This is a new bi-sexual's explanation of his recent wonderous experiences.
I'm Frank, 68 years old, and a retired college professor. I'm married to a 65 year old retired secondary school teacher. The past half year i'd begun to have very strong sexual urges about men which finally culminated in my acting upon them. Mainly, I had begun to provide oral sexual gratification mostly to other married men, but also to single bi-sexual men as well. All this has happened after 40 years of marriage to the same woman, the raising two boys, and several heterosexual extramarital affairs.
Through an internet bisexual and gay hookup site, i've managed to meet more than 15 local men since February of this year, and perform oral sex on all of them. Their ages range from 47 to 78, and i've managed to make all of them ejaculate directly inside my mouth and throat, after which i've throughly enjoyed swallowing each of the gentlmen's semen. While and after the man completes his most pleasurable physical experience possible for a man, I find i'm asking myself.... "why am I doing these most intimate possible acts with men"? Well, I actually know the answer to my question, but i'm still nearly in disbelief about the whole scenario each time, and about the tremendous sexual and emotional thrills and pleasure I receive each time I pour my whole being into pleasuring... no, into loving a man with my hands, lips, mouth, and tongue so that he loses control and gives up himself to me by ejaculating. When he does so he's revealed the most intimate side of himself to me, and he's also given me his most intimate and sacred bodily fluid...his semen.
I just love making a man cum by bringing him to sexual orgasm. I love the control over him that pleasuring his body represents. A lot of men think that they are in control of a man who's giving them oral service, but in my view the truth is quite the opposite. It's the receiver of semen who is in control. He is a most needed one for the man being pleasured. This has been evidenced to me by how occasionally a man i'm pleasuring becomes irritated by an interruption during the building up toward his climax. An unexepected pause, a mistaken move, etc., can make for an uncomfortable moment in the countenance of the man being sucked to completion. He so needs me...so depends on my continuing a loving craft upon his testicles and penis....and the general intimate treatment of his body.
When I see a man who I find desirable to me, I am mesmerized by his masculine legs..the hair and rough texture of a man's legs, the muscles... excite me beyond words. During the summer when I see men walking for exercise or out and about generally, and they're wearing short pants, I quickly glance at their legs and get turned on from their beauty. A man's hairy rough and masculine legs sexually arouse me. I just want to kneel down in front of them and begin kissing and licking their shins, calves, knees...especially knees, and thighs...especially inner thighs. I want to stroke and caress their lower body and feel them tremble with sexual arousal from my touch, and hear them sigh. I also wish to touch, fondle, caress and explore my man's body....to give him whatever pleasure he needs and desires. Massage, kissing, verbal communication of appreciation for the honor of the intimacies my man allows me to experience, and close embrace are experiences I wish to give and share with a man.
When i'm finally with such men, at last i'm able to satisfy those most intimate desires, and experience the excitement I get from hearing the man that I service express his passion verbally and physically. I get to know what he's like when he climaxes. I get to hear him say what comes to his mind....to call out my name, to tell me how good he is feeling, to tell me he loves me ...if he is having those feelings for me, as I lovingly bring him such intimate pleasure. I love to see and feel his legs tremble...see and feel the goosebumps rise on his skin. I love to feel him thrusting toward my face as he releases his sperm deep inside my mouth. I always thank him sincerely for such a received gift as his semen.
I experience thrills beyond words when the man I'm pleasuring finally ejaculates. When his semen is released into my waiting mouth he instantly makes me fall in love with him. I'm never able to keep from doing so. I have no ability to resist giving my heart to him...along with my body for him to do with as he pleases. The act of receiving and swallowing the seed of a virile pleasured man is sacred to me. I feel that the man i'm servicing in so intimate a manner and I have become as one. His sperm...the fluid of life...that man's essence, is flowing in my blood...becoming an intimate part of me. I'm not able to resist feeling love for him.
I always find a man's semen very desirable to swallow. It doesn't matter how thick or thin it is, or of what color. When I find it to be fairly thick and sticky, i'm particularly pleased. But that's not a necessity. It's unusually exciting when it has some unevenness or lumpiness to it so that i'm able to squeeze it against my palate with my tongue and savor it and sort of use my teeth to "chew" the lumps and then feel them go down my throat as broken up as I swallow them down. If such a description is somewhat unromantic or too clinical, I apologize for it, but these things often occur to me when my man shoots his load into my mouth. If a man's semen is off-white....grayish, yellowish or even greenish, as mine was when I was in my teens and always horny, I find it especially desirable and somewhat exciting to receive. Thick yellow or greenish tinted semen is probably from a man who's not climaxed for some time and may be congested, although I realize that a man's diet of certain foods does influence the color and taste of his semen. When I was in my late teens and early 20s my semen was a yellow-green and also very thick. I always feel fortunate to be taking a man's congested semen...a man who's very horny and needy to get his "rocks" off. I'm especially honored when I bring such a man the sexual release he needs and so deserves. I just know that the hornier a man is, the more appreciative he is of the oral service he's receiving from a willing lover of his body.
Any comments are appreciated. Frank
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