Dan and Ben at Sixty

Dan and Ben at Sixty--Chapter Five By Ezra Randle

Ben texted Gary several times after Gary had not picked up his phone call. Is he still upset because I wasn't able to travel to the Twin Cities two weeks ago? While he had not given much advance for his cancellation, missing his granddaughter's birthday in Milwaukee seemed to trump his lusty desires. He had apologized several times in subsequent texts. Just as he was about to jump to even more drastic conclusions, even thinking Gary might be calling it quits, he called. "Hey bud, sorry not to get back to you sooner. Had a bit of a shit storm at work."

"What was it?"

"Too complicated to explain over the phone right now."

"Hey, what are you doing this weekend?"

"Hadn't planned anything."

"Would you come see me? Down here. You can stay with me at the house."

"Whoa, boss. Aren't you being a bit unlike yourself?"

"Maureen's away. It's perfectly safe. I want you to."

"Are you talking about me sleeping with you in your marital bed?"

Ben laughed. "Yes, in my fucking marital bed."

"Ben, Ben, Ben. I thought we had talked about appropriate boundaries," Gary said lightheartedly mocking Ben's admonitions when Ben had been his boss only a year ago.

"Just tell me if you can make down here."

"As a matter of fact, I've been wanting to see my brother. So, yes, I would be honored. Give me a time frame."

"Whenever you can get here on Friday. Maybe you can see your brother on Saturday afternoon when I have to do a few things. You can leave anytime you want on Sunday. That work for you."

Gary hesitated on the line. "You still there?" Ben asked.

"Yeah. The unexpectedness just caught me off guard."

"Are you crying, you big baby?" Ben said.

"Fuck you, Ben. You should recognize a tender moment when one crosses our path."

"I'm sorry. Was kidding."

"I've just been missing you so much. I almost started looking for some online action. Thought you had given up on me."

Ben halted another lighthearted quip before he said it. "Hey, Gar, I'm really sorry about a few weeks ago. It was hard to give you up. But it was my granddaughter. OK?"

"Don't worry. I'm over that. I want to come down. I'll take a few hours personal time on Friday, and get there around seven."

They stayed in touch several times a day throughout the week. At one point, Gary told him to expect a large package later in the week, but wouldn't give any hints. Ben tried to restrain himself when he stared at several photos of the two of them, naked, showing off how much their fleshy bodies looked alike. Dan called him on Thursday, "Did we agree to dinner this Friday?"

"I don't think so. I can't make it anyway."

"Good. I can't either. Any news on Maureen?"

"Still out of sight, out of mind. How about Jenny?"

"She's dating. I'm sure of it. We haven't talked much. I feel cut free from our marriage vows."

"Same here. Gary's coming for the weekend. Big step for me."

"I'll say. I saw Alex last Saturday."

"Wow. How did it go?"

"Spent the night. That's where I'm headed Friday night, too."

Ben laughed. "Give him a kiss for me, will you?"

"Be glad to."

"Hey let's talk after the weekend. Please," Ben said.

"Great. I need it just like you do."

Ben was outside on the front stoop late Friday afternoon, waiting for Gary. He sat, then stood up peering around the corner, nervous as a teenager. When Gary pulled up, he motioned him into the driveway and told him to park in the empty space in the garage. When he entered the kitchen from the garage, Ben kissed him and embraced him tightly. "Man, you feel good. Need to stretch out after the drive? I can offer you a nice walk."

"Yeah, let me change shoes. They're in the car."

Ben stood next to Gary as he sat on a bench in the garage changing into his walking shoes. When he stood, Ben was overwhelmed and started kissing him passionately. He unfastened Gary's pants and pulled them down. "Glad you shut the garage door, boss. Might not be the freshest down there. I haven't showered since this morning."

"I just need a little taste so I don't assault you on the walk."

Ben licked Gary's semi-hard cock. "Looks the same, smells the same, I do believe it is the same."

Ben stood up and Gary pulled down his sweat pants. He held their cocks together as they hardened up. They continued kissing, half laughing at the comedy of being half-naked in Ben's garage as dusk was settling around them. "OK, let's walk. First one to lose his boner leads the way," Ben said.

Ben had a hard time not holding Gary's hand and several times he brushed up against it as they toured the neighborhood which then led into a city park. They said very little as they both understood their lust for each other was oozing just under the surface ready to emerge if they let their guard down. And conversation could easily be that trigger. When they returned to the house, Ben asked, "Do you need anything to eat?"

"I had a sandwich along the way."

"Beer, wine, water?

"Water is fine."

Ben took two waters from the refrigerator. "Upstairs for now. OK?"

"Yeah. Looking forward to seeing your chambers."

"I'll grab your bag."

The room was lit only by a lamp at its lowest setting sitting on the dresser. He set Gary's bag on the chair and ran the shower. He undressed Gary who stood there amused by the attention Ben was giving him. He was wearing the same faded green t-shirt he'd had on when they undressed for the first time with a picture of a penis spurting several big ropes of cum. Ben was as amused as he had been at that special moment years ago. Gary was wearing boxer briefs, and when Ben removed them, he smelled them and raised his eyebrows. Ben quickly removed his sweats and Gary followed him into the shower. "Nice sized shower. Plenty of room for both of us."

Ben pulled Gary to him and kissed him under the warm water. "I've missed you, buddy."

"Same here, boss. I was getting worried about you. That you'd forgotten about me. What were my options? Come down here and attack you in your own home? Then, out of the blue, you invite me to your home. What the fuck? What's happened to Maureen?"

"She's away."

"Like on a vacation?"

Ben thought for a minute. Should he just open up with Gary? What did he have to lose? If he wasn't more open about his life, Gary would just leave him. And he couldn't blame him if he did. "No. She's left me."

"Did you guys have a fight? Wasn't about me was it?"

"Nope. I told you she was taking care of her dad as he declined. He passed on and gave her the house. She likes living there so much, she moved out. Apparently doesn't want to come back."

"She tell you that?"

"Nah. Haven't seen her for weeks. She's pretty much out of my life. Our marriage is over."

"What if she comes back?"

"I don't think I want her back."

Gary laughed. "Is this your coming out moment?"

Ben smiled. "I've only told two people what I just told you. My therapist and my old friend, Dan. And that was all before I decided to invite you down here."

Gary pulled him tight and kissed him deeply. Ben smiled as Gary washed his chest and belly. Gary's hands lathered up his balls and cock causing his cock tip to pop free from his foreskin. Gary rubbed his knob. "It's so nice to see this guy again."

Ben washed his counterpart, Gary's body so much like his own. They had often joked that they were replicas of each other, separated only by twenty-five years. He washed Gary just as lovingly, their cocks now both rigid. They played with each other's ass as they washed them. "Will you fuck me before I have to return?" Gary asked.

"If you'll do the same to me."

They dried off and kissed again as they stood near the bed. "Nice bedroom. Still has the feel of a woman's touch."

"I'll do something about that soon. Maybe you'll have some ideas."

"Stick with family photos. Always a safe bet. If your separation from Maureen takes hold for good, your kids and grandkids will become even more important."

"Who told you that?"

Gary laughed. "Just common sense. It's not my inner savant talking."

They slipped under the bedding and held each other for ten minutes, kissing lightly as they did. "Were you kidding before, about losing faith in me?" Ben asked.

"Exaggerating for effect. But doubts were creeping in."

"Have you seen anyone else since our last meeting?"

"I thought about calling Paul. Looked more and more online. In the end, I gave into my hopes. And then work got almost impossible for me."

"Some crisis involving fucked up employees?"

"A little of that. But mostly they've been piling on the work. Expecting me to get reports done with impossible timelines. One day, I had to call my predecessor about some information I needed. He's working for a much smaller company now. In the conversation, he asked me how I was holding up with all the expectations the company had for me. For whatever reason, I told him I was pretty overwhelmed. He laughed and said that's what drove him out. He's much happier at his new place."

"Your salary is not adequate compensation?"

"It's not that at all. It fucking bleeds into my private time. I have no personal life."

"Thinking of leaving?"

"Two weeks ago a headhunter reached out to me. OnLineMed is looking for someone."

"The OnLineMed just outside of Madison?"

"Yeah. I submitted my application. It's a long shot, given my limited resume. But what the hell."

"Have you heard back?"

"No. But it's early. The application deadline is still open."

Ben grew silent. What if Gary were back again and available whenever they wanted to be together? The walls keeping this part of his life secret might come tumbling down. It was one thing to dance around those walls for one weekend's visit. But if they saw each other regularly, something would happen to blow his cover. Was Gary's presence here this weekend the beginning of the deconstruction of a secured orientation he'd spent a lifetime erecting? He whispered to himself, "Not now. Not now, asshole."

Gary laughed. "Are you still having those fruitcake discussions within yourself?"

"Fuck you. It's not easy being me," Ben said with a broad smile.

"Was it Dan this time? Is he in the room with us?"

"Fuck you again. As a matter of fact, he's not. He's seeing his old lover. I had a hand in that in my way. So, just let him be."

"Come here. You are so cute when I mock you. It's very endearing."

"You're too young to even know what `endearing' means."

They kissed with affection, their unique blend of genuine love of each other and their almost magical ability to trigger each other's sense of humor on the loose once again. Ben let his passion run free. He kissed Gary all over his torso from his chest to his feet. Then he ascended to his thighs and licked the inner thighs over and over each time closer to his balls. Gary let himself free to enjoy the pleasure, spreading his legs inviting Ben to lick him there. Ben licked his hairy balls and through his taint just short of his ass, then ascended to the base of his cock, repeating the action many times. Gary's cock was rigid and leaking. When Ben finally rose to lick Gary's cock tip and swallow the pre-cum, Gary said, "O, boss, you make me feel so good. Swallow me."

Ben took his cock deeply over and over letting his tongue glide across the underside of Gary's cock. He didn't think he'd make him cum, but then Gary said, "You're getting it."

The cum flowed deeply into his mouth. Gary always had more flow than he did, likely a function of age, but this time it felt like it kept gushing. When Gary finally relaxed just a bit, Ben kissed him, still with several mouthfuls of his cum coating his tongue. Ben let him rest. He didn't care if he came that night, knowing that just being naked again with his lover was sufficient. Eventually Gary opened his eyes and said, "Thank you. That might have been the greatest blow job I've ever received. I should have stopped you. But it felt so good I didn't want you to stop."

"Glad you didn't stop me."

"Don't worry. I'll rejuvenate quickly."

"I was thinking, if you get an interview with OnLineMed, stay with me for the days you have to be in Madison."

"Nice. I'd like to."

"Hey, I forgot to mention, your gift arrived. It's in the other bedroom."

"Did you open it?"

"Of course. I set it up."

"What do you think?"

"I think I want you to give me a massage."

"Tomorrow night. Let's break it in. I brought some massage oil."

"Figured you would. I outfitted it with a sheet. It's ready to go."

They snuggled for a while, showered and got up for food. Ben warmed up leftovers from the pasta dinner he'd made the night before. "Wow, this is really good. You know how to cook or did you get takeaway?"

"I am reasonably accomplished with a limited number of selections. Tomorrow we should grab a bite at Maurice's."

"After I see my brother in the afternoon, let's rendezvous there."

"Great. Looking forward to it. The site of our first date."

Gary laughed. "When I tried to seduce you for the first time."

"I guess I revealed that part of me was gay that night, at least to someone as savvy as you. I can't recall how I revealed my secret."

"By not saying much. It was what you didn't say that revealed it all."

Gary rubbed Ben's hand. "What are we supposed to say if we run into people we know? That's more likely for me than you at Maurice's. Or what about when we walk in your neighborhood like last night and somebody stops to talk?"

"We're old buddies who worked together. Beer drinking chums."

"That will work. I'm seeing you to revisit old times."

They returned to bed and kissed and cuddled. "I'm really fagged. Do you need to get off?" Gary said.

"Not necessary at all. I'll save it for tomorrow and the massage table. Just hold me."

Ben slid into Gary and Gary held him from behind. "I'm trying NOT to think about moving back here. But sometimes my mind wanders to being closer to you. It's stupid on my part. But my thoughts have been tantalized by the prospects."

"Those thoughts have been rolling around in my head since you mentioned the possibility. I had no idea you had become disillusioned at 3M."

"How old is this bed?"

"The frame goes back to my early married days. When Ellie and I could afford furniture like this. I got a new mattress when Maureen moved in here. Does it feel haunted?"

"No. Just wondered what lovers I'd be sleeping with tonight. I'm used to you, Ben. Has Dan been in bed with you here?"

"Yeah. We've had a few dates during his breakup with his lover. Mostly regaining our friendship. A lot of talking. But we've been naked and had some fun. That hard for you to hear?"

"It's easier to hear because it's from you. You've told me enough about your past with Dan that I respect it. So, no, I don't feel jealous. Or not so jealous I can't get over it."

"You shouldn't. I've never felt more at home in this bed than I do right now."

"Thank you. That's very sweet. And it feels like you mean it. It's not something you manufactured for our weekend together."

Gary pulled him closer, so that his semi-hard cock was just inside Ben's ass cheeks. "Do you still love me, Ben? It probably should have faded by now, at least a little. We've had quite a few intense moments together."

"I think about you quite often. I'm not saying it's as frequent as you think of me. Probably it isn't. My world in some ways is bigger than yours. With family and dealing with the end of Maureen and me. You don't have issues like that. Bu it's often enough so when you said you could make it this weekend, I felt so happy. Damn, I've been feeling glorious all week. And then seeing you pull into my driveway was just amazing. I do think I love you for the long haul. Whatever that means. I know that, right now, it might not mean anything more than this weekend. Or even down the road should something happen to us and all this is reduced to just remembering our times together. But as you told me a while back, somehow, for whatever reason, we're rooted into each other. We are part of each other's core. There are a bunch of people in that same place within me. More than within you. Just because I've got twenty-five years on you. But I'd be devastated if I lost you. Or you found someone to replace me."

He didn't hear Gary weeping during his proclamations, but when he stopped, it was obvious Gary was overwhelmed by what'd he said. "Sorry to get you all mushy."

"Getting mushy with a guy as sentimental as you are is part of the charm, boss."

"I can see the weepy stuff didn't do anything to discourage your cock. Talking like this gets both of us hard. Since you're right there, at my ass, would you make a visit?"

"I'd love to stop in."

Ben handed him the lube and Gary greased him and loosened him up. "Ready for me?"

"Yes, lover man, I am."

Gary was so stealthy entering him that he almost didn't know when Gary had transitioned from two fingers to his cock deep within him. "Thank you for wanting me. I can't tell you how much that means to me," Ben said.

Gary eased in and out of him. "Fuck Gary, you feel so good. Me wanting you like this is what this fat old ass does most every night."

Gary kissed his neck and reached down and stroked Ben's hard cock. "I'm glad you saved up from earlier. Your hard cock in my hand as I fuck you is one of the greatest pleasures known to man. Not just to this guy. But to every man who's ever wanted to fuck an ass. It's simply beautiful."

The conversation made them both even more aroused. "Fill me, Gary."

At that moment, they both exploded and let their juices be a declaration of their love. Neither one of them understood it completely, but they knew some obscure stars out in space had made a journey aligning themselves. They were along for the exploration, hoping it could continue until they had expressed all the love contained within them.