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From Chapter 29:
"Oh my God, Seth! (Lenny's parents) don't even have a clue!" said Luke.
"I know! I was afraid the way Lenny was acting, they would catch on to something!"
"Yeah, like how he was saying, `I'm gay! I'm Gay! I'm Gay!' How can they miss it?"
"Just because he acts a little fem doesn't mean - "
"A LITTLE?" Luke exclaimed.
"That doesn't make him -- necessarily -- gay."
"Yeah, well - !"
"I get your point."
Chapter 30
"This'll be our first Christmas together, Luker!"
"And my first birthday!"
"You are such an old man!"
"Don't remind me!"
"Let's see, you are going to be -- 26, right?"
"Damn, Haoli, you make it sound so old!"
"It IS old!"
"Fuck you, Haoli!"
"Hee hee! I thought you'd never ask!"
"It wasn't a request! You know, I share my birthday with a prophet!"
"No one knows any of the Prophets' birthdays!"
"No, Really! December 23rd is the birthday of that Mormon prophet!"
"How do you know that! What Mormon prophet?"
"Hawaii has swarms of them -- Mormons! They believe in modern day prophets. Their first one was a guy -- Joseph Smith."
"Hmm. Joe Smith. Sounds like an easy-to-forget name!"
"Not for the Mormons! A lot of my friends were Mormon. They would not let me forget that I had a very special birthday!"
"So -- is that somehow special to you?"
"NOT! It's just the day I get older!"
"Hmh!" I exclaimed. I looked closely at his face. "Are those wrinkles I see around your eyes?"
"Like I said, Fuck you, Haoli!"
"Hee hee! If you looked any younger, I would get arrested for lechery."
"Not you! You look like your several years younger than I -- maybe 12?"
"Aw, I don't look THAT young any more!"
"You didn't look much older than that when I met you! That's one of the things I love about you! You look younger than I do!"
"Well, maybe we can do something special for your 26th birthday."
"Two more weeks!"
"What would you like to do?"
"For reals? I'd love to learn to snow ski!"
"The way you surf, you'd be a natural at snow boarding, I bet!"
"Aw, but I don't want to go without you!" He said.
"Maybe you could take Lenny. I KNOW he's been wanting to get you alone!"
"As I see it, he wants to be alone with you! You're the one who stole his cherry!"
"Not! One kiss does not a cherry break!" I said
"Um hm! And one swallow does not a relationship make, either -- but it can cause chaos with the psyche!"
"You thinking of causing some of that chaos in my life -- tonight?"
"You are a glutton for punishment, aren't you?"
"Only when you're doing the punishing!"
He punished me good!
It was an early night for us because we had to be ready to drive to Cerritos the next afternoon, after school. After our first class we went to the truck with Lenny, to stash his stuff. Lenny acted like he was high on something. He wasn't, but I think this was his first time away from mommy and daddy, for anything more than scout camp! He was all giggly. Everyone who saw us had to have guessed! You ARE defined by the company you keep!
When we got to my parents' house, he all of a sudden got shy! My parents were getting ready to go to their party. My mom answered the door.
"Oh, Sweetie, you look so good! So when will you be able to walk again?"
"Morty says if I feel like it, I probably will be on crutches by the middle of January."
"And your hair IS growing back in normally! You look so wonderful!"
"Thanks. Where's Mel?"
"Mel Dear, Seth is home!"
Something crashed in the other room, and I could hear Mel's feet scramble down the hall, until he got near the entry when he came to an abrupt stop and walked the rest of the way. He almost peeked around the corner. When he saw Lenny, his mouth dropped open. So did Len's! As they stood there agape, I thought of the first time I met Luke! I wondered . . .
"Hey, Mel! This is Leonard."
I heard Lenny's mouth clamp shut! "Oh, please! Call me Lenny!"
"Well, you introduced yourself to me as - "
Lenny almost stumbled as he came forward to shake Mel's hand. He giggled! "Hi, Mel!"
"Hi Lenny!"
"Is that a star wars medallion you are wearing?" Lenny said.
"Yeah, do you have one?"
"Duh! But I didn't know you would be into that!" and he looked at me.
I put my hand up. "I swear I had no idea that either - "
"Come down to my room and I'll show you . . ."
And they were off to the races. I wondered if they would see any movie tonight!
We spent the night, then left early the next morning for home. We didn't want Lenny's parents to worry about him.
"So?" I said, as soon as we were on the road.
"What?" Lenny said
"Don't act all innocent! What did you -- did you like -- are you gonna see him again?"
"No."
"Wow! That was pretty final." I said.
"I'm not gay."
"Yeah -- neither am I!" Luke said, stifling a laugh.
"Shh -- let him talk!" Chris said. But he didn't say any more.
"So talk!" Chris said.
"Well, - We kissed a little, and then he undid my pants. That was -- weird. He jacked me off and when it was near, he went down on me."
"And? - ? - ? - ?" Luke said. "did you -- er -- like it?"
"Yeah, it was okay."
"Okkkkhayyy! Craig said. "So is that it?"
"No."
"Damned Haoli! Do we have to drag it out of you?"
"I -- I then -- I -- er - !" Lenny was having trouble with this one! "I went -- went -- uh -- down on him!"
"Damn!" Luke said. "You're killin' us. I know I'm about the blow my load just listening to you, dude! What -- how did you -- like it!?"
"No!"
"So let me get this clear." I said, "You liked being sucked off, but you didn't like sucking!?"
"You could say that." Lenny said, "Well it wasn't -- it just -- wasn't all that good!"
"Oh my gosh!" I finally said. "I'm the youngest one here -- well except for Lenny! Don't you all know what's going on here?"
"What?" They all said together.
"Lenny!" I said. "Have you ever gotten really -- frustrated and horny -- and jacked off?"
"No, dude I never have!" he said in his most sarcastic voice.
So, - did you feel like jacking off again as soon as you came?"
"Fu -- heck no!"
"That's what just happened! After he blew you off, you lost interest!"
"Really!?" Luke said. "and this morning, you did not feel anything -- like you wanted to do it again?"
"Well -- I DID, but since I didn't like it last night, I figured I wasn't gay, so - "
"So, do you see what happened?" I said.
"I think so!" Lenny said. "I may have to try it again."
"DUH!" we all said in chorus!
"But not with him."
"Huh?"
"I was just making conversation -- kind of to find something in common. I HATE Star Wars! I used to be into it, but that was years ago!"
"You sure it wasn't last year?"
"Well -- yeah! But Mel WAS pretty immature!"
"Yeah," Luke said, "And you are Mr. Grown up!"
"Hey, leave him alone guys!" Chris said. "He has just been through a tough time -- and is still as confused as when he started!"
"Sorry!"
"Sorry!"
"Sorry!"
"S'okay. I do know I am more intrigued now that I ever was before. Only next time I want him!"
He was looking at Craig!
"Hah! Everyone want's Craig! But, you see, he's taken!" said Chris- and he kissed Craig quickly on the cheek, then looked back at the road before he crashed into something and killed us all!
"This isn't fair! At first I was really in to Seth, and then Luke -- but you guys are all so -- so -- exclusive! Don't you ever think about a -- a -- group thing?"
"We've all tried it! But - " Chris started.
"I haven't!" Luke said.
"Well, anyway, we are all pretty much over that, and anyway, you are WAY too young! We could be jailed for even talking about it some places!"
"Not fair! Doesn't anyone ever like to have sex -- just for fun?" Lenny said.
"Yes!"
"Yes!"
"Yes!"
"Yes!"
"But," Chris added, "Only with our own partner. Sorry buddy, you are going to have to find your own -- like we all did."
"And," I added, "Stay away from the rainbow club!"
"I may be curious -- and horny -- but I ain't stupid!" Said Lenny.
"Thanks!" I said.
"Hey -- I didn't mean -- but -- you were drunk!"
"Don't get drunk!"
"My God, you guys are becoming my parents!"
"Well, you are just a kid -- a very intelligent -- Nerd kid! But a kid nonetheless. And in case you didn't notice -- we all really like you!" Chris said.
"I know. It's just frustrating." Lenny said.
"Yeah, I know," I said, "I used to be sixteen -- three years ago! I remember! I didn't even know I was gay! I had fun with my friend and his brother, but thought it would just go away. It didn't."
"Don't worry, Len," Craig said, "You may find a few loves before you settle on one!"
"It's scary." Len said. "I know that some never find someone. It's pretty scary."
"Usually -- well I don't really know that many gay guys -- but I think that if you -- discreetly and safely -- put yourself a out there, you will find someone. Any chance your parents can afford a dorm room? That helps. It's how Chris and I met!"
"Oh, they can afford it. But they are so worried that I will get all hormonal with some girl! They know Santa Barbara'' reputation."
"Hee hee! Tell them you're gay!"
"Oh, that would fix things up real good! And I'm not even sure I AM gay!"
"You are!"
"You are!"
"You are!"
"Oh, shut UP!" I told the other three. Look, if I had my eyes closed and someone was fondling my dick, would it matter if it was a guy or a girl?"
"It might!"
"But it would feel just the same! Lenny, you need to explore both sides!"
"I know -- and if it turns out that I can be straight, you think I should go with it."
"Wha-at?" Craig said. "I could go either way, and I choose to be with your brother! Do you have a problem with that?"
"I don't have a problem with it -- but - "
"But you think I'd be better off with a girl! I am perfectly happy as I am!"
"Yeah!" I said. "And you keep your life a complete secret outside the family!"
Shit! Why is this going in this direction!
"Hey, guys!" Chris broke in. "There is no right or wrong here! Lighten up! For us it is working -- and we choose to live like we do. And if we choose to, we may want to adopt like Jake and Colin have."
"There you go! They are very happy!" Craig started again.
"Yes, they are, but statistically - " I started.
"Statistically, SETH," Chris continued, "Things are changing. I'd like to be out. I'd love to be able to let the whole world know that I love this beautiful hunk sitting beside me. I just am not willing to put myself -- or him -- in harms way to achieve that. Maybe it's good that there are some who are willing to take the abuse -- and even seem to thrive on it -- but I will wait. The bottom line is -- there is no right or wrong -- so to argue is fruitless. Both are right -- and both are wrong - from various viewpoints."
"Wow. I didn't mean to start a family feud! I'm sorry." Lenny said.
"I still think that Ursula and Uri would be better off if a mother was in their life." I said, feeling my back was against the wall.
"Seth -- DROP it!" big brother said.
"I KNOW their better off than in the orphanage, but - "
"FUCK! Brother! Shut it UP!"
"Fuck you too! You can't tell me what to do!"
"I CAN while I am driving this car! I AM your older brother and I COULD just open that door and push you out, you little - "
"STOP!" said Luke. He was crying. "I -- I have no brothers, two sisters, and a dad who wishes I was never born. Please don't -- don't - - I -- I - you are -- my only -- the only -- family I have. Please don't fight! Please?"
I looked over and Lenny's head was completely between his knees. He was shaking.
"I -- I'm sorry -- but -- but," I reconsidered. "I'm just sorry -- sorry." I felt really bad.
"Me too." Craig said. "It really hurts to see the two people I love -- most -- in the whole world -- fighting. I hate it!"
"I'm sorry." I repeated.
Chris was silent. Craig whispered something in his ear. "Sorry, Seth." He finally said.
The rest of the ride home -- about an hour -- was spent in silence. Craig turned on the radio to mask the discomfort.
After we took Lenny home, we went home. Chris and I avoided each other all afternoon and evening.
About an hour after we went to bed, he poked his head in our door. "Pssst! Seth -- you awake?"
"Yeah," I whispered, "I couldn't sleep." He came over and helped me up, and half carried me out to the living room. Well he more like dragged me -- but quietly.
"Seth, I'm -- I mean -- I was -- a jerk! I'm sorry I pulled the `older brother card' on you. And I wasn't exactly acting mature, was I? I know I said I was sorry this morning, but -- well, I wasn't -- then. Now I am. I know you're right. But I also know that Craig is right -- and I am right. As I said, there is no right or wrong with this issue. Each situation has it's own dynamics."
"Thank you, for being the -- MY -- older brother -- brother!"
"I am so glad you came to live and go to school with us, Seth." He said and he lifted me right on top of him, leg casts and all! I was facing him and we were lying on the couch. I felt my strong reaction to this position. I squirmed a little to try to reposition myself so it was not so obvious.
"It's okay, brother," he whispered, "It's okay. It's a natural response and it's just -- okay."
It was then I could feel that his response was as strong as mine. I hugged him tight, and a sigh then a sob escaped me. I wasn't crying, but I was so happy that I had a brother who loved me so much! I relaxed into him, and kissed his neck
"I love you so much, Chris!"
"Ohhh, I love you too, Seth!"
"I know you do." At that I felt my dick throb and his did too.
"We can go to bed now?" He said.
"Yeah, I think I can sleep now." He took me back to bed.
"You guys okay, now?" Luke asked, sleepily.
"Yeah -- we're fine."
"Good -- night!"
Notes: No notes. Too emotional right now. Must get this posted before the weekend.