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Lesbian, High School BABY VAMPIRE MADE ME, pt. 3
There was a senior tradition of setting up a booth to raise money. No one really took it seriously, and rarely were the kisses ever more than mere pecks on the cheek.
But last week, wasted on forty-ounce beers and bodega weed, Dori and Leo found themselves at one of the last school dances of the semester. I'm gonna hurl. Dori thought in the bathroom, and felt her rayon shirt like saran wrap on her flesh. Oh god, Leo, she looked at the mirror, don't be an asshole tonight. She wanted to break up with him and had been dropping subtle, or not so subtle hints.
"Lee," they were friends, she trusted him, he had won her over. "Remember how I told you I liked girls too?" Leo had a droopy, pleased expression on his face.
"That's cool," he snickered. "As long as I can watch, right?" He gestured, like he expected an audience. Fucking pervert.
"Don't be gross, Leo," He was acting more disgusting than usual, maybe that bodega weed was stronger than they thought. She felt things leap out of her mouth before she could stop them. Children's balls bouncing into traffic.
"I want a girlfriend, Leo." She smiled at him. Dori didn't want to break his heart, he could be nice sometimes. He didn't care that she preferred skateboarding and painting to hanging out with him. And he couldn't be bothered with visiting her in the record store. They barely even fooled around, her perfect boyfriend. He-llo, clue phone for you.
"Like I said, honey." Leo was all but slurring, trying on the pimp daddy routine. "As long as I can watch."
"No Lee," she eyed him. This isn't working. "I mean, I think we should break up." He laughed.
"What, you have a girlfriend?" He sneered at her, like he knew how trapped Dori felt.
I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life than with you, you fuck. "No Leo, I just think we should cool it." She stumbled out of the darkened corner of the school gym, but he teetered after her.
"Wah?" his New Yawker accent omitted certain consonants, and he always sounded like an exaggerated Ralph Kramden from "Honeymooners" reruns. "You think you're a fuckin' dyke awluvasudden?" Leo was wasted, and even upperclassmen cleared his path.
Dori ducked under the balloons and streamers. Psychopath limpdick asshole. She made her way towards Jenny Rodriguez and the kissing booth. Leo would ignore her there, he hated the jock kids, including his brother. And anyone perched at the kissing booth was in his book under "J". But she still heard his wasted wailing in the background.
"Doooor" other kids looked at her nervously, "Eeeeee." Leo was in full form. He slid around on the gym floor using a coke can as a microphone. "Dori, don't leeeee-avvvve me." He kept tailing her right up to the kissing booth. Jenny Rodriguez looked up curiously, and Dori caught herself thinking that Jenny looked really cute, like a baby vampire. Dori giggled self-consciously at the idea of one of her favorite Helium songs, called "Baby Vampire Made Me."
"It doesn't matter if it's wrong or if it's right You won't remember after I bite."
Jenny Rodriguez played on the school's soccer team and was going, full scholarship, to some frat and kegger sports school up in Connecticut. Dori was impressed, and respectful, Jenny had worked a long time to get out of her father's superintendent's apartment, and the whole school acted proud. However, that didn't stop the rumors floating around about Jenny and Amanda Marshall who was also on the soccer team. Word was that they roomed together every game, and did weird things on the bus.
"Define weird," Calvin demanded, obviously intrigued. Yeah, details? They were cutting class meetings, and smoking pot in the park.
"Well David just said it was just a backrub, but it looked weird." Leo smirked, pinching his cigarette in between his ringed fingers. His little brother was a freshman, but still got the jock gossip first hand.
Dori didn't care for Amanda. She was a timid, sort of "yes" girl, and Dori was surprised if Jenny really was doing anything with her. What, if Jenny really likes girls?
"Whatever, I'd totally watch." Leo coughed, and spread fingers out like a rap star. Calvin slapped him high five.
"Word on that." Calvin wrapped his lips around the roach. "That Jenny is a piece." Dori couldn't help but nod in agreement.
Now, three days later, there she was: drunk, stoned and dangerously close to the senior kissing booth. Jenny smiled at Dori, a lowly sophomore, and narrowed her eyes.
Ohmigod she's hot!
I should not be looking at her like that?
"Dori, are you looking to contribute to the senior class?" Jenny smirked.
I am so busted. "Only if it's for a good cause," Dori realized she was walking closer to the booth, and saw that Jenny was in a turtleneck, and looked ready for combat even if it was only high school. I am way too loaded for this situation. Dori heard her brain scold her body, and was all but ready to walk away, when she heard Leo warbling through the distance.
"Doreeeeeee." Leo bayed. Dori sighed, but smiled at Jenny.
"Leo, what the fuck?" Dori addressed Leo like a naughty child, but Jenny smirked.
"You want me honey," he opened his arms, beckoning.
Aaaaagh. "Leo," she shut her eyes. "Yeah, and you're Eminem." He thrashed his head around like a dolphin during feeding hour.
"What, you're gonna go find yourself a girlfriend?" He pushed his boat hat down over his eyes as if to say, bullshit. Dori winced. "I fucking dare you, Dori, anyone here, who you gonna pick?" He pointed madly, and her brain imagined Leo in a Mtv video, girls, cars and all.
She gulped and looked towards Jenny and the kissing booth, it was the same feeling she got on her skateboard: brave, balanced and invincible. Just watch me, you shit. She heard her brain duke it out: Demanding, Are you NUTS? While the other side reminded her: You'd pay twenty dollars to kiss Jenny Rodriguez, fucking DO it! She saw Jenny eyeball her and heard Leo's dares. As she felt herself walk closer to the kissing booth, she realized it was her video, not his.
Jenny kept smiling.
Dori met her eyes, and put a dollar on the table.
She put her hands on Jenny's shoulders, and kissed her lips. She thought she'd just kiss Jenny to shut Leo up, but when she when she felt Jenny's breathing change when their lips met over the table she doubted she could stop.
"You won't remember after I bite"
Oh damn, she felt Jenny sucking on her lower lip, and shifted her weight. This is fucked up, Jenny is TOO fine. Dori stepped away from the table and climbed onto the soccer player's lap.
"I've wanted to do this since freshman year." Dori whispered into the soccer player's ear. She didn't care what the senior thought anymore. She wouldn't be kissing me back like that if she didn't want to, right? Dori rationalized, not realizing that a crowd had gathered, and combined with the waves of bad pop music pouring from the loud speakers, Dori felt herself churn. This is it. Dori felt her body responding through the alcohol. This is it. She pulled her face away from Jenny's.
"Come home with me?" Jenny laughed.
"My boyfriend's picking me up." Jenny wiped her mouth, grinning. Boyfriend? Dori tried to look graceful as she peeled herself off Jenny's lap.
"Boyfriend." I'm such an idiot. Dori felt her stomach lurch, it wasn't the alcohol.
"Yeah girl," Jenny grinned like the party girl she was, "Manuel?" Jenny looked at her like their kiss was nothing, and Dori tried to smile. Please? Obviously her pleading eyes weren't getting her anywhere. She felt like a fool and backed away from the table, heart still pounding.
Leo stood in front of a pack of kids and stared. Dori could feel the eyes burning into her, and tried to figure out what to do. She decided to stick around and play it off as her increasingly bizarre behavior. People leave the crazies alone, but they eat the losers for lunch. She walked up to Leo and put her arm around his shoulder.
"Ok Lee hole, you satisfied?" He winced at his least favorite nickname. "I kissed a girl, and I'm not kissing you anymore." She put her hands up in surrender, and wondered why she didn't feel like crying. I fucking hate you. She glared into the crowd. Leo, completely bewildered, let her walk out the door. She'd saved face, that's all that mattered, she doubted she'd even hear about it Monday.