This story is a little different than i normally write. It's a love story. My first.
I was going through some old boxes this week and found some adult magazines I used to have. I hadn't seen them in years. As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course. But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.
As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I found he was the guy in my magazines. This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
Enjoy....
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All for Terry (Chapter 8) .....Second Try.....
..... I knew that I was going to focus on my new career, and my studies to get into that career. But after that night I was still sad that my first attempt at romance, love and relationship failed so miserably. 'Was it me' I thought. Had I not performed to his liking? Maybe he thought me some clumbsy fool or something. I really did not know. But I was new to all this. So it bothered me nonetheless. And I still had desires and wants.
"Need so distraction from him" I said to myself one night
I locked my bedroom door one night as I did not want to be disturbed. I figured I would pleasure myself. So I went to a box I had in my closet. In that box was all my gay magazines. I pulled handlful out so I could stare at the hot images of neked men and pull on my dick for a bit before bed. I looked at one and it didn't take me long to get off. The hot hairy guy on the pages. Max was the models name, made me blow quite quickly.
"Thanks Max" I said to the hunks image. "That felt better"
I tossed the magazine in the the pile and went to clean up. When I came back and grabbed the magazines to put them back in the box, one slipped out and fell to the floor. I picked it up and was going to put it back into the pile with the others. But then looked at the cover model.
"Hi handsome" I said to the man on the cover "Haven't seen you in a while"
I remembered this magazine from when I first saw it at the adult shop. This stunningly beautiful man that I was so taken with when I first saw him in the cover. The dirty blonde hair and magnificent body. I placed the magazine bck in the bed and put away the others. Then crawled into bed with it. I looked at the cover image for some time.
Just gazing at this perfect creature that seemed to be smiling back at me.
"You are so damned beautiful mister" I said to the image.
I found it funny that I was talking to a magazine. And figured I may be slightly off for doing so. But as that first time, I was utterly taken with this man. I opened the pages and went to the ones he was on, trying to find his name. But there was no name on his pages. Just some fantasy lines about him being a secretary and what he would do in the office. Then I remembered I had given this strange beautiful man a name. It was David, as i thought he looked like a David. I looked at his images for a while before falling asleep. Touching my fingers to the pages as if I could touch him.
"Good night David" I said with a sigh.
I fell asleep with images of this man I called David in my head.
I finished" I shouted to Tina as I ended my last training " I am officially a travel guy" "Cool. Let's celebrate" Tina said as I had called her.
We went out to the downtown and a local music bar. Some drink and a live band was a good thing. I felt i had made a great accomplishment as I would be able to move in from what had become a doldrum in the retail industry I had been in for the last few years. It was tedious and paid crap. And I felt I would never be on my own if I stayed there. And the best luck for me was that I did so well in my studies in the industry of travel and tourism, that my teacher wanted me to work for him as an outside agent until I could get into a real agency.
"I get paid with the clients I bring in and bonus if they book" I said "So how are you gonna swing both jobs right now?" She asked "I have to" "When I am not working the retail" "I will get clients for them" "And still look for an agency as well "
She wondered if she would even see me throughout all this. But she got it. I was determined to be independent and not rely on others as I have.
"What about dating?" She then asked "You need to get laid after all" "What about it." I replied
It had been 8 months since the Robert thing. I hadn't been with anyone. And had no need for it. My career was paramount at the moment.
"I'll get back on that horse later " I said
Well later was sooner than I thought. At least for her. It was a few weeks later that Tina called me to hang out. I had gotten home late that day as I had to work late at the retail store. And I was beat.
"You need to go out man" she said "And it's Friday"
After a bit of coaxing, she got me to conceed. Then she mentioned we were gonna meet up with a guy I had known from a few years back.
"Remember Adolfo?" She asked "He used to live in our neighborhood" "I think so" I tried to recall "His family was there just as your family moved in"
I then recalled the guy. He was a geeky guy about our age. But I remembered only hanging out with him a few times back then. He and his family moved away a few months after we came in. She said she had run into him after leaving work one day. She found he was working across the way from where she was.
"I had to drop something at the post office by my job the other day" she said "And I literally slammed into him as he was coming out" "Ohh cool" I replied "So how is he doing?" "He works for the phone company now" she said
I thought it was good that she had connected with the guy. He was a pretty cool kid from what I did remember of him.
"Well we talked for a bit" she continued "He is on his own now"
Then she paused for a moment before saying her next thing
"Found out he is gay" she added "Ohh. That's funny" I said back. "What a funny world"
So I got dressed and then I met her and Adolfo at the music bar. When I got there I saw her and him. But he didn't look like the dorky Adolfo I remembered. He was tall and attractive. I was taken aback by how he had changed. Then i thought that it couldnt be him. I came up and she told me it was him. So yes I was surprised. Pleasantly so.
"Wow man" I said "You really look different" "Braces and working out helps" he said "Yeah. You look good man"
We then all sat down and chatted. Mostly about the old days. Playing stuckball on the street in the neighborhood. Then what we were up to nowadays.
"Tina says you are getting licensed as a travel agent" he said "Yeah. Just finished school."I answered "And I actually have awesome news"
I looked at Tina as I spit out what I had just found out today. I was excited and I didn't want to say as i had been working in this all week. But as earlier I got the answer I wanted I could now reveal it to my friend
"What. What's the news" Tina asked "My teacher referred me to an agency that was looking" And I spoke to them this week." "What you got a job!" She shouted in excitement "Yup!" I said proudly
She jumped up and gave me a hug. Congratulating me in the accomplishment.
"That is fucking awesome" she shouted "Oh my gosh. That is great" Adolfo also said "Good for you"
I was so excited that I ended up hugging him too. Then found that he smelled pretty damned good. "So you are buying the next round" Tina said "I guess so"
Well we celebrated for a bit longer. Then Adolfo said he had to go. But after talking with him for a few hours I began to connect with this guy again. And knowing he was also gay and single made me already start to think about getting back into dating. We exchanged numbers and hugged. Then he left us there. Tina and I.
"He likes you" she then said "You are mad" i said with a playful shove "And you seem to get along well"
I knew she was edging me to go and start something with him. I figured this was her whole plan. To get me hooked up. I wasn't sure I wanted to, but he did have some appeal. But it seemed her goal to get me coupled. And it was funny because she currently was single too. Had been for a while. But Tina had never had trouble getting girlfriends. In the few years since I came out to her she had been with two. Her ex Jo, who I loved by the way. And the last one that I for the life if me cannot remember her name. It didn't matter because I didn't like her, and she certainly did not like me. But that didn't last. And I was glad for that. I had my friend and I knew she would get back on that horse soon enough.
"Call him this week" she said "It will be good for you"
So I decided that week to take her advise and get back in that horse. To see if there was something with our old friend Adolfo. And maybe a second try at this would be good indeed.........
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