Hi everyone!
The last few weeks have been a bit of a blur, truth be told a further decline for me in retaining any kind of masculinity, and I find I don't mind it so much anymore, it seems all quite normal to me now. It was hard to accept at first, I wasn't sure about listening to and obeying Walt and his Dad the way I do. But when I would think too much, or have questions, I found a hard cock was quickly stuffed into my mouth or my bottom, and this positive reinforcement and my natural submissiveness would numb me to what was happening to me, to my body and my mind
I really don't consider myself male anymore. After all, I dress as a woman at work and at home, and my supposed fiancee (Hey, I haven't seen a ring yet!) has taken control of my entire life. It's better this way, no more decisions to fret about and Walt does know best I'm sure. He and his Dad are convinced I was never really male at all, just a girl with a tiny insignificant penis.
Walt and his Dad have been using me for their pleasure of course, they are men and my superiors after all, but even the aggressive women I encounter are treating me as their servant or as simply beneath them, I'm being forced to do the most menial office tasks while the horrid bitches sit and smirk at me, looking for any imperfection in my wardrobe, makeup, or my mannerisms that would reveal me to be male, and subject to their sarcasm. I remember my place though and try to fit in without causing incident. I was a passive male and now all pretense has been thrown aside. As I am reminded I am a sissy slut and do as I am told.
It can be truly degrading and very humiliating. I am constantly reminded of my place. A few days ago I was actually approached by two of the meanest women in our department as we were finishing up in the bathroom. Cindy, the owner's niece was the worst, she's always been able to get away with murder, anyway as we were washing up she and her friend decided that I was starting my period, and she forced me to take a dry tampon and put it up my asspussy! It was difficult to put it up there dry, but I did it of course. They laughed when they saw the little string hanging between my cheeks, and I definitely walked funny the rest of the day!
I don't really want to stand out after all. I accept that I have been forced to become what I must be inside, female. I have to trust in Walt's affection for me and trust that he knows whats best for me. I knew of course that I enjoyed servicing men sexually, I haf some gay experiences of course...but it wasn't until submitting to a man while fully dressed and in a female role that made me realize how much enjoyment I actually get from it myself, deep inside. I'm not talking about male orgasms here, those sticky messy eruptions. That door is closing to me now. The pills that I have been given for the last few months have done a very good job of changing me, how long has it been since I was hard and spurted? You know, I can't even remember.! My little sheclit is even smaller than it ever was, only a about an inch long at this point, and my sissy orbs have shrunken up considerably. No matter, that life is just a blur to me now. A blur of taffeta and silk, of lip gloss and eye shadow, of providing others pleasure with my talented holes.
What I have begun feeling now is a tingling inside, when I am servicing a man, a tingling that grows and grows and then leaves me weak. A different way to orgasm, a sissy way to orgasm.
The combination of testosterone blockers and estrogen I have been taking, along with a strong mood relaxer, have resulted in my body going through so many changes, and I have accepted them submissively! My skin and hair are softer, I'm much more emotional now and cry at the drop of a hat, and while my male genitalia has shrunken up and tried to disappear, I can't say the same for my breasts!
I'll bet you'd like me to tell you they are 36DDs, right? Well, that's not the case, pumpkin! At first the nipples itched me mercilessly and then after a week or two I noticed how prominent my nipples were becoming...hard, erect, engorged nipples that had me playing with them night and day, getting off on the sensations of pinching and twisting them. Of course Walt and his Dad discovered the sensitivity and the delight they could take in tormenting me, and Walt is particularly good at gently biting on them and making me shake all over until I collapse from sissy orgasms! I am literally putty in his strong masculine hands!
Well just the other day I noticed how the area behind the nipple is starting to puff up a bit, like a pubescent girl, and god help me, I love it! I love the feelings of a silk blouse rubbing against my nipples, a man sucking on them and teasing them with his mouth, but mostly I get excited about the idea that I am growing breasts, real breasts that will not go away, that will brand me forever as a female or something in between. A sex doll created for the pleasure of others. Ooh, that just gave me a tingle girls!
I got home from work tonight and went to my room and changed into what I typically wear around the house as I service Walt and his Dad...A garter belt and stockings, matching panties, short heels and a silky robe which sensually torments my budding chest. Tonight it is a pretty purple garter and panty set, with my robe of large colorful flowers. I freshened my makeup after work and pulled off my wig and combed out my own hair. Walt instructed me to stop cutting it and it's almost long enough now to be fashioned into a girly style. I plan to get it streaked and cut in a cute bob soon. Of course I do love my wigs!
Walt just called from from the other side of the house, and he doesn't like to be kept waiting so I hurried to put on a pair of short pumps in a pink color with a big tuft of marabou trim above the toes! Girls, they are SO sissy, especially with bright pink nail polish, take it from me!
Anyway, as I entered the living room I found Walt and his Dad, both naked and sitting next to one another on the couch, enjoying a beer. I giggled when I saw both father and son had enormous erections for me! Walt and his Dad have very similar cocks, thick and veiny, with hefty ball sacks containing much pent up male aggression hat must be digested by a gurl like me.
I stood before them and curtsied as they liked me to do, mincing a bit before them like the appreciative sissy I truly am. I know what they want, they want me to smile pretty for them, and to wrap my lipsticked lips around their big throbbing erections. And that's what I want to, to feast on their masculinity. Yes girls, Danielle has become quite the cum slut giggle! It was Walt's Daddy who broke the silence.
"Sissy, step right up here in front of us, strip off your robe and panties and let us see your body!"
I slipped off the robe as directed, shivering as the smooth fabric ran across my tender nipplage (do you like that word..nipplage?, I just made it up, kittens!). I slowly lowered the panties down past my waist and then felt them fall down around my ankles, exposing my nakedness to the men.
I noted both hard pricks gave a little jerk as they saw my nearly naked body. My soft little cock was shaved smooth of course and poked out perkily above what was left of my shrunken balls. I suppose I looked like a prepubescent boy, though dressed in feminine frillies!
"Get hard, Danielle. Look at your lover's big cock here and stroke it for me, let me see you get hard for me."
I did as Walt suggested and focused on his cock, seeing the wetness at the tip, wanting to taste it, to satisfy him. I stroked my little sheclit but nothing happened..nothing! I kept pulling on the cold lifeless tissue, trying to get it to perform as it used to, when I would make the little peeny hard, pump out a sticky little load of sissy cum, shoot on my tummy and then eat it. I guessed the men could see my frustration as I looked at their bobbing, straining pricks, frantically wishing my own hard on would materialize. But it was not to be.
"You see, son...it's almost dead now. She's chemically castrated now – look how tiny she is! I feel much better knowing that if you insist on marrying this little cock slut at least you're not turning into some queer marrying another man. We might as well go to the next step, don't you think?"
"I'm not sure, Dad. But one thing's for sure Danielle's little cock is even more worthless than ever!"
"Of course it is, son. Danielle was is a deformity, poor creature! Can you imagine this mincing little sissy trying to please a woman...or even a faggot...with that pitiful excuse for a cock? We've done her a favor, that's for sure!"
"Daddy, does her body look different to you? She seems bigger in the the butt."
"Yes son, Danielle's weight is redistributing. She's getting those big child bearing hips, son. She never had much muscle mass at all but now she looks softer everywhere. And look at those titties..they're really starting to pop!"
I kept stroking my soft little clit to no avail. It was cold and lifeless. I felt so foolish, like I had just flunked some kind of test or something.
Then Walt's Daddy spoke directly to me, like he was talking to a child.
"It's OK precious, forget about that useless little mistake, men get boners sweetie, and we know you're not a man...don't try to be something you're not! Why don't you get down on your knees and show us what you were made to do? Come suck my cock, Danielle. Since you don't have a real cock then it is your place to be a receptacle for what comes out of ours! And I have a nice big load of goo for you to swallow, honey! See how nice and hard we are for you, Danielle? That's what happens to men when they are around pretty submissive girls like you!"
I choked back a few tears as I let go of my cold limp little stub of a cock and dropped to my knees before my lover's father. I leaned over, kissed the sticky head of his cock, and took it into my mouth as I was directed. As I sucked his lovingly I drifted a bit, lost in the ecstasy of the taste of my lipstick on a man's penis. It has become almost hypnotic to me!
The men carried on a conversation as they pushed me back and forth from cock to cock. I would get one close to cumming, and they would deny feeding me to force my head onto the other waiting cock, making me really work for my nightly feeding of man juice. All the while I would take my fingers and gently run them over their hairy legs or perhaps their hairy chests, appreciating their hard bodies. I even found myself tickling their balls with my finger, trying to coax the cum along.
"You know son, you could have her fully castrated and get a little pussy made for you to fuck, of course then she wouldn't have that constant reminder of her failure as a man to keep her in her place."
"I know Dad, but I think I'm gonna love fucking her ass, why would I need a pussy too, especially a phony one? Damn! When are gonna let me fuck her anyway? How long do you need to train her on this Daddy? I want to tap that ass myself, old man!"
"Soon son, she's coming along pretty well, but I want her to be a such a total fuck whore that she fucks you back just as hard as you plan to give it to her! But we have to work out some small details. If you want obedience, total obedience, I suggest you have her testicles removed."
"Who would do that for us, Dad?"
"Well son my friend Barry is a vet, I'm sure he could help us out. It's not rocket science or anything. A simple antiseptic, the proper snips here and there, some stitches and then it's all done. Barry neuters bulls and other farm animals you know, if they're not needed for breeding it settles them right down. And Danielle here is surely no breeder!"
They both laughed as I sucked in a panic, I dared not remove my mouth from their manhood, this was all so final!
"What about the hormones, Daddy?"
"Well Barry said with the testes out of the way the female hormones will be even more effective! I sure do like her puffy little mounds,but just think how nice it will be for her to have real titties! The hormones will really kick in then!"
"Daddy can we make her titties give milk? I sure would like that!"
"Lactation? Sure, why not! We'd have our very own milkmaid around the house. When she pours us our coffee we will be able to reach over and grab one of her titties, twist it real good and squirt warm cream tight into our coffee!"
The men laughed uproariously at this comment as I pinched my puffy little nipples. Could it be possible? Could I really give milk?
My mouth was on Walt's cock, and the hotter and more perverted that talk between them became I could feel his meat stiffening up preparing for ejaculation and I concentrated on getting my feeding. Their talk was so cruel, so rude, so unbelievable to me that it made me dizzy.
Walt reached down and started pulling on my titties as I sucked. He began pulling on my tits, squeezing the nipples, as if he were milking a cow! I moaned at the pain and swallowed as he pinched even harder. Walt's Dad got behind me, spit on his cock, and shoved it up my asspussy as I swallowed his son's sperm. God, that man of mine can cum!
It hurt, he wasn't using enough lube, and he shoved it all the way up me and slapped my ass as he pulled it out and then shoved it back in. The pain was intense and I focused on Walt's softening cock in my mouth. As I gently nursed on it and Walt squeezed my titties from above, I listened to the vile conversation between the men.
"Daddy I really like the idea of neutering Danielle here. There should be room for only one male in our relationship and it's gonna be me. I like the soft little nub of hers poking out like a little clit, and her having some shriveled up empty little sacks really turns me on! She'd never be a real woman, and always have a reminder of what she once pretended to be, and know that it's you and I, real men, who took that illusion away from her. What shall we do with the testes when we have them removed?"
"Well son, that is a good question!"
He grunted as he fucked me, and slapped my ass along the way!
Daddy's thrusts into my asspussy from behind got more frantic as the men discussed the fate of my scrotum. It seemed to make Daddy harder, and I felt Walt relax enough to start pissing into my mouth which was still dutifully wrapped around his big meat. I have gotten use to being used like this, as a urinal for real men. It's not so bad, once you accept your place in the world.
"Well son I suppose we could keep them in a jar of formaldehyde like the organs of other poor unfortunate creatures that are dissected for the good of man. Hell,maybe we can have them bronzed and Danielle can wear them as earrings on special occasions...Barry will have some suggestions!"
"Son, I'm about to nut in your fiancee's exquisitely tight cunt now! So should I invite my friend Barry over for an inspection and to discuss our options for this little slut?"
"Yes Dad! It's time I took away any remaining maleness away from Danielle. I want her totally dependent on me, and under my full control. She's a good girl Daddy, look at her drinking my piss while she takes your big cock up her snatch! What a gal!"
"It's fucking hot, son. I'm gonna cum! Gonna cum up your sissy cunt, you little bitch! Oh you nasty slut, take my big Daddy dick! You cum receptacle! Piss drinker! Whore!"
I was almost out of my mind with lust and confusion and terror as I felt him spasm into me, filling my insides with his precious spunk. His strong language made me swoon with lust. He was a brutal, manly man.
As I realized the permanence of what they planned, and my inability to stand up to them and stop them, I began to shake and cry softly It was my fate after all, I asked for this. I opened the door into this female side of me, and all my secret desires and fantasies were right there for anyone to find on my work computer. I should have known it wasn't safe. I guess I should be lucky it was someone as caring as Walt who discovered my secret life. I can't blame real men for guiding sissies like me and helping us to achieve our full potential.
As Daddy says, "A sissy is a terrible thing to waste!"