This is a story of love between two young men. If you are under age, or live in an area where reading tales of male sex is illegal, or if you're not into this type of story, please leave. The story begins in 1969. While the characters and their story are completely fictional, it is set at places that are real and is told against a backdrop of some real events. This was a time when all sex was safe. It isn't now, so please respect yourself and others enough to always play safe. Comments are appreciated at NJRimzu@aol.com.
I've been surprised and a bit overwhelmed by the response to this story. Because it is my first attempt at fiction, I've incorporated a lot of reality into it. My freshman year at Rutgers was 1969 and I patterned Danny and his family a little bit after my family and me. The rest is a fantasy.
I would like to take a moment to thank a few writers on Nifty who have encouraged me, given me suggestions, and even done a little editing for me. I never thought I could write, but these friends have convinced me that maybe I can. My thanks to Tim, Evan, Patrick, Ash and Tommy.
Sept. 27
Danny
The minute we closed the door to our room, I was all over Billy. I know I'm supposed to be shy, but Billy has awakened needs and desires in me that I didn't know were there. I've lusted after guys as long as I can remember, but now that I know what's on the other end of that lust, I'm obsessed. It's not just how fantastic his body feels, how much I want it and enjoy it. It's the knowledge that I'm in love and that he loves me. I can't believe it. Something that I never dared even dream of. I just want to be with him and be a part of him every second.
We quickly peeled our clothes off. I just couldn't get close enough to him, and it seemed the same for him.
"Baby boy, I want to make love to you."
"Again? I'm up for it. You don't have to ask, you should know that."
"No, you don't understand. I want to be in you, to make love to you, to be joined with you as one."
I wasn't sure what he meant. Maybe I am as dumb and naive as everyone keeps telling me. We'd already been joined and in each other. The confusion must have shown on my face.
"I don't mean to be crude, because as you know I never am, but I want to fuck that hot little white ass of yours."
"No way that's possible. I can't imagine something that big fitting inside me there. You'd rip me apart."
"The last thing I want to do is hurt you. But I want to make love to you. To be inside you. I promise I'll be gentle and slow, and if it hurts, I'll stop. But please, let's try. If it works, who knows, maybe I'll return the favor."
"You mean...?"
"Shhh. Let's just go with it and see where it takes us."
I was really uptight at the idea and Billy realized it. He just laid me down on his bed and went to work on my body, licking, sucking and nibbling all over, thrilling and relaxing me. He sucked on my balls, one at a time, and then he pushed my legs up toward my chest. I tensed up again, expecting a huge invasion of my most private part. Instead, I felt his tongue licking down from my balls. He reached my hole and began licking and sucking around it. I was at once shocked that he would do that and thrilled at the incredible sensations that ran through me. He just kept licking and tonguing me, relaxing me, giving me pleasures I'd never dreamed possible. He reached for the tube he had bought at the store earlier. He moved his mouth back to my balls at the same time I felt his finger at my hole, coated with a cool slippery substance. He pushed and it slid right in, feeling slightly uncomfortable, but good. He slowly slid his finger in and out of me, occasionally hitting something inside me that set fireworks off in my brain. Before I realized it, he had a second finger in me, slowly pumping and twisting inside me. While he was working on that, he moved up and began kissing me, making love to my mouth with that amazing tongue of his. I was in heaven. The next thing I knew, he was kneeling between my legs, three fingers gently sliding in and out of me. He pulled his fingers out of me and put the head of his huge erection where they had been.
"I love you, Danny," he whispered softly.
He pushed slightly and the head popped into me accompanied by a sharp pain. I gasped and he stopped.
"I'm sorry, baby, I didn't want to hurt you."
"It's okay. Just don't move and maybe I'll get used to it. I want to give you what you want."
I took a few deep breaths and tried to focus on relaxing, not an easy thing to do. But the pain finally did go away, replaced by a very full feeling.
"Go ahead, try a little more."
He slowly pushed into me, sliding his big hardon into me what seemed to be millimeter by millimeter. It didn't hurt, but I couldn't believe how huge it felt inside me, stretching me more than I ever thought possible. Finally, I felt his pubic hair against my butt and knew he was in all the way, or close to it. He gently bent down and kissed me; eyes open, staring into my eyes, so careful that he wasn't hurting me. I let him know I was okay and he began pumping in and out of me. With each stroke it felt better. He was hitting something magical inside me that was exciting me beyond belief. And now that he was actually in me, I felt how the act of making love connected us and completed us. Physically, it was amazing. Emotionally, it was a revelation.
As he increased his speed, I felt his hand, slippery from the stuff in the tube on my rock hard penis. He stroked me in time to his pumping until I couldn't hold back any more. As I shot my semen in spurt after spurt over my chest and belly, I felt his penis expand even more and begin to pulsate inside me. He collapsed on top of me, out of breath. I wrapped my arms around him and held onto him, enjoying the feeling of him inside me.
After a moment, he looked into my eyes. "You took me to heaven, baby. I never imagined anything could be like that."
"I second that emotion."
"I think we need another shower and then maybe a nap."
"Maybe a nap after lunch. But a shower first. We've been at it longer than you think, but even so I don't think we should go into the Commons smelling of semen."
Billy
Damn, I can't believe what a hot little ass Danny has. I've been turned on by it since the first time I saw him in the shower and have jerked off thinking of fucking it so many times. And the reality was no disappointment. He's so hot and so tight, I had to concentrate so I didn't cum as soon as I was in him. I knew it was probably uncomfortable if not a little painful for him at first, but figured it would feel better for him as he relaxed. So I tried to make it last as long as possible. I couldn't hold out very long, but he seemed to be enjoying it by the time we both came.
After another quick shower and we went back across to the Commons for a late lunch. And a chance to talk. For some reason, we weren't getting much talking done in our room.
"So white boy, how'd you like a big black dick up your ass?" I asked softly.
"Once I got used to it, I really liked it. There's a spot inside me that feels incredible that you kept rubbing."
"Really? Not just a good feeling of having a dick inside you, but something more?"
"Yeah, it was like some spot that you kept hitting that really turned me on."
"Well, I hope you can find that spot in me this afternoon."
"You mean you want me to do that to you? I thought that you wanted it the way we did it this morning. I mean you're the tough guy. I'm just a shy kid. I thought you liked being the one in charge. I know I liked it."
"I do, but I want to share everything with you. One thing I want to stress to you, coming from where I come from, is that I want us to be equals. That's important to me."
"Okay, but you'll have to show me what to do. You just seemed to take to it naturally. I may need a little instruction."
Back in the room, we quickly undressed and laid down in Danny's bed and just made out for a while. I couldn't get over how turned on we both were, how hard we both were, considering how many times we'd cum since last night. I thought this sweet white boy might have a problem licking my asshole like I'd done his, so I didn't push it. Instead, I got out the lube and put some on his fingers and my hole. I directed his finger into me, while playing with his dick. He really seemed to get into fingering me. And I got into it too. Every now and then his finger hit a spot inside me that electrified me. I knew what he had been talking about at lunch.
I remembered what he said about liking me being in charge. So I laid him on his back and knelt over him, straddling his slim hips. I slathered up his dick with the lube and positioned the head against my hole. I lowered myself an inch, pushing his head into me. Nothing we had done before prepared me for the searing pain I felt as he entered me. I knew it had hurt him when I first slid my head into him. But he had just gasped a bit, waited and then took the rest without too much trouble. He was definitely smaller than me, but it felt like I was impaled on a telephone pole. But I was determined that Danny was not going to be tougher than me. So I clenched my teeth and pushed down onto him, engulfing his white dick. It hurt like hell and though I didn't make a sound, it brought tears to my eyes.
"Oh gosh, I hurt you. Stop. I don't want you to hurt."
"Just give me a minute. I can do it."
"Lean forward and kiss me. Maybe I can distract you."
I bent forward and kissed him. He did his magic with his swirling tongue and soon had erased the pain I had felt in my ass. I lifted up off him gently and then slid back down. No pain. I began sliding up and down; increasing in speed, feeling his dick hit that spot inside me each time. I looked down into his beautiful green eyes looking back at me. I put some lube on my dick and grabbed his hand and put it around me. Holding my hand over his, we stroked my meat together while I fucked myself crazy on his hot cock. After a few minutes of our double pumping my dick, I let loose, shooting streams of cum all over his chin, neck, chest and abs. With each shot, my hole tightened around his dick, which set him off. I felt his cock pulsate inside me as he shot his load deep into me.
I just sat there impaled on him for a minute, trying to catch my breath. He took one finger and scooped up some of my cum from his chest, put his finger in his mouth and sucked on it. Then he took the same finger, scooped up more of my cum and put it at my lips. I sucked it in, I joined in, scooping up cum and feeding him while he continued to feed me, giggling all the while, until we had nearly cleaned up the mess I had made. Only then did I slowly lift myself up off his still half hard dick. I grabbed my underwear from the floor and wiped up what was left of the mess we had made. Then I laid down beside him and we just cuddled.
Next thing I knew it was practically dark in the room. We had dozed off, exhausted from a day of lovemaking. I gently shook Danny awake as I looked over at the clock.
"Shit! We've only got twenty minutes to get something to eat at the Commons. And we definitely need another shower."
We raced down to the bathroom, took quick showers in record time and got dressed while still half wet. We managed to get our trays of food just before they shut down for the evening.
"So, black boy. You've known you were in love with me and wanted me all this time and did nothing about it? Withheld all of this pleasure from me? And yourself? How unlike you."
"I was just so afraid of losing you. I never dreamed you might be gay, too. If I had, I would have jumped your bones that first day."
"I never thought someone as tough as you could be gay. And I guess I never thought it possible that anyone could fall in love with me. This is going to take a lot of getting used to."
"So are we going to the dorm party tonight? I don't think we could have any more sex without a chafing problem. Plus, we should probably make a public appearance before the guys start to wonder what's so fascinating in our room."
"Yeah, I think it would be fun. But it will be hard to keep my hands off you."
Later, after a couple of beers at the party, I decided it was time to expand Danny's vocabulary.
"Okay, white boy, there is absolutely nothing pure and virginal about you any more. So it's time you started talking like a college man and not a little boy."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean it's time you started cussing like the rest of us."
" I told you before that words like that just don't seem to sound right coming from my mouth."
"I know. But it's not like you've got moral or religious hang-ups about them. You're just not used to saying them. And I'm not suggesting you develop a gutter mouth like me. But, at least in bed, a little dirty talk can be exciting. Now repeat after me. Damn."
"Damn."
"Not bad. Try hell."
"Hell."
"Shit."
Silence.
"Okay, maybe that's a little strong for you. Let's try dick, cock and ass. Those are words that come in handy in bed."
"Dick, cock, ass."
"Very good. Now for graduation. Fuck."
Again, silence.
"Well, what do you know? We thought you guys had gone home for the weekend. Where have you been hiding all day?"
"Jeff, Bob, how's it going? We've been holed up in the room, working on papers all day. How about a beer?"
Danny
What a weekend. I've realized I was in love and was loved back. I've had more sex than I knew existed. And have loved every minute of it. Even Billy's vocabulary lessons at the party last night. Though there were a couple of words I wasn't comfortable saying, somehow everything that's happened this weekend has freed me in some way. Loosened me up, untied me. I've definitely lost a few of my inhibitions, along with all of my virginity.
We left the party fairly early and fairly sober. When we got to the room, we gently undressed each other and just lay down on Billy's bed naked and cuddled. He lay behind me and held me the way I did to him after his nightmares. And we fell asleep that way. I could feel Billy's big hard dick pressing against my ass. He began stirring slightly. His arm around my chest suddenly slid down and grabbed my hard cock. We turned onto our backs side by side and began stroking each other. We quickly reached another climax, shooting all over our chests and stomachs. Another mop-up and it was down to the bathroom for leisurely showers.
Jeff and Bob came out of their room just as we were leaving for breakfast the next morning so we all went together. They couldn't stop talking about two girls from Livingston College they'd met after we left the party last night. They were going over to see them that night.
"You guys want to come along? It's going to be a little party, maybe a few single girls."
Billy spoke up, "Nah, I think we'll just hang out here. We've both got lots of work to do."
After breakfast, he suggested we go for a walk. It was a beautiful fall day, warm and sunny. We just wandered as we talked.
"So, Danny, what now?"
I panicked, being a little insecure and not knowing what he was leading up to.
"What do you mean? We've just started. I love you. You love me. It's all great. I mean, the sex is fantastic, but what's even better is the way I feel so close to you now. Are you having second thoughts?"
"No. I didn't mean that at all. I just mean that we have a lot to think about and talk about. It's been hard enough for each of us growing up gay and keeping it a secret alone. Now we're together. We have to think about how we're going to do this."
"I don't mean to be thick, but I'm not sure I understand what you're talking about."
"Simply this. Do we want anyone to know? If so, how will that change our lives? If not, can we keep our secret?"
"I definitely don't want anyone to know. Not that I'm ashamed of you, but the guys in the dorm would freak out. Most of them don't mean anything to me, but a few have started to become friends."
"I agree. And some of the jocks could get ugly. I think I could take on any of them, but I don't want to spend the rest of the year fighting with guys we have to live with. But the problem is, can we act like nothing has happened? Like we're just roommates like before?"
"I guess so. We have to. Everybody already sees us as best buddies. So being together a lot won't make anyone suspicious."
"We'll just have to watch our eye contact and keep our hands off each other. Think we can do it? "
"I'm sure we can handle it. Look how we both made it through high school."
"What about Lucy?"
"You mean you want to tell her?"
"I'm not sure. She's our best friend. She's with us more than anyone. It might be hard to hide it from her. I mean I don't really feel ready to tell anyone. It took everything I had just to tell you and I think it may take me a while to recover from that. But she could be a problem."
"Nah. We can handle her. We tease each other and her so much when we're around her that I think we've got her completely baffled. But if there is ever a time we want to tell someone, she's the one."
"So it's our secret, then. Just the black boy and the white boy in love in secret. Kinda makes it a little more romantic."
"A secret romance. I like that."
Lucy
Those two boys have had me so worried all weekend. I couldn't believe the way Billy went after Danny Wednesday night and how upset Danny was. All weekend with Aunt Connie I was distracted, wondering what went wrong between these two great friends and if I could do something to fix it.
I made excuses to Aunt Connie to go back early. She had a friend coming for a visit in the evening so she wouldn't miss me. I'd decided to drop by their dorm on the way back to campus to check up on my friends.
My knock on their door was answered by a bored, "Come on in."
I opened the door to the sight of the two boys, each lying on their beds, dressed only in their underwear, reading from text books. I grabbed the camera around my neck and snapped a shot of Billy, his dark brown skin accentuated by his small white briefs. I swung around and got a picture of Danny, just as a pillow hit me in the side of the head.
"Just for that, these pictures go up on the bulletin board in my dorm as soon as they're developed, jerk off."
"If I'd known they were for public viewing, you could have at least given us enough warning so that we could have removed the briefs."
"Apparently, you two have kissed and made up."
Danny began to redden as usual, though this time all over.
"Yeah, the storm blew over. Everything's back to normal."
I was so relieved. "Hey, how about the three of us doing something special next weekend?"
"Sounds nice but we're going home next weekend to celebrate our birthdays with our families. Billy's is Friday and mine is next Sunday."
"Your birthdays! What didn't you tell me? Hey, I've got a great idea! A week from Tuesday, my dorm is having a bus trip into the city to see Hair. Why don't we all go, my treat, as birthday presents for you both?"
"Wow! Hair! I would love to see that. What do you say, Billy?"
"I'd really like to see it too, but isn't that a lot of money? I know it's a gift, but I don't take charity."
"Don't worry, they're cheap balcony seats."
"Okay, then, it's a date."
"Great. And now that I can see that you two have patched up your differences and are back to normal, I've got to get back over to Douglass and do some studying. We'll have get together before the weekend and have a little birthday celebration."
I left, thrilled that they were okay with each other and that they had accepted my gift. I'd decided to offer them the tickets before I even knew they were having birthdays, hoping to pull them into something fun together. About twenty feet out of the front door of their dorm, I heard Billy's voice.
"Hey, Lucy!"
I turned and looked up at their window. There, in broad daylight, were the sexiest naked white and black butts framed in their open window. I snapped a couple of shots.
"These are going up in the dining hall at Douglass, assholes!"