Chapter 19
Are you fucking serious?!?!??!?! I was so ready to do this without any interruption and here these to go adding they 2 cents but who could blame them. I looked at them then at the pills in my hands and I actually considered the time it took. I guess I must have taken too long because next thing I knew Melody slapped the pills out of my hand and proceeded to beat the fuck out of me... And I let her. it took Darren to finally step in to pull her off of me. I could tell I was gonna have a black eye and my lip was busted and everything. I didn't fight back because deep inside I felt I deserved it. I let her beat the fuck out of me because I was too afraid to face reality.
Mel: Let me go!!!!!!!
Darren let her go once they were in my room.
Mel: you selfish bastard!! I fuckin hate yo ass right now!!!! You really think taking a handful of pills is the answer?! Puss ass nigga bring yo ass out the fuckin bathroom!
I'm tired of fighting.
I wiped the blood from my mouth and walked out just a little past the door. Mel was pacing back and forth trying to calm down and Darren was sitting on the floor with this look I had never seen before. The tears were running down my face as I stood there. The silence was deafening and it seem to go on forever. The amount of anger in the room was staggering.
Mel: I can't believe you! You are so fucking selfish!! What the fuck is going on with you?
DaeDae: I can't do this anymore. Everything is crumbling around me, and for once I CAN'T fix it.
Mel: When will you learn your not GOD! You can't fix everything your only 17! Be 17!
DaeDae: You don't understand the pressures I'm under from my Mom and my Dad and everyone else. I'm being pulled in every direction and I don't have enough of me to go around. My world ended when I... when JJ was killed. What do I have to live for now?
Darren: So that's how you feel? Seriously?!?!
He stood up now and was moving towards me and I was backing up. I was bracing myself for what was gonna happen next. I had backed up to the wall and he came and looked me dead in my eyes. It was like he was looking at my soul, I stop breathing, my heart was beating fast, I was lost in his eyes.
Darren: I have done just about all I could to show my love for you and still you feel like you have nothing to live for?? I know it kills you to lose your brother but Melody is still here, yo parents, yo friends, most importantly Me. I love you past my soul. I have never felt this way. I wake up every day with a smile cuz I feel so lucky to have you by my side. I fuckin love you and there's no way I can love you if you won't let me in.
DaeDae: I'm scared.... JJ knew me inside and out and look what happen I couldn't protect him from myself and he's dead!! The people who are closest to me always get hurt....
Mel: Did you ever stop to think and ask yourself we are here because we want to be? And because we love yo stupid selfish ass and WE ARE THE ONES WHO CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU?
I was afraid to break eye contact but I looked at her and she was hurting. It was then I realized that I honestly hadn't been there for her. I looked back at Darren and he still had that intense stare going.
DaeDae: I don't really know what to say... I mean Mel You been there from day 1 and has always held ya boy down and I love you for that. We done shit we could go to jail for and you still by my side. I couldn't ask for a better bestie. Darren you came smashing into me and you broke all my defense and it scares me but You have made your presence felt and staked you claim to my heart and it beats and yearns for you and at the same time it terrifies me because I'm out of my element. All I can say is teach me how to love you......
Mel: Press pause.... Did u really just quote Fantasia bitch? Seriously? And I think yo ass used some of Beyonce lyrics too...
Darren bust out laughing and so did Mel and I have to admit I felt a smile spread across my face.
DaeDae: Ugh I can't stand yo ass sometimes. Always ruining the moment.
Mel: Bitch I'm sorry but yo ass is triflin for that.. But fa real we here because we wanna be and we love you so stop pushing us away.
She walked over and pulled us both into a hug. I felt my phone vibrate, I opened it and looked at the picture message and my heart dropped!!!!!
I could not believe what I was looking at! I couldn't breathe my heart was beating in my throat. I pulled away from them and backed away. I was shaking my head back and forth I couldn't believe what I saw.
Darren: baby whats wrong? You starting to scare me....
Mel: You starting to scare us!
I looked back at my phone hoping it was a dream and then I looked at Darren deep in his eyes as tears started to run down my face.
DaeDae: Im sorry. Its all my fault... Im so sorry baby...
All I could do was cry... My heart was breaking.
Darren slowly walked over to me and he took my phone from me and looked at the screen. I could see the horror and disbelief in his eyes as he fell to the ground.
Mel: Somebody please tell me what da fuck is going on!!
She made he way over to us and reached for the phone. I snatched it away from her as fast as I could. I didn't want her to see this, not after everything we been through. I looked over at Darren and saw the tears running down his face. That nearly killed me to see him like this and to know that it was all my fault. I was lost deep in thought when Mel snatched the phone and looked at it. She held the phone in her hand looking at the message. She never changed her expression. After what seemed like forever she got up and threw the phone at the wall.
Mel: Are we gonna sit here and cry or are we gonna go kill this mutha fucker?!!!!!
We both looked up at her... Where the hell did that come from? Did she see the same picture we saw? I still can't grasp what I saw. I looked at Darren and I couldnt make out the look he had on his face.
Mel: What the fuck are we waiting on?!!!
DaeDae: Shut up Mel!! Let me think! We dont even know where he is!
Mel: So call his fuck ass!!!
DaeDae: You broke my fucking phone!
Darren: I know where he is.....
DaeDae & Mel: Huh?!
DaeDae: What you talking bout Darren?
Darren: Did you not see the fucking background!! He at yo daddy warehouse!!!
I looked at him then at Mel. I could see the horror in her face and all her resolve melt away. Fuck I felt mine melt away. I was ready to go to war but I wasnt ready to go back to the place my brother was... the place I killed my brother.
Darren: I swear to God if my lil brother die because of yo drama.....
He looked me dead in my eyes and that look alone scared the hell out of me. It was a look of hurt, anger, hate, and fear. I knew exactly what he was feeling.
My heart stopped... Did he just threaten me? I already feel horrible as it is! Christian is only doing this to get to me. Its my fault that Darren's 13 year old brother was tied up, beaten and hanging from a hook in my dad's warehouse.
DaeDae: I swear on my brother's grave I WILL FIX THIS!!!
The time for shock had worn off and now its time for action. I gathered my thoughts and my mind went into over drive. If Christian wanted a war I was ready to give him one he would never forget....