My name is Susan Avidan and I live in Israel. I am a CD thinking about going a little further and carrying out some alterations to my body.I am 50 years old. This is my first story( which I have expanded and altered slightly):If you are interested in meeting me my address is jdfadv@actcom.co.il I will be pleased to meet real men who are interested in a person like me.
My name is Sivan - at least that is my femme name. Regrettably I live in a male body.
I have always dreamed about becoming a woman. Actually I know that really I am a woman born into a man's body. I am also a historian specialliazing in the Middle East. During the course of my studies I learnt that in Canaanite times most of the people in the Middle East worshipped a goddess called Astarte.This cult must have existed for well over a 1000 years because it clearly answered a basic need of people. The religion gradually died out and /or was supressed. the bible is full of references to angry prophets castigating the people of Israel for "whoring" (literally) after foreign gods. .Astarte was the fertility goddess of the Middle East. In Egypt she was known as Isis and in Greece as Pallas Athene. She was both virgin and pregnant simultanously ! In a way like us TG's - two things at once ! .It was because she was so totally feminine that I became obsessed by her and decided that if I had to have any religion at all then why should I not attempt to resurrect the cult and even alter it so as to make Astatre the goddess of the TG's !
As far as I was aware I was the only living soul on the planet who still worshipped a pagan goddess.Everybody else either was without religion or was obsessed by it
Astarte is a woman goddess. Female. Everything I always wanted to be.With full breasts and an open cunt - always ready to be fucked.
Forgot to mention the most important bit: the way in which Astarte was worshipped. Not in a tedious church, synagogue or mosque. By means of sacred prostitution. The priestesses of Astarte worshipped by fucking the male congregants . The act of copulation was the actual means of prayer. You have to admit its a lot more fun than the standard means of prayer in modern religions! Frankly I"m surprised that somebody else did"nt think of it before me !
True , the act of worship did not take place in public. That would have been a wholesale invitation to an endless orgy with nobody doing anything for a living, crops going all to hell and general exhaustion all round.
The priestesses of the goddess fucked all day and every day. When the men were out waging stupid wars then they would fuck each other.
Of course I had no liturgy to worship my goddess. Because she was female I knew that she was right for me. If I slept with a woman, at the time of my orgasm I would dedicate my cum to her and try to imagine the cum exploding into me. When I was fucked by a man , I thought of my goddess as my partner pounded himself into my stretched ass or poured his hot cum into my ever willing mouth.
Later on I created a complete prayer to my goddess which I would recite whilst holding my rotten penis in my hand ( whilst dreaming that it had somehow miraculously turned into a hot twat). The prayer could only be recited whilst I was properly crossdressed as follows:
Black mini skirt
black panties ( with the special set up which I had bought from Transformation in England and which concealed my dick),
Black garter belt ( oh yes , always the black garter belt which we CDs and TG's always have to wear. Its virtually our uniform!)
Black stockings attached to the sexy straps of the aforesaid slutty garter belt.
Black spiked heels 6" which nearly made me cum on the spot when I saw them in the TV shop and which I can hardly stand up in, never mind actually walk in !
My face in full make up with proper foundation to cover the beard, false eyelashes which make me look like a slag, and masses of perfume
The long blonde wig
"Miracle " breasts which take forever to fix on .
Red finger nails
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Thus complete in this very appealing outfit , which made me feel the whore that I wished to be.I would recite the following:
" Astarte my Queen, my goddess. I worship thee. I worship your cunt and breasts.
I long to suck at your holy hole. I worship only you. Please make me into the woman I wish to be. Please make me, I beg thee into the whore I wish to be so that I can worship you as a woman"
Not exactly a long Mass but the best that my imagination could think up.Sometimes I would sit on the floor with a vibrator firmly lodged in my ass whilst declaiming the prayer or I would violently masturbate with my stockinged legs in the air and point my prick towards my mouth and feel my own hot cum spurting onto me. I woul.d swallow my cum and think of that long ago and forgotten cult and curse the fact that .I had a penis instead of a proper vagina
This went on for some time. I developed the prayer a bit and my loyalty to the goddess never wavered. Even if it was a religion of one I didnt care. I really did believe in her and my obsession only increased with time.I fantasi.sed that I would make this into the religion of all that little minority of "gender challenged" people.
Naturally I did nothing.
As time went by , my trans inclinations grew stronger and I began to take hormones.I found somewhat to my surprise and indeed happiness that
.this caused me to become far more interested in men and I found myself having sex exclusively with men. I had bought a small flat of my own and every day after work I would assume my identity as a woman .Men - actually more that I expected - would come to my flat and fuck me rigid. My legs were completly shaved and invariably in black or white nylons. The rest of my body was also shaved and my ears were pierced.Socially ( when I was"nt being fucked) I associated only with other transsexuals. I never went anywhere without wearing a garter belt ( even when dressed as a man I always wore my belt and stockings underneath because I needed at all times the feel of some femininty). By this time my bottom was capable of taking even large cocks because I spent a lot of time with a butt plug in me (even when sleeping) so that my partners would enjoy penetrating me and after a while I too began to enjoy the pleasures of being buggered and even began to orgasm from it.
I was so enjoying the pleasure of my new found sexuality that I decided that the next step would be to become a TV whore. I loved to be fucked by men. I loved to get men into my home and within a few minutes to have their hot cocks in my mouth.I especially loved cocks with foreskins which I.would lick and suck until the man sprayed his hot cum into my red lipsticked mouth ( and as he came I would think of my goddess and know that she would be approving my wanton acts). Then , if he still had the strength I would sit on his erect member and fuck him properly.But what i really loved was to be taken on my back with my gartered legs in high heels in the air and feel the hardness inside my loose bottom hole. So it seemed to me that I now had to become the whore that I knew I really was. At this stage , parodoxicaly I stopped
taking the hormones , because I didnt want to lose my erection and therefore I still did not have breasts . I could not take the next steps because I knew that I could not do reassignment and keep my job.
I continued to pray to my goddess desperately for a solution to my problem.One day I felt so desperate that I decided that I would prefer to die than carry on without possessing my own cunt. So I took some strong whisky and various pills and fell asleep in the hope that in the next world or in my next life , my goddess would look kindly on me and create me as a woman.Knowing my sort of mazel I would"nt have been surprised if next time round I would be born a woman and want to become a man!
Before passing out an apparition appeared to me . I thought that I was hallucinating or had actually died but this voluptuous figure appeared before me and began to talk in a language which whilst neither English or Hebrew ( which I know) was close enough to Hebrew for me to quess that it was an early form of Aramaic ( a Middle Eastern language) It only took a short time for me to understand what .the figure was saying:
" Dearly beloved Sivan. You are not alone. I have heard your prayers to me. I know that they are sincere and that you truly wish to become a full woman.I have the power to convert you finally into what you really are. To grant you the wish to possess a fully formed and real cus( vagina) with a developed clitoris that will give you the power of multi orgasms. I will also give you the full breasts which you have prayed for.
But you should know that there is a price to be paid for this. You now have eternal life. But it is a life of sex. Your sex drive will be so strong that you have to have sex several times a day. The only way to achieve this is to become the prostitute that you know you really are.All my worshippers and priestesses are prostitutes.That is the way in which I am worshipped .They were all once men who have become women. .The only prostitutes who orgasm with. a client ( in our case, a worshipper)are my priestesses. .That is the way that you will discover if a prostitute belongs to our faith
You will be fucked in every hole that you have - often multipally. You will have immunity from all diseases, which means that you will .never need to practice "safe" sex. Most of the time you will have the taste of cum in your mouth. You will need to be penetrated by male organs all the time but you should know that this constitutes proper prayer and this is the true nature of worship of me.
I am Astarte your goddess.The goddess that you have dreamed of and whom you tried to worship. you now have the opportunity for eternal life and the life which you know you really want - as a woman with full breasts, a perpetually wet cunt and a large clitoris.
In order to accept this gift and commit yourself irrevecobly to me you are required to kiss my cunt.
Do you accept?"
I was rigid with shock. Could this be true? This was either a miracle or a dream. There was of course only one way to find out.
I crawled over to my goddess and bent my neck up to the lips of her cunt. I said "I do this with all my heart, I have worshipped you and love you. I will become your priestess , I will become a sacred prostitute in your faith"
I kissed her glistening vagina and promptly blacked out.
When I woke I found myself in a room surrounded by four or five women --all beautiful, with long hair, all dressed in what appeared to be gold and diamond studded garter belts.
I looked down at myself. I was naked and I was a woman.I had breasts and in place of my miserable penis and balls, I had a cunt.I touched my new nipples and then - in view of these strange women - I fingered my new and beautiful hole. It was soaking wet ! I orgazmed on the spot
I began to cry with joy. At last, at last!
One of the girls came up to me
" Sivan welcome, My name is Iris and I am head priestess . I see that you are happy to own your own cunt. you will use it a lot. Our religion is expanding .
Before you receive your garter belt - which you will wear at all times as befits a priestess of the goddess Astarte-as your initiation ceremony, you will engage in multiple sex with three men at the same time. You must be penetrated by three men in all your holes at the same time in order to become enrolled as a sacred priestess in the cult of Astarte. Do you understand?
You bet I did, I couldnt wait and told her so.I had been dreaming of this moment for all my life never believing that it would ever become true.
.Within just a few minutes of becoming a woman I was going to lose my virginity !
And then as if this really was a dream, the three men arrived , one white,one black and the third Indian. They seized me brutally. I was already dripping with anticipation and then one of them placed his forskinned cock in my mouth which I sucked like a proper whore and the other two penetrated my new cunt and ( well fucked ) ass.My hymen broke immediately whilst I could feel the cock on the other side batter my bottom.The first man sprayed his cum into my mouth and I started to cum. Then I could feel the other two pricks enlarging prior to cumming. My cunt and bottom were engorged with hard cock. This really was heaven ! They pulled their cocks out of my hole and sprayed their cum all over my face. I greedily licked it up
I couldnt stop cumming
They fucked me silly .Cum everywhere
Then they went .away and Iris returned
" We saw everything. Your performance was that of an accomplished slut. you are what you always wanted to be. When you wake up you will find yourself back in your flat and you will work as the whore that you are. You will spread our faith
Every month there is a meeting here of all the priestesses to which you will attend
by the same means that brought you here. Congratulations.You are a priestess and whore of Astarte . You will lack nothing and have an eternity of sex."
They gave me my garter belt. I clipped it on and blacked out again.
I woke back in the flat. Yes I still had my cunt and tits and garter belt. My clothes were that of a whore. The flat had changed somewhat and was now totally feminine. I realized that the world had been changed slightly to take into account that now my existance as a man had been shredded and never existed. I was a woman totally and completely . I was also clearly a prostitute. My cunt was already itching. I needed cock desperately......................
And since then I have been a faithful servant of my goddess Astarte and have fulfilled her commands completely.
(The story will continue at a later date)