This story is a little different than i normally write. It's a lovestory. My first.
I was going through some old boxes this week and found some adult magazines I used to have. I hadn't seen them in years. As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course. But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.
As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I found he was the guy in my magazines. This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
Enjoy....
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All for Terry (Chapter 9) .....Moving on and Moving Out....
..... I called Adolfo that week as I said I would. We talked and decided to go have some drinks again. But just he and I. No Tina. But of course I told her I was going to go have fun.
"Great" she said "Get out and get laid" "Ugh" I huffed at her.
I met him in Thursday for some late drinks after dinner. Just a bar, nothing special. But not a pick up bar. That would make this meeting just dirty in my head. So we met and had a few drinks. I did like Adolfo and we ended up going back to his place and having sex. Yes it was first date sex. And it was good. We fucked and had a good time. And I needed it.
"I'll see ya later man" I said as I drove home later "Gotta work in the morning" "Sure. Drive safe buddy" he said back.
We kissed and I headed home. I slept well that night. I had a nice time with a decent guy and planned on seeing him again. But the next few weeks were hectic. I had left my job in retail and started my new job. I had collected a few clients when I worked for my teacher as an outside agent. I found that clients followed you if they liked you.
"It's great that you have collected some regulars" my knew boss told me "It can be hard to start from the ground up at a new agency"
Shelley was nice. She helped me in the begging as I was still fresh. But I picked up things fast. I was making bookings left and right for the agency. And I realized this was what I was meant to do. And I found that the salary was so-so in the industry. But it was the commissions that paid the bills. I had some pretty hefty ones after just a few months there.
"Nice" I said when I saw my first big check
I hadn't seen Tina much for a while. Save for when she would come by her mom's place. I was finding myself busy, and I liked it. Focusing on career was good for me. It gave me a goal to get to. I even had to tell her no a few times on hanging out. I had things work related that I wanted to do. Like I would get invited to travel parties and conventions. I also found myself getting out of town alot for work too. The company started to send me on what was called a 'fam trip'. I would fly to a destination for just a few days to learn it. That way I could sell it. And I got one at least once a month. Usually stateside. But then i would go to someplace i at first thought exoctic. Like Cancun.
"Going to Cancun for a few days" I would tell Tina's mom "I'll bring you something" "Now that sweet" she would say "
I mean i did see my friend, and Adolfo a few times in the next few months. But not much. I hung out with tina and him together. Just to catch up on what was going on. Tina started seeing someone. Laurie was her name. And i personally did not like her. And she didnt care for me much either. But it kept tinas life occupied. Adolofo and I continued to have a nice time together. I ended up at his place a few more times for sex. But he just wasn't clicking the relationship meter. And I felt it was mutual for him too. And that was okay.
"I dont love him" I would say to myself "He is cool and fun" "And great in the sack" "But there are no sparks"
I had even told Tina that. She thought I was being stupid. She would say. 'He is good looking, has his own place and definite husband material'. But I just didnt see myself with him, that's all. What was strange was, for some odd reason. When i was alone in my room, or in a hotel room in some new city. I would be thinking of the man I did not know. Or ever met. The one from my magazine. The one I was calling David.
"Who are you" I would say to the face in those pages "Why am I so enamored with you"
I would just stare at his face, his body, his everything. Just wondering who he was. And where he may be in this big world. It was so odd because I would get an ache in my chest when I thought about this stranger I did not know. And who obviously did not know I even existed. I would kiss his image whenever I had the mazine near me. Then smile at myself and the foolishness of this bizarre fantasy of this guy.
"You need a man" i said to myself
After a few more trips and a slow up in work later that year, I was able to spend more time with my friends. I called Tina uo one evening. Wanting to see if she was up for some drinks. "Yeah. Great. We will meet you at the bar" she said
'Ughn. We' I huffed to myself. I called Adolfo to see if he wanted to join. That way he would be a couple's buffer to having to listen to Tina's girlfriend. But he couldn't. He was actually going out, he had a date.
"Ohh. Oh. Okay then. Have fun" I said
Well that was a punch in the stomach. I knew we weren't a couple and all, but I had no idea he was seeing other guys. I sighed as I figured that I was going to have to deal with Laurie all night. I almost cancelled. But in the end, I figured I needed a drink. I greeted the two and Tina asked about Adolfo. I told her he had a date with someone else tonight. Ampnd that's when she decided to scold me.
"You boob" she said "I told you he was a catch" "And your inability to commit made you lose out"
She huffed in disgust. I just shrugged it off. We had some drinks and git caught up again. "So how is the travel gig going?" She asked "Good. Really good" I said "I am doing really well there" "Well at least there is that"
Then I said to her that I had decided to move out of her moms house in the new year. She was upset that i was leaving her mom alone again. But she understood. "Yeah can't have sex in my mom's place" she then laughed "But you still need to find a man"
I went home after the time out with Tina and he girlfriend. I was a little sad that Adolfo had decided to move on. I know we weren't really dating. But I somehow thought to myself if nothing else panned out relationship wise. I was at least having a nice time with him. Then I thought that maybe Tina was right. I blew it. So I was a bit sad that I don't even have him to fall back on. 'On me' I said to myself
Soo ended up pulling out the one thing that made me feel good. And slept with this strangers picture next to me in bed. Wishing I could somehow meet my magazine God.
Several more months passed, and the new year had come and gone. I wasn't even in town on New Years Eve. I was invited to a big travel party in New Mexico at a hotel I sold. A top sellers party as it were. The funny thing was who I saw there at this party. It was Robert. My first. I was standing on the balcony of the main ballroom, looking out to the warm evening of new Mexico's new years Eve. AMD I heard my name called.
"Hey there sweetie" Robert said as he saw me "What are you doing here?"
Robert came in and gave me a hug. I smelled him, and he did smell good. He looked good too. Save for a bit heavier. But he was still handsome.
"Top seller" I said with confidence "Oh my gosh. So you did become an agent" "Well thats great So glad for you. " he chimed back "Yeah thanks. Best decision I have ever made"
We talked there on the balcony about work mostly. Then my hurt heart got the better of me and I asked how he and his guy were doing. He smiled at me and then proceeded to say that they broke up.
"Ohh. Sorry to hear" I then said Even though inside I was glad they had. Somewhere inside hoping he had gotten his heart broken as he had done to me "He cheated" Robert added "But. That's life"
Then he asked if I was with someone. I didn't want him to think I was still sad for what happened between us. Even as my heart ached a but about it. So I lied and said that Adolfo was my current beau.
"Hasn't been long." I said "4 months now. But he is great" "Is he here?" Robert then asked "No. He is with family oin the new year" "But I will see him in a few days"
Robert smiled and stroked my arm. He seemed glad I was happy. Although there was no mention of our parting. Then behind us there was calls and a countdown. New years was about to arrive. He looked at me as the countdown continued. And when it reached one, Robert leaned in and kissed my cheek. I kissed his back, inhaling hum as I did. Remembering his smell as I pulled back. But then our eyes met and locked onto one another's. Then the old feeling kicked in and Robert made a move on me, that I did not back away from. His hand touched my bface and he pulled me in for a real kiss. Tongues latched oin and we made out right there.
"I missed you" he said "You too" I replied
And then we kissed again. Deeper and more passionate. Needless to say I ended up in his hotel room for a hot new years night. Then as we lay there after. Me laying in his body and stroking his chest, he apologized for it.
"Just don't tell your man" he said "Don't want to mess something up you have now" "Huh. Whoo..!?" I blurted "Ohh. Ohh yeah Adolfo"
I had all but forgotten about my story about dating Adolfo. I almost told Robert that I had lied. But then remembered how hurt he had left me. And I didn't want that again. He was great, but I didn't trust him. Especially since we just had sex. So I pulled off him, feigning regret
"Ohhh, fuckk!" I then crowed "I gotta go. Fuck, fuck fuck!"
I jumped out of bed and grabbed my clothes. Apologizing to him for the indiscretion. We had just had. And indiscretion to absolutely no one. Then I rushed out of his room. Robert calling back at me as I did. When I got to my room I slammed the door shut and sat down in the bed. Panting from my run across the hotel. I had committed an indiscretion. To myself. I gave into the impulse and memory of the time he and I had 18 months before. Then I started to cry. Feeling dirty and alone. "Fuckk. This sucks!" I said as tears fell
I left for home oin an early flight, so as to avoid seeing Robert again. Then threw myself back into work. And then as March came. I began my search for a place of my own. I didn't want anything fancy as I wasn't making tons of money. I found a nice moderately sized one bedroom that was 7 blocks from the beach. The balcony looked out towards it, although no direct view of it. I broke the news to Tina's mom and thanked her for allowing me to stay there with her for the time I had.
"We need to get together" I then called Tina "Yeah man. Haven't seen you since December" she came back "Great then. It's a date"
We met and I broke the news to her about my moving out soon. But as we talked who should walk in, but Adolfo. He was with some guy I assumed was his boyfriend. He saw us and waved.
"Hey guys" he said "How are you two" "This is Rick."
He introduced his boyfriend and they ended up sitting with us. Tina actually asked him if he would mind helping me in my move. He said he would love to help. I was not sure I wanted him to, but it was about there and he offered to help. I just hoped it wouldn't bug me. "Thanks " I said appreciatively
A few weeks later I was in my new place. It was daily empty save for my bed and a chair Tina's mom offered. And a ta le I got at a furniture rental center. I was waiting on a couch I purchased new to arrive. And I would get more things as I needed them. Then after some drinks and talk with my friends. Drinks I bought for them for help. I sat there in my new apartment. With a dozen or so boxes yet to unpack. I stared at the white walls and then stepped out to my balcony to take in my first apartment. Sighing as I stared out into the evening sky.
"Well it's must me now." I said solemnly "Yup. Just me"..........
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