Continuity Advice: This story is the continuation of an ongoing project. Before reading this, you should read Benny Takes Control at http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/ and Chapters 1 to 8 of The Dangers of Desire http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/the-dangers-of-desire/ otherwise this story may be a little hard to follow. You might be able to do it, but it really works better as part of the ongoing story.
Author's Note: He's the one who started it all. He's the reason for everything that has happened so far. He is without a doubt the most controversial and debated character I have ever created. He is... Benny Harrison!
At the end of Chapter 8 of The Dangers of Desire I announced that Benny's tale would split away into it's own story and here it is. But before the main story begins, I decided to give you a look inside the mind of the master with a peek inside his diary. Here's the events leading up to the Benny's story, in his own words!
As always, I'd love to hear what you all think, so emails are welcome at matterotica@hotmail.co.uk
Benny's House
Prologue
by Matt
Extracts from the diary of Benny Harrison ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thursday 26th July 2012
Okay, tonight's the night. I've got Josh coming round to babysit and I'm finally gonna see him naked. He's totally gonna freak out when I trap him, but it'll totally be worth it. Best of all I'll have him on camera, so I'll be able to see him again any time I like. God he is so HOT! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Friday 27th July 2012
OH. MY. GOD. Things went even better than I could have ever planned. I didn't just get him naked, I won him! And he's totally into it too. It was a hell of a rush taking charge of him like that and even better, I get to keep doing it. He's even hotter naked than I imagined! Also... I had sex. Lots and lots of sex. It's fucking awesome. I love my life! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Wednesday 2nd August 2012
So I've got a slight problem. Even though it's so clear he's totally into me, Josh is insisting that things could never work between us because of the age gap. I don't know what his problem is, we're so obviously perfect for each other. He loves taking orders and I love giving them (seriously, I love it so much!!!) I think I'm in love with Josh too, which just makes what he said suck even more. No matter, I'll still get him in the end. He can't resist his master! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Friday 4th August 2012
So... it's over. All of it. There was this guy on the beach today, Alex, and he did something to Josh that, like, totally fucked with his head or something. We came home and the guys just started leaving until it was just me and Josh and that was it. He told me it was over. I still can't believe it. Just like that, he calls the whole thing off. And it's all Alex's fault! Good thing I have no idea where he lives or I'd go and kick his ass for this! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Monday 7th August 2012
I nearly killed Josh last night. Literally. I had my hands round Josh's neck and if he hadn't kicked me off, I don't know what would have happened. I don't even know how it happened. We were just messing around, one last time, almost like a goodbye, but then I just started seeing red. I got so angry at him for ending it, angry at Alex for causing it, angry at the other guys for just leaving. I've never felt anything like it, I just totally lost control. I want to cry, like all of the time. How could I do that to someone? He was bleeding from pulling at the cuffs. I just don't understand. What's wrong with me? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Wednesday 8th August 2012
I can't sleep without seeing my hands around his neck. Every time I close my eyes he's just there, choking and bleeding. I can't eat, I just feel sick every time I try to. The worst thing is, I have to act normal around Mum and Dad because I don't want them to know what I did. They'd send me away, they'd never want a monster like me under their roof. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Wednesday 16th August 2012
I managed to convince Mum and Dad to let me switch schools today. I can't go back there and see Warren, Nick and Corey. They'll know what I did. Everyone will. I can't face that. I can't even look at myself in the mirror. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thursday 31st August 2012
That site I found on the Internet is fantastic. The guys there have been so great. I know what I did was wrong, but I think I'm starting to understand why I did it. I actually slept last night. Not the whole night, but it's a good start. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sunday 6th October 2012
I was bad. I arranged to meet that man from the website I mentioned the other day. It was hot, he totally did everything I said. I behave though, I never hurt him. Well I spanked him, but that kind of hurting is okay. I stopped when he said the safe word. Weird thing happened though, he totally freaked out afterwards, kept begging me not to tell anyone. He even offered me money to keep quiet! I wasn't gonna say no to that. I had fun and now I'm £200 better off. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Monday 7th October 2012
Okay, had an idea that's either brilliant or crazy. The money I got last night made me think... what if I could do that again? Have fun with a guy, but make money off of it. Not like a prostitute, but more like... payment for my silence! Hmm, maybe worth a little more thought. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Saturday 1st December 2012
So I met this new guy and it didn't quite go as I expected. I was thinking it'd just be another guy I could get some money out of, but it turns out I quite like this one. His name's Roger. I may have to hook up with him again, he seemed willing to follow absolutely anything I ordered! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Tuesday 1st January 2013
New Year's Resolution. I've got to put things right with Josh and the others. I asked Mum and Dad to invite them all to my birthday party. It's gonna be tough, but the guys on the site say I need closure or something like that if I'm ever gonna really move past what happened. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sunday 13th January 2013
Fuck that was tough. I actually faced them and I apologised. Turns out Warren, Nick and Corey don't even know what actually happened between me and Josh, and Dale clearly hates me, but I managed to apologise to Josh. I can't stop shaking and I feel sick again, but I did it. James is still being a good little boy for me. I think this one may be a keeper! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thursday 14th March 2013
Well my last crazy idea actually turned out quite well, except for that one guy who kicked the crap out of me. But aside from him, the money making is going stupidly well. I've even got a few of them making monthly payments for my silence. Ker-ching! Anyway, new idea, I need to have a place of my own. Not sure what or where, but a house where I can have my own little army of subs. Fuck, I'm getting hard just thinking about it. I gotta do this! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Friday 3rd January 2014
I found it. My house! It's a shit hole because it's been abandoned for years, but that just means it's really cheap. Best thing is, I can actually afford it. I've got to figure out a way to buy it though. A fourteen-year-old just turning up with thousands of pounds in cash is gonna look a bit suspicious. Plus I've been looking into it, I can't actually own property until I turn eighteen. Someone can hold it in Trust for me until then, so it's either a case of waiting two more years or find someone I can trust to use. Maybe Roger? He'd do whatever I told him to. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Friday 11th April 2014
It's official. I own a house... or at least I will when I turn 18! For now, Roger sort of owns it. It's kind of a relief to have all that cash gone too, I was always worried Mum or Dad would find it. It's pretty handy having a bank manager as one of my... benefactors! Without him there's no way I would have been able to sort out the money stuff. Maybe I should let him go as thanks for it. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Wednesday 16th July 2014
Weird thing happened today. I got a message from Alex today. You remember him? The guy from the beach. At first I wanted to tell him to fuck off, but I took a minute, took a few deep breaths and relaxed like I learned and the anger just kinda faded away. I know he's not really to blame for what happened. He was asking about Josh a lot though. He seemed disappointed when I said I don't see him any more. It's messed with my head a bit. I should feel angry at him, but I'm just kinda dealing with it in healthier ways. Fuck me, I think I might be growing up. How did that happen? lol ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Saturday 20th September 2014
So I got a new Boy at the house today... and it turns out it's Mr Trent, my teacher! He's moving into the house tomorrow. He's not happy about it, but that just kinda makes it hotter. That first moment he saw I was the guy in charge, his expression was priceless! Still can't believe I'm really in charge of all these guys! Alex is still pestering me about coming to the house. I'm a bit worried that he might be a bit much for my boys, but who knows, maybe not! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thursday 1st January 2015
I decided today that I'm not gonna tell Mum and Dad I'm planning on moving out on my birthday. I know they'd just try and stop me and things are going so great at the house. I just need to spend more time there and I'm never gonna be able to do that while I'm living here. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Tuesday 13th January 2015
Yay, sixteen today! Although it kinda sucks that I can't trick guys into having under-age sex with me any more, I did get to move out. That's right. I no longer live with my parents. I made the move. It's so weird to think that I live here in the house now, but it's awesome. Now that I'm living here full time, I think I might be able to give Alex a chance. He'll start right at the bottom like they all do, but at least I'll be here to keep an eye out for any trouble. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Monday 19th January 2015
Wow. Josh turned up at school today. Since Mum and Dad turned up the other day, I'd been expecting them to send someone else, but I never thought it'd be Josh. He was totally freaked out at first. Honestly, so was I, but I finally got a chance to apologise properly. He accepted, which is fucking amazing really, but he did. I brought him here to the house too and showed him round. He was a bit worried about it, which I can understand considering what I was like last time he saw me as a 'master', but I'll get him to see the real me eventually. Alex clearly doesn't like being the Trash, he's a total dom like me, but I've told him that if doesn't do everything I say, he doesn't get to join the house. He knows who's in charge. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Friday 23rd January 2015
Today was probably the worst day of my life. I thought the day I attacked Josh was bad, but somehow today seemed worse than that. Josh came back and totally submitted to me and we did some things down in the cellar and it was fucking awesome. But then he found Alex and totally flipped out. He calmed down when I explained the truth, but his reaction made me realise... he still sees me as the monster who attacked him back then. The worst thing was, when I look at him I almost feel like that's who I still am. I love Josh. I think I always will. I love him so much that even thinking about him makes my chest ache, but I can't have him here. Letting him come back to me just isn't the right thing to do. But more than that, seeing him reminds of what I did and I don't want the constant reminder. I need to move past it. I actually told him to leave and not come back. It was the worst, hardest thing I've ever had to do. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------
Sunday 25th January 2015
I was still struggling with the Josh stuff so I went back on the website that helped me so much before. Amazingly, some of the guys I used to talk to about Josh are still on there, even after all this time. I told them about what happened this week. They said I'd done the right thing, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. One of them did give me some great advice though – use what happened with Josh as a lesson. I think he's right. I remember that day, the blood on my hands, the fear in Josh's eyes and I just know I can never let it happen again. I currently have twelve guys living in my house, with hopefully more coming soon, and I have a responsibility to care for them. Sure, I'll spank them, tease them, torture them in all the twisted ways they enjoy, but I'll never let them get hurt. Whether they're here as subs or doms, they're ALL my boys and I swear, nobody who lives under my roof will ever get hurt again!