Disclaimer: I don't know BSB or anyone connected to them in anyway. I don't know their sexual preferences, this is just a story. I made it all up in my own little twisted world. Well, it's not that twisted but that's not the point.
Warning: I don't know where this is going, or what will happen. I've had this story on my mind for the past couple of months. There may be sex, but if there is it won't be in the first chapter. So if that's what you're looking for you might want to look in another place. Now there is one major super natural kick in this, it deals with Angels. I know first Sryin's, then Ghosts, then Elf's, and so on but I can't help it, really I can't. :)
Authors Note: Well I'm back and my BSB kick, and I've left for other bands alone. Now that most likely won't last for long so don't get your hopes up. If you have time and like this story check out some of my other stories. I'll leave a small list at the end of this chapter. I don't have an editor anymore, so most likely there will be a few mistakes. I would also like to add that if you have the time to please e-mail me. I love feed back and in some ways it helps get the next chapter out. Ok I'm going to explain my symbols and my way of writing. I write in the first person point of view, so to tell the story better I switch characters. I use these *** to do that and I also use those symbols to start off the chapter. I will put the name of the characters name in between the symbols when I start a chapter. When I change the character in the middle of the chapter or any part of the chapter the name will be at the end of the symbols. As of right now those are the only symbols I use. If I add more symbols I will explain, now on with the story I hope you enjoy it.
Brian*
I chased Nick down to the swimming pool where I found Loki walking around nude. He seemed perfectly happy and content.
"Don't worry Bri I already cleared the area, we're safe from the pubic. The staff and guards won't let anyone within a hundred feet of this place." Nick had his drawing pad and pencils out already starting to draw Loki who was unaware.
"If you really want to draw something give me a second and I'll give you something only a few humans have ever really seen." Then Loki's wings slowly slipped out of his back, it was simply amazing. It changed everything about him in some really weird way. He was beautiful as a human, but with his wings it was far beyond beauty. Loki looked at Nick then brought his hands to his chest posing for Nick. Nick's eyes were almost glazed over as he took the sight of him in. Then Nick started drawing looking up every so often, Loki stood there without moving a single muscle. It took Nick close to forty-five minutes to draw Loki, but the picture was breath taking.
"So can you teach me how to swim now or do you want to wait a little while?" I looked to Nick who was just looking at his pad.
"Yeah, we'll teach you, but you can't have your wings out, you'll get feathers in the pool." Loki nodded and as simply as the wings had come the were gone. He jumped into the pool head first and then stood up, this was not helping my resolve.
Nick changed then sat his pad down and got into the pool with Loki. He was teaching him how to just float on his back. The only problem was that I was starting to get a little jealous of where Nick's hands were placed. I knew Nick loved the water and would teach anyone how to swim so they could enjoy it as well. There was this one question that was on the tip of my tongue but I couldn't ask it. Over the years I had wondered about Nick and his being straight. Even now the question seemed silly since Nick was just helping Loki. Still his hands did seem to roam near areas that didn't really need holding up. Nick slowly backed away from Loki letting him float by himself for a little while, he looked happy.
"Are you going to help me, or just stand there all day and get a free show." I stripped down to my boxers and jumped into the pool hoping Brian, Jr., come out to say hello. As I moved toward Loki I knew right then that no matter what I thought about Jr. was coming out to say hello.
"Now give me a hand and place your hands just under his neck and slightly around the back of his neck. Now Loki after Brian's got a good grip I want you to slowly start moving your arms in a backward motion. Cup your hands lightly and make sure your palm is the first part of your hand that touches the water."
After about an hour of helping Loki get the basic's down Jr. was at full attention. Only no one would really see until we got out of the pool. That was the time I was starting to dread most, no hiding then. My body had gotten use to the water which only made things a hundred times worse. I had also turned my boxers around when we had taken a short break. Even then I had refused to get out of the pool, I told them that I was enjoying it to much.
"That's enough for the day, why don't we just head back to the rooms." Loki agreed and walked out of the pool grabbing a towel to dry off with.
"You guys go on, I think I'll stay down a bit longer." Nick looked confused since it was I who normally left first. Nick left, but Loki stayed behind to wait for me, he looked content watching me swim back and forth. After about ten minutes I thought it would be safe to finally get out of the pool. I was right until I looked over at Loki who still hadn't put any of his clothes back on.
"Loki, you should get dressed just in case someone comes in." He nodded and picked up the clothing he had shed, then he put them on. If I had a brain I would have changed at the same time, but I watched him instead. After he was done he looked at me smiling lightly.
"Brian, do you have to go to the rest room, cause the lower part of your body is sticking out really far." I looked down and blushed before gathering my clothes.
For the next two weeks Nick and Loki rarely left each others sides. Nick was constantly teaching him how to swim or something else along those lines. Then they started taking off together and couldn't be found. They would only leave for about an hour or two then come back. I was starting to wonder what they did in that time, and if I should be jealous. Kevin asked me to follow them one day and find out what the hell was going on. It wasn't the easiest job I had ever done, and I ended up losing them. That didn't stop me from searching, but still I didn't find them. The next day was a repeat of the last, what confused me was how they kept doing it. We moved from city to city so there was no way they could know the layout. Still everyday they managed to sneak away or lose whoever had been following them. No one really wanted to ask them what they were up to, besides it was kind of fun. Then on the day I was going to give up I found them with my last spot to check out. They were on the roof of the hotel, Nick was drawing Loki again. Loki stood near the back of the building in his birthday suit with his wings stretching out. Nick was working so hard he didn't even notice me come up behind him, Loki just smiled lightly. After Nick was done I found myself even more amazed with his talent. He had gotten a lot better over the last couple of weeks, I guess that was thanks to Loki.
The wind blew turning the pages of his pad, all it had were pictures of Loki. Different poses but still just Loki and his wings, some of just his face. The details in the drawings were amazing, Nick was starting to stand up. He bumped into me and almost screamed since he just found that they weren't alone.
"You know Rok it isn't to nice to sneak up on people like that." I laughed as Loki moved toward us wrapping a robe around his body.
"You know Nick would could use his help with that one picture you wanted to draw." I looked at Nick quickly who looked like he was in very deep thought.
"You know you have a really good point there and Brian is the perfect size." Instantly I had a feeling that my finding them had been their idea all along.
"Would you help us Brian, please it would only take an hour." Loki had this puppy dog face that I had never seen on his face before.
"If you help I could sing for you, Nick too, and I could take you flying." He was almost pouting, I looked at Nick who looked like a proud father.
"You taught him how to do that, you should be ashamed of yourself." Nick only laughed as Loki put on some extra charm and expert whining.
"Ok, I'll help what do I have to do for this picture?" Nick smiled then got me to promise I would help no matter what. I agreed since I knew there was no way I was going to beat both of them. We agreed to meet on the roof of the next city for the picture. Kevin pulled me off to the side after the concert that night and got the down low on what had been happening.
"I knew I shouldn't have worried, it's just Nick doesn't make the best teacher in my eyes." I laughed nodding slowly knowing what Nick had been teaching him.
"Well, it may not be all that bad, after all I think he got him singing. He said something about singing at least." Kevin shrugged his shoulders and left me to get ready to leave. Once on the bus I was a little nervous about this picture now that I started thinking about it. Nick had never told me what I had to do and I had just promised without really thinking. For all I knew he wanted to draw me and Loki in a sexual act. I shook my head knowing Nick would never go that far, but I knew he had made me promise for a reason. So most likely there would be some kind of nudity since that was how he had been drawing Loki for a while now. I could deal with that, after all Nick's seen me naked before and Loki wouldn't care. And as long as I kept telling myself that maybe I would believe it when the time came. When the day finally came Nick and Loki were already out of sight. I was scared out of my mind, and I knew that I shouldn't have been. There was only one problem, I had the biggest crush on Loki, and if I were around him nude. I stopped thinking about it as I walked up to the roof of the hotel in just my bath robe. As I stepped onto the roof my whole body seemed to freeze as I looked at Loki. There was no way in hell I was going to be able to control myself.
"We thought that you had chickened out, well I thought you did. Loki over there said that you would come because you gave your word." Nick smiled and then asked me to lose the robe and to stand in front of Loki. I did as he asked, hoping I would stay limp a little longer, maybe I could hold out until the picture was done.
"Loki wrap Brian up in your arms, then bring the tips of your wings together just above your head." Loki pulled my body up against his causing me to gasp lowly.
"It's ok Brian, I understand a little more about the human body now, you can relax." He had whispered the words into my ear causing my body to react.
"For some reason any time I'm near you my body reacts the same way, so just let it go." As I let myself fall into his arms my world seemed to just stop. I could spend the rest of my life just standing here with him in this place. Everything else could just fade away as long as he remained. The wind had picked up a little sending his hair flying into the wind. I looked up to see him looking toward Nick, it was then that I could see him as he was. He was simply an angel with the mind of a child, the heart of an innocent. He may have thought he understood his body, but in truth he didn't, and I didn't think I had the right to show him what it meant. After Nick was done with the picture I found that no matter what my mind said my body just wouldn't agree.
"Brian would you mind posing for just one more picture, please?" I nodded then Loki walked up to Nick who whispered something into his ear, then he walked back. He placed one hand under my knees and the other behind my back, then I was lifted off the ground. I placed my arm behind his neck and under his hair.
"Now just act like your lifeless and just let Loki do all the work." I closed my eyes and laid in his arms like everything bit of life had been sapped out my body. I opened my eyes once to see Loki looking upward with tears falling out of his eyes. My heart stopped wondering what could bring him so much pain. His wings were out stretched as far as he could get them to stretch. He looked like someone had just taken everything he loved away from him. I closed my eyes hoping that somehow Nick had taught him how to cry. If he hadn't then I had no idea what was hurting him while he held me, it broke my heart. An hour later Nick was done with his picture, Loki sat me down and wiped the tears away. He smiled and Nick looked like nothing had ever happened then Nick held the picture up. It was breath taking, Nick had added more to the picture making it look amazing. Nick had drawn us but there was light coming out of these clouds. Nick had also added what looked like other angels only smaller and see through. Then he had added the master piece an angel with his arms around Loki's upper body. All of the faces looked so sad, so lost and filled with heart ache.
"If I knew you could stuff like this I would have asked you to draw me sooner." Nick blushed then shrugged his shoulders lightly.
"Well, if you want you could meet us on the roof tops from now on and join us in our art." From that point on we would always meet on the roof tops whenever we could. Loki was watching us at every concert, and every night he would party like he was born to do so. He and AJ had become good friends and he had introduced Loki to wine and a few other drinks. After a few drinks Loki could dance with the best of dancers. He moved like a snake with the grace of an angel, he was beautiful to watch. Even more beautiful to move with, the way he would look into someone's eyes. Everything he felt could be seen there as if it were a looking glass into his very soul.
"So how does it work Loki, what happens to an angel when it dies?" Everyone looked at Nick like he was nuts, everyone knew angels didn't die.
"We stop existing, we don't have souls like humans, we are souls. So when we are killed, which doesn't happen all that often, but it does happen. We all know the risk in coming to earth even if we have all our powers. Still most of us can't help ourselves, we love humans, they have something we don't. They can feel more than we are allowed to feel, they can do what we cannot." He was looking away like he was remembering something, his eyes looked so distant.
"So why is it so dangerous for angels to come to earth, does it make them more human like you?" Loki looked at Kevin slowly, it was almost like he was studying him.
"No, just as angels can come to earth so can demons. The war for heaven has never really stopped, even now it goes on. Only now most of the passage ways have been closed and it's really hard for them to get out. Still it happens and they try to trick humans out of their souls, then get the human killed. In the beginning I was one of the angels that was fighting at the front lines. I was told that I should have stayed back with some of the stronger angels, but I couldn't. For this act I was moved up to a higher ground where I could do more. It was then that I was made into the angel of death, and God's wrath so to speak. I did that for a very long time, until I just couldn't take it anymore."
"So I asked that I be the way that I was so I could help the human race, not take it's life. My wish was granted, and now I'm here on earth, becoming more human with every passing minute. I'm sure that soon I will lose my wings and even a human made weapon will end my existance." After he finished the group was in silence with how real everything had become. He had given up so much for the human race, and the human race would never know. The powers he had given up because he couldn't stand taking a human life. All he had ever wanted to do was help this race that couldn't help itself. After all he had done he was here on earth becoming what he had tried to help. None of this made any sense, how could God do something to a being that had only followed it's heart. Yeah he had broken rules but in truth he had only done it because of what he was. It didn't make sense that a being would be punished for doing what it was made to do. I had to push all the thoughts out of my mind since I was starting to get a head ache.
"Brian would you dance with me, or are you to tired?" I nodded and stood with Loki who led the way to the dance floor. So we danced, well I did a lot of watching thanks to Nick who had dressed Loki that night. Tight clothing really worked well with Loki, in fact it was starting to make me show through my own clothing. Loki was moving closer with every beat of the drums, there was this look in his eyes. I don't know what it was, but it sent chills up my spine, he was just so perfect. When he was close enough he brushed his lips against mine, which shocked me a little. Then he twirled away from me, for a moment I saw him as he really was, an angel. I could see the wings, opening spreding outward, his arms raised up high. Then it was back to what he was now, he was so different from what he use to be. That night when we left the club I had to much on my mind, to many questions that needed to be answered. Only the thing was, I couldn't get the answers from the being that had them.
"Oh how the mighty have fallen, poor little Loki all alone and losing who he use to be, isn't it so sad." The voice was low and raspy, almost like a snake, Loki was already facing it as we all turned.
"Well you'll never get a better shot at taking me out now will you Javeil?" The thing that came out of the shadows looked like some kind of bum, only a lot worse than anything I had seen.
"I don't want to hurt you Loki, I would never think of trying to challege you, even in your weakened state. Not many demons remember the first battle, but I do, I remember it so clearly. How many of us did you kill, one, two, three hundred, all by yourself, no I wouldn't even dream of killing you." The back of Loki's shirt started ripping, then his wings were at full mass. After that we couldn't see anything, he was blocking any path that the demon could use to attack us.
"What I want is for you to join me, and the others, with you we could fight our way back into heaven. God turned his back on you, like he did us, all for these little things that whine, cry, and then die. You could have anything that you want if you come with me, I'm sure my master would reward you with anything you want." The wings slowly lowered and what stood in front of Loki wasn't a bum, but something made of pure evil. It's skin was like a snakes, and it's eyes black as cole, it didn't really have any lips, just a mouth.
"You should know better than to ask me that question, even if I was on the verge of dying I wouldn't change sides." There was a laugh that came from behind us, and to the side of us as other demons walked out of the darkness.
"I thought you would say that, so I brought a few friends, now the question is would you join us if it would save them?" Loki's body tensed up, as he looked around at the other demons, then he smiled lightly and laughed.
"You know what I think is really funny, the fact that you think I couldn't protect them from such small numbers. I may not have all the gifts and powers that I once had, but I can still cause some damnage when I need to. Only I'm not in a weakened state like you think, becoming more human has made me a little bit more dangerous." Before I could blink he was gone, Loki had just vanished from sight. Then there were two screams, or at least they sounded like screams, everything was happening so fast. Something was around us like walls almost, then it felt like everything was being pushed away from us as the walls left.
"As you can with your two friends, I'm far more dangerous than anything you've ever encountered before." I looked up to see Loki floating above us, his wings slightly moving to keep him in the air. The thing that had been in front of us still stood there with it's eyes wide and it's mouth open wide. Slowly it looked upward, it's whole body shook either from anger or fear, but I don't think that mattered.
"This isn't over Arch Angel, you'll see soon enough you should have joined us when you had the chance." Then it was moving down through the ground, only the ground hadn't changed any, then it was gone. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief as Loki slowly landed on the ground, Nick was the first at his side.
"That was amazing, it was so cool, I didn't know you could move like that, oh I can't believe it." His voice changed from being hyper to something more like worry as he looked at Loki a little closer. Loki had blood driping from his wings, and his side, his breathing was a bit uneven.
"We have to move away from here quickly I don't know how much longer I can hold this act up." The wings melted back into his back as his body fell forward Kevin caught him, and no one moved. There was silence, as we realized just how much it had cost him to do what he had done to save us. Kevin was carrying him with a little help from Nick, AJ was making a call for a limo. We had planned on walking to the hotel, it was only a few blocks away now that seemed unlikely.
"Who would have thought he weighed so much for someone that can move that quick." There was a small laugh, but nothing more as the limo pulled up and we got in laying Loki on one seat.
"Do you think he's going to be ok, I mean, he's bleeding, doesn't that mean he could die?" I looked at Howie and forced myself not to think about what he had just said, only the thoughts refused to stop. My mind focused on the image of him just fading away like he had never been, almost like when he had moved to fight those things. That thought sent chills up my spine and straight to my heart as I looked at him. How many times would he save us before it got him kiilled, or worse made him an easier target.
"How are we going to get him in the hotel without someone stopping us, his shirt is ripped up and he's bleeding?" Without thinking Nick took his shirt off and gave it to me since I had been the one to speak.
"It's black so it should hide the blood at least long enough for us to get him to one of the rooms. We'll just tell anyone that ask that he had a little to much to drink and passed out." I nodded and took his shirt off, getting a closer look at his side which looked to be healing really fast. My heart finally returned to a normal rythem knowing that he was going to be ok. After putting Nick's shirt on him I tried to wake him up a little, all I did was get him to open his eyes for a second then he went back out. For the next four hours someone was always watching over Loki, all of his clothing was on the floor. He had been stabbed in more places than one, I guess that's why he had taken to the air. His legs had three wounds that were closing and fading quickly, while his thigh just looked to be brused now. Now as I took my shift watching over him I found myself laying beside him with my hand drapped over his chest. I could feel his heart beating, that was one thing that I needed to know, only it was a rythem I had never listened to so closely. As I listened my eyes got heavier, soon I found myself in a world of dreams. When I woke up Loki was staring down at me with this look of peace and sadness. The look just didn't belong there, it was heart breaking, only I could ask what was wrong, he told me first.
"I'm a danger to you, and your friends, if I stay you all risk dying, and I can't risk that not now or ever. What I'm trying to tell you is that I have to leave, and lead them away from here, from you. For the past couple of weeks I've been wondering what I was feeling and how I could tell you without making a fool of myself. I would find myself dreaming of you, some times innocently, other times, well not so innocent, I asked Nick about it. He told me that I was falling in love, or something like that, he said that I should tell you." I couldn't find enough air to speak, all I could do was move my lips. Here I was finding out that my angel was in love with me and that he was getting ready to leave me.
"I know I should have just left and never said any of this but I couldn't just vanish without letting you know how I feel. From the first moment I saw you, my heart started beating differently than before. To be honest I just thought I was trying to hold onto what I use to be, but I found that wasn't true. I couldn't really let you out of my sight without being over come with worry. That's why I was there to catch you before you fell, I was waiting for any reason to be near you agian." Tears fell from his eyes as he leaned down placing a kiss on my forehead.
"I've placed you in enough danger, I love you Brian, I always will, but now I have to go, tell everyone I said good bye." I pulled the air into my lungs forcing the words without thought.
"No, you can't go." My voice was high, almost a scream, I'm sure the others heard me but Loki just looked at me. Tears still fell, as a small smile grew on his face, he just looked at me. Then the door opened and he stepped through, I don't remember moving ot the door or opening it, but as I looked down the hall I saw nothing.
*****Loki
The wind wiped across my face as I took to the skies moving as quickly as I could away from him. I knew that the forces of darkness were on my tail following me, chasing me down to end me. They would think about taking my friends, my love as bait, only if I kept moving they would know I wouldn't know they had them. So attacking them would be foolish as it would alert other angels, and maybe start a battle that they couldn't win. To trick a human out of their soul and end their life was risky, but in a way they had earned that soul. Only killing a human out right could start a war that would force the heavens to decend on hell with fury beyond normal thought. If I had been the target things would have been different if humans died since it was a fight that an angel was already in. So many rules that had to be followed, now they would be safe from the darkness. Only my heart screamed for my return to them, to him, a human who had taken my heart.
"Why have you done this to me? Why leave me with no defense against them, why couldn't you just make your mind up? Am I human, angel, or something that doesn't earn you attention? You made me this way, why can't I be with him?" I stayed in the air just keeping myself from moving my head thrown back waiting an answer.
"You've always had a choice Loki, you could have come home, the best punishment is what you do to yourself." I turned to see what had once been my friend, another angel like I had been.
"You have to learn to stop interfering with human lives, some need to end, while others continue. It is their freewill that makes them what they are, why can't you see that, you have no right to interfere." My body twitched at this tone, and anger bowled within my heart.
"I was made to watch over them, to protect them, to help them when I could, and when I do the things I was made to do I am punished." My voice had a tone that I didn't think existed in my voice before.
"Is that the way it needs to be Thane, that I'm not allowed to follow my heart, is that why I was put here? Do you really think I made myself more human? No I haven't that power, other wise I would have died a long time ago." He simply looked at me and smiled a knowing smile that I had once shared.
"You've always had the power to become what you want to become Loki, that has never been a question. The choice has always been yours to make, you can be a human or an angel, or what you are now which is a mix of both. You can even switch back in forth a few times, until you've made up your mind that is. Just know that once you make up your mind there is no turning back. If you become human fully you will risk losing your existance, and if you decide to come home you will have to stop your interfering." I couldn't find the words to explain how much he had helped me or cleared things up for me.
"The punishments were of your own making, you took your own gifts away from yourself, not God. Oh, and Loki remember that if you're at least ninty percent human you gain the proctection of a human. In other words, the demons won't be able to hurt you without starting a war." Then he was gone back to a place that I couldn't follow yet, a place that offered prefection in love and happiness. A place that would erase my fears, my doubts, a place that I didn't really belong anymore. I turned and headed back to the hotel roof, finding a nice place to sit and think for a while. At some point Nick had found me, he just sat down beside me and placed his hand on my knee.
"We thought you were gone for good, I guess it was a good idea to check up here again." I looked at him just before I leaned my body against his, he wrapped his arms around me.
"So did I, until an old friend paid me a visit, and made me see how much of a fool I've been. All of this is my fault, I guess I should have known better, or maybe that's why this happened. After all it's what I always wanted deep down inside, I wanted to be what I cared for the most." Nick looked at me, and for a moment he looked confused, then he started understanding.
"Even if I stay and do as my friend said you and the others would still be in great danger. They may come and chance a war with heaven just to make sure I was taken out of the picture once and for all." Nick tightened his arms around me and laid a kiss on top of my head.
"We'll be here for you Loki, like you were there for us, and if we die fighting with you at least we died fighting for something worth fighting for." My head fell at the thought losing my dear friends, and even more my love, something I hadn't thought I would ever find. An emotion that I thought I would only know in it's pure form, not the way a human knows it. Yet here I was in love with Brian, falling more every second that passed and I could be the reason that their time ran out.
"We all love you, for different reasons, but it's still there, we may not be able to show you love like you could find in heaven, but we love you none the less. Stay with us, we'll keep you safe, and fight anything that tries to take you away." All I could do was nod as I felt myself change, quicker and quicker I felt it deep in my heart. Everything was changing, it scared me, but it was the only way I could stay with them.
"Loki what's happening, you feel different, what's wrong?" As the change stops just before I become completely human, I smile lightly this was what I had to do.