This is a work of pure fiction, but based on the author's feelings, beliefs, and in some cases, experience. Come to think of it -- it might not be very pure either! There may be graphic sexual encounters at times between men, so if this offends you, you are invited to retreat. If you are too young or it is otherwise illegal for you to be reading this kind if story, shame on you for reading it - - please stop here. If not, - - ENJOY!
Cast of characters:
Ben Hastings -- That's me!
Bill "Bubba" Hastings -- My Dad
Veronica Hastings -- My Mom.
Reyna -- My Best Friend
Ranj Kumar-- My New friend
Jared -- A football whore.
Sargeant Shipley -- High School Friend
From Chapter 10:
Rex has a tight, neatly rounded butt, which was showing pink through a few holes in his briefs. I followed him into his room and shut the door silently behind me, and then leaned on the door for support. Nervousness was the only thing that kept my boner from appearing.
He looked at me -- much as I had him -- but of course in comparison, I was skinny and weak. But as his eyes took it all in, he smiled.
He sat on the bed, patting it next to him. "Have a seat. If it's okay -- I want to ask you something -- or -- a few things." His voice, though a little strained, was still low and mellow. A little smile -- maybe even a little nervous smile -- graced his lips.
I walked slowly to the bed and sat close to Rex. He again looked at me and smiled. He actually touched my hand, withdrew his hand then again touched it -- and then took it in his. "I -- I -- don't quite know how to begin, um -- Benny -- but -- there is just something -- I dunno -- familiar about the way you present yourself -- um -- to me." He coughed softly. "This is really hard for me -- so please be patient. I have a request for you."
"A request?" I said.
Chapter 11:
I'm sitting next to a 6'-4" god from Texas. He's just taken hold of my hand. And he has a request. Can I refuse him anything? Do I even WANT to refuse him anything?
He's what every gay guy wishes he could get down with! But - - yes! I CAN refuse him! As I thought more about it, I was about to protest even being there, when he finally blurted out, "Benny, I don't even know why I trust you -- but -- I've just never met a guy who put me at ease this much."
Again he paused to think -- or get courage for whatever else he had in mind. Again, my mind was going wild with scenarios that could be, and I was about to comment when he continued, "Benny, you guys are supposed to understand girls better than -- well -- us straight guys -- right?"
Well, as you can imagine that question took me off guard! My mouth dropped open. I started to say something then stopped and started again, "What gave you that idea?"
"I dunno, it's just -- you guys are - "
"By `you guys' are you referring to gay guys?"
"Well -- yeah! Don't you -- um -- think like a girl?"
I don't often get really angry. I jerked my hand away from him and stood up. "Wha -- aaaat?! Are you joking? NO! You're perfectly serious, aren't you?"
"Benny, I didn't mean - "
"And STOP calling me Benny! Only Ranj is allowed to do that!" I said coldly. "What in the hell gave you the idea that we -- er -- I -- think like an effing girl!? I don't even LIKE girls! I have a friend who's a girl and to me she's illogical and silly, and -- and desperate! She's my friend -- well, used to be back in California -- but I could NEVER understand what makes her think! Think like a girl! Shit!"
"Omigosh, Benny -- I mean Ben -- I'm sorry! I didn't mean to offend you! What do I know about being gay? All I know are all the stereotypes. Please don't be mad. I didn't mean anything by it. Actually -- it makes me feel -- better -- about it."
"Better about what?" I said, not really completely calmed down.
"Ben -- I wasn't lying when I said that I feel -- something -- um -- special -- or something, er, between us. I am so sorry that I have offended you, but I still feel like I can trust you. Maybe because you have just been so honest with me just now -- I dunno. But anyway, I just don't know what to do."
"Do with what?" I asked. "You've been talking in circles ever since we got in here."
"I know and I'm sorry. I can't seem to say what I want. I'm sorry!"
"Stop being sorry and just tell me -- or ask me -- what you wanted to ask." At that, all of sudden I let out a laugh. Or more like one of those things that escapes through your closed mouth and nose, that makes you snort. The sudden thought I had hella tickled me!
"What?" He said, now smiling too, maybe because my laugh broke the tension.
I let another laugh escape and said, "You're acting like a girl!" His face went white as he looked at me, open mouthed. Then he started to giggle almost uncontrollably, holding his sides.
"I don't want to wake Ranj up. I want to talk to you. Please -- sit back down -- or maybe you would feel better sitting at my desk."
"No -- that's okay." I said. I sat and took his hand again. This time I turned to look in his face. He looked away, then back.
"My girlfriend is acting screwy! I don't know from one minute to the next what her mood will be. But I guess you don't understand that any more than I do."
I got lost in his eyes for a moment. He squeezed my hand and I would swear it was my dick he had squeezed! That brought me back to reality. "Probably not." I said.
"Okay, so -- since that's not something you can help me with -- Omigosh. So, two masculine guys can actually have a -- a -- thing for each other? Geez, that answers so much!"
"Glad I could be of service. Listen -- is there anything else? "Cuz I should get back to Ranj."
"Yeah, you better get back. I'll have more questions. But not now. Let me digest what just went down."
"Okay." I said. I stood and so did he. I turned to shake his hand and he pulled me into a hug. This time I KNEW I could feel it throbbing on my abdomen, as he held me much longer than seemed right. I didn't try to break it, but just lay my head on his chest.
"You're somthin' else!" Said Rex.
"I'M something else?" I exclaimed. I went back and got in bed with my sleeping sweetheart.
"Oh, do you HAVE to go already, Herman?" He said Groggily. "I was hoping you wanted to fuck me at least one more time!"
Ranj turned over and looked at me with a seductive smile -- which quickly turned to terror!" "Oh! God! Ben!"
"Yeah." I said, coolly. "Never fucked him huh?"
"Ben! It was only a dream!" He said defensively. He was trying to rub the sleep out of his eyes.
"Oh COME ON, Ranj! You expect me to buy that!?" I said, indignant.
"Okay! FINE I did it with Danny! What do you - "
"Danny? Who's Danny? We were TALKING about Herman!"
"Shit!" Said Ranj.
"I couldn't have said it better!" I said. I grabbed my suitcase and my clothes and walked out into the hall.
"Benny! Where are you going?"
"I'm going -- to - " I didn't have an answer, but I knew where I wasn't staying! I spied Rex's room. "I don't want to talk to you right now! I'm going into Rex's room!" I went in and slammed the door behind me.
"You're back!" Said a very surprised Rex, as I turned and walked right into him.
"Sorry!" I said, not sounding sorry at all. I stepped back and then saw the Rex was stark naked. His soft meat hung down 6". He had a towel on his arm.
"I -- uh -- was just going to -"
Ranj burst through the door and stopped dead in his tracks. He looked at naked Rex and me in my sleep shorts. He added 2+2, and made it equal five!
"What the fuck's going on??!!" He said, looking between the two of us.
"Look, Ranj," Said Rex, "I was just - "
"I don't give a fuck WHAT you were JUST -- stay away from my boyfriend!"
"Ranj, it's not - " I started.
"Was I talking to YOU?!! SHUT UP!" He turned on me with a murderous look. Then he turned back to Rex. "I don't care how big you are, ass hole, don't be fucking with my relationship!"
Ranj," I tried again.
"I said to shut the FUCK UP!" He yelled at me.
Rex lifted Ranj up like he was a rag doll and pinned him against the wall. Speaking very controlled, but seething, Rex said, "Who are YOU calling an ass hole. Now YOU ARE going to listen, blockhead!"
Ranj tried to get free and hit Rex on the side of his neck. Rex gave Ranj a backhand that send him flying through the air, and half onto the spare desk. He started to get up and Rex pointed at him. "Don't make a move you idiot! And YOU shut up!" He picked up the towel that had fallen to the floor.
"I was just going to the shower when your boyfriend -- or is it EX-boyfriend -- came in here. I think you better just leave my room."
"I wanna talk to my -- to -- Ben." Said a very subdued Ranj.
Rex looked at me -- for an answer. I said, "Not now. I -- just -- not now."
"Later, Dude!" Said Rex. "And -- I think -- if Ben wants -- I will be there when you talk. I have watched you take sixteen other guys into your room at night, and never said anything."
"Sixteen!" Both Ranj and I said together.
"I wasn't counting, Anus! I just meant that you have a different guy in there every night. I tried to not let it bother me, but now -- now it involves someone else -- someone I like -- a lot!"
"It was more like six - " Ranj pleaded to me. I turned the other way.
"Later, Dude!" Reiterated Rex.
Ranj left the room. I couldn't hold it together any longer. I collapsed on the floor where I was standing. I was embarrassed, humiliated, absolutely crushed. I started to whimper like -- you guessed it -- like a little girl! I felt a hand on my shoulder and flinched away. "Ben." Said Rex, gently, "let me -- help you -- to the bed." I let him almost lift me onto the extra bed. I turned to the wall, because I didn't want him to see my wet face and red eyes.
I felt the bed sag where he sat on it. He put his hand on my shoulder. I flinched again. But he kept it there and stroked and squeezed it. "What has he done to you?" He asked.
"Nothing." I said.
"You KNOW that's a lie, Ben. Tell me."
I couldn't have if I wanted. I started to sob heavily and uncontrollably. Rex lay down and held me -- spooned me. It wasn't sexual -- well, not for me. "You can tell me later." He said as he nuzzled my neck.
I couldn't talk, but I tried, "You, you -- I -- mean -- I never -- never -- had a big brother! You seem -- seem -- seem - "
"That's it!" He exclaimed quietly.
"Wha -- what?" I huffed.
"That's why you seem so familiar to me. You are so much like my little brother! How old are you?"
"19 -- almost 20."
"Evvy's 18."
"Who?" I asked.
"His name is Everett. We call him Evvy. He's the one who will be displacing you in this room -- in the fall. He graduates from high school in June. He's already been accepted on a scholarship here."
"Foo -- football?" I was still trying to get my breath.
"Naw. That'd be me. I have a full scholarship myself. No. Evvy's a brain. He's coming on some kind of science scholarship. But he'll be rooming with me!"
"C-c-cool." I said. I took a deep breath and blew it out slowly.
"So anyway -- now I know why I was so -- um -- attracted to you. It was kind of scary. But now that I know that,"
"Um -- okay -- but," I started, "what's this about?" I wiggled my butt on his still hard wood.
"What?" He said, innocently.
I reached behind me and grabbed his wood. "This! Why are you always hard when you are next to me?"
"Doesn't a warm body do that to you?"
"Yeah -- a warm MALE body." He couldn't see my smile.
"Well, trust me -- er -- haven't you ever been close like this with a girl?"
"Nope! Just never had the opportunity -- or desire to."
"If a warm, soft body were next to you -- like this -- girl or guy -- you'd be all wood! I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong impression. It was a natural thing for me to do. I'd have done it for any one of my brothers -- and have!" He said emphatically. "And -- um -- you're still holding my pee pee!"
"Oh!" I said, letting him go quickly!
"You're cute like my brother too. Um -- are you ready to talk about Ranj -- what he did to you?"
"How old are you, Rex?" I said, ignoring his question.
"I'm 25. Late bloomer."
"What're you majoring in -- besides football?"
"Law. Sports law to be precise."
"Wow. So -- you don't wanna go pro?"
"Naw. Not fast enough. I'm good at this level, just because of my size. But you have to be almost super-human to play pro ball."
"Mm-hmh. Rex, where am I gonna go? I guess I'll go back home. My dad told me not to come."
"He doesn't like Ranj, does he?"
"Are you kidding. He loves him. But he didn't want me to come here and surprise him. Do you think that was unfair of me?"
"I'm not sure I can answer that, not knowing your history with him."
"He's beat me up a couple times back home."
"Obviously he has a nasty temper when cornered. I think what you did was perfect. As far as I'm concerned, now that I know what a prime guy you are -- I think he's a weasel. It wasn't sixteen other guys, but it was MORE than six. What I saw last night surprised me, but again, I wasn't supposed to be home last night. I never expected -- ever -- to see two guys doing -- that! What you guys were doing. And it was soooo hot!"
"Not as hot as when you're the guy doing it!" I giggled.
"Damn!" he said. "You even LAUGH like Evvy. Ben, you HAVE to stay at least a month. Evvy's coming here --with some other guys from his school district -- to check out the campus. You have to meet him."
"Is he gay -- or something?" I asked.
"No, but -- well, actually I dunno, really. He never dated all through high school. I mean -- in our religion, we don't date until sixteen anyway."
"That's weird!" I said.
"Well -- it worked for me! And I wish it could work for all of my 5 brothers -- well, 3 of them anyway. Now I am here and have a great girlfriend, and - "
"You gonna marry her?" I asked.
"I dunno about that! I've only dated two other girls." He said. He turned red.
"Have you ever -- you know -- with them?" I asked.
"No way!" He said, finally getting up and going to his own bed, and flopped down face up, his hands behind his head. He had no shame about his naked body, and apparently didn't have any idea how it affected me. I just smiled and closed my eyes. Then it hit me: Five brothers!
"You have five brothers?"
"I'm the oldest. Next is Wyatt, then Kirby and Evvy after him. Mick `n Mack are the twins. They're 15 now."
No wonder he has no shame.
"I'm an only child."
"Sorry to hear that. It's great to grow up with brothers. We don't have any sisters. It's been kinda slim at times, but that's what scholarships are for!" He said with a bright smile. "I really think you'd hit it off with Evvy! You just can't leave until he comes. We'll handle Ranj!"
"Are you sure your brother isn't gay?" I asked.
"I already told you -- I don't know. If he is, I definitely want you to meet him. He and I really seem to get along! And if he's gay. I want YOU to meet him, because .- I like you! Of course, it would break Mom and Dad's heart. It's bad enough that the twins are."
"What? They are?"
"Yeah. Mom and Dad are kind of getting used to it. We've known it for about four years. And what bother's Mom the most is -- they like each other. She thinks that's incest. Dad doesn't see it that way. He says since children aren't involved, it doesn't matter. That's where Mom and Dad disagree. But if it turns out that Evvy's gay too, well, geez! Half their kids would be gay!"
"Almost makes you think it's genetic, huh?" I said.
"Don't even mention THAT around my parents!" He said.
I decided I could tell him: "He pounded on me twice -- three times if you consider the time I really didn't get hurt."
"Huh?"
"Ranj."
"Oh! Well, he won't again -- you can be sure of that!"
"His friends nearly killed my little brother."
"I thought you didn't have any brothers."
"I don't, but when this kid got beat half to death, my parents took him in. That was several months ago and he just stayed."
"Why did they beat him?"
"You know football players!" I said. "Oh! You ARE one. Sorry."
"I DO know football players. But they still usually have a reason -- no matter how lame."
"He's gay."
"That'll do it." He said.
"But that's not all." I said. I told him about the overflow parking lot and how some of the footballers went there -- for sex with guys.
"Then if someone walks in on them, they beat the crap out of the little guy, to prove that they are still macho!" He surmised correctly. "That's just wrong! But it sounds like it's not that much different from what Ranj was doing to you."
"And the stupid thing," I said, "is that I still love him -- and want him." I clouded up and tears came again.
"Yeah, that's typical. But Ben, what has he done for you -- besides the sex?"
"He almost got thrown out of his house because I demanded he tell his parents."
"Oh! That's heavy! But -- still, if he can't contain his anger - - You know, lots of guys have it bad. But they don't pound on the one they love because of their problems."
"Do you think he could get help -- and change?" I said, knowing that was not likely - - but still wishing -- grabbing at any little shred of hope.
"Yes." He said, almost sadly.
"Yes - - what?"
"It's not yes, what'. Yes, BUT' - - he probably won't - - and you know it. And if he does seek help, are you willing to wait -- for as long as it takes?"
"How long" I said.
"Like I said - as long as it takes -- IF it takes."
"You're not very encouraging -- to me."
"I like you, Ben. I liked you immediately. I like Ranj, too. But I don't like to see anyone abused like -- like - "
"Like you think Ranj is doing -- to me?"
"That and -- very honestly -- and selfishly -- I want you to be my little brother's special friend."
"You do think he's gay, don't you? And -- you're trying to set me up with your brother!" I said.
"Oh! What was your first clue?"
"What about Ranj?" I asked. "I thought he was your friend."
"Now you are my friend. Let me tell you a couple things I have learned about - "
"Ranj?"
"No -- well, yes, but really about most men that come from primitive cultures." He said.
"Well, not exactly primitive. But let's say, not progressive" cultures. Anyway -- boys who grow up in -- say, Arabia, Turkey, or India -- if you get my drift -- anyway, they grow up expecting that the man' is king in their culture. Women are second class. They are often treated like cherished pets." He looked at me for recognition.
"Uh huh." I said.
"Anyway, I wonder how that works when lovers are both men. Do both want to dominate? It may well be a very hard thing for Ranj to ever take a position of equality."
"I -- I'm not sure I WANT equality." I said. "I kind of like Ranj to dominate me."
"Oh!"
"But not to beat on me." I added.
"Hmm. I dunno if Evvy would want to always dominate another -- anyone. Are you sure that's what you want?"
"Actually no. I just know that I liked it when Ranj did. I may get tired of it. Maybe your brother and I could trade off!" I laughed.
"Yeah -- well -- like I said, I'm not sure if he's straight -- or gay -- but I want YOU for his mate, if he's gay!"
"Heh, you're like my dad."
"Really? How?"
"He doesn't like that I'm gay -- and wishes I wasn't. But since I am -- he wants me to be with Ranj."
"Wait a minute! Your parents take in a stray boy who is abused -- and yet your dad -- ohhhh! He doesn't KNOW that Ranj had abused you!"
"Actually he does know."
"WHAT!!??"
"And since I wasn't seriously hurt - "
"Good GAWD! What the hell does your dad like about - "
"Dad LOVES football."
"He -- what? OHhhh! My Gosh! So -- he wants Ranj to be the boy he never had?"
"Ouch!" I said. "And thanks for spelling that out for me!"
"You already knew!" I nodded. I didn't like the reminder though. "This is getting more convoluted all the time!" He exclaimed.
"Huh?"
"So you came all the way out here from California -- to try to get Ranj -- to try to be more accepted by your dad?"
I clouded up again. I couldn't hold back a sob. "I -- g-guess." I said. I turned away from Rex again. I felt like such a fool! In an instant, he was back on my bed, patting my shoulders and head.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Ben. Please don't -- don't -- cry. It really is gonna be okay."
"Sometimes I wanna die!" I sobbed.
"Oh please -- Ben -- Don't say that! I'm sorry -- so sorry -- I didn't mean to -- make you -- sad again."
"No -- it's probably exactly what I needed. I think I was living in a dream world -- and lying to myself. It doesn't feel any better knowing that -- at the moment -- but your closeness and your hands feel great. I dunno if I even felt that kind of love from Ranj."
"That does it! I'm gonna see if Evvy can come for an immediate visit!"
"Don't get me wrong, Rex. I'm not saying I didn't feel that kind of love from Ranj. I -- just -- don't -- know. And how much of his love was -- is -- lust? I dunno! At least from you I feel non-sexual love." I sobbed again.
"Yeah -- I think so." He said, again scooting up behind me. I couldn't feel his boner this time, but -- mine almost immediately came to attention. I still had on my own underwear, and he was still -- naked. As upset as I was, apparently THIS TIME the obvious sexual nature of the scene didn't escape my body!
Rex got up and locked the door, then came back and lay down behind me again. I again grabbed his big hand and hugged it -- and his arm. As I stroked it, I felt his now familiar bone, slowly creeping up between my thighs. He backed away. "Sorry." He said. I backed into him.
"It's okay -- now that I know it's involuntary." I let his arm go and his hand fell directly on my own boner. He immediately with drew it, but not before causing my body to wrench out a spurt of precum. I grabbed his arm again. "Thanks Rex. Thanks for listening. Thanks for understanding and - - thanks for -- loving me -- enough to -- do this!"
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