchill Square"

"Are you serious?" I asked somewhat shocked that he not only wanted to get rid of Simon's clothes so soon but he also wanted to go and buy a new Apple computer.

"Might as well" he replied, "I just want us to move on and as long as his personal things are in the house I never shall; and I can't have my gorgeous boyfriend using a computer that is much better than mine" he giggled.

"You're incorrigible" I laughed.

"Yeah, I know; that's why you love me so" he laughed as he grabbed my crotch and made me get an erection. "And I'll see to that when we get home" he added.

The young guy who served us in the Apple store was gorgeous as well as being helpful. He certainly knew his stuff and when he realised Lee was really interested in an iMac desktop and a Mac Book Air laptop he nearly jumped with joy. It didn't take long to complete the purchase since Lee knew exactly what he wanted having seen mine. He'd always been compulsive when it came to making decisions which was why he'd reacted so quickly all those years before. Sometimes it was a good trait to have but at other times it caused him heartache as he'd found out. I on the other hand took my time when taking decisions and on occasions was able to slow him down but today I could tell he was intent on buying what he wanted so let him have his fun. Besides he could afford it so why not.

We spent the rest of the afternoon setting everything up and putting his old PC and laptop into the loft which was fully boarded so made a good storage area. Whilst Lee played with his new toys, I sent an email to Terry thanking him profusely for mine and saying that I was now up and ready for work and would be getting my head down the following day. He replied saying "Thanks but make sure you find time to enjoy that gorgeous man of yours!"

I fully intended to do that and once Lee had finished playing, I led him into the bedroom and slowly undressed him. He grinned guessing what I had in mind but just when he thought I was going to take him to bed having stripped off myself, I led him downstairs. As we walked through the kitchen Dusty looked up at us as if to say 'here they go, my two naked masters at it already'. I led him into the area where the hot tub was situated having switched it on earlier without Lee knowing. We then climbed into the warm water and I took him into my arms.

"I love you so much" I mouthed before pulling him into a passionate kiss. As we did so our hands fondled each other until we were both hard. We'd not had any sex as such since I'd come to Brighton to see Simon in hospital so we were both gagging for it. As we continued kissing I reached over for the bottle of lube that I knew was nearby. I lifted him up so his butt was out of the water and fingered his hole with two well lubricated fingers. He moaned and groaned with delight as my fingers probed him and pressed against his gland making him dance with joy. I then lifted myself out of the water so I could lubricate my shaft and sat him down on it before sitting back into the water. He then rode me up and down as we kissed. I knew I wouldn't be able to last that long since I was so desperate to reach a climax so it wasn't long before my body tensed and I knew I was about to reach that wonderful moment when everything stops just before my release.

"Ah" I groaned as I felt my seed shooting inside him. We were still kissing as he continued riding my cock draining it of every last drop. I felt down between us and took his erection into my hand. I massaged it as best I could beneath the water and suddenly I felt him tense and then release his load. I sensed him groan with pleasure as he climaxed so I continued gently massaging his beautiful long thick cock up and down. I'd so missed this and it felt like being in heaven again.

Eventually we stopped kissing and grinned at each other. He then lifted off me and we climbed out to have a shower. Even that ended in more lovemaking and me being fucked as I leaned over using the wall to hold myself up. The feel of his hot cock up my arse was pure bliss. I reached round with one hand and pulled him tighter in. "Want that gorgeous cock right inside me" I groaned. I felt him press against me before thrusting back and forth until he eventually filled me up with yet more cum.

We never bothered to dress but instead just tied towels round our waist and worked together to make our meal. Between us we produced a beautiful meal and decided to eat it in the conservatory since the evening sun was still shining. Dusty, having eaten his meal, lay down beside us fully contented.

It was two weeks later when Lee said one day that he wanted to buy me a ring. I'd admired the one that Simon had given him and he'd said he'd buy me one so he took me to a smart jeweller in the Lanes in Brighton. I was now used to going into expensive shops and I'd seen the value of Simon's estate when I'd helped Lee type out a list of all his assets. He was far wealthier than I'd imagined so I could understand Lee wanting to flash the cash around. It seemed Simon had put everything into both their names so Lee had access to as much as he needed.

"How about this one, do you like that?" Lee asked as he picked a particularly expensive gold ring from the tray that the sales assistant was showing us. It had a small sapphire set in it and it was beautiful. He slipped it on the third finger of my right hand and it fitted perfectly as if it had been made for me.

"It's beautiful" I mouthed, "I love it". He then removed it from my finger and gave it back to the assistant saying something as he did so but I couldn't quite make out what he'd said. The assistant then placed the ring in a beautiful leather case that was lined with cream silk and passed it back to Lee. Suddenly he got down on one knee as he held onto the box. I looked down at him amazed. He grinned and then signed "Will you marry me Ben?"

I was conscious of the sales assistant watching us and another standing nearby plus a couple of other customers at another counter. They'd all turned to watch Lee and my reaction. I gasped and when I'd processed what he'd said I grinned and nodded mouthing "Yes I will". He then stood up and placed the ring back on my finger before kissing me full on the lips with everyone looking on. As soon as we finished the assistants and the customers all cheered and clapped. I felt my face go bright red but I couldn't care less. The man I loved had proposed to me and I was more than happy to accept despite the public place in which he'd done so.

Once he'd paid for the ring and we'd left the shop with the assistants and the other customers still grinning, I pulled him into another kiss not caring a hoot who was watching us. "Thank you that was the happiest moment in my whole life" I eventually whispered into his ear.

"And mine" he grinned.

We decided we didn't want a big wedding so only invited Lee's mum and dad, Rene and Darren, Lawrence and Terry my boss since he'd been so wonderful and kind. Not wanting to use the same hotel where Simon and Lee had married, we opted for Preston Manor which was a charming historic house situated on the outskirts of Brighton and home to the Stanford family for over 130 years. The whole event could take place there since they were licensed for civil weddings that were conducted by the Registrar in Brighton. Since we were flexible with dates, the Manor said they could fit us in on a Wednesday just six weeks later. I did wonder whether it was too soon after Simon had died but Lee wanted it to happen as soon as possible and his mum was in full agreement so I therefore agreed. Besides, who was I to argue? I'd wanted this day to happen for years!

It was a June wedding and the sun was shining. The room we'd hired overlooked the park and was beautiful. One end had been set out with six chairs in a semi circle in front of a small table from which the registrar conducted the ceremony with his assistant sitting behind the table. It was a different guy from last time but he was very nice and we liked him. We'd been back to the jeweller and chosen wedding rings which were gold bands with tiny diamonds in. They were beautiful and I loved them. Dusty was there of course but he was sitting with Rene. Once we'd made our vows to each other we were pronounced husband and husband. We kissed and the onlookers clapped and cheered.

After a glass of champagne during which each guest kissed us and wished us good luck for the future, we eventually sat down for a sumptuous meal. There were no speeches this time round. We didn't feel the need since we were all seated round one table and enjoying each other's company.

Once the meal was over and we'd cut the cake that the caterers had made for us, Rene proposed a toast "And may you both have a long and happy life together" he said as he raised his glass. The others said the same and Lee and I kissed. We really were so happy and the previous ten years seemed a distant memory.

We were both feeling very emotional by the time we got home. Lee's mum had given us a group hug and a kiss before finally parting and told both of us to look after each other and no more falling out. We laughed and said that would never happen again.

"I think I could do with a nice soak in the hot tub" Lee said grinning. I knew how that would end up but I was certainly up for it in more ways than one so we hastily stripped off our wedding finery and walked down to the tub room as we called it. Dusty glanced up and gave a small woof as we walked past him in the kitchen.

When we'd soaked enough, we walked back upstairs to our bedroom. "How about I give you a massage" I grinned. Lee nodded and immediately grabbed a large towel to put down on the bed whilst I fetched the body oil I used. When I returned to the bedroom he was stretched face down on the bed with his legs wide apart and waiting for action. I was already hard so as soon as I straddled his naked body I rubbed my cock up and down his back. The actual massage was soon taken over with me fingering him with two oily fingers.

"Fuck me Ben, please" he implored so I slicked my long shaft with oil and slipped it inside him. He groaned with pleasure and squeezed my shaft inside him. It felt wonderful as I thrust back and forth. Once I felt my climax rising I pulled out, turned him over and knelt across his chest. He opened his mouth and I moved further up so he could take my head into his mouth. He then sucked away until I was drained. All the while I was yelling "Yes, yes" as my hot seed spilled out. As soon as I'd stopped shooting my load, he pushed me off him, rolled me over and straddled me. He then gave me a massage, or at least he started to do so but he too soon gave up and used the oil to finger me before fucking me with his gorgeous cock. He plunged in and out until I could feel him shooting his lovely hot cum inside me. It was the most wonderful fuck we'd had for a long time.

"Wow, that was great" he exclaimed once he'd finished and settled down beside me.

For a while we just lay there enjoying the feel of each other in our arms. I'd dreamt of this day for so long and could still hardly believe it was happening.

"Just think, this time on Friday we'll be sunning ourselves in Key West" he giggled. We'd decided at short notice to have a honeymoon in Key West since neither of us had been before. In fact I'd never been to America before so it was all very new to me. I just hoped Dusty would be okay with Rene and Darren for the ten days we were to be away but he'd stayed with them before and seemed to settle in okay.

The following evening we took him round and made sure he was settled in. I fussed over him like a small child much to Lee's amusement. "We'll not be long and we'll be back for you" I told him but whether he understood a word I was saying I had no idea. At least it made me feel better as we finally parted without him. That evening at home the place seemed empty without him but we had to be off early the following morning to get to Heathrow to pick up our flight to Miami and then an internal flight to Key West. Lee had insisted we travel first class since we had the money and that certainly made a difference since we were treated like people instead of cattle. Lee had also told me soon after the wedding that all the bank accounts had now been put into our joint names so I had access to them as much as he did. The solicitor who was handling Simon's estate was also in the process of transferring all his other investments into our joint names as well as the house. It meant that if anything happened to either of us the other was protected. Since I'd never had much money I said I'd leave that side of things to him but at least I now had money in my own account so I could spoil him when I wanted.

The flight was tedious but reasonably comfortable. Our connection at Miami also went smoothly so we were soon being driven in a taxi to the gay resort which we'd chosen. It was advertised as the best men only, clothes optional resort in the old town with its own swimming pool and hot tub. It sounded perfect and we were both excited. When we arrived the guy who checked us in was delightful and flirted with us which neither of us objected to. As he showed us to our room we saw several naked guys sunbathing by the pool. We were both excited in more ways than one by the time he'd shown us everything and given us all the information we required.

We hastily unpacked, not that we'd brought many clothes in view of the clothes optional environment, and slipped into our Speedos which we'd bought especially. Well we didn't want to show it all off just yet! Since it was lunchtime we walked round to the cafe and bar area to grab a drink and a bite to eat.

Several other guys were there and as soon as we walked in they all gave us the once over as we did them. We'd both kept our trim bodies despite the fact that neither of us worked out but all the walking with Dusty helped keep us fit, so for our thirty five years of age we both looked good. They were all very nice and soon made us feel welcome. One couple in particular, who we later found out had been together for the past twenty years and were now in their late thirties, took a particular fancy to us. They introduced themselves as Randy and Joe and Randy certainly lived up to his name as we realised later. He took great interest in both of us and used every opportunity to be tactile to say the least but it didn't bother either of us. They wanted to know where we were from and how long we'd been together and when Lee said we'd known each other since school but had only just got married Randy wanted to know what had taken us so long.

"Long story" I laughed and he raised his eyebrows as if understanding what I meant.

They lived in New York and knew Key West very well, frequently coming to this particular resort. They therefore showed us around and we spent many happy hours in their company. Their room was just two along from ours so we also spent quite a bit of time in each other's rooms and beds! From a sexual point of view all that took place was blow jobs but Randy in particular knew how to give those to perfection.

It seemed the general routine was to sunbathe naked in and out of the pool during the morning, have a siesta after lunch and then go out to see the sights of Key West in the afternoon. We then had an evening meal either at the resort's restaurant or another with Randy and Joe before going off to the gay bars. In one particular one there were Go-Go boys and I spent a fortune stuffing dollar bills down inside one guy's skimpy briefs. As he got to know me he let me have a feel of his cock, which always seemed hard from what I could see, whenever I stuffed the bill down inside. Seeing that we were up for anything, Joe suggested we went to a small club they knew. You had to be a member but since they both were they could take us as guests. The club was certainly an eye opener and by around midnight the bar boys were naked as were the dancers on stage. As with the Go-Go boys if dollars bills were plentiful they'd come and sit on your lap and let you have a good feel. Plus they'd slip their hands down inside your shorts so everyone was happy.

Frequently when we got back to the resort in the early hours of the morning, because the temperature was still fairly high we'd strip off and climb into the hot tub. It didn't take long for things to happen once several horny naked guys were sitting cheek by jowl. Guys would frequently suck each other off and on some occasions even fuck each other whilst the rest of us looked on. Randy did get Lee and I to perform one particular evening when we'd come back on a high and the other guys certainly enjoyed the show.

Lee and I had sex with each other three or four times a day. It seemed we couldn't get enough of each other and I wondered sometimes whether he and Simon ever did it but I guess they must have. We were made for each other in more ways than one and enjoyed it every time.

Finally it was time to leave so we had to say goodbye to Randy and Joe who were staying a few more days. We exchanged email addresses and promised to keep in contact. We did and several years later visited New York to see them.

We arrived home mid morning but despite being tired I wanted to go and fetch Dusty. I'd emailed Rene almost every day to make sure he was okay. He was of course but it made me feel better and several of Rene's emails included photos of Dusty having fun with them. As soon as he heard our voices he came running out to meet us with his tail wagging like mad. It was a lovely homecoming and I hugged and kissed him like mad. Having licked my neck he then ran over to Lee to do the same. It was great to see the love he had for both of us and it seemed he'd forgotten Simon altogether.

The next few months went by in perfect harmony. We were both so happy and I still enjoyed my work especially now I could decide when I worked. Having the freedom to work from home was great and in fact I found I got more done than before. I loved going to London each week and on some weeks Lee would come too with Dusty and mooch around whilst I attended meetings before meeting up in the evening for a meal and then driving home.

It was now Christmas and Lee's parents had invited us to spend it with them. We offered to have them but his mum insisted on us going there, plus dog of course.

We had a great time and I felt so much part of the family now. They'd always made me feel welcome but now I was married to their son it seemed so much better. They got to love Dusty so he too was spoilt as were we. The nice thing about having plenty of money was that we could spoil them too so we bought expensive presents for each of them and chose the kind of things we knew they'd never buy themselves. Mum always chastised us even though she knew we could afford it without any problem.

Whilst we were there that first Christmas, Lee and I were casually reading the local paper. Suddenly my eye caught a particular article that included a photograph. I immediately tensed and Lee could see my reaction.

"What's wrong love?" he asked looking at me and then the paper.

"It's him" I said as I pointed to the photo.

"You mean Cory?"

I nodded and suddenly felt unsafe. Lee immediately put his arm round me and we read the article. It was headed 'Twenty eight year-old is jailed for fifteen years'. It said that Cory had frequently enticed young gay men into his life and then controlled them to such an extent that they were afraid not to do whatever he wanted and if they didn't then he'd hit them often causing minor injury. He'd been up before the magistrates on several occasions for domestic abuse and each time had been given a suspended sentence plus community work. On this particular occasion, the young man concerned had fought back and things had got out of hand. The young man eventually died from the injuries Cory had caused. He'd then been charged with murder but it had eventually been reduced to manslaughter. In view of his history the judge imposed a fifteen year jail sentence.

"At least he's locked away now my love" Lee said clearly upset, not so much about the case itself but it brought back all that had happened coming on eleven years before. "I'm so sorry my love; will you forgive me".

I looked at him wondering what he meant. I thought all that was behind us since I'd told him on frequent occasions that the matter was forgotten. We'd both done stupid things but it seemed he still felt it was his fault and should have sat down and listened to me rather than just kick me out.

"Of course I forgive you; I did that a long time ago, you know that Lee; please forget it ever happened; we both did things we now regret but we must forget them and move on."

He took my head into his hands and looked into my eyes. "Oh god I love you so much Ben, I really do".

"I think you'd better prove it then" I giggled despite his parents sitting watching us. His face went bright red much to his mum's amusement. He then signed on my hand so she wouldn't know what he'd said "For embarrassing me like that I'm going to fuck you senseless".

"Can't wait" I signed back onto his hand with a big grin on my face.

"See you later mum, dad" he laughed as he led me upstairs. As we went I saw his dad shaking his head with a big grin on his face and his mum laughing her head off. I felt so happy.