This is a work of pure fiction, but based on the author's feelings, beliefs, and in some cases, experience. Come to think of it -- it might not be very pure either! There may be graphic sexual encounters at times between men, so if this offends you, you are invited to retreat. If you are too young or it is otherwise illegal for you to be reading this kind if story, shame on you for reading it - - please stop here. If not, - - ENJOY! Cast of characters: Ben Hastings -- That's me! Bill "Bubba" Hastings -- My Dad Veronica Hastings -- My Mom. Reyna -- My Best Friend Ranj Kumar-- My New friend Jared -- A football whore. Sargeant Shipley -- High School Friend Rex Majors -- Ranj's roommate. >From Chapter 11:
Rex got up and locked the door, then came back and lay down behind me again.
I again grabbed his big hand and hugged it -- and his arm. As I stroked it, I felt his now familiar bone, slowly creeping up between my thighs. He backed away. "Sorry." He said. I backed into him.
"It's okay -- now that I know it's involuntary." I let his arm go and his hand fell directly on my own boner. He immediately with drew it, but not before causing my body to wrench out a spurt of precum. I grabbed his arm again. "Thanks Rex. Thanks for listening. Thanks for understanding and - - thanks for -- loving me -- enough to -- do this!"
Chapter 12:
Rex and I were eating some cereal he offered, when Ranj came out of his bedroom again. We were all dressed. Ranj and Rex both had classes and I was going to look for a job. Rex suggested the local pizza parlor. He said he had gotten to know the owner and they needed both inside workers and deliverers.
"Looks like you're dressed to go somewhere." Ranj said. It was lame, but it broke the ice.
"Yeah. I gotta get a job."
"Where you gonna stay?"
"He'll be staying in my room." Said Rex
Ranj perked up. "Really?" He said almost excitedly. "I was afraid you were going back home. So - - I guess we need to talk."
"And any talking will be while I'm here." Rex said emphatically.
"Rex, that's ridicu - " Ranj started then saw Rex's face -- and mine. "O -- okay, well, I -- guess that'll have to be -- okay."
I felt like such a wimp, but truly Ranj could break me like a twig. But then Rex could break Ranj like a twig.
"I guess I just want to know" Ranj said, "if I still have any chance with you, Ben. I - " He looked at Rex, then back at me. "I really do still love you."
"Ranj, if you think - " Rex started up bitterly.
"No, Rex, let me talk to him!" I asserted. I took a deep breath. I looked Ranj directly in the eyes. His tears had their affect and my eyes also started to leak. "Ranj, do you think for a moment that I don't still love you? Do you think that just because you have spoiled everything we had that I don't love you every bit as much as I ever have? That's why my whole insides feel at war. They feel dead, and also like I'm going to explode -- all at once."
Ranj broke eye contact and looked at the floor. "I wish I could do something to -- to -- take it all back. I though I had already lost you. But when you showed up - "
They were genuine enough tears. But it wasn't enough. I don't know if there IS enough to patch up what Ranj has done. "No. Ranj -- no. It's over. We can't be. I can't live like that."
"Benny, I won't ever - "
"You've said that too many times. Too many." I said.
"I know -- but -- I -- um -- never mind. You're right. I- I'm sorry. I guess that's all I can say now." His voice caught and he cleared his throat. "No!
There is more I can say! Ben -- as long as you're staying here -- and believe me, it WILL be hard -- I guess for both of us -- but can we at least be friends?"
I nodded my head and said quietly, "Yeah, Ranj. We can be friends."
"Good." He said, heading for the door. "see you later then."
Aren't you gonna eat some breakfast?" I asked.
"Not now. Just not very hungry somehow." He turned quickly and tears flew out of his eyes as he walked out the door.
I breathed two shuddering breaths and then a huge gasping sob came from somewhere deep inside me.
I got up. "I -- can't -- look -- for a job -- right now." I uttered, haltingly. "See you later, Rex." I went back to the bedroom.
"Sure you'll be okay?" Rex hollered after me.
"Yeah. Have a good day."
I lay on my newly acquired bed and listened while Rex brushed his teeth and peed into the middle of the toilet. He came into the room to get his books and waved at me. I waved back and closed my eyes. I listened as he walked down the hall and out the door. As soon as the door closed, I let out a low howl and cried for a long time. I fell asleep again and was awakened about mid-morning.
"Hey, Baby." Came the sweet voice I had learned to love. "I thought you were going out to look for a job. You okay?"
I looked toward the door. He was standing there in the doorway looking repentant and sad. "I -- didn't feel very much like meeting anyone this morning." I said.
"I'm sure that's my fault. I'm so sorry." Ranj came and sat cross-legged about three feet away from the bed. "I wish there was something I could do." Encouraged by my silence, he continued. "Benny," he almost whispered, "I know you don't think I can change -- and -- maybe you're right." He took a deep sighing breath, "You deserve better." He looked at me, and I met his gaze for several moments. Then he looked away and at his hands on his lap. I saw something drip into them from his face.
"I guess I better let you alone. Sorry to bother you." He said. He got up and slumped toward the door.
"Wait!" I said. I hadn't even thought about it. But I couldn't let him just walk out like that. He stopped and slowly turned, his hands hanging idly at his sides. "Ranj -- do YOU think you can change?" I said, almost praying he would make some unrealistic promises.
"I dunno. I want -- to -- try." He said, still in the doorway.
SLAM!!
"What're YOU doing here! I told you to stay away!" Came Rex's voice from the front door. He strode to the bedroom door behind Ranj. He was about to put his hands on Ranj.
"No! Don't!" I hollered. "It's okay. He's not -- not -- bothering me."
"Ben!" Rex said, then backed off. He shrugged and looking exasperated, said, "Whatever!" And walked past Ranj into the room and threw his sweater on his bed. He then lay on his bed with his hands behind his head.
"Anyway," Said Ranj, "Thanks for talking to me, at least. I'll see you guys later. Gotta get back to classes." He went to his room, grabbed something, walked by our room and stopped long enough to look longingly at me -- out of eyeshot of Rex -- then left the apartment.
"What was that about?" Said Rex.
"He wasn't bothering me." I said.
"Looked to me like he was trying to get back in your good graces!"
"Maybe he was. Maybe I want him to -- to -- at least try." I said in a wanton way that Rex could only shrug disgustedly at.
He seemed to be thinking, and then said, "I'm going to Jennie's after classes. Maybe you two can work something out -- or something." He grabbed some books and his sweater off the bed and said, as he left, "Be careful, please. I'll be home -- late!"
I got dressed and went to the bus stop. I asked the driver where to go to get some food. He said to hop on, and he would get me there.
I bought rice, some sirloin tips, wine, and some curry. By the time Ranj got home, the whole apartment building smelled like wine and curry!
He walked in, and stopped cold. "What the - ! THIS is where that smell is coming from! Mom?"
I laughed form the kitchen. He ran in and looked at me with wide eyes. "What're you doing?"
What's it look like? Cooking!" I said, laughing.
"Have you ever done curry before?"
"Nope!"
"You found a recipe?"
"Nope. I call it `cooking by ear'. And it's not too bad, if I do say so myself!"
Ranj came over and tried to take a taste. I slapped his hand. "Nuh-uh!" I said. "I'll call you when it's ready!"
I had marinated the beef in the same wine that I put on the table -- to drink out of plastic water tumblers.
When it was time, I called him to come eat. Ranj came in and took a deep sniff of the kitchen once more and grinned ear to ear.
"My god, I thought you hated me and it turns out you love me! You MUST!"
"Of course I do." I said. "I wish we could just start over."
His look changed to sadness. "I'm afraid it's too late for that. I want to -- be -- everything you want me to be. I'm just not sure I can be. Baby, I'm being honest with you."
"I know." I conceded. "Can we -- maybe -- eat dinner, and -- forget about all the old crap -- until - - " I hesitated, looking for the right word.
" - - until dessert?"
I looked longingly into his gorgeous eyes. "Until tomorrow."
"Tomorrow?"
"I want - - tonight." I said simply. "I want - - YOU -- tonight."
We both understood that WE would be the dessert.
Ranj was gentle and sweet. I let him take the lead and I followed. He invited me to take a shower with him. He would not let me wash him this time. He did everything. When he dropped to his knees, before taking me in his mouth, he hugged my torso, his nose buried deep in my pubes, as he kneaded my butt lovingly, as the hot water sprayed over both of us, adding extra stimulation to an already hot experience.
When he did suck in my boner, after a few bobs, I stopped him. "Let's wait until we get to your bed and do it right." I said, lifting him up to my level. We kissed deeply and stood under the shower another ten minutes, kissing fondling and kneading each others' body.
He insisted on getting out first, then drying me off. "I don't even know if it's possible, but I want to do whatever possible to try to make it up to you."
"Shhhhh." I said. "Just enjoy the moment." We stood under the heater-fan gently caressing each others dry bodies. Well, MOST of us was dry.
It was hard to let him go long enough to walk into the bedroom. As he had done before, he kissed me deeply while picking me up and carrying me from the door to the bed.
In one movement, he lay down and lifted me on top of him. My boner was so hard for so long that it ached. I immediately started my involuntary thrusting motions, and he reciprocated.
It was a little cold, so he pulled the covers over us. The room slowly turned dark as the sun disappeared from our window. He made sweet, gentle love, first to my boner sitting on it, then to me, and for the moment made me forget that he ever had a violent side.
I woke up as I heard Rex's key in the door. I slipped out of Ranj's bed and, wrapping the towel around me that I had taken in to Ranj's room, I retrieved my clothing from the bathroom and met Rex in our bedroom.
"So -- you guys had some make-up sex tonight?"
"No." I said.
"Huh!? Really?!
"It was more like farewell sex. He was gentle and wonderful and - - sweet. Before we fell asleep, I told him I want to remember him like that. He agreed, and we fell asleep crying, but feeling sweetly connected for one last time." I again could not keep the tears from my eyes.
Imagine my surprise when I looked and Rex had tears in his eyes. "For what it's worth -- I kind of know the feeling." He said.
"What?" I said. "You had farewell sex too?" I said it only joking, through my tears.
"Well -- but without the sex. I broke up with her tonight." He stopped for control, then continued, "We both agreed that it wasn't gonna go anywhere.
It strange how something can be such a relief but still hurt so much."
I looked at the clock. It was 1:30 AM. "Rex -- maybe -- um -- you'd -- um -- can we just sleep together again? You can be my big brother again."
"You won't make fun of my boner again, will you?"
"I might. It seems pretty gay for a straight guy!" I quipped.
"Fuck you!" He said laughing.
"That may be going too far!" I said, still grinning through my tears.
"I'm gonna get you for that remark!" He said, as he ripped my towel out off me and started to snap it at me. I jumped in my bed and pulled the covers over my head. He jumped on top of me and pinned me beneath the covers, then started to tickle me. But -- I didn't respond.
"Foul!" He said. "I call foul! You're supposed to beg for mercy1 That's what Ev used to do!"
"I'm not ticklish." I said.
He ripped the covers back, and I could see his evil grin. "EVERYONE is ticklish. The trick is to find out where!" He pinned me again, and tried under my arms, behind my neck" Still could not get a rise out of me. (Well -- not THAT part of me!) he grabbed my foot and started to tickle it.
I wriggled a little as that started to get to me, but in an instant I relaxed and was able to fool him into thinking it was not tickling me. He tried the backs of my knees. That did tickle, but again, I resisted and was able to fool him. He worked up my thighs, to my inner thighs. That did two things. It made me giggle and also made my dick spring to life.
"OOO! That got a little more reaction than I bargained for! He laughed. "That's about the time I would lay off my brother." And he climbed off me.
I turned serious. "I'm not really your little brother."
"Huh?"
"You can continue - - if you want." I said.
"Oh! Heh! I dunno -- I just -- It doesn't seem somehow -- um -- I've never done anything like -- that."
"It's okay if you don't want to. I shouldn't have said anything." I back-stepped.
"I am curious -- very curious, but -- I'm scared."
"No, really, it's all right. Don't give it another - " I started. "Um -- what are you curious about? Maybe I can answer a question -- or two -- that you have."
"I don't think so. I wonder what it feels like to have my dick sucked, and - - it's tempting to let a guy do it. But -- I'm worried that if he does it really well -- I might never be satisfied when my wife does it. The same reason I won't have premarital sex with any woman. My dad says that if I do, besides the religious implications, what if I find a girl that is -- super in bed -- but just is not marriage material. Then when I get married to the girl I love -- what if she isn't that good in bed. Well, if I am still a virgin, I won't know the difference, will I? My wife, whom I love and want to spend my life with -- will be the best sex I ever had."
"That makes sense to me." I said. "Funny thing, too."
"What?" Rex asked.
"I kind of have lost the feeling now."
"Oh." He said, sounding surprisingly like he was disappointed.
"Why -- what - - ?" I asked seriously.
"Well, I was kind of thinking -- hoping really -- that -- well, you see -- um -- I could never ask my brother this -- I just COULDN'T! And -- um -- I don't think I'll ever be in a situation where I feel this close to any other guy -- as I do to you."
"And -- what - ?" I said, now really bewildered after his anti-premarital sex talk.
"Well, - um -- my wife won't have a dick. Haha! Duh, huh?" He giggled. "What I'm trying to say is -- um -- I want to suck your -- I mean I think I want to try sucking -- a -- dick -- once. And -- you -- I mean I feel comfortable enough with you -- I mean - " He stopped and turned deep red.
"Well, maybe not TOO comfortable!" I said. "Rex, do you want to suck me off?"
"Yes." He said quietly. "I want to know what it feels like. Am I some kind of weirdo or something?"
"Turn out the lights, Rex. It might be easier that way."
"Yeah, yeah! You're right!" He said, much more excited than I would have imagined. He was like a little kid!
"And I'll go wash up a bit." I said.
"Wash up?"
"Um -- It's been places you don't want to think about -- or maybe taste!"
"Oh! Yeah!"
I washed up really good and came back to the bed. The lights were out, so I was a little surprised that he was completely naked - - too.
We both got under the covers, and he held me close for a long time. Finally he spoke. "I -- um -- don't quite know how to start."
I kissed him, fully expecting him to quickly break that off. He didn't. "Omigosh! No girl ever kissed me like that. I'm gonna have to maybe teach someone to kiss -- as you are teaching me!"
I coached him to kiss my chest and tease and kiss my tits, then work his way slowly down to the prize. I told him that probably he could do all these things for a girl too. As soon as he got to the head, he enveloped it in his mouth. I debated if I should stop him. I decided I should.
"Suck my balls first, big brother. Lick the insides of my thighs -- like you were tickling them earlier. OHHHH yeahhhhh! Omigosh, Rex! That feels sooo good!" I said. He then started to lick one of my balls. Then he sucked it in -- hard! It kind of hurt, but I didn't complain.
As he sucked on my nut, I felt his nose graze my anus. I doubt he knew he was doing that. It was quite dark, and he was under the covers. He swallowed his saliva. "Next time don't swallow it." I said. "Use it to bathe my other nut."
"You really like what I'm doing?" He asked. I answered him with a shuddering moan. Again his nose whisked by my anus. I shuddered.
"Um -- watch out, that's my anus." I warned.
"Oh! Did that hurt?"
"No -- I didn't think you'd want to -- get close to that part of me." I said.
"Oh. I guess you're right. But - how come it doesn't -- um - "
"Smell like poop?" I asked.
"Yeah." He said. "but it doesn't!" Then I felt his warm, wet tongue swipe across my anus. "Doesn't taste like it either! Hee hee!"
"Ohhhhhh my god, Rex! Ranj never did that!"
"Really? I thought all guy guys did it!" he giggled and he did it again. I again let out a little gasp and moan. Then he took a wide lap across the anus and up my balls and right up the bottom of my shaft. When he reached the top, he sucked it all the way down.
"Oh! Rex! You don't have to do that!" I said.
"Did I do it wrong?" he asked, backing off of it.
"No -- you did it just fine. Didn't that make you choke?"
"No. Should it have?"
"Never mind. Just keep it up!" I laughed.
He started to bob very fast, taking full strokes every time -- all the way in then all the way out. It wasn't long until I felt that familiar almost out of control rise down below. My toes curled, then I felt it in my knees, and then my thighs. It was almost to my nuts when I yelled, "I'm gonna CUM! Watch out!"
He was too heavy to push off, but I tried to pull his head off me. But I was no match for Rex. He just kept bobbing as fast as he could. All of a sudden I started to moan, then after a series of high pitched moans, I let it all go and screamed out my ecstasy. Over and over, he took all my cum and swallowed it all.
When I was done, he kept sucking for about ten minutes. I was almost asleep, when he pulled off me, sucking until the last tip of my head. It popped as it came out.
"Whew!" I said. I really don't know what to say."
"Was it okay?" He asked.
"Okay??" I exclaimed. "Rex, I didn't expect you to swallow my -- my semen!"
"I wanted to have the entire experience. I may not ever do it again. Maybe."
And you really don't want me to -- do you?"
"No. He said, "But maybe you can kiss me while I jack off."
"I'd be happy to do that." I said.
HE stroked himself no more than six or eight times before he grabbed me and held me in an almost strangle hole while he pumped off a huge load -- all over both of us. When he finished, he started to get up. "Gotta clean up!" he said.
"No!" I said. "Don't! Let me!" I climbed on top of him and started to lick off all the cum that was on him. He covered his eyes. Finally something that embarrassed him!
"Now I'm a little worried -- that -- I'll never have that good a time with a girl!" He said.
"You will -- if you're attracted to girls!" I said.
"Well, I am!"
Rex was completely relaxed, and I snuggled up close to him -- like I had the night before. I was almost asleep when he said, "It seems almost silly, but - I love you already, little bro." I nodded in agreement and kissed his hand.
Notes: This is going in a direction I couldn't have anticipated! I don't know how or when it may be resolved. But that's what makes it fun for me! I hope it does for you too! Any comments are always welcome, to Steve at stevethomas535@hotmail.com. Thanks and love, Steve