Okay... so anyways... here goes TOSOTC 7. Just like I said. Along with DMG 7. I'm gonna try my best to get the rest of the chapters done. I know that I said that I was gonna wrap this up within the last two weeks but hey... shit happens, right? Yup... but so heres this chapter. Oh yeah... and for all you guys that read my other story, 'Turn Around', I will have an update out for that one sometime this week too. I didn't forget bout ya'll so just hang in there and wish me the best of luck with stuff. Thanks for sticking around!
EVIL DISCLAIMER:
Don't know them, wish I did though... Not implying that I know their sexuality (or homosexuality), wish I did though... if you're not at least 18 you shouldn't be reading if you don't like homosexual material then you know where to go and its starts with an 'h' and has 4 letters... not hell silly... I meant home... =)
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"DON'T FUCKING PLAY THIS SHIT WITH ME!!!!!" Oh god! What did I do? What did I do. HE fucking hates me now.
"Josh... I'm sorry... I didn't..." I didn't what? I wanted it. I forced him to kiss me. Oh god... I fucked up my friendship with Josh... the only thing that mattered to me in life... I fucked it up... oh god... I fucked it up.
"FUCK YOU JUSTIN!!!!!" Don't say that Josh... please don't mean it. I didn't mean it... I'm sorry... come on... play it off like... too late for that now... you fucked things up Justin... you fucked up big time. And he's crying... and he's leaving... you disgust him... he's heading for the door. Oh god he's gonna leave you and your gay ass alone.
"Josh, I'm sorry..." Please listen to me. Please listen to me and don't leave me... please... why can't you say anything Justin... why'd you have to do it? Why?
"Josh... please..." Go after him... don't let him slip away... make it better. I wish I could just go back and change things... I wish... I wish... I wish... Why?
"Why Justin????? Don't fucking play with me like that." He hates me... I can't look in his eyes... he hates me... What am I gonna do... what am I gonna do without him? What am I gonna do now?
"Josh... I didn't... I'm..." Go. Go get him. Make things better. Make it like it was Justin. Can you do that still? Don't leave me Josh. Please. I need you. I need you. I don't want you to hate me.
"God Justin I fucking love you and you play this fucking game like this. DON'T FUCKING PLAY WITH MY FEELINGS THAT WAY!!!!" OH MY GOD! Did he say... he did... oh my god... he... he... he... he loves me... me... he loves... he loves... me... he loves me... oh god he feels the same... he doesn't hate me... oh god he doesn't hate me... stop him before he leaves... Justin... tell him how you feel... tell him you feel the same way... DAMN IT!!!!! Talk to him before...
"Josh... I don't... I can't say... I..." Grab him before he leaves. Tell him you love him too. Oh god. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever... did I ever ever ever ever ever think that he would... and he did... he does... he loved me... loves me... he said he loves me... Make things better Justin... you can fix this now... Don't let him leave... What are you doing... tell him you love him.
"I don't want to play anymore games. Games over. No more lying. To me, to you, to our friends." Don't let him go Justin. Tell him you love him too. Tell him you love him too. Tell him you love him. Don't let him... oh god. There he... he's running... why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you say anything? Why didn't you... Thats right. Cry... Cry... Cry... you fucked your world up... go after him... go after him... don't just sit here and cry. Go after him. Where'd he go? I don't even know. Fuck... can't let people see you like this. Go back up. His cell, call his cell.
Ringing... Ringing... Ringing... god why won't he answer... ringing... ringing... fuck! Leave a message... Leave a message...
"Josh, please, when you get this come back. I want to talk, I need to talk. Josh... please." Don't cry now. Don't... cry... don't... cry...
Call him again. Call him again. Shit phone off. Voice mail... leave him another message. There you go. Do you think he can really understand you? You're not even talking clear. Justin stop crying. Call him again. Call him again. Calm down Justin. Call him again.
How many times is that already? Its been hours. He's not gonna call you back. He's not gonna listen to you. Oh god I wish I didn't hurt him like that. I wish. I wish. I wish. I wish. I wish. One more time. Justin call him one more time.
"Josh, I'm sorry for doing what I did. I'm sorry that I scared you. I'm sorry. Josh, please come back. Please, I just want to talk to you. I'm dying without you. I love you. I love you too. Josh, please." Could you stop crying for one minute. Could you stop crying for one minute? What if he's dead? What if he killed himself because I didn't tell him how I felt. I... I...
Why are you in the bathroom? What are you gonna do Justin? Its been four hours. He's not coming back. He's not coming back. You hurt him that much. You hurt him that much. Whos that in the mirror? Its you. Its you.
"I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!" Why Justin? What are you gonna do now? I want to be with him. If he... If he... I want to be with him. Oh god this is so Romeo and Juliet... What are you gonna do with the razor? Call him one more time... Justin... What are you doing?
"Josh. I love you. I always have. And I can't live without you. I really can't. I can't stand the fact that you might hate me and that I hurt you. I don't deserve your friendship and your love. But I love you. I don't deserve to... I love you Joshua Scott Chasez... I love you. And I can't... I can't live with you hating me... I can't... I can't." Why'd you hang up? Why didn't you finish? Are you gonna finish Justin? What are you doing Justin? Ow. Its sharp. What are you gonna do? What are you gon... do....
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Okay, yeah. Another semi-morbid and depressing. Yeah and its such a departure from what you guys have been used to with all the other installments But its done and its here on nifty and I'm gonna finish it up and I haven't forgotten about you guys and didn't mean to leave you hanging for soooooo long... but... yup... see theres always a but... hehehehehe... anyways.... questions, comments, flames, food, money, donations, JC and/or Justin can be sent to my e-mail at vocal76@hotmail.com... pEaCe aNd aDoBo gReAsE!!!!!