An Ever-Growing Wonder
This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything This story contains sexual Contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where you are then don't. Everything in this Story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not Real! Please do not copy or paste this anywhere else, but please feel free to email me kidd_02012@hotmail.com -------------------------------------------------------------- Cole Allen Dunham-15 Devin Nicholas Faden -15 Stephanie Dunham-15 (Cole's Twin) Dylan Dunham- 12 (Little brother deaf) John Dunham-35 (father, Bioengineer) Susan Dunham-33 (Mother, New column writer) Raymond Faden- 40 (Devin's father, Mechanic) ------------------------------------------------------
I close the door to my green Xterra. I wipe my slightly sweating hands on my jeans. I check make sure my shirt is buttoned write, and it is. I walk over to the rapidly shortening line, I get to the door and the bouncer is huge.
"ID guy." He says
I hand him my fake ID that I paid a guy at school he makes the best ones around the area, and I hope it better work since I paid three hundred dollars for it.
The guy studies the ID looking at it to me; I know it looks like me since it is my photo just different information. I have strawberry blonde hair, with green eyes. I also have freckles on the bridge of my nose. I hate the fact I am short 5'6 to be exact which we gave me the height of 5'8 on the fake ID, I am about one hundred and fifteen pounds. I feel his hard gaze on me and I am actually starting to tremble, he hands me the ID and take my money and tells me to go.
I walk through the door of the club. It's dark like I thought it would be there are flashing lights and people, ok well mostly guys dancing. I walk towards the bar, and as I go to ask the bar tender for a drink some older guy cuts me off.
"Ben put whatever this guy wants on my tab!" He says looking over at me and smiling.
I blush and smile back, "I'll just have water right now." I say.
"I'm Trent." He says offering me his hand.
I take it and shake his hand, I hope he doesn't notice my sweaty hands I'd probably turn crimson red. "I'm Cole."
"Well Cole do you want to dance?" he asks.
I nod, and let him lead me out onto the dance floor; I have no clue the song that's playing its some house music that is mixed with rap. We start to dance to the beat of the music, him coming closer to me. My body pressed up to his, I can feel his breath on my neck.
"You smell really good." He says in my ear.
"Thanks, so do you I say."
I feel his hand run up my shirt, and over my flat stomach, "nice stomach I bet your hot underneath all these clothes." He growls into my ear.
I feel his lips on my neck working their way up to my jaw line, I can feel my dick start to get hard, as I start to grind into him. Our lips meet and I can taste the alcohol on his breath.
We keep dancing as the song switches, our tongues dance with each others. I am sweating from the dancing, and I am so hard and I know he knows it. He has grabbed my dick from time to time, and I him. I can tell he is hung.
We finally break apart and go back to the bar. "Your sweet ass can dance." He says looking at me.
I laugh, "No I can't! I suck at it."
"So Cole, how old are you?" he asks.
"I'm eighteen. How about you Trent?" I ask feeling at ease with him.
"I am twenty one." He says smiling.
I take a drink of my water and we talk some more. I found out he goes to UCF, I tell him I am a senior at West point high even though I am only a freshman.
"So are you single?" He asks.
I shift nervously, "Yeah I am what about you?"
"If I wasn't I wouldn't be hitting so hard on you." He says smiling, and putting his hand on my crotch.
"We should go back to my apartment, and you know, you could show me what's underneath the clothes." He says leaning in to kiss me.
That's when I spot a guy from my school and we make eye contact, and I feel an instant heat flow through my body. I dodge the kiss that Trent was going to give me.
I stand up off the bar stool, "I got to go." I mumble out.
"Wait!" He yells at me and yanks me back by the arm. I must have had a frightened look on my face because he lets go of me when he sees my face.
"Take my number." He says handing me a napkin.
I take it and put it into my pocket and look back at the boy from our school and is still watching me, I weave through the crowed of people and make it outside.
I let the fresh air hit me, and make my way to my Xterra. I get it and start the engine, and head back to the house mentally cussing myself, because I knew going to the gay club was a messed up idea.
Putting my SUV in neutral and shutting it off I role into my parking spot in the driveway, and I slowly get out making sure to not slam my door, I make my way to the back yard, and climb through my window. I roll on to my bed and my light flips on.
COLE! Where have you been?" Stephanie asks.
I give out a sigh of relief, Stephanie is my twin sister. Me and her are identical she has long curly hair though, where mine is really short. "Just needed to get out of the house." I say lying back on my bed.
"You took your SUV, you don't even have your license yet!" she says.
"I know, just please don't rat me out to the parents. I just really needed out of the house tonight. Plus it's so easy taking the Xterra when it's going to be mine anyway." I say smiling.
She laughs and joins me on the bed. "Yeah it was a long night tonight." She says lying next to me. "So you're not going to tell me what's been going on?" she asks.
I look over at her "I just can't sis."
She smiles weakly, "You can always tell me anything."
"I know I'm just not ready to face it." I say
"Jordan called again, asking for you." She says looking up at my ceiling.
I look up too, "Yeah I know, she kept calling my cell phone."
"Why are you avoiding her?" she asks.
"It's complicated." I say.
I know Stephanie is getting frustrated now, "What the hell Cole, you are my twin we are supposed to support each other, tell each other everything because we are so close."
"Look as soon as I am ok with what's going on with me I will tell you ok." I look her in the eyes.
I hear a light knock. I knew who it was so went and opened my bedroom door. There was my little brother Dylan. I motioned for him to come in.
I signed did we wake you up?
He shook his head know, and signed back that he saw the light when he went to go to the restroom.
"Ok, I thought me and Stephanie woke you up." I tell and sign to him.
Dylan is deaf he is twelve he has been deaf since the age of four, he had meningitis. He can read lips and speak, so we don't always have to sign, but I do it anyway because we get too excited when we talk and he can't keep up. Stephanie and I sign fluently. Our parents on the other hand aren't as fluent as we are but they know enough.
He just shrugs his shoulders, and asks what we are doing up? He looks from me to Stephanie thinking one of us will cave in, and before I can ask he tell me whatever and is going to bed.
I just shrug my shoulders and hug him, and I sign that I will tell him when I am ready. I go back to the bed and look over at Stephanie, "He is mad at me."
"Good reason to be. Cole I don't know what is making you be so difficult, but its annoying." She says getting off the bed.
"I guess I will see you in the morning?" I ask.
"If you actually spend the night at home!" she says.
"I am, your not telling the parents are you?" I ask.
She laughs, "No because then you could spill on all the mess I have done."
I laugh with her, and watch as she closes my door.
I take off my shirt, and jeans. I reach in my pocket and pull our my phone and Trent's number, I got ahead and put his number into my phone, but I don't feel like texting him right now, I am still reeling from seeing him.
I hit the light, and lye on the bed, and look up at the ceiling. I am surprised the glowing stars still glow. I put them up when I was like ten, and they still work, I plug in my Iphone and think about him.
Him would be Devin. That's who I saw tonight at the club and I freaked out. He is the only outed "gay" kid in school, well they say he is and he never denied it. He is really cute though. Ughh there I go thinking all this stuff! I don't know it just started and I hate it! I have a girl friend....well kind of, but Devin has brown hair with really blue eyes and this amazing smile when he actually does smile with very white teeth. He's about three inches taller than me. Plus he loves to wear skinny jeans, cause he is skinny...wait that was a lame description skinny because he is skinny? See these are my thoughts when I think of him all jumbled.
I just can't think like this anymore. I am straight! I have a girlfriend named Jordan, and she is pretty and she wants to have sex with me, but I'm to scared.....she just doesn't get me as well hard as Trent did tonight while we were dancing or anything. But she is hot she is seventeen and blonde hair honey brown eyes and on the cheer squad.
That's it I am done I am not thinking about Devin, or Jordan! I pull the covers up to my chest and roll on to my stomach, and I can't help but think that it was the first time tonight that it felt so good to kiss, and just dance without worry, until I saw Devin tonight.
I am not going to bore you with how I got showered, dressed, and all the chaos that happens every morning in the house while trying to eat breakfast. Of course we had the normal fuss about what to eat. Dylan wanted pancakes mom made waffles and none of us really like waffles. Stephanie finally walked in and calmed it all down.
"So how did everyone sleep?" my mom asks, and half signs.
Dylan just gave thumbs up, Stephanie said well, and I just shrugged. "Are you not sleeping well honey?" she asks.
"No not really." I say.
"Do you need to go to the doctor?" My dad asks walking in all dressed and ready for work.
I roll my eyes, "No and I got to run I hear Jordan pulling up." I say grabbing my bag, and running out of the door before either of my parents asks anymore questions.
I walk out to Jordan's BMW, I know I am going to hear it from her since I ignored her calls last night. I open the door, and get in.
"Hey." I say leaning in to kiss her cheek.
"I was worried about you, I called and called!" she says right off the bat.
"I'm sorry I just didn't feel to great and went to bed, I really didn't tell anyone. Forgive me?" I ask.
She smiles and kisses me on the lips, "You are too cute to be mad at."
I blush a little, "So did you need anything last night?"
She shakes her head, "No, did I need a reason to call you? I just missed you. So you are sitting with me and my friends today right?"
I hesitate, it's not like I hate sitting with them, just there all so well rude to everyone. Mandy is Jordan's best friend and she is just hateful, and her boyfriend Sean is such a douche bag who isn't cute at all. "Yeah, would you mind if Jeff came and set with us?" I ask cause Jeff is my best friends. Hell our mothers are best friends; it's because of his mom that my mom has a career. She told my mom she had great advice and helped her get connections to the Orlando newspaper.
The fact she doesn't answer I already know it's a no, "Well. I was going to be a double date thing." She says with a pouty look on her face.
"Not a big deal it's cool." I say.
I am glad we pull into the school when we do, because Jeff is rolling up on his skateboard. Jeff is Jeff I cant say he is cute because it would be to weird for me he has brown hair and eyes, and is the same height as me. "Sup man." I say bumping fist with him.
"What's goin on bro? Hey Jordan lookin sexy!" He says laughing.
She rolls her eyes, "Still looking grungy Jeff. Cole, I will see you at lunch ok." She says grabbing me and kissing me on the lips, and grabs my butt making me blush really bad.
"Dude she is so hot!" he says watching her go.
"Shut up man that's my girlfriend!" I tell him play hitting him in the chest.
I walk into history, and sit at my desk. Devin walks in and we make eye contact, and I hate the fact he is smiling because I know he knows....I break it and look to Jeff who is talking to Melissa a girl he likes.
Coach Harman walks in, "Class we are breaking into groups today. To get you all working on this nine weeks project that is due at the end of the term. You will pick one historic event and recreate it, using models or a movie that you re-create about this event."
We start looking at who we want to be partners with and of course I look at Jeff who is smiling, and I'm about to high five him. When coach tells us he has paired us himself. I wait patiently to see who I am paired with, Jeff gets paired with some history buff, and he seems happy about it.
"Dunham, you are with Faden." Coach says.
My heart drops into my stomach, not good I think to myself. I walk over to the desk that Devin set up two desks facing each other. I sit in front of him not looking him in the eyes. Instead I am looking at my hands.
"My face is up here. Or would you rather it be Tent's?" He whispers.
I snap my eyes up in horror, and I feel my self start to feel shame wash over me, "sorry." I mumble.
He smiles and I hate it his white teeth making his eyes stand out, and I hate the way it makes me feel. "I am just messing with you Cole."
I just shrug, "What do you want to do this project over?" I ask.
"How about when HIV broke out and sent all the people after the gays!" he says.
I can't deal with this; I get up and tell coach I need to run to the restroom, that I am not feeling well at all. He lets me go, and as soon as I am clear from the door I sprint down to the bathroom and slam the last stall door and sink against the wall. I feel like my chest wants to cave in and I can't help but start to cry.
I hate whatever is happening to my body, I hate the way I feel when I look at Devin, or any other guys. I have a girlfriend! Why can't I just be normal like every other boy! I hear the stall door open, and I don't look up.
I feel a soft hand on my arm, and I look up its Devin. I look into his captivating blue eyes and I don't see the same hard expression as he had in the classroom, I see a sense of understanding, and curiosity.
"You just found out your gay didn't you." He said more of a comment than a question.
I shake my head, "I am not gay! I have a girlfriend!" I say trying to wipe the tears from my face.
He laughs, "Dude, its fine. You know I saw you in the club, which how did you get in anyway?"
"I have a fake ID. How did you get in?" I ask.
"I know the owner, and he lets me work in the back doing dishes and I am a bar back, he pays me cash. I was taking a break when I saw you sucking face with Trent." He says.
"Oh...Look I don't know why I was there ok! Just please don't say anything." I plead with him.
He laughs, "First you need to chill out. You are gay and in denial that's fine, but I promise you I wont say anything I know how it is to be outed in this piece of shit high school."
I look at him, "So you are gay?"
He nods his head, "Yup I like the cock man. Plus it's no ones business what I do outside of these walls. I don't bother no one, and yes I know the rumors about me and I know what they say about why my teeth are so white that it's from all the cum I swallow, its not. I just have very bad OCD with cleaning my teeth."
This shocks me that he doesn't care about what they say, "So what should we do for the project?" I ask trying to change the subject.
He shakes his head, "Titanic, I love it and it kind of did mark a tragic part of history. I can make a model of the shit you do the research." He says getting up.
He holds out his hand, and I take it getting off the floor. I like how soft his hands are, I could imagine them touching me. I stop the thought right there, and we walk out of the stall.
Coach asks if I am ok, I let him no it was a false alarm. I sit back across from Devin, and he looks at me. "Do you smoke?" I ask.
He laughs, "Did you miss the part where I have OCD with my teeth? Nicotine stains them, and no I don't drink I only drink water. Well maybe a little vodka only because it's clear."
"How did you know that you were..." I start to ask and he cuts me off.
"Easy, I wasn't ever attracted to girls. Guys just hit that spot, and well I am not one to deny what I want." He says with a smile.
His smile is infectious I start to smile as well, "So have you had sex?"
He nods his head, "Yeah, haven't you?"
I shake my head no, "No I haven't really...I don't know just haven't.
He leans forward, "You're fucking with me, you go out with Jordan and you haven't lost your virginity to her yet?"
"No!" I whisper loudly.
He laughs harder, "This is great, what about your buddy Jeff have you told him you haven't had sex yet?"
I just shake my head, "Look can we talk about this somewhere that isn't here?" I ask.
"Sure, because I if you blush anymore someone might call 911. Look I work tomorrow night since it is Friday, actually I prolly wont even come to school tomorrow, but I can stop by Saturday and we can work more on this project, and you can spill all your little fantasies to me." he says smirking.
"Look stop the little hints about where I was at its not funny ok. I'm not like you. I have a girlfriend and if it takes me having sex with her to prove to you that I am not gay then I will!" I tell him getting pissed.
"Do what you want, just don't be stupid. You are right you aint like me I am gay and I don't deny myself what I want. Plus I don't hide behind some false sense of hope. I will be by Saturday and we can do this project." He says and the bell rings.
I just shoot him a dirty look; I can't believe what an asshole he is to me. As he passes me he leans in a whisper, "And for someone who isn't gay you sure do look at me like a steak. Try not to hurt yourself looking at my ass as I leave."
Thanks to him the rest of my day was just a blur. I didn't pay attention and almost got detention in Math. Even Stephanie noticed I was jumpy all day she found me at lunch before I went to sit with Jordan.
"What is going on with you today?" She asks eating an apple.
I just shrug my shoulders, "Nothing, just not feeling myself today."
"You mean not feeling yourself lately."
"Steph please just lay off me ok!" I snap at her.
She puts her hands up in mock surrender, "Wow, ok Cole when you stop being such a prick then come talk to your twin that cares for you!"
I found Jordan at her spot in the quad; I come up behind her and hug her, and kiss her cheek. "Hey." I say sitting down next to her.
"Hey sexy." She says kissing me back. "Ok so my parents are out of town tomorrow do you want to come over to my house?" she asks.
I know what she wants, and she has been trying for few months straight now, "Yeah sounds good." I say.
She pulls me into another kiss, "Good, so is it true Coach Harman partnered you with that fag Devin?"
I just nod my head, and Mandy chimes in, "You better watch out Cole, he might try and force himself on you. You know because you are small kind of leaves you open for an attack."
"Mandy shut up! That's not funny, so what Cole is little, but I like my boyfriend just the way he is!" She says leaning in and whispering in my ear, "Besides I know you are well equipped, from the feels I have gotten."
I just roll my eyes. "Devin doesn't bother me, besides he doesn't mess with any of you. So what if he is gay, all we are going to do is this project and get it over with." I get up from the table, "Look Jordan I'm just tired and not feeling hungry just call me later tonight.
I just can't deal with their crap right now. So I go to my locker, and get my books for my next class and head into the library and consider texting Trent.