Legal Notice: You must be at least 21 or the legal age were ever you are to read this. This story is completely fiction it does not imply that any of the Backstreet Boys are gay or Bisexual.
Author's Note: Hello again, on this segment I had help from Tony author of When You Say Nothing At All' I suggest you read his story it is really good. I want to thank him and to all those who e-mail me with your comments. Also the story NSYNC Love' is really good and so is `Brian & Justin/ Just Beginning'. This is a first for me and I apologize that the last chapter was so short. I also want to thank Nifty for having the archive and David for taking his time to post all the stories. The next part may not be out for a week or so. I invite all of you to send me your comments at wesleym2@yahoo.com or you can reach me on ICQ my # is 47618266.
"Mmmm. what a way to wake up." I said and smiled when Brian kissed me to wake me.
"I thought you would like it, we have to get up so we can leave in and hour. We have to be in Ft. Lauderdale, FL tomorrow." Actually, I still needed my sleep, but since Brian woke me up gently then I decided to get up. Brian dragged me to the bathroom since I was too lazy to get a shower. After 20 minutes taking a shower, I went out and find some clothes on the bed, which Brian picked for me earlier to wear; I decided to wear the blue one, since it was his favorite color. Since I hadn't pack my stuff yet, Brian helped me with it and it didn't take long. We still had 30 minutes before leaving, so we both went to Kevin's room for breakfast; the other guys were waiting for us and all of them half finish with their breakfast; I greeted all of them and they replied back to greet me. Brian gave a plate and put some foods on it plus a cup of coffee. Finally we all could manage to start our trip on time.
"Mark, I want you to know that since you are going on tour with us you have to have a title. So we thought you could be a backup singer or something."
"Well I can sing but not that good. Is there something else I could do?" Then Howie said the one thing that would allow me to be near Brian the most.
"How about our personal body guard?"
"Don't you guys all ready have those?"
"Nope we have security guards not body guards. Also it can be legit because you saved Brian's life and you would most likely do the same for the rest of us, so why not, plus you get to go anywhere with us and you stay near us/Brian all the time so it's not that bad. How about it?" I looked over at Brian who had the biggest grin. I knew this is what he wanted.
"Okay, But remember that I still have to recover from the last attack." Everyone nodded as we all loaded the bus. The trip would be tiring but at least I was with Brian. I wish I could show Brian just how much I love him. That's when I decided to talk to Kevin.
"Kevin, could I talk to you alone for a while, there are a few things I need to ask you."
"Sure we can talk as soon as we get started and can find a place on this bus that is private." I smiled and knew that Brian would want to know what was said but he would just have to wait. We had gotten on the interstate when Kevin sent everyone to the back of the bus so that me and him could talk.
"So what's up Mark?"
"Well I know Brian loves me and he shows it I just feel like I haven't really shown him how much I love him. I really don't know how. And another thing Leigh Ann wrote a letter to Brian and he wont tell me what was said, I feel like all I'm doing is causing him pain and suffering." By now I had tears running down my face. Kevin hadn't heard about the latest thing with Leigh Ann.
"Mark, Brian knows you love him, but I can help you with some thing to show him that you do. When we get to Ft. Lauderdale, Me and you will go to a jewelry store and you can pick something out for him, but now I want to get Brian in here to see what Leigh Ann is up to" With that he got up and went to the back. I sat there and then the thought of losing Brian came to me and I just broke down. A few sec. later Brian walked in with Kevin.
"Mark!! What's wrong babe?" He held me tight. I cried on his shoulder for a while and then I calmed down enough to talk.
"I just don't want to lose you." Brian had tears in his eyes he placed a kiss on my lips and said.
"You won't ever lose me. Now what's wrong Kevin?"
"Will you tell me what Leigh Ann said in the letter she sent you."
"Oh that" Brian said with a sigh, "Well she has supposedly gotten a hold of management and got them to agree with her about that Mark can't stay with me and that he needs to leave, also that if I contest it she will make me pay she didn't say what but you know her. She thinks that me and my house belongs to her and that she has a right to make Mark leave. Then if that didn't work she will press charges against Mark for abuse when he never touched her."
"Well let me call management and see if they know anything." Kevin picked up his cell phone and dialed a number and waited. "Hello, yes you can this is Kevin and I want to know if Leigh Ann Wallace has been in contact with you about Brian and Mark........ Ok thank you." He hung up with a smile on his face. "Well she had talked to them but they already had you working for us as a personal body guard and told her to leave and to leave you two alone, they also plan that if she continues to be a problem they will press charges." Kevin was happy and so was Brian but I knew that she would do something stupid. I smiled at them and then looked out the window.
"Mark you ok babe" Brian asked
"Yeah I'm just tired, I think I'll go lay down, would you join me?"
"Sure" We both headed for our bunk. We crawled in and soon we were asleep.
Dream
I was going to meet Brian when a dark figure jumped out of the shadow and shot Brian in the chest. I ran to help Brian. I got to him and he was hurt real bad.
"Why didn't you save me, you don't love me." I was crying hard and then the dark figure turned and pointed the gun at me.
End Dream
"Nooooooo!!!!!!!" I was crying because I really thought Brian was dead I looked around and didn't see him and got really scared. Just then both Brian and Kevin appeared.
"Mark what's wrong you were yelling" I grabbed on to Brian and cried.
"I. I .t..thought you were. dead." I sobbed.
"Shh. it's ok it was just a dream, come on lets get you up and come sit with me so I can watch you." I got up and went with Brian to the lounge and sat down next to him. He pulled my head onto his shoulder and I stayed that way. A.J., Nick and Howie had looks of concern but said nothing. They were watching something on a movie I really wasn't interested. Some how during the final leg of the trip I fell asleep on Brian's shoulder because the next thing I remember was someone shaking me.
"Mark it's time get up." Brian said softly.
"Okay, I'll get up." I really wasn't feeling very good but I wouldn't let Brian know. We were at the hotel they were to stay at while they were here. Brian had gotten all our stuff into the room and ready to be unpacked.
"Brian I'm going to lay down for a minute." I went over to the bed and laid down. By now I really, really wasn't feeling good and I knew I had to lay down or fall down. Brian just let me lay down.
"I'll join you in a little bit I have to go see what we have planned today."
"Okay" I mumbled. I laid there and started to get very shaky and cold. I felt of my head and it was very hot. "Bri. Brian." No answer. I got up and went to the door to call. I opened it and stepped out side the door. "Brian. help!!!!" Then I blacked out.
In Kevin's A.J. heard some one call for help and looked out the door. And saw me on the floor.
"Oh MY GOD.. BRIAN IT'S MARK HE'S PASSED OUT ON THE FLOOR!!!!!" Brian jumped up and bolted for me. He was white as a sheep. Kevin called for the medic. Brian picked me up in his arms and held me. He felt of my face and head I was burning up.
"Kevin he is burning up, we got to get him to the hospital." Kevin then called to let the hospital know that they were bringing some one in and that they better have someone waiting on us. Brian carried me to the rented car and Kevin drove to the hospital. It took about 15-20 min. to get there. Brian checked my breathing and noticed it was very shallow. They got there and there was a doctor waiting on us.
"Hello I'm Dr. Farr, lets get him to room 12." They ran me to the room got me on the bed and the doctor asked for them to leave. Both Kevin and Brian stepped out side to wait. They watched as different techs and nurses ran in and out of the room I was in. They had placed a heart monitor on me and it was beeping very slowly. And that's when Brian heard the words he dreaded. "Hurry or we are going to lose him." Brian just cried. He didn't want to lose me. Kevin decided that Brian needed to get away from the room so that he could calm down. He took him to the other side of the waiting room. They had been there for about an hour when the doctor came out.
"Well we got him stable, we will move him to intensive care for now. He had a very bad reaction to medication. I need all the medication he has to take so we can determine what happened." Kevin pulled out his cell phone and had A.J. grab my medications and have them brought to the hospital. "Brian I'm not supposed to do this but since you are the only thing he can say I want you to stay with him."
"Okay" with that the doctor left. Brian got up and headed for the ICU.
"Brian we will find out what is going on." Kevin said as he followed Brian.
"Kevin I don't want to lose him. He means so much to me that if he left I would die." Kevin knew that both me and Brian loved each other. When Kevin got Brian to where I was he went back downstairs to wait on A.J.
The Hotel
A.J. looked through my stuff and found the medicine I was taking for my headaches. He grabbed them and another bottle that said it was for allergies. He then left for the hospital. A.J. knew something wasn't right but he had to wait to find out. It took A.J. 30 min. to get to the hospital. When he got there, there was reporters every where. `Shit why do they all ways have to do this.' He said to him self as he parked. He got out and ran to the emergency room doors. Kevin saw him and met him at the doors.
"This is all I could find."
"Thanks lets get this to Dr. Farr." They went to his office and waited for him to see them. He was on the phone talking to some one about a patient he had that had a rare illness. He turned in his chair and saw Kevin in the door way and got off the phone.
"Kevin is that the medicine he takes"
"Yes it is" Kevin handed them to him and Dr. Farr went straight to the lab with them. Kevin followed him as well as A.J.
My Room
I was unconscious still. Brian sat next to me holding me hand. `why does this always happen, what's wrong with him why is he having this.' Brian cried while he thought. He knew that his love for me is undying and that we will make it.
"Mark please wake up, I need you. I don't want to lose you, I love you. Please come back to me." Brian just cried, as he held my hand which was cold and life less. The only comfort he had was the fact that my heart was still beating. He watched the heart monitor because it was the only thing that let him know that I was still alive.
I could hear him crying and wanted to go to him but I couldn't because I was too weak. I was fighting as hard as I could. But I felt like I was losing. The only thing that kept me going was that I need to be with Brian.
Dream
"Mmmm. what a way to wake up." I said and smiled when Brian kissed me to wake me.
"I thought you would like it, we have to get up so we can leave in and hour. We have to be in Ft. Lauderdale, FL tomorrow." Actually, I still needed my sleep, but since Brian woke me up gently then I decided to get up. Brian dragged me to the bathroom since I was too lazy to get a shower. After 20 minutes taking a shower, I went out and find some clothes on the bed, which Brian picked for me earlier to wear; I decided to wear the blue one, since it was his favorite color. Since I hadn't pack my stuff yet, Brian helped me with it and it didn't take long. We still had 30 minutes before leaving, so we both went to Kevin's room for breakfast; the other guys were waiting for us and all of them half finish with their breakfast; I greeted all of them and they replied back to greet me. Brian gave a plate and put some foods on it plus a cup of coffee. Finally we all could manage to start our trip on time. I waited to take my medication after we got on the bus. I remember going to the fridge to get a coke and took something for a head ache and my allergy pill. Afterward I talked with Kevin and then with Kevin and Brian and him. All the while I was getting sleepy. I think about the medicine and remembered that they are gel cap but they were covered with a powder. Why were they like that?
End Dream
I felt stronger now and warmer. But I still couldn't open my eyes. I could hear Brian and the Doctor talking with Brian crying and sounding very angry with him self.
"Brian do you take a heart medicine and anti depressant?"
"Yeah, why?"
"Well some how Mark took your medicine and he is allergic to it. It did the opposite of what it was meant to do. But we caught it in time."
"I did this"
"No he just took the wrong medication." Everyone was trying to calm him down and console him but he wouldn't listen.
"Bri.Brian..hold me" I whispered out. The only one who heard me was A.J. He came closer to me and bent down. I repeated what I said. A.J. was excited.
"Brian Mark wants you to hold him!!" Brian turned to me and saw I was trying to reach out to him. He quickly grabbed me and held me. He knew I was on the road to recovery.
Three days later
"Ready to go Mark?" Brian asked.
"Yep" I was feeling much better and the doctor released me. We left and headed for our next stop which was Charlotte, NC. There we would meet up with Britney Spears, who would be joining the tour as an opening act. We didn't take the bus because it was to far and we were running out of time. So we went by plane. At the air port, we were the last to board. Kevin made sure that me and Brian didn't sit together because of their career. Brian sat with Kevin and I sat with Howie. The flight took about six hours. When we landed in Charlotte, NC Britney was waiting for us.
"Hey guys." She said. They said hi gave her a hug. I stayed behind because I didn't want to intrude on their reunion. `No one noticed, not even Brian. Oh well, I guess I'll just head on over to the limo.' I walked off toward the limo. The driver knew I was with the BSB and let me in. I waited for about ten minutes when the door opened and Britney got followed by the guys. She sat across from me and then Kevin, A.J., and Howie. Brian sat next to me and then Nick. The door closed and we were soon on the way to the hotel. I never looked at them I just looked out through the window. I knew that I had to do this because of Britney, but it didn't keep me from being hurt from earlier. Britney decided to break the ice with me.
"So Mark, how have you been?"
"Okay I guess." I said she knew I was upset.
"Mark I'm sorry that I didn't say hi before, will you forgive me?"
"I forgive you."
"Are you seeing anyone?"
"Yeah I am."
"Who's the lucky girl?"
"I prefer not to say."
"That's okay I understand, being that you are working with the BSB and Britney Spears you don't want anyone to get jealous."
"I guess you could say that" That's when she busted out laughing as well as Brian and the others. "What.?"
"Mark I know you are gay and I know that you and Brian are an item." I smiled at her.
"Thanks, but I'm just tired, I get this way after flying."
"Okay then but I want you to know that I want to be friends." I shook my head okay and leaned against Brian's shoulder. I soon fell asleep to his heart beat. It was steady and loving.
"He must be tired" Britney said.
"Yeah he's had some rough ground to hoe, but I think he will make it."
"Well we are almost to the hotel do we wake him or do we carry him?"
"We wake him but not until we get there. And get all the stuff out and in to the rooms." A few minutes later the limo pulled into the drive of the hotel and let the guys out. Brian had told the driver to wait and he would come back to get me.
"Mark,. we're here come on." I awoke and got out.
"Where's my stuff?"
"I took it to our room"
"Okay." Was all I said. We headed for our room. I stayed quite, it just seemed since Brian got that letter from Leigh Ann he has been distant. It bothers me that he won't share his inner most thoughts with me. But maybe I expect to much too fast. Brian opened the door for me and let me go in. When I looked around I was very shocked. There where candles every where, roses on the dresser, it all was just so beautiful. He did love me. I was so touched that I was crying.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"It's just that it's just so beautiful, and thank you." I gave him a kiss on the lips. "Brian do you mind if I go ask Kevin a favor, just for me and you stay here?"
"Sure" I knew Brian was hurt a little but I knew what I needed. I went to Kevin's room and knocked.
"Come in"
"Kevin do you remember what me and you talked about on the bus?"
"Yep and I took time while you were recovering to pick it up for you." He handed me a velvet box. I opened it and there were two rings. Both engraved with our names. The one for me had Brian on it and then on Brian's it had my name. I thanked and hugged Kevin then left to go to Brian. When I returned Brian was ordering room service for two. He saw me walk in and smiled. I also had a smile on my face. Before I left Kevin's room I asked him to keep the guys from bothering me and Brian. He agreed. I sat down next to Brian and kissed him on the neck. Then I mouthed `I love you'. I saw his eyes sparkle with love. I knew he was something special. He soon hung up and turned to me.
"I thought that me and you could use a little time to our selves for a change."
"I know I asked Kevin to keep the other guys occupied while me and you spent some real time together." He smiled at me knowing that I was thinking of us. I leaned in and gave Brian a kiss on the lips. Brian returned the kiss. Soon we were tasting each others mouths with our tongues. Then the room service arrived.
"I'll get it" Brian said. I stood and straightened my shirt and watched Brian speak with the man out side and then close the door and brought the food over to the bed. We sat down and Brian served the drinks. There was no wine or champagne it was a tea for him and a large Dr. Pepper for me. We ate dinner and talked about odd stuff. But soon I was lost in Brian's eyes, the way they sparkle when he talk's about one of the guys or his family. Then his smile. His smile always sent shivers up my spine.
"Mark you okay?" He asked with concern. I came out of my trance and smiled.
"I'm sorry, I was just thinking about you." Brian smiled again. I reached into my pocket and with drew the small box I was carrying with me. "Brian I have some thing for you." I gave him the box and he opened it. His eyes got tears in them. "I had Kevin get those for me. One is for you and one is for me, I want them to resemble the love we share and know that nothing can break it." Brian was letting tears of joy fall down his face. He stood up and came over to me and gave me a kiss that topped all kisses. He put one ring on my hand and one on his. We got up on the bed and we then spent the next three hours making love to each other. We then fell asleep. We both knew tomorrow would be rough because of the concert and then having to leave right after it.
I awoke to the sun light coming in the window. Brian had held me with love that I really didn't want to change but I needed to get up and shower. I slowly got out of bed and got things ready for a shower. I had just got out of the shower when the phone rang. I ran over to it so as to not wake Brian.
"Hello"
"This is Kevin I just wanted to let you know that we gotta get going in an hour so we can get ready for the concert. And breakfast is at the coliseum."
"Okay I'll get Brian up and we will meet you down stairs."
"Okay bye."
"Bye" I hung the phone up and saw that Brian was awake and smiling. "You need to get showered and dressed to practice and get ready for tonight's concert."
"Okay, I'll get up." When he got up I kissed him and he went to get showered and ready. It took him about 20 minutes and we were on our way. When we got down stairs we saw the Howie and Kevin were the only ones here.
"Where are the others?"
"They should here anytime now." Kevin hadn't completely said that when both Nick and A.J. appeared. "Okay lets go." We all headed for the limo and took off for the coliseum. It took us about 20 minutes to get there. The limo stopped and we got out.
"Britney is already here she had to practice before us and all." Kevin stated. We walked in and headed for the dressing rooms. Britney took a break and came over to us.
"Hey guys yall ready for tonight." She said.
"Yep we are just going to go over some songs and dance moves before hand but we're ready." Kevin said.
"I'd love to stay and chat but I gotta get back and finish practice." Then she left. I told the guys that I was going to look around and then go sit in the front row and watch. I was walking and walked right past were some new security guards were and they stopped me.
"Hey how'd you get in here?" One of the guards said angrily.
"The same way the BSB did" I said. He grabbed my left arm and jerked me down the hall to the exit. I pulled out of his grip. "What do you think you are doing?" I asked
"I am taking you out side where you belong." He reached for my arm again.
"You touch me again you won't be able to use it for a week." He just laughed and grabbed my arm. I then swung my other arm and hit him broad side of the face. He stumble back and let go of my am. I got ready for him to come after me. He did and just as he got close enough I grabbed his arm and twisted it and pulled it behind his back and held it. I was causing him pain beyond belief. I got him walking back the way we came. When I got there Kevin was talking to the other guard. He stopped when he saw me and the guard who was almost crying.
"Mark I think you can let him go he won't bother you again or he will be looking for a new job." I let him go and walked over to the front row seats. Kevin stayed behind to make sure that all the guards knew who I was and that they are not to interfere with me. When I sat down I started rubbing my left shoulder. As I was rubbing it I felt something wet. I pulled my hand up and looked and saw some blood. I opened my shirt and the scar had been pulled open.
"Shit." I said. Brian heard me and turned to see blood on my hand and shirt. He ran off the stage and came over to me.
"Babe what happened?" He asked in a hurry. I told him and he called Kevin and a the medic. Kevin came over and he got really pissed. The medic arrived. He stopped the bleeding and put a bandage on it and left. I told them I was fine and that they should be getting ready for tonight. They finally agreed and let me be. It was nice but I do know of one security guard who will be out of a job. But enough of that. I sat and watched the boys for about three hours when they decided to break for lunch. They had ordered pizza and had it delivered. We all went to their dressing room and ate including Britney. We all told jokes and had fun but it all too soon was over. Nick said something to Brian about me and Leigh Ann that really made me mad especially when Brian replied.
"Hey Brian, what's the difference between Mark and Leigh Ann?"
"Well I for one don't know, what."
"One can kiss and tell and the has to kiss and hide." Nick broke laughing as well as Brian. I got pissed why I don't know I guess because I hate to be made a joke. I stormed out of the room. As I was leaving Brian realized what had happen and so did Nick. Both got up and took off after me.
"Mark please wait up." Nick said.
"Why so you can make fun of me or turn me into a joke."
"Mark I'm so sorry please I said it with out thinking."
"Me too Hon I just got caught up in joking that I forgot and I am really sorry." They both gave me the puppy dog look and I forgave them. We all went back and finished lunch. Now it was time for the sound checks and getting dressed.
concert
Britney was first. She sang about 6 songs. Then the set was changed. The first song was Larger Than Life. I kind thought the dancers were too much but the crowd liked it. Then they sang Hey Mr. DJ then they ran off stage and Howie started his solo. He finished then A.J. When he finished Kevin went on. When Kevin was done Brian was on. He sang That's What She Said.
"I wanna dedicate this song to a very special person in my life." He sang that song with so much emotion that it was unreal. When he finished he had tears in his eyes and so did I. Nick was last and he sang Heaven In Your Eyes. They took a short break to change for All I Have To Give. During the concert Brian kept looking over at me when he got a chance. They sang a few more songs and then ended it with Everybody (Backstreet's Back). The lights faded and we all climbed aboard the bus so we could head for Washington D.C. To the place that would change my life forever, and a new addition to the tour.