This is a story about two best friends in high school who are on the swim team together. They are both straight, but as time goes on, their understanding of sexuality evolves. Also introducing some desires for potential public sexual experiences. Happy to take any feedback at oliver.day.149@gmail.com
Chapter 7: Am I gay?
I woke up the next morning with Joey still in my arms. It took me a second to remember what had happened, but I was happy when I remembered. I think my movement was enough to wake him up because we both slowly woke up and got up. For a while, we just laid there, but eventually we started chatting.
///"Can I ask you something?" he asked.
"Yeah, of course..."
///"The friend that you hooked up with before... was it the friend that was at the party last night?"
I nodded. "Yeah, my best friend Andy."
///"Well you guys would be really cute together... I know he was going after a girl last night though... is he straight?"
"I don't know... we were both pretty convinced we were straight, even after we hooked up, but now I don't know... I'm definitely not fully straight, and I like him, but I don't know how he is feeling..."
///"Well I for one hope you guys get together... not that I didn't enjoy being together, and I'd love to do this again sometime if we are both single... but if you're interested in him, I say you go for it!"
I nodded slowly. I was already planning on talking to him soon and telling him about this hookup with Joey, but wasn't sure if I could tell him how I feel about him, just because I still hadn't figured it out for myself.
///"But first," Joey said as he pulled me closer and pecked me on the lips. "I say we go shower together before you go, hmmm?"
He had pushed his dick into me, and I could feel that both of us were hard, so I accepted. We got out of bed and Joey grabbed my hand to lead me to the shower. Our dicks were both sticking straight out, which made me laugh. We got into the shower and it was clear the first priority wasn't getting clean. We started making out and we each grabbed each other's dick and stroked it. We did that until we both came, and then we proceeded to wash each other. Once we were clean and dry, we headed back to his room to get dressed. I was looking for my boxers, when Joey threw a nice pair of black briefs at me while putting another pair on.
///"Here," he said. "You can have those if you leave your boxers behind for me... a souvenir...."
"Pervert," I said as I put the briefs on and found the rest of my clothes.
We finished getting dressed and exchanged numbers, and then he offered to give me a ride home, so we got into his car. He drove me home, and gave him one last kiss before I got out, making sure that nobody was around to see it before I kissed him.
I spent the rest of the day doing some chores around the house, but was able to get away and be alone in my room in the evening. I thought a lot about everything as I laid on my bed. I obviously liked girls to an extent, but both the experiences I had with Andy and with Joey were significantly better than any sexual experiences I had with girls. I also realized that in addition to craving more sexual experiences with Andy, I wanted the emotional connection that came with a partner. I had never desired that with a girl, which is why I only liked hookups, but I craved more with Andy. I wanted him to be my boyfriend - to cuddle with him, to hold his hand, to go on dates with him, all of that. Maybe I AM gay, and just assumed I was straight because I did have some attraction to girls...
I opened my phone and navigated to some pictures that had been taken during the last swim meet of the school year. I searched through the pictures and found some of Andy. I looked through each picture and settled on one of them. He was smiling in the picture, which was a plus, and the picture was at an angle which showed off his package nicely inside of his speedo. I already felt my dick start to harden in my pants as I looked at the picture. I pulled my shorts down and started to palm my dick through the briefs Joey had given me. I didn't pull my underwear down because I enjoyed the way my dick felt inside the tight briefs while I was hard. I continued to massage myself as I looked at the picture. Very quickly, thoughts of the speedo coming off entered my mind. I thought of his dick and how much bigger it got when it was hard. I imagined taking it in my mouth again and sucking down all the good tastes. I imagined him giving me a blowjob in return and then kissing him. I imagined his dick in my hand as we kissed, and before I knew it, I had blown my load right into the briefs. After I came, there wasn't any more doubt in my mind that I was gay.
I cleaned myself up and before going to bed, I texted Andy to see if he could come over tomorrow.
The next day, Andy came over after lunch so we could hang out. We went to the basement to play some video games, and also so we could talk in private. We played for a bit, but after a few games, I asked if we could talk.
///"What's up Lukie? You okay?" he asked.
I smiled at how concerned he was.
"Yeah, I'm good... we just haven't caught up in a while... you never told me how things went with that girl from the party."
///"Oh yeah... it was fine. She played a bit hard to get, but eventually she took me behind a few bushes and we made out. Eventually I convinced her to give me a blowjob too..."
"Nice, how was it?" I asked.
///"Meh... she was okay at it, but I've had way better. Honestly the fact we were doing it in public was more exciting than it actually happening... I just wasn't feeling it, so we went separate ways when we were done... What about you? You were gone when I came back, why did you leave so early?"
"Well uh... I did go home with someone..." I started.
///"You found a girl too? Who? I didn't see you talking to any girls."
"Not a girl..."
///"Wait... you hooked up with another dude?"
I nodded.
///"Wow... I'm just surprised. Nothing wrong with it though... How did that happen?"
"Well uh... I guess it takes some backstory. I expected our hookup to just be a getting-off type thing... but after it happened, I realized that it felt a lot different than my hookups with girls, and not only different, but maybe better? I looked up some gay porn to see if that interested me, and some of it did, and some didn't. I was really confused. I decided if I hooked up with another guy, it could help tell me if I was gay, or whatever was going on. I figured out that this guy, Joey, was gay, so I went for it, and he ended up taking me to his house..."
///"Fuck, that's intense. How far did you guys go?"
"I wasn't sure, but he was a bottom and asked me to fuck him, so I did."
///"And? How was it?"
"Well, safe to say it's all complicated, but after all that I'm pretty sure I am gay... at least mostly..."
Andy pulled me into a hug and squeezed me tight. We held each other for a few minutes before he broke the silence.
///"If you were struggling to figure all this out, why didn't you tell me until now?"
I pulled away from the hug. "I wasn't trying to hide it, but it was hard because I didn't know how my feelings for you played into it..."
///"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I think I like you... like more than I realized before. I think I never wanted a girlfriend before because I just have no desire for that intimacy with girls, but I do with you. I felt something when we jerked off in the shower together that wasn't really sexual, just intimate. The same thing happened after our hookup and we were cuddling and kissing. I think I would enjoy those things with another guy, but I have a desire to do them with you that is really strong. And you probably don't feel the same about me, and that's fine, I'll just have to ignore it. I just wanted you to know..."
///"Thank you Luke... that's a lot to process..."
"LIke I said, you can just forget about it if..." I started before he cut me off.
///"No, I don't want to forget about it. I'm glad you told me. And to be honest, I did feel something in those times like you mentioned. Unlike you, I have felt it before with a girl - my ex, but that one wasn't as strong as I feel with you. I guess I just never considered that it could be a desire for something more than a friendship. I guess regular friends don't usually cuddle and make out while naked haha... Like you said, all of this is really complicated, so I might need a few weeks to process it all, like you did. So please forgive me while I try to process all my feelings with all this new information, but know that I do like you... a lot.
"Of course, take as long as you need, just keep me in the loop, okay?" I asked.
He smiled, leaned in, and pressed our lips together. I kissed him back. I hoped it would continue, but he pulled away after a moment.
///"Let's just leave it at that for now, okay? And just between us until I figure all this out?"
"Of course," I said as I smiled. I stole one more quick kiss before we returned to our video games.