The doctor asked, "So tell me, why are you here?"
"I need to talk to someone about my sexuality and you are a professional. What I say is safe with you." I replied.
She said, "That's true, so go on."
So I talked
It began about seven years ago. I found myself wondering what men's cocks looked like while I was in meetings with them. Were they long, short, thick, thin? I imagined what their dicks looked like. After a few months of this imagining I began to wonder what it would be like to have one of their dicks in my mouth. I began to think about it a lot -- a whole lot.
I was 65 then and now am 70. I started near the end of my marriage. I was actually living alone most of the time; my wife wouldn't come home from "work" until 5:00am. So, I actually had two brief sexual encounters with women. At that time, I was still thinking and wondering about men but not acting on it until July of that year. Don't get me wrong. If I had a willing woman and a willing man in front of me, I'd take the woman every time. But it's easier to find sex with other men.
Any way that's when I did Xxxx. It was my first time. I was house-sitting in another state for a friend. I was constantly horny and cruised my home town Craigslist daily. I posted an ad looking for a dick to suck. Xxxx responded and we chatted for a couple of days. I sent him a naked full-frontal selfie that I took in the house's bedroom mirror and he did the same. He told me he had ED and was small. I told him that I didn't care, that I wanted to try it. We set a date for a few days after I would return home.
The day came and he came to my house while my wife was at work. We were both nervous and talked for a few minutes. Finally, I invited him into the bedroom where we went and undressed. He lay down on the bed and I got between his legs. I took his dick in my hand and marveled at how nice it felt. Then I took him in my mouth and was amazed at how natural it was. Like it was supposed to be there. It took a while but I finally got him hard and after a few more minutes he blew his wad. I held him back in my throat and felt him gush. I tasted his cum and the taste reminded me of the plastic taste that sucking water from a squirt gun tasted like when I was a kid. I swallowed every drop and he got soft. After he left, I beat off because I was that hard and horny. All the while I was sucking him, I dripped pre-cum. Lots of it. I had him again a few months after my divorce when I had move to the other side of town.
I remember that the second time I blew him he kept interfering with what I was doing. He wasn't getting hard fast enough to satisfy himself and so he kept pushing me away and playing with himself trying to get a hard on. I was quite happy having him in my mouth soft. It was more fun to try to get him hard. His soft dick nestled into my mouth and it felt so good. His hard dick barely touched the back of my mouth so I didn't gag at all when he was hard. He wasn't too thick either. I prefer thinner dicks.
I guess that my favorite thing is sucking guys. But I prefer the right atmosphere. I'm not interested in someone who wants a blo&go. I want something more relaxed. If we can spend an hour or so in bed, playing, experimenting, talking etc. that's so much better. Part of the fun of giving a good blow job is when the guy starts out soft, gets hard, cums and then goes soft again. I enjoy the whole range. Though it is still a lot of fun there is something missing when the guy is already hard as a rock. And he usually cums quickly.
By now I've sucked over thirty guys. Once in a car. He was black and my second one of the evening. I had sucked off a man who came to my house, I have hosted most of the time, and after he left, I was still wanting more dick. My ad was still up and I got more responses from it. One guy wanted me to come to his apartment house and park in the lot and he would come to my car. I agreed and drove a short distance to the assigned place. He came and got into the car and unzipped his pants. I adjusted my seat and bent over the console and got his dick into my mouth. He wasn't very big and it didn't take him long to cum. I enjoyed sucking him but I don't think I'll do it in a car like that again. Maybe the back seat.
Another time I posted an ad saying I wanted to suck someone outside. I got a response and a few hours later I met the man in the parking lot of a local store. He followed me in his car and I drove to a secluded place not too far away. We walked along a path into the woods where I hit my knees and he pulled down his shorts. I played with his dick for a little and then sucked him into my mouth. He was still soft when I did that. I sucked him, playing my dick around his shaft until he got hard. After that I bobbed my head back and forth, sucking him. After a few moments, not long at all, he came -- a lot. I loved tasting and swallowing every drop of his cum. Like Maxwell House he was good to the last drop.
I think the most memorable time was when I was camping in another state. I scanned the local Craigslist and responded to a couple of ads. One guy replied back and we agreed that I would come to his place and we would suck each other. I got there and we immediately stripped and got into his bed. I had recently chipped one of my front teeth in the gap between the two front teeth. It wasn't very big but apparently, while we were doing 69, it caught on some of his skin and he hollered. I apologized and we continued. Then he laid me on my back and put pillows under my head. He got right above me and proceeded to really fuck my face. He was at least seven inches and not thick; my ideal. He made me gag a few times as he went a little way into my throat but I loved every second of it. I remember that he came a good bit and I swallowed it all and sucked him until he was limp. I would love to learn how to deep throat without gagging. That was the closest I ever came and it was fantastic, even with the gagging.
The thought of being with two men turns me on too. There is too much to imagine doing to list though I would like to try being spit roasted. I've seen videos of that and it simply looks like way too much fun. Thinking of having a dick in my mouth and another up my ass turns me on just thinking about it.
Now, about size. I have had a couple of long thin ones and they were the most fun. It's easier to get a thin dick deep into your mouth. One that is five inches doesn't quite fill me. A six inch one definitely can hit my throat and I have to be careful not to gag. The guy I met camping was definitely longer and made me gag but I really loved it, gags and all. I wish he had hung my head over the edge of the bed and had really shoved it in until he couldn't go any further. I have always though that with enough practice I might be able to overcome the gag reflex. They say that practice makes perfect.
Personally I like 69 with me on the bottom. I love feeling a dick slide in and out of my mouth. I just wish I didn't have a gag reflex. I'd love to go deep throat. I just love sucking dick. Haven't had one in quite a while now but maybe when this pandemic ends I might get the chance. But, like I said, I like it easy, not fast and hard.
So, doctor, the next time I'll talk about some more encounters, like the guy with Peyronie's disease .