Hello dear readers, it's been a while since I chatted with you, but a lot has happened, and it's been hard to deal with. After all, can you imagine a man taking away whatever masculinity you have, no matter how insignificant, and turning your life upside down? I'm told it's for the best, that's what the men in my life tell me, and even most of the women I know at work. To them I am a mistake of nature, and a correction is simply being made. I am now known as Danielle, to others and also legally,
To those of you who don't know me, or my story, well here it is, in a nut shell, so to speak. Until about six months ago I lived life as Dan, a lonely mid level executive. I had no one in my life. I learned a long time ago I could never satisfy a woman with my embarrassingly small penis, and the only sex I had was with men. Again my miniscule equipment usually dictated I was to be the one on the bottom, the receiver, if you will. That, and my demeanor, which has always been of a person who was polite and respectful, and non-confrontational. Walt tells me I was a coward.
He found me attractive though, and there was something he saw that he liked, because he enlisted the help of his father to feminize and dominate me. Walt says he intends to marry me, when I am worthy. A judge seemed to agree, because a petition was granted to change my name legally to Danielle. He laughed when he approved the change and signed the order, obviously having no affection for those of us who are gender challenged.
I learn more and more about being female every day, the way I dress, the way I move, the way I pleasure males. Walt and his Daddy have been instrumental in my development, watching and correcting me, teaching me the way a male likes to be pleasured.
They started me on hormones almost immediately, telling me they were girly vitamins. I suspected they were more, but I said nothing since they are so strong and persuasive. I now know they are not only female hormones, but testosterone blockers to allow the estrogen to really work properly. I have seen my skin become softer, my nipples became puffy and sensitive, and my poor little cock shriveled up and became permanently limp. It bothered me for some time, but over the last few months there have been further changes to me that make returning to a life as a male quite impossible!
When I last wrote you I was helping Walt host a cocktail party at his house, where he, his Dad, and I live. They got me drunk and then in the witness of real men, I was castrated.
I know, so extreme! I didn't feel much thank goodness, but the reality is that my smooth little sacks were opened surgically from behind and my testicles were removed and discarded. I seem to remember men cheering when the act was done, and I know when I woke the next day I was sore and reeked of cum. It was as if man after man ejaculated on me or in my mouth after the procedure.
The wound has healed now and it has made me more feminine and accepting of my place in life. I cried for a few days, but Walt held me and told me he loved my empty little sack and my soft little clit. He even worked on my clit with his mouth, which was ticklish and made me squirm until I begged him to stop. I found that when he loved my little nub it would make me ever so horny to have his cock in my mouth, and we would quickly change positions to the one I am most accustomed now, on my knees before a man, making love to his big manly cock with my mouth. With the encouragement he gives me, and the oral talents I have developed, I have accepted my position, I am told I am a sissy cock slut.
Walt said he agreed to my feminization at the insistence of his Dad, who refuses to have his son marry another man, even in the current climate of accepting gay marriage and unions. The power his Daddy has over Walt and I is enormous, as is his big fat cock, which I must regularly service.
I grew to accept it, what else could I do? Without the interference of a pesky penis distracting me, I can focus on what is important, making a man feel good. I have learned that when I make a man cum it makes me feel excited and somehow whole inside, and I seem to get as much out of it as the man who ejaculates into my hungry mouth. To this point Daddy is the only man who fucks me, its part of the training he is supplying me, getting me ready for his son Walt. Walt receives oral satisfaction from me on a daily basis, usually several times a day! He has also been good enough to share my mouth with other men, he feels it helps my training, and I've become quite fond of having a dick in my mouth as you know!
You may remember that Walt and I work together, and we had a meeting with the head of human resources concerning the changes he had planned for me. The folks at work have mostly all been very supportive, and even allowed me to withdraw from my 401K plan to further my transformation. They felt breast augmentation was an appropriate covered medical reason to withdraw funds, and I now have very full, heavy breasts!
When we met with the doctor and he asked me what size breasts I wanted I requested breasts that would be on the small side, sweet and befitting of my frame. He asked Walt what he wanted and Walt said "Great big knockers, Doc...DD's if you can do it!"
When I awoke from the surgery I could feel the weight of my new breasts on my chest, and it scared me a bit! I reached up to feel them and they were enormous! Obviously Walt's needs were more important than my own. When I got up from the bed and hobbled over to look in the mirror in the bathroom I was shocked...they were huge! Big and round, with large protruding nipples almost an inch in length! I slipped off my hospital gown and felt them, holding their weight in my hands and when I touched the nipples they were so sore I almost screamed! I looked like some kind of a porn princess!
Walt found me crying in the hospital bathroom and he took me in his arms and kissed me, deep and hard on the lips! I could feel my new breasts poking into his chest as he tongued me, making me swoon. Despite what he has done to me I do love him, and when he kisses me and hold me the way a man holds a woman it makes me weak!
Walt pulled his lips from mine and with a smile he pushed me down on my knees before him, I looked up at his face. His eyes were focused on my new boobies as he unzipped his pants. I watched him as he opened the fly and pulled out his big penis, which was incredibly hard. I was about to lean in and kiss the head when he pulled my head back.
"No Danielle, I don't want to fuck your mouth baby, I wanna fuck your new titties!"
I gasped as he rested his hard cock right between them, nestling his throbbing cock between the two obnoxious mounds! I gasped as he grabbed each nipple between his finger and his thumb, moaning at the pain.
As he began to pinch he pulled them tightly together, making his cock even further enveloped between my new breasts. He leaned his head over and let a big gob of his droll land on me, between my new breasts, lubricating his way!
"I've been waiting for a good titty fuck from you, baby! Aren't you glad you got these big knockers? I sure am!"
I moaned in pain as my lover rocked back and forth, massaging his cock flesh with my sore breasts, fucking back and forth, back and forth, a steady rhythmic fucking!
I tried to lick the tip of the cock whenever it neared my mouth and he just laughed at me! We must have been quite a sight there in the hospital washroom...me naked on my knees, and he fully clothed, using me in the most humiliating fashion, his hard juicy cock sticking lewdly out of his fly!
It ended rather quickly thank goodness, he never let me kiss it or lick it, he just used me for his pleasure as a man will do I guess.
"Oh baby I just love your new tits! I love fucking them! It was worth every penny you took from your retirement funds! They're magnificent! I can't wait for Daddy to see them...he'll love them...he always gets turned on by big titted whores....not that you're a whore or anything, Danielle, I didn't mean that! You're a good girl, my girl, and your tits are so hot I'm gonna shoot my load all over the place!"
I sighed and opened my mouth! The pain from my nipples was now feeling good, and I anticipated swallowing his man cum as I had done so many times. But this time was different...When he did shoot it was intense, and the sperm went all over my face, my neck and my chest!
I felt so degraded! After he shot he pulled his cock away from me, wiped it on my cheek and stuffed it back into his pants.
"I've gotta get back to work baby, it's my lunch hour. Daddy and I will stop in to see you tonight, sexy! Thanks for the titty fuck! Be a good girl!"
He left me there still kneeling on the floor. I felt totally used. I shed a few tears, as a girl would, and a minute or two later the nurse found me there on the floor crying, sticky cum all over me!
"You naughty patient! You're not allowed to have sex in the hospital. I guess your new breasts made you so excited you shot your semen all over yourself! It happens of course! That's quite a bit of ejaculate from such a tiny penis and scrotum though!"
I blushed in embarrassment and covered my shame with my hands.
"It's not from me nurse, I can no longer produce cum like a man."
"Well I should have known, such a tiny penis could never deliver such a man sized load! Come on, let me help you up and get you back into bed!
It must have been quite a large cock to produce so much of a mess! Who was it honey, your boyfriend?"
"Yes, nurse...and he is incredibly horny and virile. He tells me I'm better off this way."
"Well with such tiny equipment I don't see how you could ever make a real woman happy...unless you use your mouth I suppose, but that's not enough for women, they need a nice big cock inside them to make them feel fulfilled."
"Yes of course, I know."
"Of course you do sweetie. As man I'm sure you were quite the failure. But now...you'll certainly get men's attention with these big boobies, honey!"
The nurse helped me to stand and then she helped me lie down. She took a warm washcloth and began to wipe me clean, which felt wonderful!
"Oh dear, you even have semen in your hair! Oh well, you're not scheduled for a bath until tomorrow at the very least, so I'm afraid that semen will have to dry naturally! If anyone asks you about it, just tell them you were using some hair gel. Your breasts are healing nicely Danielle, whatever possessed you to get such large implants?
"It wasn't my decision"
The nurse only smiled knowingly.
The smell of semen filled the air, and the nurse took my gown away, which was also from stray shots of Walt's semen. He really came a lot, he must be horny since I've been in the hospital having my breast surgery. I was reminded of how potent and manly Walt really is, I could have never produced so much ejaculate, never in a million years!
The weight of the breasts on my small frame was something that was very difficult to accept. I knew they were here to stay, and they might help others perceive me now as a female, making my life easier. But they were so big and unnatural looking I wasn't sure. I reached down to feel them, and found it was terribly exciting to run the tips of my fingers around the breasts, making ever smaller circles until I reached the aureola. By that time I felt funny inside, like when I am servicing a penis, and I felt it inside of me. An orgasm, a girly orgasm, made me shake and become short of breath. When I pinched my now prominent nipples I just moaned and passed out from the incredible feelings of pain and submission.