The sun almost sets and I get this weird feeling like I was losing my mind, I just cant stop thinking about Marie. She's at another place and I miss her terribly. I keep telling her how much I love her and she said the same, but I cant figure out if its just friendship or she too is falling for me. But sometimes I think or I just want to think that she's sending me signals; you know body languages and stuff. I still remember when I was 13 and she was 14 and we are young and still in high school where uncertainty becomes everyone's issue, it was a very hot sunny afternoon of august when I first heard the words other people say to the people they really care about, I love you was being shouted at the whole school in front of many people and that really makes me think twice.
After 8 years of being courted by men, we are still single and some kind of don't want to be in a commitment. Sometimes we cant help ourselves well even in public, we are still close, I mean really close like holding each other while ordering food, make sweet gestures when every eye is looking, well I don't care as long as I'm happy. Since then there has been an unanswered question between us, we don't need to say it coz we can feel it, but there is still a problem.
" You know, I wished you were a man." Well I was surprised I didn't know that I could be wanted as a man.
" And why is that?" I asked
" Coz I want you to be my boyfriend." Weird, I thought but still nothing can be weirder on what I am about to say.
" Know what, we could be girlfriends, but I will let you date men and when you found the one you fell in love with, we'll break up."
" Yoanna, I don't think you understand it's impossible."
" Why "
" Coz I want you, all of you" she said with pure sincerity in her eyes
" You don't have to worry about that Marie because you own me from the very beginning." Then she smiled.
I'm very serious at this time, I don't really know what's up, maybe I wished I was a man, but I love being a woman, maybe that's the other factor that makes this relationship a little bit more exciting, coz you'll never know what to expect.
" Hey wanna come with me?"
" Where?"
" In the dressing room, I wanna try this shirt."
" What am I supposed to do there, just go on" but if I'm a little bit kind of edgy, I would surely go inside that very dressing room.
" Hey do I look nice"
" You look great, you can wear it to your date with Jake." She smiled and then I turned around and suddenly she embraced me, I loved it.
" I wish I could stay like this forever."
" And I also wished that you stay."
Whenever I get lonely, I think of her, when I'm happy I still think of her, my world revolves around her, even my thoughts are with her everyday, it seems like she already took my heart away, that's why I don't fall in love with others, I cant give others what I've given to her. Truly she owns me.
My heartbeat feels like slowing down, and then I trembled with the sound of my phone ringing. I picked it up hoping it's her.
" Hello?"
" Yoanna, its me Marie" and she is.
" Hoping I could spend the night there, I really miss you so much."
" Sure, I'll be waiting"
I started cleaning up and prepare some dinner, I like it when she's near, it felt peaceful and solemn once I look at her and I cant wait to see her. The doorbell rings, 'it's her' I said to myself. I opened the door and she came to me with a warm smile.
" Hi." I said unsurely.
" Hi Yoanna its been a year." Yeah it's been a year since we last saw each other, she has a long black hair, fair and smooth skin, angelic face and a tall one.
" You look amazing!" I said excitedly
" Not as amazing as you are." She walk towards me kiss me softly at the side of my lips and then hug me tightly. I felt home and I can stay like this for hours.
" So are you hungry?" I asked
" Very much!"
We went inside, she took of her shoes and lay relaxingly at the sofa. She really feels at home, so I offered her a drink and sit on a little space of the sofa.
" How are you?" she started.
" Just fine, I got a job in the hospital and having some tennis lessons, so I will not get bored." She smiled
" I know you Yoanna, you can stay home, watch tv and never get bored."
" For a year, something can change but I still watch movies." She sat up and put her face on my shoulder and looked at me curiously.
" What else change in you?"
" Why do you wanna know?" she looked at me worried
" Im not happy, not knowing anything about you, I don't know what you like and what makes you happy anymore." I feel guilty, so I lean closer to her and said almost in a whisper
" You make me happy." She looked amazed and begins to get up.
" I'm hungry."
" I have the dinner prepared."
We went to the dining table and ate, we talked about things that are happening when I was in the hospital and she talks about the funny things her fellow workers do to each other.
" You know what, I cant stop laughing when my officemate jumped when he found out that her girlfriend is coming and he had a girl on his lap, you know my other mate, so they started to panic but too late for them he is caught." She said laughingly
" Well poor girl, so they broke up?" I asked
" Not only broke up, but he was punched, and now he has this very big black eye, and we learn that his girl is a karate black belter."
" Ha! Ha! Ha! That should teach him a lesson." I said and laughing so hard
" So after that no girl in our office wanted to date him."
" Who wants to?" I finished
We cleaned up the kitchen and went to my bedroom where we watch movies. Marie kept touching her shoulder and then she's rounding up her head its like something is wrong.
" Hey what's up?"
" My shoulder hurts and it runs from my head to back." She said irritatingly
" Come here let me massage you." I got some oil, light up some aromatherapy candles for relaxation and I asked her to lie flat on the bed.
" You are probably tired you have some hard spots on your shoulders and back, maybe because of traveling." She closed her eyes and feels the relief
" Mmm-hmm" she answered
" So do you want to sleep already, I can turn off the TV?"
" Sure" I went to the TV and VCR and turn it off, when I turn around I was surprised she's at my back.
" Yoanna do you know that I think of you every minute of the day since you move here."
" Really?" I asked surprised
Then she started to pull me towards her, her hands at my back and my heart is racing so fast. She remove the long strands of hair at my face and looked at me deeply, she trailed her finger on every bone structure of my face, my nose and then my lips. She moved closer and kissed at my cheeks, the side of my lips, and when I cant wait any longer, I lean to her closer, she smiled with this and stopped on what she is doing.
" You get pretty excited Yoanna." She said jokingly, but the feeling of not finishing it makes me irritated.
" Yoanna don't get mad." She said
" I am not mad." I lied but I've waited for this since she came to the house, she keeps flirting but she never finishes what she started.
" I don't know if this is ok with you, but I need to ask you this before anything else."
" What?" I'm getting pretty excited now.
" Do you love me Yoanna?" I smiled I thought she will never ask that question, so I try not to give a straight answer.
" As a friend, yes" she looked disappointed, but on what she has done to me I'll get my revenge first. But what she didn't expected is that I pulled her closer and pressed my hips against her, and slowly while looking at her face I started putting light soft kisses on her lips, she returned it and when we cant hold back any longer we kissed hard and breathe as one.
" I love you Marie, I love you so much!" I whispered
" You know Yoanna, I've been waiting 8 years for this and now I can finally touch you" she said longingly
" Don't worry I'm yours since the day that you told me you love me." She was surprised on what I said
" Do you still remember that?"
" How could I forget the first time" Then she smiled and kissed me till I can no longer feel myself in her arms.