Who You Are - Chapter 4 by Andy Lake
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http://tinypic.com/r/34h8k1f/6 ----> Tyler
http://tinypic.com/r/30szp5w/6 -----> Lilian (Ty's Bf)
http://tinypic.com/r/6se5nk/6 ----> Jeremy (Lilian's Bf)
http://tinypic.com/r/33d87eg/6 -----> Blake
http://tinypic.com/r/34pxjci/6 -----> Anthony
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Recap: Last chapter we saw Tyler at his first day of work a the cafe Louche, where after leaving he got harrased by the owner's son, christian. He was helped by a strange man he didn't know who after delivering him home asked for his number. That guy's name is Jack who has been having problems with his live in boyfriend Alex. ------------------------------------------------------------------------
******************** Realizing - Chapter 5 *******************
I woke up early in the morning around 5, I looked over at Anthony who was staring out the window with a broken look in his face.
"Anthony.. Is everything ok?" I asked, he seemed startled and looked back over at me with a very sad look on his face. He tried to smile, but his eyes were still stained red with tears.
"I don't know, everything seems a bit messed up in my head. I keep running around about what Blake did to me, and I still feel it's not the first time he does something like this to me.. Many of my past relationships ended without a reason and it's all so wierd.. I don't know why would Blake wants to ruin everything for me the way he has, I try to think that is his denail on believing in love but something nags at the back of my mind" He said looking thoughtful.
"I think you should talk to him Anthony, the things you are going through can't be solved by a petty revenge because you will end up without his friendship, and that is something deep in your heart you don't want.. Please think it over" I said and pecked his cheek. I let him alone to think and headed for the bathroom, after bathing and changing into my ugly work clothing I cooked up some breakfast for everyone, left it at the kitchen island and headed down to the cafe. I walked in right on time to help with the setting of the tables.
"Ty! Missed you" Mandy said as she hugged me, we chatted for a while as we fixed the tables. After some time, the door of the cafe opened. And there he was Christian Louche, looking over at me with a confused look on his face. He walked over and looked at Many and then right back at me.
"Hey.. Can we talk?" He asked looking very out of place and uncomfortable.
"I don't have time, I need to help Mandy with everything for the set up" I said brushing him off and looking away.
"Please, I need to talk to you" He said with desesperation, Mandy gave me an odd look and left, leaving us both alone.
"I really would preffer if you didn't talk to me at all" I said with venom spitting out of my mouth as he ran his hand through his perfectly groomed golden hair.
"I'm very very sorry you know, I was drunk as fuck last night and my friends kept grilling me on how you rejected me, I just wanted to prove no one rejects me" He said with both a regretful tone and a pissed one.
"So you decided to offer money in exchange of sex with me and then tried to rape me, the fuck is wrong with you?" I asked him feeling my anger, escalate, he wrapped his hand around my arm and dragged me to the corner table of the face, he sat down, his hand moving down to my hand and holding it as he looked up.
"It's just very confusing, what I want I usually get and I don't think I'm that bad looking at all so I don't really understand what is so wrong of you know... getting it on" He said with a very confused tone, he really wasn't joking.
"For me, it's not about how hot you are or how much money you carry, it's all about chemistry and you know, personallity, both with you seem to lack. You may get all that you want most of the time but you can't expect everyone to play along and just surrender themselves to you as soon as they see how thick your wallet is. Some of us do have self respect" I said as he looked even more confused.
"But.. I can give you anything you want, it's just a night I'm asking for, because I can feel this urge inside me, I want to have you in my bed in a way you would never believe, feel you and touch you and I don't know.. Do everything I want to you for as long as you let me" He said with a tone of desperation that brought a deep red blush to my face.
"Well you are pretty honest and upfront but you are also very shallow and think to much of yourself. You have to realize that money may run most of the things in this facade of world but still there are somethings you can't get with money" I answered as I tried my best to not punch him in the face.
"What's it gonna take? I can take you to a couple dates if you wanna, please I just need to feel you and the more you deny yourself to me, the more I'm gonna make sure to bother you until you put out" He said with a decided look on his face. I couldn't help myself but laught at his reasoning, it made him seem a little cute in my eyes. I laughed and covered my mouth slightly as I kept it on.
"You are really wrapped around a perfect bubble, I would take it to be your friend if you want Christian but I don't think I can give you anything more than that" I said as I kept chuckling. His eyes seemed fixed on my smile. He then smiled himself.
"You look beautiful when you smile" He said with his mouth wide in a smile, only genuine feature I have seen his face show in the time I have known him.
"Thank you.. So what you say, friends?" I asked as he though it over.
"I'll take it" He said as he stood up, gave me a hug and then pecked my cheek.
"Just friends" I repeated as he nodded and headed out.
"So what the hell was that?!" Mandy asked excitedly as she ran towards me, clearly she had watched the whole scene.
"He was just apologizing for being a douche earlier and practically trying to buy me for sex.. We patched up and I told him we could be friend and that seemed to suffice" I said as her eyes went wide.
"Ouhh that is not gonna be enough for Mr. Louche you know, he has this horribly weakness for pretty things and can't help himself till they are wrapped around his sheets, after he always leaves them though. Quite sad if you ask me, I have never seen him have a serious relationship ever" She said as she shook her head softly.
"Well I am not gonna end up wrapped around his sheets, you don't have to worry" I said as she smiled.
"I really hope you have the strenght to reject him as much as you say you want too" She said wiggling her eyebrows suggestively.
"I sure do. Besides, last night walking home I met someone... And he asked for my number I just really hope he is going to call" I said feeling slightly nervous, just as I finished the sentence my phone rang. I fished it out of my pocket and stared at the unknown number. I answered excitedly.
"Hi!" I said unable to mask the excitement so evident in my voice.
"Tyler.." I hear Brandon's voice on the othe other end, my heart stopped beating for a couple seconds as I held the phone tightly against my ear.
"B-b-randon" I said with shock in my voice.
"How are you?" He asked as if probing around for what I was feeling, and being honest I felt slightly hopeful and confused.
"I am ok.. What about you?" I asked trying so hard to contain myself.
"Well, I'm doing just as good.. I just wanted you to hear it from me before anyone else. I am dating someone" He said, I couldn't help feeling myself frown slightly, choke up a little and breathe deeply.
"Ahh.. Thank you for calling me Brandon... I have to go" I said immeadeately closing the call. Feeling my eyes water, feeling that still he shouldn't be dating, has it already been long enough to start.
"Who's Brandon?" Mandy asked as she looked at my soaked eyes. I just shook my head trying to wrap everything around my head for a minute.
"My ex... He called me to tell me, he already started dating" I said trying my best to smile.
"well at least you heard it from him, are you ok?" She asked me tentatively.
"Yes I am, at least I hope I'll be" I said as she just frowned and snuggled up to me. I hugged her back as the first costumer made his way in and the day set off to start.
{Jack's POV}
I looked at the phone number I had saved, Tyler's phone number, I thought for some time if I should call or simply delete the number. I felt so bad feeling this way about other guy when Alex is actually with me and he seems to think our relationship is simply just blossoming to a brighter future. A future I am not sure I want to have or I want to jeopardize for a fling with a cute guy like Tyler. I shook my head and decided to delete the number. After doing so I help a helplesness and a sadness envelope me. I tried to shake it off as someone called on to me.
"Dr. Trent, they need you down at the emergency room" A nurse said with a rather tired bitchy tone. I am actually just and intern at the hopsital right now, hoping to work my way into becoming one of the best doctors I can be. I headed down to emergencies and atteneded as much as I could. At my noon break I decided to head out for a walk. I look around in a nearby park just walking feeling tired and slightly disdraught. I found myself wandering towards a cafe that seemed new. I looked it over and decided to head in. I took a seat at a window table and afet a couple moments of having been seated a waiter had made his way over.
"Hi, welcome to Louche, I am Tyler, can I please take your order?" A sweet melodic sounding pure voice inquired. I looked over and my eyes got wide and so did his.
"Tyler" I said shocked as I smiled up at him.
"Jack.. How are you?" He asked as his cheeks blushed slightly... Was that little blush for me?
"I am great, better now that you're attending me" I said as his blushed got deeper. It was for me and God how cute did it look on him.
"What would you like to order?" He asked as he took out his pen and pad. He looked so cute, like a kid playing to be a waiter, listening intently onto my order.
"I'd like some dark cofee, no sugar or cream and if you could maybe get me a cheeseburger that would be nice" I said as he averted my gaze.
"Coming right up" He said turning around and heading for the counter, he placed my order as I stared at his beautiful body. So perfect and just beautiful on every angle. In no time he came back with my order and a smile. He seemed to have fixed his nervousness.
"Tyler.. Would you perhaps, like to go on a date with me tonight?" I asked him. He seemed caught off guard.
"I'd love too" He said as he smiled at me. "You still have my number?" He asked, I felt guilt course through me.
"I actualized my phone and lost many contacts. Would you mind giving it again?" I asked as he gave me his number.
"Call me then" He said smiling and rushing off to other customers.
After I had lunch I headed back to the hospital, my mind was wondering all around Tyler and how cute he looked wearing the waiter uniform, his smile, that sweet blush and his perfect scent. I kept wandering off feeling the stirring in my groin as I pictured what I would do to his body if he let me. I hadn't felt this deep need for someone for a long time and it had me high in the clouds. As soon as my shift was over, which thank God didn't took much time today. I called Tyler, he sounded so sweet over the phone. I walked over to meet him at the cafe.
"Hi, Tyler.. Should we start our date?" I asked as he nodded and walked over to me.
"Were are we going?" He asked as I walked with him alongside me. I got him into a cab and made our way to the Central Park. His eyes shone as he walked around with me in the beautiful park at night. We talked and talked until we were actually flowing so nicely.
"So, tell me about your dating life?" He asked as he kicked a stone and looked over at me. I froze and swallowed keeping the walk. I hadn't even thought further on what I was supossed to say.
"Well I was in this relationship with a guy. His name was Alex, we dated for about 4 years but then it all lost the feeling you know, that deep feeling that is supossed to be ignited just by looking at each other, how about you?" I responded feeling the guilt of lying deep in my chest.
"I haven't met the guy yet, been in love twice and both times I had my heart stomped to bits which made it quite easy to move away from Canada" He said not looking at me just walking around and kicking a ston with a sad little smile on his gorgeous face.
"Maybe it's time you met the right guy" I said hopefully, he turned to me, his beautiful light blue eyes shone under the light of the lamp. He smiled a huge grin that lit up his face like fireworks.
"I hope I do" He said just above a whisper, I felt myself being drawn closer to him, my hands found his slim waist and my other hand touched his cheek, his eyes looking into mine begging for a kiss, I leaned into him and felt his soft lips brush against mine making my hole body shiver and ignite. He kissed back with a desire so strong, the kiss melting both of us as we kissed passionately. He pulled back slowly and blushed, chuckled and ran off towards the bridge. He stood in the middle of it and looked at me winking.
"Want another one? Catch me" He teased as he turned back around and ran off. I felt so joyfull chasing after him, he hid behind a tree, and I followed, circling the tree as he did so, both just walking around staring at each other.
"I want another one" I said as his feet stopeed moving, I pressed his body against the tree and kissed him once more, feeling his lips dance along mine. His arms wrapped around my neck pulling me closer as we kissed feeling as if everything around me turned to life.
My eyes were closed, but I could see him in my mind kissing me and holding me so close as I was about to shatter away.
"I never kiss on a first date, but you saved me once" He said between kisses.
"Thank God I was the one who saved you then" I said feeling his lips smile as we kissed. We parted and he opened his eyes looking into mine. We stood there, my hands around his waist, his back resting on against the trunk of the tree and his arms lazily wrapped around my neck. And this joyus moment was broken as my phone rang, I took it out and looked at Alex calling me. I ignored the call. He must have seen the disdraught look on my face cause he turned his head slightly to the side.
"Something wrong?" He asked gently caressing my shadowy beard.
"Emergency at the hospital, I'm really sorry.. I have to go" I said as he smiled.
"Don't worry Dr. Jack, it's not like I won't ever see you again, will I?" He said as I kissed him softly once.
"Of course not. Come on, I'll take you home" I said as we headed out for a cab and left, we got to his place and kissed once more before he rushed out and into the complex. I told the cabbie my adress and was soon at my place. I walked out feeling the pressure of guilt, shame and sadness in my chest. I unlocked the door after the flight of stairs and walked inside my place, feeling the smell of chinesse food in the house. I walked in and looked at Alex, he was walking around the kitchen serving the food on plates.
"You're back" He said smiling bringing the plates to the table and setting them down. He then cleaned his hands on a napkin and walked to me. His lips touched mine and I did my best to kiss him back.
"I'm back, how was your day?" I asked as he grabbed my hand and took me to the table.
"Lonely as always but it was ok. Yours?" He asked as we took our seats and started eating our dinner. I still enjoyed my talks and time with Alex, it was like we had grown so close we had become the best most functional couple around our friends, but it all grew into me feeling like if we had become the best of roomates. And that was good, I would hate loosing Alex, which is a great fear I have. Just to think of the fact that we can break up makes my stomach turn, but still I stopped feeling passion for him and passion is just as important as everything else in the relationship.
After we were done with the food, we sat on the sofa and watched a couple shows we always do, he rested his head on my chest and snuggled up to me. He looked up at me and smiled.
"I love you so much" He said snuggling deeper into my chest, I gulped, my eyes watering.
"I love you too" I said bringing my lips hoping with every fiber of my body that it would bring it all back, back like the moment we first met. But it was dead, his kisses didn't burn my lips like Tyler's did. His scent didn't excite me like his did, my arms around his waist didn't feel the same.
God, please help me, I really don't know what to do.
{Tyler's POV}
I walked up to the elevator and into the apartment, feeling my body floating, my lips still tingling with the feel of the most perfect kiss I've felt in a while. I practically danced into the place and was met with the gross scene of Li and Jeremy half naked on the couch his hands on her breasts.
"GOD!" I said obviously trying to ruin the moment as they both turned to me shocked.
"Tyler if you're not gonna join scoot!" Li said with a kinky smile. I rolled my eyes and darted of swiftly to my room. I entered and locked the door in case they wanted to come fuck in my room.
"How was your day?" I asked turning around hoping to see Anthony and notice a letter on my bed.
[ Thank you for everything you have done for me Tyler and thank you for the advice, tonight I won't stay here, don't worry I think I'll be back tomorrow, I have to talk to some people before I talk with Blake, I need to know if he ever ruined any other relationship I've had. Please try not to worry about me, I promise I will be ok ]
I looked at it and placed it on the desk. I thought about them, how their friendship had been ruined by selfishness and felt anger course through my body. How can Blake take something as precious as friendship for granted. And in that moment I decided I needed to do some digging of my own. I had to talk to Blake before Anthony did. I grabbed my coat and walked out eyes full closed.
"Please before you start either move to the bed or put some towells on the couch" I said as I felt a cushion being thrown at my face while I walked out. I dashed to the elevator and was soon out of the place. I ran a couple blocks to the cafe where Blake plays and entered. There he was right on stage, he was signing a very sad song, his look had disheveled and sang with a voice so broken it pulled on my hearstrings. As soon as he finished he bowed slightly and was off the stage. I made my way to the backstage entrance and was met with a guard.
"Hello, I need to speak to Blake can you please help me?" I asked as he huffed.
"You tonights bitch?" He asked chuckling.
"I am a friend asshole" I said slightly pissed, he just rolled his eyes and moved away.
"Suck him good fag" He snorted as I walked through rolling my eyes. I walked to his dressing room and there he was looking at himself in the mirror with a huge bottle of vodka halfway empty, he took a rather huge swig and set it down loudly.
"Blake, can I talk to you?" I ask tentatively, he turned around and looked at me. He turned red with anger and stood up swiftly.
"You fucking moved Anthony to your place... Tell me, have you two been fucking? Proably has you more stuffed than a thanksgiving turkey" He said with an angry stare. "It's always your type he goes after you know, cute lil soft innocent guys" he said looking away.
"Ok.. Calm down, first things first, I took him in because you two couldn't be in the same room for now, second we have not been fucking we are just friends, and third I thought you liked my type" I said a little confused, he seemed to relax after I told him there was no fucking.
"It's not that, but your type they tend to flock around Anthony, and why wouldn't they, he is hot, has a fucking huge ass heart and he is simply perfect, so it would make sense for me to you know get into those type of cuties and just fuck them away from him, besides your type tends to like my cock to much to stay away" He said with a rather smug grin. That moment it's when it hit me.
"Wow, so Anthony, you like him. That's why you keep driving everyone away from him" I said searching for a stool to sit. I looked up at him confused, and his eyes widened.
"The fuck are you talking about!" He screamed angered and nearly tripping as he walked towards me.
"Have you told him?! You are such an idiot, so you just ruined his love life because you are to fucking scared to tell him" I said as he grabbed me by the collar and pushed me to the wall.
"You don't know what you're talking about! He would never go for a guy like me" He said with a pained voice and it all seemed to fall in to place and fit together like a huge puzzle.
"He was planning this revenge thing wanting to get back at you.. You have to tell him, he is heartbroken, he misses you and you don't know if he might love you the same way you do" I said as he let me down, he started sobbing and collapsed into my chest, I hugged him tightly and rubbed his back softly.
"He won't take me I know he wont" he sobbed, and right then the door opened and Anthony walked in, he looked at Blake and me, he walked to him and grabbed him by the shirt and pushed him to the wall, aimed his fist to his face, but he was stopped as Blake crashed his lips to him and in that moment Anthony froze.
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Love you guys!!!!!!
Sorry for taking long to post the second part of my story but I've been out of writing juices lately. I cant even write a word on my Meet The Kiler's story so I tried with this to get the juices flowing.
Next Chapter will be up sooon!!
Hi guys sorry I've been so absent this month you know that's very unlike me but college stuff kept me too busy to even take a breather! So sorry I promise it won't happen again! At least I hope not!
Hope you really enjoyed this story, and as you may have noticed, it has kind of a personal meaning. I hope it got to you. :D
Thanks for reading, and I hope you like my story so far. If you haven't read my other story on nifty, it's called Aphrodite's Curse. It's quite recent, so you should look it up. It must be in the first 50 stories.
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About the author!
Well hi! It's me, Andy. I'm the author of this story, and I hope you like it so far. In most e-mails you seem to want to know stuff about me, like my age, hobbies, etc. Well, I'm 18 years old, I enjoy writing, as you can imagine. I love writing poems and songs, and well, express myself through words. I want to be a Doctor. My favourite colour is blue, I looooove ice cream, my favourite movie is Easy A, and my favourite TV. show is Friends!! :D
I love Chandler, and well, I kind of have his sense of humour and that sarcastic edge to it. :D Well, that is me, and if you have anymore questions, don't hesitate to e-mail me!
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