Dilemma for Tony
This is a work of pure fiction, but based on the author's feelings, beliefs, and in some cases, experience. Come to think of it -- it might not be all that pure!
There may be graphic sexual encounters at times between men, so if this offends you, you are invited to retreat. If you are too young or it is otherwise illegal for you to be reading this kind of story, shame on you for reading it -- please stop here. If not, --ENJOY!
Cast of characters:
Tony diMarco -- yeah -- I am he!(CA)
Ben Hastings -- First love(Maui)
Ben Fisk -- First sex (+4 years)
Lucas diMarco -- my dad
Wendy diMarco -- my mom.
Joseph -- my Brother -- 17
Levi -- my brother - 15
Fred Stumpf -- 31 year old inactive member.
Johnnie Weinberg -- LDS Missionary
Ashton Staedler -- New friend
Mike Hoffman -- Ashton's Half-Brother
Geoff Redmond -- Mike's Friend
Rollin James -- Hawaiian High diver & government translator
Grandpa Antonio DiMarco
Grandma Rose
From Ch. 22:
Rollie strode to us now and walked up to me and hugged me closely. Then, when I was slow to react and introduce them he smiled broadly at Aaron and said, "You must be the famous Levi I've heard about! Geez, Tony, you didn't tell me your little brother was so cute!"
Aaron blinked and blushed. "I -- I -- I -- yeah. That must be me." He said, offering his hand. Aaron grabbed it and pumped it enthusiastically.
"Well, let's get home. You like to swim, Levi?"
Chapter 23
"Yeah." Said Aaron shyly. "But most people call me Aaron.
"Oh! Middle name huh?"
"No. I never liked Levi much -- so I started having people call me Aaron."
"OOoh! You mean like Aaron is a descendant of Levi! Cool!" Said Rollie, never lowering his energy level.
"Fred's coming later this week, Tone, how long will your brother be here?"
"A couple days. We both need to get back -- um -- home -- and I'll come back a little later."
Rollie's face darkened momentarily, but soon turned sunny again. "Well, I have a great pool. Did you bring something to swim in?"
"Yeah."
"Great. I wish he could see Fred and me do our twister. We're gonna do it again -- kind of a comeback debut -- on Saturday."
Aaron looked up at me expectantly.
"We'll see how it goes." I said. "Maybe after a couple days, I can call and ask if it's okay for you to stay longer. Mom is really worried -- after what's happened to me."
"I guess we can't blame her for that." Said Rollie. Rollie walked back to the car and opened a rear door for Aaron. As Aaron stooped down to get in, Rollie grabbed his biceps. "Wow! Your little brother isn't so little is he?! Look at those!" Again, Aaron blushed and got in the car.
Just as Rollie was closing the door, we heard footsteps running up behind us. "Hey! Punk! Why you fucking with those Haoles?" Said the voice. He didn't stop short when he came close and he grabbed me. "Didn't anyone tell you how to handle these scum?" As he pinned me up against the front door.
In less than a second, Aaron was out of his door and he smacked the huge islander across the head. He hardly even winced, but he let me go and turned his fury on Aaron. I was ready to crap my pants -- again -- but no matter what, I was going to do whatever I could to defend my brother.
The islander's fist whizzed past me and toward Aaron's face. I was slow, but Aaron wasn't! He deflected the blow, grabbed the large arm and pulled him in, ramming his elbow in the guys ribs and then his knee in his nuts. His head hit the top of the front door frame as he bent over in pain. I thought I heard something crack. I prayed it wasn't anything in my brother.
The big guy groaned and went down. Aaron went down on top of him and delivered a deep blow to his gut. He moaned and went into a fetal position. Aaron got up and stepped back, then spoke -- in the other guy's language -- so he wouldn't misunderstand -- "Now get the fuck outa here, Creep!"
I looked at my little brother in amazement. The big guy got up and limped away. When he got far enough away, he turned and said, threateningly, "Better watch yourself, Haole loving fucker!" Obviously directed at Rollie.
Aaron took a couple steps toward him. and he turned quickly and limped away.
"Wo! I think you just made me a new enemy!" quipped Rollie, lightly.
That was the last straw for my 15-year-old brother. He quickly sat down in the rear seat and started to cry. "I can't do anything right, can I?"
Rollie looked bewildered. "Wha - ? Noooo! Levi -- you didn't do anything wrong! If you didn't do that I would have at least tried. I just wouldn't have been able to do as much damage -- and in reality, the damage probably would have been on us! That creep was drunk!"
"Remind me never to get drunk!" Said Aaron, sniveling a little.
"Matter of fact, we probably should get our asses outa here before he comes back with a couple friends."
We hopped in the car and sped off.
When we got to Rollie's house, he pointed to a room and said, "You can put your stuff in there."
"Oh -- so this is your room, Tony?"
"No." I said.
Aaron looked puzzled, as he glanced around for another room. Rollie instantly got that Aaron didn't know yet -- about "us". "We'll be using that room for studying. That way if one of us wants to go to bed early, the other has a place to study."
"Oh. I see." Said my naïve little brother. "But -- there's bunk beds in here."
"Yes, and two desks, as you can see." I said. And little brother -- I have to tell you something else."
"What?"
"There's only one -- queen sized -- bed in the other bedroom."
"Oh. Okay."
"Aaron -- do you get that -- Rollie and I are partners?"
"You already told me that. But you never told me the business that you guys are partners in."
I looked at Rollie. He was smiling sympathetically at me. "We're not that kind of partners, Bro. We sleep together. You know -- we're boyfriends."
Aaron looked at me -- then he looked at Rollie -- and did that several times before it sank in.
"OOohhh! You mean - ?" We both nodded our heads. "You mean -- you're - " he paused and then whispered, "gay?!!" his eyes popping out of his head.
"Yes, Aaron." I said with a somber face. "We are gay."
He looked between us a couple times again. Then he grinned. "Wo!" He said. "My brother's a fa -- I mean - "
"Yup, `fraid so, Bro. Your big brother's a fag!"
Then he said something that I shall always remember: "How cool is that?!" He had a grin spread all across his face.
"It's not all it's cracked up to be." I said soberly.
"Hey!" Aaron said suddenly. "Maybe I won't be a flight attendant after all!"
"Why?" I said.
"I thought it might be cool to work with a bunch of fa -- I mean -- gay guys. But now I have one of my own - - as a brother!" He grinned. "Maybe instead of becoming a flight attendant -- I can apply to be your -- body guard!"
"Well, obviously, you could definitely pass the physical," Laughed Rollie. "for either job!" Aaron looked proud as he almost did a pirouette in front of us, grinning. "But -- I kind of get that you're not - - gay, huh?"
Aarons face went slack and lost color. "Naw! That stuff's okay for you guys. But I still like gay guys. I thing their funny."
I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up. I had to remind myself that this boy was only 15. I said evenly, "You mean -- you like to laugh at us?"
"Wha? Oh heck no, Tony! But most gay guys I know -- you know in school and stuff -- are just funny. Always joking and stuff. They even joke about themselves."
"Amazing how things have changed since I went to school." I marveled.
"Fred would be laughing at YOU now, Tony." Said Rollie. "It hasn't been that long since we went to school. Only 4 years for you -- and 6 for me."
"I know, but when we went to school, there were not regular raves with girls lining up to suck guys dicks. That seems just wrong!" I said.
"What?!" Said Rollie. "Who does that?"
"According to my other brother, Joey, it's no big thing, either -- to most kids."
"That's true." Said Aaron.
"You've never been to one of those parties -- have you?" I exclaimed.
Aaron was silent, but his expression told me he had. Then he said, "I play football! I'm captain of the Bee team! You think I don't get invited to -- to -- those parties?"
"Omigosh, Aaron! I just can't picture you with a girl doing - "
"I never said I did it. I've only been to a couple parties." He said defensively.
"Did you -- erm -- watch?" I asked, still obviously incredulous.
"It's hard not to. Sometimes they do it in rings. The girls put on fresh lipstick -- real thick, then the first girl will kiss a guys head -- you know of his -- dick. Each next girl has to put her lipstick further down on the shaft than the one before. When they're finished , the guy's dicks are ringed with different colored lipstick!" He said, starting to rub his crotch.
"What do you mean rings?" Said Rollie, now drawn in.
"Well, they don't always do that. But sometimes all the guys -- well -- all the ones who want to participate -- which is most of the team -- get in a circle and if there are enough girls, they each get in front of a guy and start him out, then they go around the circle, and try to go deeper with each guy."
"Try?"
"Well, some of the girls choke out. Most do, but some go all the way to the base."
"I doubt anyone would ever get to your base -- if what Joey says is true -- about you."
"Joe exaggerates because he's so small!" Laughed Aaron. "But -- all the guys always tease me because they want me to get in the circle."
"Why don't you?" asked Rollie, though I knew he knew why.
"It's not worth it. I may want to go on a mission when I'm 19."
"Cool!" Both Rollie and I said in unison. "Best two years of your life!" said Rollie.
"Oh -- where did you go?" Aaron asked Rollie.
"I didn't go, but that's what everyone says. Tony went -- did you feel the same way -- Tony?"
"I -- yes. It was a little different for me, because of -- this -- but -- yes, it was still good. I was heart broken a couple times when I or my comp got transferred. I was in love with at least three of my companions. They never knew it - - but I did."
"And it was still the best two years of your life?" Asked Aaron.
"It really was, Bro."
"Good. Okay -- I'm goin'."
"Huh?" I asked.
"Isn't that why Mom and Dad wanted you to take me to Honolulu? To convince me to go on a mission? I've been wondering if I really wanted to go. I know that Mom and Dad would be disappointed if I didn't. But if it was even good for you -- and with your -- um -- you know -- then I guess I'll go."
"Let me tell you something, Aaron." Said Rollie. "Four of my classmates went on missions about the same time. I couldn't go because I knew I was gay and that precludes a mission."
"I really didn't realize I was gay until after I was on my mission." I interjected.
"But anyway, my friends -- I mean, at least going by what they told me -- `I guess I'll go' isn't enough."
"Huh?" Aaron said.
"I think what Rollie is telling you is that you have to really want to go -- more than anything in the world." I said. Rollie nodded.
"Oh. Um -- if that was not why you invited me over here -- why did you?"
I decided it was best to lie about this one. I was pretty sure that my little brother was not gay by this time, but I wanted to be more sure and - - I didn't want to put him on the defensive. "I told you -- I want to get to know you better. You're a very cool little brother to have. We just haven't been very close."
And that, I decided, was to be the reason for the rest of his stay with us.
"Um -- did you say there is a pool here?" Said Aaron, almost sounding incredulous. The house just does not look like one that would have a pool in the yard.
Rollie pulled the curtain aside and Aaron's mouth dropped. "Is that -- a -- what? 6 meter - "
"It's a 10 meter platform. The highest board is at 6 though."
"Hah! That almost makes me dizzy." Said Aaron.
"Yeah, it's a little high for beginners. You probably will want to stick to the 3 meter."
"Okay, now you have challenged me. I'm GOIN' off that 10 meter platform!" Said my brother. He looked out and saw the high fence and asked, "Is your pool clothing optional when it's just guys?"
"Well, that would be fine except for two things." Said Rollie.
"What?" Asked Aaron,
"Well, for starters, the fence is only 10 feet high, so the neighbors may see you, if they are looking, but -- also -- at the speed you are traveling when you hit the water from 10 meters -- you want something to keep your balls in close to your body!" Aaron unconsciously squeezed his balls.
Aaron went to the bedroom and brought out his swim suit. He showed it to Rollie. Rollie looked at it, turning it inside out. "Hm -- no support inside. You have any briefs?" Aaron shook his head no. "Then you'll want to wear one of my swim jocks." Rollie went to his -- oops -- OUR bedroom and came out with a brief swim jock. Aaron giggled because it was very small. "It stretches. And -- you WANT it pretty tight -- to hold it all in close."
Aaron took it and said, "Okay!" And he dropped his pants and boxers there on the floor and started to put on the swim jock. He looked up only once, but caught both Rollie and me -- with our mouths and eyes open wide.
"I think you're bigger than -- I mean -- Joey told me you were -- gah! That thing would choke a -- well -- definitely one of those girls at a rave -- that's for sure!" I said.
Aaron giggled and pulled on the spandex jock. It almost stretched over his meat. Rollie said, "Roll it in."
"Huh?"
"You know -- push the head in and roll the rest into the skin."
Aaron stood there not understanding what Rollie was telling him, and finally just crossed his arms and pouted.
"Like this." Said Rollie. Rollie pushed down his own pants and took his dick by the shaft and poked the head into the skin and kept pushing and rolled it up almost to his body. "See?"
Aaron did as he was shown and then held it there with the jock. I was getting hard as a rock, but Aaron's dick stayed soft and small. (Well, okay -- no stretch of the imagination could call that monster small!) But it stayed soft and didn`t swell up at all. When I was his age, I got hard while I got a sports physical. Luckily no one else on the team was there. But the coach was! I was never so embarrassed in my short life! But that didn't keep me from wooding up.
I don't think Aaron's gay!
We had fun swimming and playing water tag. Again, I was hard as a rock by the time we finished, but I could see no evidence of it in my brother.
After two nights, I told Aaron we should call to ask about him staying till the weekend. "DO NOT mention the little altercation we had at the airport!" I said. "That's exactly the kind of thing that will convince her that you should come home!"
"I may be only 15, but I'm not stupid!" He said, keying in our home number. As he waited for an answer, he said, "I know how to get around my mom!" He made a squinchy-face and said, "Oh hi Mom! Fine. Great. Yup. Well, um -- I wanted to ask you something. Yeah. I know Mom, but -- wait!" He took a breath and looked at the ceiling. "Mom -- I've made a decision. No, it's nothing like that. Mom! No! I'm not gay! Sheesh!" Aaron looked really agitated after that exchange. I made the calm down with my hands. He took a deep breath. "Yeah, what I wanted to tell you -- oh -- just -- never mind!" he broke into tears.
I heard my mom getting almost hysterical through the phone. I held out my hand. Aaron handed it to me.
"Mom -- it's Tony."
"What's wrong with your brother?" She pleaded.
I was pretty sure I knew what he was going to tell her, but I said, "Just a minute."
I handed the phone back to Aaron. "We -- we -- talked a lot and -- after talking to Tony and Rollie, I've decided to go on a mission."
It was obvious that the other end of the phone was now quiet. Finally Mom said something. "Yeah, Mom, it was exactly the reason. Uh huh. No -- you can tell Dad. Uh-huh. Yeah. Anyway -- I wanna stay until Sunday so I can watch Rollie dive with Fred Stumph. Yup! Okay. I wi -- yes Mom! We will -- be careful! Love you too. Oh -- WAIT! Can Joe come over too?"
Aaron looked at me and I looked at Rollie. We both nodded. Aaron handed the phone to me.
"Hi." I said.
"Do you have room for another boy there?" she asked me.
"Mom, you can hardly call Joe a boy. But yes we have plenty - "
"I don't want those boys sleeping together!"
"Mom -- in the first place there are bunk beds in the extra room. And in the second place -- if they did sleep together -- so what? They wouldn't be doing anything!"
"Well -- where do YOU sleep?"
I threw my head back in a silent scream. "I sleep in the other bedroom -- you know -- in the same bed as my partner. And we'll try not to make too much noise so we won't pervert my brothers!"
"You don't have to be a smart ass, Antonio! I'll have Joey call you."
"Thanks, mom. And I'm sorry. I was only kidding."
"Oh -- so you won't be sleeping with that boy?"
AARRGGHH!!!!! (I said, silently)
"Nope -- well probably not, anyway. We'll probably be too busy DOING each other to sleep!"
"Antonio!"
"Seriously, I won't be sleeping with any boy, Mom."
"So -- that's better!" She said
Rollie's a man!" I quipped.
"Mom -- I'm home!" I heard in the background.
"Oh good let me talk to Joey!"
"Joseph -- it's your brother." She said with mock disgust.
"I have two brothers." He said to Mom then "Who's this? Tony?"
"Yeah. Hey, can you come over here for the weekend. Mom wants you to be sure that Rollie doesn't molest your little brother!"
"Hey," he said laughing, "any reason's good enough for me! Although Aaron's coach may not be happy when he finds out why I have to come over there. Spring training, you know. I dunno how Aaron got out of it this week."
"Yeah, that's it, Joe! Just tell him you have to protect your little brother from the queers!" I laughed. "And by the way -- your little brother is definitely straight -- if you had any worries."
"Okay -- when can I come?"
"Well, probably sometime before you get here would be best -- unless you plan on saving that for Aaron!" I was on a roll.
"That's nasty!" laughed Joey. "No Mom, it's just us being brothers!" He said to Mom.
"She is afraid you might sleep in the same bed with Aaron." I said.
"What? I can't cuddle with my little brother!?"
"Now you boys are just plain being silly!" Said my mom.
"Yeah -- there's a reason for it - - Mom." Said Joey and I heard him kiss her.
"You boys'll be the death of me yet!" she said -- by now laughing with us.
"What shall bring?"
"I doubt you'll need anything except some shorts and a couple tees. Oh -- and a swim suit."
"I don't go anywhere without my swim suit. Mom -- when can we leave?"
"I'll take you as soon as you have eaten breakfast."
"Just call us when you get in, Joe." I said. "We're not that far from the airport."
"I'll call you just before I take off. I know it's a short flight."
"Perfect! Bye!"
"So -- your brother will be coming out here this morning." I said to Aaron. He beamed.
As I said, I'm still getting to know my youngest brother, but Aaron idolizes Joe. They even got their Eagle Scout Awards together. There is this old Hawaiian woman who joined the church after her husband died. She has helped the scouts with their progress since before I can remember. She helped me get my Eagle as well.
When we picked up Joe, Aaron was looking around a little too much and Joe asked, "What's up, little one? You seem to be looking for something - - or someone - ?"
"Dude! When Tony and I arrived, we were attacked in the parking lot."
"Joey -- you CANNOT tell the folks about this!" I said.
"What happened?"
"A drunk guy -- looked like a Tongan to me -- attacked Tony."
"No shit!?" Said Joe. "Oops -- no kidding? Hm -- you both look fine. Did you teach him anything."
"I don't think he was up for learning, but I introduced his ribs to my elbow. I heard one of them crack and - - I don't think it was mine!"
"Did you mess up his face? "
I was up against the car, so I was limited in my range of movement. But when I pulled him in, his head hit the door frame pretty hard. This guy was huge. I think that's what got his attention, more than the cracked rib. He went down. `Course his balls became intimate with my knee too!
"Did you finish it?"
"Yeah. He had a very soft gut. That had to hurt him too."
"Wow! Then what did he do?"
"He got up and ran."
"Well, maybe we can't tell Mom and Dad about this, but you know you have to report it to Antonio. It's part of the code. Any real altercations need to be reported to him."
"I know." Said Aaron, looking at the ground.
"Tony -- have you met out Taekwondo instructor? His name's Antonio too. You HAVE to -- oh that's right -- you'll be living over here now. Well, I wish you could come to our Taekwondo class."
I was wishing the same thing. I had gone to their black belt testing a few weeks before I was kidnapped. I really must learn some self defense techniques.
The rear seat in Rollie's little mini-car is pretty small, but that didn't seem to bother my brothers. Joe had to put his arm on the backrest for them to sit side by side. Aaron didn't really HAVE to snuggle under it -- but he did! I was happy that they were so close. I know lots of guys who hate their younger brothers.
My next surprise was when I went in to say goodnight to them. We invited Rollie in to our family prayer. We all knelt around the bunk bed and I asked Joe to say it. He said a beautiful prayer, of course thanking God for the opportunity for the three of us -- really the four if us -- to be together. Then before we left the room, they climbed into the double bed on the bottom together.
"There are clean sheets up top too." Said Rollie.
"We like to sleep together." Said Joe. Aaron looked slightly embarrassed -- but not Joe.
"G'night, guys!" I said, and just before I turned off their light, I saw Aaron snuggle close into Joe's body. My heart sped up and my whole body felt glad. Two brothers, both straight as arrows, who have such love and trust for each other.
"Tony!" Said one of them.
I stuck my head back in the door. "Thanks. We can't do this any more at home." Said Joe
I came back and hugged them both. God can't NOT love this kind of pure love! I kissed each of them on the cheek. Well, I tried to anyway. When I got to Joe, he turned quickly and got me on the mouth. "I love you, Tony!" He whispered.
"Me too!" Said Aaron.
"Me too," I was able to croak out and quickly left the room. I don't think they caught on that I was crying.
"You okay?" Asked Rollie, seeing my red eyes.
"Yes!" I averred. "I am as okay as I've ever been!"
"I sometimes wish I had brothers."
"It seems like the older they get, the more I love them."
" I guess ignorance is bliss. I mean I can see how much you love them -- how much your whole family means to you, but -- all I have is my mother -- and so I can understand to that degree. Fred has both parents -- so that must be different. But I don't think both his parents are as close to him as my mother is to me."
I didn't mean to put Rollie into a melancholy mood. But then he got his uke and started to sing to me. First he sang me the song he composed for me, then several in Hawaiian. I wished I had learned Hawaiian. I almost went to sleep. He stopped playing and came to bed. He snuggled up into my body and pulled my arm over him, hugging my hand into his chest. "Maybe you can share your brothers with me." He said.
"I think they'd like that." He turned around and kissed me sweetly. I kissed him back, deeper and more passionately. I lifted him on top of me and he laid his head on my chest, our groins communicating in their own way.
We woke up in the same position. "I gotta be at work a little early this morning. Does Joe like to sleep as much as Aaron does?"
"I guess. They're both still growing boy, you know!" I smiled.
"Well, let them sleep. " he pecked me on the lips and rolled off me and out of bed. "Um -- thanks for letting me participate in your family prayer last night. That meant the world to me."
"You wanna pray now?" I asked.
"Mom and I prayed every morning and evening."
"You wanna do that?" I asked.
"Do you?"
"I -- um -- yeah! That would be nice -- great, in fact."
"I'll start." He said.
He knelt by the bed. I hopped out and knelt by his side, holding his hand.
"Heavenly Father. Thank you for bringing this Haole into my life. Please let us learn from each other. Thanks for our families and please bless them all with the desires of their hearts -- if it be thy will. Please bless this boy here beside me and help us to understand our places in the world. Help us to be safe throughout this day -- and to be a light to others. In the name of thy Son, Amen."
"I need to turn on the light to get my stuff together." He said. "Sorry. Hey! Why don't you go and climb into the other bed in your brothers' room. That way, you can go back to sleep and wake up with them -- and my getting ready won't bother you."
"You couldn't bother me," I said, "but that's a good idea. Rollie was naked. I stood and pulled him into me for a long hug. "Bye!" I said.
I padded off and quietly pushed open my brothers' door. "Hi Tony. Is it time to get up already?" Said Aaron. Joe just groaned.
"No. Rollie has to go to work early this morning, so I came in here so he wouldn't have to get ready in the dark."
"Okay." Said Aaron. He was spooned up close to Joe, and as I started to climb up to the other bed, he opened the covers. "NOoooo! Come in here with us!"
The last time I could remember snuggling with my brothers was when I was about 11 and they were 4 and 8. I don't remember it feeling this good. I went to sleep quickly in their warm embrace. I only remember waking once: I had not closed the door and I saw Rollie standing in the door, smiling at the three of us, just before he left for work.
Notes: I truly have no idea exactly where this is going, but I think I like it. Comments are always welcome, to: Steve at stevethomas535@hotmail.com. Thanks and - - Love, Steve