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The next day we were still on sea but I heard we would arrive at Labadee the following day. After breakfast Julian showed me where the rooms for the children were. There were movies, games and a lot of kids playing. A few adults were watching so that nothing happened. "You want to stay here?" I asked.
"May I?"
"Of course."
"Cool. I met some friends yesterday."
"That's great."
"Mmh. When should I come back?"
"When you're hungry. I probably won't be in our cabin. How about one o'clock in the restaurant?"
"Ok. Bye." He gave me a peck on the cheek and then went off to play with some other kids.
I didn't see Nick so I just went to the deck, got myself a drink and took a sunbath. It was heavenly. I would have real trouble to get out of this lazy lifestyle where everything I needed was served.
I went eating with Julian and in the afternoon we went to the gym together and took a dancing course.
I had to admit that Julian was more talented than me. I couldn't really get the rhythm and my movements were stiff. But then I remembered that karate and taekwondo movements were like flowing water and not stiff at all. After a while I relaxed and got better but it was still nowhere near the teacher's movements.
After dinner I brought Julian to bed but I wasn't really tired so I went out again and enjoyed the moonlight.
"Hey." I turned and there stood Nick.
"Hi Nick. How was your day?"
"Ok. A bit boring without you."
I smiled. "What did you do?"
"Not much. I ate with the girls."
"You like them?"
"Well, I'm not interested in them."
"Oh... I see."
There were a few couples who enjoyed this romantic moonlight.
"Andrew..."
"Huh?"
"I'm gay."
"Oh."
He waited for more but what did he expect me to say? Me too and I want to ravish you? Ok, that was the truth, but... He himself said he wasn't interested in a relationship.
Was I? Probably - probably not. I wasn't so sure. I just discovered I was gay a few weeks ago. And I would go to NYU after this summer. I had no idea if he went to college or if he... I didn't even know his whole name.
"I'm sorry." He said.
"What for?"
"I just... I don't know why I said it. I thought, you..."
"I am."
"What?"
"I am gay."
"Oh."
"Right. But I'm not sure what you want."
"I don't know either. I'm still pretty hurt from my break up. And we'll probably never meet again after these two weeks."
"Who knows?"
"Right."
"You know what?"
"What?"
"We should just enjoy this time together. Gosh, you don't know how good you look right now." I said.
He smiled at that compliment and I just had to kiss his lips. I pulled back. Was that... that was my first kiss? No. I suddenly remembered that Black gave me my first kiss. Oh gosh, why did I have to remember this now? I chuckled.
"What?" Nick asked.
"I just remembered my first kiss."
"Hey, you kiss me and think about someone else?"
"Ah, I'm sorry. It wasn't really a kiss. Here." I pulled his head to me and this time I kissed him, he kissed me back. His lips were so soft and I could smell his pleasant smell. Then I opened my mouth and licked his lips.
"Wow." Nick said.
"Wow." I replied.
"So... what was this about your first kiss?"
"Oh. That. I was probably eleven years old. It was at a birthday party. Someone had the stupid idea to play that kiss game with the bottle. You know the one you turn the bottle and have to kiss the person the bottle points at. And I had to kiss a guy. I don't know why I did it but I shoved my tongue into his mouth and he enjoyed it for a few seconds. Then he pushed me away and..."
Right. Before that, my life was mostly normal. I didn't have many friends because Black always treated me badly. He called me pretty boy and made fun of me. But that day I kissed him he began to beat the shit out of me with his friends. I completely forgot that!
"And what?"
"Oh. No. It's nothing."
"Really?"
"Yes. Just some stupid childhood memories I forgot."
He hugged me and then whispered into my ear: "Want to go to my cabin?"
"I don't have much experience."
"It's okay. We don't have to do much."
"Ok."
His cabin was a bit smaller because there was only one bed. He pulled me down and we kissed on the bed. Nick was under me and somehow I loved to be in control, to pin his hands down so that he couldn't move.
Our hard ons were rubbing against each other and he moaned into my mouth. When I let go we were both panting hard. Nick stared into my eyes with a small smile on his lips, his wet, red lips. I couldn't stop myself from licking them and then nibbled on his neck.
"You're top?" Nick asked.
"Don't know."
"You definitely are." He said.
"What are you?"
"Versatile, but you somehow make me feel weak." A grin appeared on his face. His hands were still pinned down.
"Should I feel sorry?" I asked. He didn't answer and just put his legs around my waist, grinding our hard ons together.
I finally released his hands and he really surprised me when he turned us around and sat on me with a huge smile. I smiled back, grabbed his hands and sat up, then pushed him down but when he tried to change the situation again I suddenly felt the bed disappear.
Before I could react I fell to the ground. From the bed Nick looked down at me with a shocked expression. I stared back and then he began to giggle and I also couldn't hold back a laugh.
He gave me his hand and I got back on the bed, still grinning.
"That was absolutely hilarious." He said.
"Yes. But really, these beds are way too small!"
"What do you have in mind."
"How about this?" I asked and slowly removed his shirt. Then I opened his pants and he also began to get my clothes off.
He lifted his hips and I finally got rid of his jeans. Next were his boxers. When he was finally naked I admired his strong body. His cock was also quite impressive.
I still had my pants on but I pushed him down and began to caress, and kiss his chest, his nipples and was really pleased with the reaction I got.
"Ah... Wait..." Nick said.
"Why?"
"You..."
"Just let me please you tonight." I said and continued to wander down on his upper body. When my lips finally reached his cock Nick was moaning and leaking precum.
I licked it away and slowly jacked him off. When I took the head in my mouth he moaned and grabbed the bed sheets. I began to bob on him and couldn't stop myself from thinking that it felt better than the blowjob I gave Mike.
Everytime I tried to take more into my mouth, tried to remember the feeling when I had to suppress the gagging. It didn't really work but that didn't matter.
Nick gasped, moaned and writhed under me.
"I... ahh, I'm cu..." He said and then he came hard and I just stayed there with my mouth around the head of his cock and waited until all of the bitter and salty jizz was in my mouth.
"That... was... wonderful. I love you..." Nick murmured, almost asleep. I smiled and kissed his lips.
"Jason." He whispered and I pulled back.
Oh well, what could I do? He was still in love with his ex-boyfriend. I got up, put my clothes on and left the room. I didn't feel bad... At least better than when I left Mike after the blowjob. This was like comforting a friend, I guess.
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"Are you sick?" Julian asked me with a worried expression. We were eating breakfast but somehow I wasn't really hungry.
"No. I'm alright."
He looked at me once more and then suddenly looked up. "Did we just stop?"
"Yes. We must be at Labadee."
"You mean we can go off the ship?"
"Yes."
"Cool! I want to see!"
I smiled at his happy face. He was always so full of joy. When we went outside I saw Nick right away. He waved and then came over.
"Hey."
"Hello Nick. Are you also going outside?" Julian asked.
"Yes."
"Cool." Julian didn't seem to be shy around Nick anymore.
"Want to come with us?" I asked Nick and he nodded. We went to get some money and then went to walk around on Labadee. We didn't talk about what happened the night before and the day was really nice. But when we got back on the ship and Julian went to sleep Nick said: "I'm sorry."
"What for?" I asked.
"Falling asleep. It just felt so good."
"It's okay. I wanted you to feel good."
"Thank you. I want you to feel good as well." He said with a suggestive grin and somehow I couldn't refuse him. We again went to his cabin and this time he made me feel good with his fingers, his lips, his tongue.
When I left his cabin and went to sleep I felt satisfied yet not completely content.
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"Nick, we need to talk." I said. The days before we'd been on the islands San Juan and Philipsburg. They were beautiful and Julian and I bought many souvenirs. Time passed so fast. Tomorrow we'd be at Basseterre and after that it would only take a few days until we were back in New York.
Now it was evening again and we stood at the deck.
Nick looked at me with serious eyes. "I think so, too."
"I have three questions."
"Ask them."
"Okay. First, do you still love your ex-boyfriend?"
He opened his eyes in surprise but then I could see so many feelings in his eyes. There was confusion, hate, love, insecurity...
"I... I'm not sure. We were together for two years and I really..."
"What happened?" I asked. I just wanted to know and it really bothered me that we did those things together without knowing what he thought, how he felt.
"He was an asshole. I thought he loved me but then... I found out he had been dating two other people at the same time. One of them a girl and I had no idea!"
"Oh gosh."
"I really hate him." He said but I knew there was more to come so I waited.
"And I still love him. It's not easy to just stop loving someone. But Andrew, you helped me so much to forget him, get over him."
"I'm glad I could help you, though I don't think I did much."
"You did. I was a real wreck before but I feel much better now." Nick said but even though he probably felt better I could tell he still hurt a lot. I pulled him into a hug and Nick held on to me like he was drowning.
"It was terrible to discover it. And you know what he did when I confronted him? He just laughed!" Nick said with a bitter voice.
I thought back to Black and Marc and how much I hated them and how much it freed me to forgive them. It was such a hard thing to do after all they did but it felt so good when I finally did. Yet I didn't tell Nick to forgive his ex-boyfriend.
After a while Nick relaxed a bit. "Thank you again. It's so nice that I got to know you."
"Same here."
Nick stepped back with a small smile. "Sorry that I got so emotional. So, what's the second question?"
"No problem. Well, I wanted to ask you what happens when we're back in New York. I don't know what we're doing and... I know practically nothing about you."
"True. Are you attending university in New York?"
"Yes."
"I..." He said and looked up with sad eyes. "I got accepted to Florida."
"Oh."
"Yes."
"So that means we'll probably never see each other again?" I asked.
"I don't know."
I stared out at the sea, the water that looked so dark and dangerous at night. Then I thought about that last week on the ship. It had been so nice, so peaceful. It was as if we'd been in the sheltered, comfortable world of the ship without having to worry about what happened outside, what would happen when we got back.
Everything was so confusing.
"I'm sorry." Nick said.
"You don't have to. It's just... I really came to like you but we'll just go our own ways after this week and everything that happened will just be a memory."
"A good memory."
"Yes."
For a while we were both quiet. Then he asked: "What now?"
I looked at him, his beautiful eyes, the handsome face, his strong body and wondered what he thought my answer would be.
"I want to kiss you." I said, looking at his soft lips.
"Wh... what?"
"I know we won't be in a relationship or anything. It wouldn't work out with the distance and all. But that doesn't mean your lips are looking less kissable."
Nick chuckled. "You're really the best person I could have met here."
"I know." I answered with a huge grin.
"We should stay in contact nevertheless."
"Of course. I expect you to tell me about all the hot guys in Florida. But right now I want to kiss the hot guy in front of me."
"I wi..." He said but I shut him up with a kiss.
The kiss was nice and even though we weren't together didn't mean I cared less for him. And someday I wanted a partner who was as handsome and fun as him.
"Shouldn't we... go inside?" Nick asked when we finally parted.
I looked around. There weren't many people there but they'd surely be offended if we began to do things... Or would they think it was hot?
"Don't you wonder what these people would say if I gave you a blowjob out here?" I asked.
"Wh... wh... oh gosh, you're crazy. But they can't throw us out." Nick answered with a huge grin.
"They could leave us in Basseterre."
"True. We should probably try it after Basseterre. What do you think?"
"We're both crazy."
"Definitely."
We both laughed loudly and then he took my hand and we went inside where we continued with kissing, touching, caressing, undressing, licking and sucking for a long time.
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"Hey guys."
Nick, Julian and I turned around. It was Lea and her friends.
"Tonight is a dance event. Are you coming?"
"Erm..." I began.
"Andy, I want to go!" Julian said and his eyes sparkled. Was there a way to tell him no? I just smiled and nodded.
"Cool. See you then."
"You're weak." Nick said with a grin. I sighed.
It was the second last night on the ship and in two days we'd arrive in New York.
"We probably have to dress up." Nick said.
"Yes. We have the clothes from the wedding. Do you have something?"
"I have a nice shirt."
"Good. Hey Jules, you really like to dance, right?" I asked.
He nodded. "Yes!" Soooo cute. But he really was good. We had attended a second dancing lesson and Julian met a girl that was just as talented as him and the instructor was really proud of them.
In the evening we went to the big room. It looked completely different than usual. The tables were gone, there was a stage where a band was getting ready and there were lights dancing around.
"Cool." Julian whispered and I patted his head. He looked really nice in his clothes.
The girls came and soon there were many people. The first couple that went to dance was an old woman and her husband. I was really touched by the way they looked at each other. They must have spent their whole life together and still loved each other. Or rather loved each other more and more. That was something I wanted too - one day.
"Hey Andrew, do you want to dance?" One of the girls asked. I didn't even remember her name.
"I'm not that good." I said.
"Doesn't matter. Nick is also dancing."
"Okay." I finally said and she took my hand and led me to the dancing floor. It wasn't that bad and the two dancing lessons really helped.
But still, I wished I could hold a man in my arms.
Later Nick and I sat down and watched the others. Julian was really shy at first but then he asked me if he could go to dance and I encouraged him to. He then went to ask the girl he'd danced with and led her to the middle of the dance floor.
They were both a lot smaller than the adults yet they stood out. The girl was pretty with her beautiful dress and Julian was really cute with his suit. The others made place for them and when they saw how good they danced everyone in the room stopped and watched them in awe.
They were absolutely perfect and it was as if they were in their own world. Their dance was really sweet and touching and it seemed as if it were their last dance before the ship sank.
When the song ended everyone clapped and I saw how Julian blushed a bit but he didn't let go of the girls hand but kissed it! It was soooooo cute and everyone in the room was smiling at them.
Only when Julian was too tired to stand I brought him to bed. He fell asleep in a second with a smile on his face. I then went back and saw that the girls had found other partners and were all dancing. I stood next to Nick.
"Want to go outside?" He asked. I nodded and when we were at the deck there wasn't anyone but we could hear the music.
"May I ask for a dance?" I asked and held my hand out. Nick smiled.
"Of course." He took my hand and we danced to the music. It was so romantic and felt so right and I wished we didn't have to let go, didn't have to say good bye.
"I don't want this to end." Nick whispered into my ear.
"Neither do I."
I pulled him nearer to me and he looked into my eyes. We then tenderly kissed, soft and loving and I was sure he felt the same as me right then.
The kiss became more passionate and my hand wandered down his back to his ass and I squeezed his cheeks. He moaned into my mouth and I squeezed again.
"You remember..." He said when he pulled his lips away from mine. "...they can't leave us in Basseterre anymore."
I smiled. "True. And there isn't anyone here."
"Right."
One of Nick's arms went under my shirt and he pinched my nipples. I let my hand wander in his pants and felt his ass crack.
"Andrew." He whispered and I took my hand out.
"We shouldn't go too far." I said and then caressed the tent in his pants.
"Right." He licked my lips and then nibbled on my neck and his other hand opened my pants. He took my hard on out and went down.
I felt myself shiver when he touched it and began to suck it. That we were outside was a real turn on and I knew Nick was really excited himself.
Before he brought me to orgasm I took his head in my hands and went down as well to kiss his lips. Then I opened his pants and soon we were both pleasuring each other, making each other come.
We both laid on the ground, panting.
"That was great." Nick said.
"Definitely. And we were really lucky!"
"Hehe, right. Gosh, if someone had come..."
"But it was hot! I didn't know it could be so exciting to do it outside."
"Yes."
For a while we both didn't say anything and then got up and went to sleep in our own beds.
But I couldn't fall asleep, thinking about how much I'd come to like Nick. I then took out a paper and a pen and began to write.
I wrote it all within minutes and decided not to look at it anymore because it was, what had been on my mind.
Dear Nick, you'll be reading this when we're no longer on the ship. I'm really going to miss you and just had to tell you how much you mean to me. My life wasn't nice and you're one of the first friends I ever had. It was so much fun but that wasn't all. I'm sure if you weren't going to Florida - why Florida??? - and we'd be closer together I'd wanted to be in a relationship with you. It would be really easy to fall in love with you. So, Nick, when you're in Florida, I hope you will find someone who really loves you and treasures you. Not like Jason. I don't know how much longer it will take you to completely get over him but you're strong.
As I said my life wasn't nice and there were two people in my life I hated. Really hated. It wasn't a confusing mix of love and hate which is probably worse. It was just pure hate. But someone taught me about forgiveness and it took me a long time to finally forgive them. I'd been so bitter and hurt but when I decided to forgive them I felt better and it gave me strength to fight them.
I know this is something that is easily said but I know how hard it is. Jason is just a person that doesn't know what real love is. He'll probably never be really happy. He'll end up alone if he continues like that. But you'll find someone you love and that loves you the way you do him. I'm sure of it.
Good luck in Florida. I'll miss you and think of you. Love, Andrew
The next day Julian and I sat on the deck with Nick and talked a lot. It was the last day and we were all a bis sad but we made the best of it.
Before we left the ship the next morning I gave the letter I'd written but told him not to open it until he didn't see me anymore.
"Or better, open it when you're in Florida."
"That long? You're making me really curious." He said and pouted a bit.
I just grinned and then hugged him for a long time, not wanting to let him go and he held me the same way.
"Bye." He then said.
"Bye." I said and Julian also hugged him. We left the ship together, waved one last time and then went our own ways.
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That was chapter four. Sweet summer love... I hope you enjoyed reading and I'd love to hear from you. You can contact me at azulasn@yahoo.com
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