Hey, this is my first sttempt at a story, I hope you like it. I will keep it going as long as people read it because I hate when a good story ends. This is the first part and it has no sex but I promise, soon there will be alot.
I want to dedicate this to someone who has answered my infinite questions and has w/o knowing it detered me from suicide. I want to thank-you so much, you have helped me out so much, if you ever want anything, anything at all just tell me. If you don't know it's you yet , you read my story before I sent it in. I also want to thank the authors of all these stories for writing such good stories, I didn't understand how hard it was until now. LoL. And I want to thank Nifty for making a place for authors to put their stories.
If you're under 18 don't read this, or if you're offended by gay sexual content please don't read this story. This story is fiction and is not meant to imply anything about the true sexuality of any member of the Back Street Boys. Thanks everyone, and please send any comments , any critisism, or just want to talk to Aprntce11@aol.com thanks alot
Chapter 1
After the long exhausting concert everyone sat and relaxed in the room the arena had supplied for them. AJ noticed that Kevin wasn't talking as much as he usually does and had not really been himself for the past couple weeks, so he bluntly asked Kevin if there was something wrong with him lately. Everyone else looked over because, they had noticed Kevin's strange behavior also but AJ was the only one that would say something.
"Kevin is there something wrong with you lately you haven't been talking to us much and it seems like there is something important on your mind."Aj randomly stated.
"I'm not going to get into that right now, but I'm taking you guys, and all of the manager and agents to eat tonight and we'll discuss it then."Kevin said to the surprised group.
Everyone paused but then snapped back into reality and asked Kevin where they should go.
"I was thinking of this small but nice Chinese restaurant by the bay, but if you guys had something else in mind but that's good to."
Everyone liked Chinese and agreed, except for Brian who had his mind set on cheese pizza tonight, but kept quiet and politely agreed because he knew that it wasn't where they went that was important, it is the important thing they need to talk about.
The group slowly trudged off to their dressing rooms to get some normal clothes to put on for dinner. Nick was finished changing in a split second because he was so hungry and ran from door to door trying to get everyone to hurry up. Eventually everyone finished and walked to the limo quickly to avoid the millions of screaming girls. When they finally fought their way to the limo they called the manager and agents and asked them to meet them outside in the limo asap. Two men and a woman rushed out to the limo only to find that the guys wanted them to go to dinner with them, but they said it was important so they climbed in and headed off towards the restaurant.
After a twenty minute drive they pulled up and everyone jumped out. The place was generally empty, it seemed like the whole city of San Francisco was still fighting to get out of the arena parking lot. They were immediately seated in their own secluded round table in the back of the restaurant. The Chinese woman quickly ran around putting green tea in front of everyone and then took their drinks, eight cokes.
"I've been thinking about something lately and it's really been bugging me." Kevin started.
"You know you can tell us tell us anything Kev."Brain sympathetically assured him.
"No it's nothing like that,"Kevin continued,"it's about the group."
"You don't want to leave do you kevin?"Nick asked innocently.
"Of course not Nick, I will never leave the group, well at least not for awhile"
Everyone now got very curious as to what was going through Kevin's mind
"I'm 27, Howie your 26, Brian your 24, what's going to happen when we're all in our thirties. No young girls will want to see old guys singing up on stage. I know I'm going to quit the Backstreet Boys when I'm 35 and I want someone to replace me. I want our name to keep on going."
"What are you saying Kevin, get to the point."Howie impatiently hurried Kevin.
"Well Howie, since you can't wait for my speech , here it is.....I think we should have a new member so that when I break off he will be experienced."
Everyone stopped eating and looked over at Kevin.
"I think thats a great idea, as long as he's cute."Everyone looked over with huge eyes"I mean...ya know...for the girls."Brian stuttered.
Nick sat very quiet with his arms folded.
"I think it's great Kevin, but I want to make sure we'll all get along with him, we can't have anyone break up our group."
"Sounds okay, but I want to meet the guy first"said AJ
"I'm glad you mentioned that, I kind of thought we would have a nationwide audition of guys between 15 and 18 and we would judge the final 25 guys."
"Great sounds good Kevin, but he'll have to be as hot as us "
Everyone laughed and nodded.
"What the hell are you talking about Kevin!!! We don't need some young 15 year old guy messing up our group!" Nick yelled as he stormed off to the bathroom.
"Actually I think we should have younger than 15" AJ broke the akward silence,"I think like 12 to 16"
Everyone laughed.
"AJ, 12 year olds haven't gone through puberty yet, they can't sing low, they don't have muscles, and they can't dance very well. How about 14 to 17. Sound good everyone?" Kevin compromised.
Everyone happily agreed.
"I'm gonna go check on Nick, I'll be right back" Kevin said
"No don't do that"said Brian"He's being a baby and he's just scared that a young guy will take eyes off him."
"I need to talk to him"Kevin said.
Kevin found the hostess and asked her where the restroom was, the young woman pointed to the left and kevin walked in that diresction. he quickly found it and slowly opened the door, to find Nick pacing in the bathroom.
"Nick whats wrong, why don't you want another guy in the band"Kevin cooly stated.
"None of the girls will like me anymore, I'm the young guy that all the young girls like and he's gonna take my place!"
"No he won't , he'll be the new guy, but you can be the guy that helps him along , and look really respectable and mature, and everyone will still like you."
"Are you sure Kevin?"
"I'm very sure Nick, you can even make the final decision on who the guy is so that you're sure you like him."
"Thank you Kevin"
"And remember guys around fifteen will play nintendo with you as much as you want."
"I just hope that he's better than Brian, Ican beat him so easily."
They both laughed and then headed out of the bathroom.
When they got back to the table that make he final decision to have a new guy and the agents were told to go to the promotional department and start the auditions when they got off tour in 3 weeks. Everyone was happy with their decision, Nick was still a little apprehensive but was happy that he gets to make the final decision.
Chapter 2
I guess I should start by introducing myself and telling you a little about myself. My name is Michael Black, everyone calls me Mike. I am fourteen and am a freshman in high school. I play baseball and football, I like basketball but I don't play on a team. I have taken dance since I was three and have taken voice lessons since I was six. Regardless of the fact that I take dance and voice lessons, I have never been questioned about my sexuality by any person other than myself. I go to a small Catholic school and have a girlfriend named Katie. I'm not sure if I like men or women but she's there as kind of a safehold and I like her as a friend regardless if I like her in a way any more than that. I was the president of my middle school and will be the president of my freshman class. I do al ot of plays with school and with my and a local playhouse. That's my life in a nutshell.
Right now I am riding in the car on the way to make a tape to send to the backstreet boy's audition. My mom is out shopping as usual, she never makes time for me. We have a nanny, she's not really a nanny though, she's from a program where someone comes over from another country and lives with you and gets paid for doing stuff like cleaning and taking care of the kids. She is more like a best friend to me though, I tell her everything except about my sexuality.
I am so nervous about this tape because it has to be perfect, I really want to be in the Backstreet Boys, but the bad thing is there are almost a thousand guys sending tapes in. Well we are pulling up so I better get it together quick.
"Hi, I'm Jason. How can I help you?"asks a short man who looks about in his mid thirties.
"Hi, my names Mike, I've come to make a tape to send into the Backstreet Boys audition"
"Oh yeah, Hi mike. I saw you in Bye Bye Birdie a while back, you were great."
"Thanks, I didn't think I did very good, but thanks for going"
"Well we better get to work we have three songs to get done and I want to help you to do your best"
"Well I'm ready when you are"
"Follow me, it's right this way"
It took me forever to my songs, we had to do three backstreet boys. I chose I Want It That Way, All I Have To Give, and As Long As You Love Me. I Want It That Way was really hard because there were a lot of parts and they had to have me do every one and then blend them together. At the end of the day, though, I was satisfied with my tape but i knew I had no chance.
Chapter 3
"I have something for you"Sara (my nanny/maid)coaxed me.
"What, what is it?"I asked
"It's a letter, a letter that you have been waiting for, for a long time, hmmm....what could it say Mike"
"What are you talking about who would send me a letter?"
"You are so freaking stupid, it's the backstreet boys letter saying if you made it or not"Sid with her thick Spanish accent.
"Why didn't you just say that! Will you open it for me?"
"Sure, I wonder what it will say...?"
Sara sat down the letter trying to build suspense.
"Open the fucking letter NOW!"
"Damn it settle down, you really want to do this don't you?"
"Yeah, now open the letter!"
"Oh, sorry"
"It says.....Dear Mike, you have advanced to the semi-finals, out of 6,894 you and ninety-nine other guys will be expected to be in Orlando to audition for a position as a new Backstreet Boy. Three-fourths of you will be sent home and the other half will then go on to finals and audition for us, The Backstreet Boys. The dates are July 25 through July 30. We hope to see you there."
"This is awesome, I might be able to meet Brian!!!!"
"Why do you want to meet Brian why not all the other guys?"
"I umm...I just respect him alot."
"Well I'll go make flight and hotel reservations, can you go get your mom's credit card for me?"
"Sure."
When I got back she was waving and gritting because I took too long and the travel agent was waiting. She got our flight and our hotel room pretty quickly and then she told me she wanted to talk. We walked to her part of the house, then into her room. She closed the door.
"I need to talk to you about something, it's not bad so don't get worried. I just wanted to ask you a question. It seems to me that you seem more interested in meeting Brian than being a Backstreet Boy. Are you by any chance ....umm....I mean....."
"Gay?"
"Yeah.."
"Yes, we can still talk alot can't we?"
"Of course, alot of my friends in Spain were gay, actually we can talk more, because now we have more in common"she giggled.
"Sara, you don't know how much that means to me."I cried
We hugged and and she wiped my tears.
"Now we need to talk about something important, how are we going to get Brian for you, you like him so much you should at least give it a shot."
"I've got a sure-fire plan, I have a letter that i'm going to drop that doesn't have any names on it at all. I will "accidentally" let it fall out of my pocket and into his lap. If he comes up and tells me he is not gay then I'll tell him a girl gave it to me."
"That is a pretty good plan. Let's get to work writing the letter."
"Thats done too, here you can read it"
I went to my dresser and pulled the letter out of the bottom of the top drawer, and handed it to her."
She snatched it quickly and slowly read over it:
Him...
His eyes, are like crystal blue streams,
His hair, is a golden color, only seen in my dreams
When I look at him,
and hear his voice,
my heart beats faster,
it has no choice.
My stomach flutters endlessly,
I only wish,
that he could see,
how much his love,
would mean to me.
meet me in the Hilton lobby at 9:00pm
"Thats perfect!!!"Sara screamed.
"I'm so good I amaze myself."
"Lets hope Brian thinks the same thing when he leaves you're room in the morning"Sara giggled.
I just laughed.
Chapter 4
As the plane touched down Sara vomited for the fourth time. We were taxied in and allowed to leave. Sara jumped up and bolted to the exit dragging me behind her barging through groups of people. Sara immediately was herself and was in control again.
"Okay we can exit here and het a taxi to the hotel"Sara said as she walked through the airport.
"But what about our luggage?"I quickly questioned.
"I had it taken over to the hotel"Sarah reassured me.
We walked out a revolving door, and Sarah hailed a cab. It smelled horrible but as long as it got us to the hotel. It was a 10 minute drive but it seemed like eternity because of the stench. We finally arived and checked in. Our suite was nice and our luggage was laying on the bed when we arrived. I immediately started practicing my music, and after 3 hours of dancing and singing, I crashed onto my bed and was asleep before I hit the pillow.
I woke the next morning with plenty of time to practice and get ready. I wanted to practice alot this morning because I wanted Brian so bad. I wore a pair of khaki shorts and a tight Nike undershirt. I decided to wear my New Balances since there would be dancing. I practiced for awhile and then we left in the firebird we rented.
"Are you nervous?"Sara asked.
"Nervous doesn't start to describe it, I feel like I'm going to blow chunks."I said.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what to tell you except that you're really good and I know you'll make it, and I trust that you'll make it enough that I rented the room for two weeks"she reassured me.
"Well I hope the judges like me as much as you do"
When we pulled up to the studio I took a deep breath and confidently hopped out of the car. I didn't think I would make it but I sucked it in and walked through the double doors.
As I walked through the doors there were several women with sheets and names on them. I walked up to one and she started smiling and put a plus by my name and told me to walk through the doors on the right. I looked at the people that were walking into the two different rooms and it came to me what the women were doing. I felt so sorry for the people walking into the other rooms, those women were seperating the guys by how they looked and I knew that the guys in the other room didn't even have a chance. Well at least I got through that cut.
There were roughly forty people in my room that meant that about fifteen people would leave and the rest would get evaluated by the Backstreet Boys. I prayed for the first time in months that I would make this cut.
There were four rooms that we lined up in front of to go and do our vocal audidtion, I went third in one of the lines and was so nervous. When it was my turn I walked in and said hi.
"Hello, I'm Matt nice to meet you"I said to the woman who looked to be in charge of this room.
"Hello Matt please don't be nervous, I know it is hard but we want everyone to do their best"the woman said.
"Thank you so much, here is my tape I'll be singing As Long as You Love Me"I said shaking.
The woman put my tape in and after the introduction I started the song:
Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine I'm leaving my life in your hands People say I'm crazy and that I am blind Risking it all in a glance How you got me blind is still a mystery I can't get you out of my head Don't what is written in your history As long as you're here with me
I don't care who you are Where you're from What you did As long as you love me Who you are Where you're from Don't care what you did As long as you love me
Every little thing that you have said and done Feels like it's deep within me Doesn't really matter if you're on the run It seems like we're meant to be
I don't care who you are Where you're from What you did As long as you love me Who you are Where you're from Don't care what you did As long as you love me
I've tried to hide it so that no one knows But I guess it shows When you look into my eyes What you did and where you're comin' from I don't care, as long as you love me, baby
I don't care who you are Where you're from What you did As long as you love me Who you are Where you're from Don't care what you did As long as you love me
"If you can dance you are garunteed the position, that was as good or better than the Backstreet Boys themselves!"the woman said excitedly.
All of the other judges just nodded and smiled.
"Thank you, I'll try my best"I replied as I happily walked out of the room.
I was beyond excited. This was so great, I couldn't believe she said that. My confidence rose a bit and I'm glad because I needed the energy for the dancing part. When everyone was done with their voice auditions we gathered around to learn the dance. I wasn't worried about the dance because I've been dancing since I could remember.
It was even easier than I thought it would be, and I guess that most of these guys had never had a dance lesson. I went out with my group of five and was evaluated by three judges, who were easily won over by smiles. I was so pumped.
"Everyone please gather around, we will now announce the people who will be staying for a meeting."a young judge announced.
As she listed the names I awaited patiently
"John Kraus, Danny Schubert, Bobby Schaffer....."the announcer continued.
She finally paused and then finally announced: "That is it thank-you all for coming."
I walked quickly to the door a single tear running down my cheek..................................