Brother's Mate
Chapter 5
The father and his son sat there. The son embraced in the father's arms. Silence ruled for at least ten minutes broken only by the sniffles of a runny nose before Callum suddenly blurted out, "Am I some sort of perverted monster to want to do that?" and then he began crying in earnest.
"No! Absolutely not! And neither is Alex for offering it to you." John assured Callum. Then in a much calmer voice he began, "Both of you boys are going through puberty and that is a time when everything gets messed up pretty cruelly for you. Your mind plays tricks on you and lets you think that at times your cock is in charge and must be obeyed. Your emotions get upset as they charge around as if on a roller coaster. You experience things both inside your head and body and outside them that are totally new and often confusing. The fact that you are worried about your reaction is proof that you are not a monster. The second fact that you resisted the temptation is proof that you are not perverted. And what is happening to you is simply proof that you are a growing and maturing teenager. Now just sit quietly for a moment and let's look at this in perspective." John eased his grip on his son's shoulders to allow him to move away a bit. As he did so he fished his handkerchief out of his pocket and handed it to Callum to use to dry his eyes and cheeks. While Callum did that, John got up and closed the bedroom door.
"I've done that because I think you need some privacy at this very moment. While we talk, there is a chance that your emotions might overwhelm you again and you might start crying again. There is also the other chance that you might become aroused and I am sure you don't want anyone walking past the door seeing you talking to your father with a tent in your shorts. I think it will be embarrassing enough for just me to be with you if that happens but please don't be concerned about it. I understand and that is one thing I will not need to share with your mother. Also if you do get an erection, try to pretend you are alone and just move it to make it comfortable; there is nothing worse than having your hard dick straining against the material that is preventing it from getting to where it wants to go. Now remember, I'm also part of the male species and I have struggled through puberty too. That means I do have some understanding of what you are going through now; only I did not have a father I felt brave enough to go and talk to. I just had to get through it the best I could on my own. This is one reason why your mum and I have made it a point to be open and honest with you two boys. Why we have tried to make it easy for you to come and talk to us about anything."
"What was grandpa like then?" Callum interrupted.
"Don't get me wrong. My father was not a bad man and we definitely knew that he loved us and wanted what was best for us. We also knew he did everything he could to provide that. But we lived in an era where children should be seen and not heard' and were for the most part a by-product of their parent's lovemaking. If grandpa had not got us through university by working long hours to pay for it, you would not be enjoying some of the things you have because I would not be in a job that pays as well as the one I am doing. It is just that children did not speak to their parents on personal matters. And the idea of giving a child the talk' like I gave you a while back was simply not entertained at all. I loved him and still miss him and I am sorry that neither of my children will get to know him. It was his working so hard to pay for your uncle and me to go to university that took its toll and led to him having the heart attack which caused the car crash that killed him. Anyway, this is not helping us to get to the bottom of your problem."
"I'm sorry too dad because I think I would have liked him."
"I know you would have liked him. But let's concentrate on you for a bit now. Like I told you the other day, when your body goes through the changes to convert a little boy into a grown man there are chemicals that are released into the body which we call hormones. These hormones do a number of things to you. They tell your body to store up some fat and then tell your body to start growing and use the fat as extra fuel to run that increased growth. And you already know how that growth goes with getting a bit taller and broader. With that also comes more defined muscles and enlarged sexual organs. Then hair appears where before there was the fluff that could be seen only if the light was at the right angle. Those hormones also take their chemicals to the brain and begin to pickle it so that it changes its focus. Suddenly that drainage hose becomes an object of curiosity and has feelings you never knew you had so that you discover its other purpose in life. But all this happens at a time when you have not had enough experience in life to be able to properly analyse it and come to a logical conclusion. What is more is that nearly every other boy the same age as you is going through the same or similar things. Because of the way society has imposed certain limits on matters of this nature, you all don't know where to turn and end up turning to each other. For some there is no U turn and they stay in a gay relationship. For some they make the U turn but bring a passenger with them and others turn and become what really is incorrectly termed `straight'. I say incorrectly because I don't think that there is anyone who is truly straight. They might be in a monogamous relationship, and keep absolutely faithful to their partner but still have some longings for something different. Whether that be with the same gender, or with a different age group or something else entirely."
John's words were interrupted by a timid knock on the door and a soft voice said, "I'm sorry Cal, I didn't mean to make you feel bad."
"Come in Alex, you didn't make me feel bad." Callum called out and smiled a little.
Alexander came in and clearly was still nervous as he approached the two sitting on the bed. John held out a hand and signalled to Alexander to come to him for a hug. While he was wrapped in his father's arms Alexander looked over at Callum and said, "If it is too hard for you Cal, I won't come in the tent with your friends."
Callum's eyes started to blur as the tears flowed again and he reached over and joined in the hug. "If anyone stays out of the tent it will be one of them, not you."
"I'm really sorry. I didn't know it was so hard for you."
"It's not your fault. It's me that has the problem." Callum tried to comfort Alexander.
"Actually, it is neither of you and in a different way both of you." John said. "I've just been reminding Callum of the talk I gave you a few weeks ago because it's been a couple of years since I told all that to Callum. But as both of you are here now, it will be good for us to talk through all of this together. Are you both okay with that?"
"Yeah, I think so." Callum said.
"Okay," Alexander answered.
"Good. This will save me having to do it twice. And maybe as a group we can help each other more. Now, first, I know I have said this already before but I am going to say it again so that you can be sure of it. No matter what happens; no matter what either of you do, both your mother and I will always love you and try to do what is best for you. Sometimes you might not think it is what is best but I ask you to let us who have more experience in life be the judge of that. Sometimes it might really be hard and hurt us to do what we think is necessary to achieve the best. We don't like punishing you boys but sometimes we see that as the best way to get you to stop. To take a look at what you have or haven't done and to understand that your actions have consequences that you might not be able to see or understand at first. Like you talking with your friends in here loud enough for Alexander to hear in his room. Or like you trying to get Callum to touch you when he didn't know what he wanted to do. Each of those things has contributed to what we have here in this room now. Neither of you could see that, and neither of you wanted it, but this is a consequence of that. Callum I know has done some experimenting with some other boy, or boys. Alexander I am guessing you might have done some yourself and if you haven't already, you are hoping for some in the tent at the weekend. Like I told Callum, it is something that many teenage boys will do. For the most part it is generally harmless and a bit of learning. Some boys will come away from that as definitely gay. Others might find that they like both worlds and still others will come out as hetero only. And it is not just boys; girls also experiment with each other too. Your mum and I have tried to be open and honest with you all the time. This is no exception. I can't say that I like what you are doing, but I am not going to order you to stop it either. I think that would just encourage you to do it behind our backs. Boys going through puberty have tremendously strong sex drives and sometimes just using your own hand is not enough to meet those needs. So there is the need to find release some other way. It will be there for most boys and knowing how it was for me I can guess that it will be there for both of you. Ordering you to stop will be like one person trying to push against a bulldozer, it simply isn't possible."
John paused to let that information sink in a little before he continued, "I have already told Callum that as open and honest your mum and I are with you so too are we with each other. This means I will be telling mum about this chat and I know that she will not do or say anything that will embarrass you in front of your friends. I know that she understands what is happening with both of you. She is also going to leave it in my hands to help you through with it unless you specifically ask for her help; but I think I am correct in assuming you will find it easier to deal with me rather than with her." John explained and watched as the two boys nodded their heads, clearly shuddering inside at the thought of having their mother talk to them about gay sex.
"Of course, she might tease you sometimes. But then we all tease each other because we are a family and that is part of how we show our love for each other." John continued. "But now I want to talk about health and safety and you both need to listen and understand this very well. It is one thing doing a bit of experimenting with a couple of friends but you do need to know if those friends are doing anything with anybody else who might be passing on an STD."
"What's an STD?" Alexander asked.
"That stands for sexually transmitted disease and there are a number of different ones but AIDS is probably the worst of them." John told Alexander. "But there is not only the risk of getting a disease, there is also the risk of getting hurt both physically and emotionally. The emotional hurt is something that I can't really advise you on. You can't stop yourself falling in love with someone or just having some feelings for someone and then getting hurt when those feelings are not returned. But you can take precautions against the physical risks. The biggest risk is with your anus. Let's at least admit it that it is designed for stuff to come out of it rather than go in it. Now I know Callum has not yet experimented that way, and I think I can be reasonably sure that you haven't either Alexander. You don't need to answer that. But putting something too big up there can cause the opening to tear and also cause damage inside that might take an operation to fix if it can be fixed at all. The same goes for sticking things up your cock. There is also the question of what sort of lubrication you might use. Sometimes something that seems right might just have something in it that is not right. Plain old Vaseline works well but if you put camphor in it then that burns like crazy and you will think you are on fire. Some things will only hurt for a short time but other things can cause permanent damage so just be very careful and if you don't know, don't do it or use it. Remember you can always come and ask me. I don't promise to be able to answer all your questions but I will do my best."
Again John paused but both boys stayed quiet. Each of them with things spinning around in their heads so John began again. "Now as far as you two doing things with each other. How far does it have to go before it would be labelled as incest? I really don't know; but there are a lot of brothers who share a room throughout their teen years and they can't help seeing each other naked and even hard. They also will probably see each other jerking off. Even without sharing a room you two have hugged each other and no doubt in some of those hugs your groins have pressed together, admittedly that has not been done when naked, but it happens. No one has a problem with that. So how intimate can you get before it is called incest? Legally I am guessing that any physical contact with the genitalia of another family member would be incest. Morally, it might be even less than physical contact. I think it is up to you. You both need to feel comfortable with what you are doing and if either one says no, then it stops. That also applies to action with your friends. No is no and must be respected."
"What about if you take on a bet and then lose? Surely you have to pay that debt even if you don't want to?" Callum asked.
"In normal circumstances I would agree with that but in these circumstances paying a debt could have much farther reaching consequences than just paying the debt. For example, if you're debt is to allow your friends to take pictures of you naked with their phones, that seems pretty harmless, but if those pictures then get sent to someone else or worse get posted on the internet then you could actually be doing something illegal and could end up in court for it." John told them.
"Wow! I hadn't thought of that. We've joked about taking pictures but never have. I think I must tell the others because we all need to think carefully about this." Callum responded.
"What else do we need to think about dad?" Alexander asked.
"Absolutely everything. You are both intelligent boys. You know that you have more brains than many of your peers, so use them. When you are thinking about doing anything, try to think through what could happen afterwards with what you have done. The same goes for what you say. Sometimes what you say can come back to bite you. Like it has for you Callum. You made a wager with one of your friends because you thought you were certain to win but it has come back on you and you lost."
"Yeah, but he lost because of me so I'm going to pay his debt." Alexander said.
"No! You're not! I didn't lose the bet because of you. I lost the bet because I've been blind and not paid enough attention to someone I care a lot about and that's why it has come back to bite me."
"I don't know what the bet was about, or the terms of the debt but I know one good thing that has come out of it. That is it has shown you two how much you care about each other. Just look at it, two weeks ago you would have been having a stand up fight about this and now you are looking at how to support each other. And while fights between siblings are a natural part of growing up, I think from now on your fights will be very different and much fewer. Now. I think each of you need some time by yourselves to think through what we have talked about today. So why don't you stay in your rooms for a while and then when you are ready to join the world again we will see you downstairs. And remember we love you both very much and nothing, absolutely nothing, can ever change that." John stood up and walked out the room with Alexander following closely behind him. Alexander closed the door of Callum's room as he left and went straight to his room and closed himself inside it.
Alexander lay on his bed for a short while then said out loud, "I love you Cal."
"And I love you too, Al." Callum replied.
A few minutes later Callum heard Alexander moving about in his room and then the bed creaked a little and shortly after that Callum could hear the rhythmic sounds of Alexander as he wanked. Callum wondered how come he had never noticed that before and wondered how many times Alexander had listened to him doing the same thing. "Well from now on, I'm not going to worry about that either because he knows that I do it anyway." Callum told himself as he pushed his shorts down to uncover his hard cock. The talk with his father had not got him aroused but the sounds of his brother jerking off next door did. This time his fantasy started straight in with his brother stripping him and then playing with him and finally sucking on his cock. As he came he groaned and wished that his cum was going down a throat rather than all over his stomach and chest. As he was lying on his bed with the pools of cum sitting on his stomach, he didn't scrape them up to eat but just left them for a bit as his thoughts continued to think about doing things with Alexander. But now his reasoning went along the lines of `if Alex is happy with it and I am happy with it then it should be okay'.
About half an hour later he put his hand on his stomach and felt the sticky mess of drying cum. Turning his head to either side he was a bit dismayed that he could not find anything within reach to clean up with. Braving it he swivelled his body as he sat up and then stood up hoping to make sure that if any dripped off it would land on the floor and not his duvet. He took two steps and then bent over to pick his boxers off the floor and used them to wipe his front down. Only now he also had to wipe his legs where some cum had landed as it dripped. Going to his dresser he pulled open the drawer to get out a clean pair of boxers, but then pushed the drawer closed again and moved back to where his shorts were and pulled them on deciding to try going commando for the rest of the day. He felt pretty safe with this as they were not planning on going out and he did not intend getting into a situation where someone could look up his shorts and see that he was free-balling. He pulled on his shirt and barefoot he left the room and went downstairs to the lounge.
As Callum entered the lounge his mother looked up and then simply ordered, "Come here, let me give you a hug." In order to receive the hug Callum had to contort his body a little as his mum was sitting in an armchair and at his five foot, seven inches if he remained upright his mum would have been hugging his waist and hips. After the hug, Callum moved over and sat down on the sofa facing onto the television which was not on.
"I'm sure you have guessed that I have already talked to mum about it and like I promised you, you have both of our love and support. Don't ever doubt that." John told him.
"I know it will be difficult for you and probably very embarrassing for you to know that I know about it, but I will do my best to make it as easy for you to cope with that as I can. And I think the best way is for me to say nothing more about it unless you approach me first. All I need to know will come through your father." Rose told Callum.
"Er ... uhm ... yes, thanks." Callum blushed down to his chest and his mother just smiled.
Callum was still flushed a few minutes later when Alexander entered the room and before Rose could call him over for a hug he saw how red Callum was and asked him what was wrong. "Are you feeling sick?"
"No, not really. It's just something that I'm struggling to get used to."
"Come over here for a hug Alexander," Rose again demanded. When Alexander had bent down to receive the obligatory hug, Rose continued, "Dad has told me what has been going on and I have told Callum and now you that I realise it would be difficult to have me knowing all this, so I will not speak of it again unless you come to me and ask for it. I will get to know all I need to know from your father." This time she had two very red boys and could not stop herself from bursting into laughter. "Oh, if you could only see yourselves now." She chortled. Callum stood up and looked at himself in the mirror over the mantelpiece. Then he grabbed Alexander and made him look. Both boys saw their flushed faces and although it made the flush stay even longer they too burst into laughter which was added to by their father joining in.
"When they had all stopped laughing, Callum said, well I'm glad we won't have to go through that again as long as mum keeps her promise." Which resulted in another short round of laughter.
"Well come on then boys, I think you can help me in the kitchen to prepare our tea." Rose said and stood up to encourage the two boys to join her. While they were working on the food, Rose asked Callum what food he would like for the sleepover and if he thought they might like to do some of the cooking outside.
"Well a roast for one meal would be nice, with potatoes and greens and a glass of wine. And then we could have a BBQ with steak or chops and a beer or two." Callum said.
"Firstly you can forget about the wine and the beer; that is really chancing your arm, cheeky boy." Rose told him but in a way that showed that she knew he had been joking. "But now seriously, would you like to have a BBQ for one meal and cook it all yourselves?"
"I would like that and don't mind doing all the cooking if you want Cal." Alexander said.
"Look, joining us in the tent is not some sort of thing for us to use you with. You are joining us because we have decided we want you to join us because this tent is the family's tent and you are family. Besides which, we kind of like you too, even if you are still a pipsqueak." Callum said ruffling his brother's hair. "But, yes please mum, a BBQ would be great and we could cook your's and dad's food too."
"That was going to be part of the deal anyway." Rose told him. "And a roast is actually quite an easy meal to do too and I have a nice pork roast in the freezer that will be big enough for the six of us. Unless you are also having some friends to sleepover Alexander?"
"No this is Cal's sleepover. My friends will make too many for the tent and get in the way. Maybe another time and Cal can join us if he wants to."