This is a new tale with the gorgeous character from the 'All for Terry' story. Its a different tale about thus stunningly beautiful man that passed through my life ever so briefly some years back. And different story with the same people meeting under different circumstances. Again its only fiction as this beautiful man and i never did anything but meet. 'Two ships passing in the night' as it were. But never docking together.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
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All for Terry (A Long Wait (5)
... I had not seen the object of my strange affection in weeks. Not really all that much save for brief moments of seeing him as he left his parents house going out in his car to meet with friends and such. Really not much since the incident that caused my first election because of him. And since then, since the strange growing fascination with him and an almost unquenchable desire just to see him, I began to do some research on my own. Trying to find out more about homosexuality and what makes one gay. For at this age I feared that he may be my catalyst for such a lifestyle. Looking up articles on the subject. In both ends if the religious spectrum. From Bible quotes on it being and abomination to more openly accepting word stating that it is not' a choice. That it's a hardwired part of someone. And I should not be ashamed of it. And many of those biblical rebuttals pointed out the inconsistencies of biblical texts and all the negativity on this form of sexuality. And I found it to be more accurate that some rabble written by men thousands of years ago on what they believe God was saying.
"Maybe I am gay" I said to myself "I am Soo attracted to him"
And I was to see him again. The object of my affection soon enough. I was hanging out with Tommy and were at the park. There at the parks were some racquetball courts. When we passed them I saw the familiar form of Terry's back as he was playing a game with some other guy. He was in shorts and shirtless as he moved about in the court. Sweat on his broad back and he was in some nice fitting shorts. His great ass pulling at the material in back.
"Who is that?" Tommy asked me "That's my neighbor Terry" I said as I gazed at the beautiful man "He is my brother's age." "Also the nicest guy" "He was there when I got jumped by those fucks"
Tommy looked at the stunning man as he turned and bent over to get the ball. Then looking at me as I gazed almost longingly at Terry as he stood there.
"So thats him?" He said "Big guy" "Mm hmm" I simply replied
We started to move and then Tommy stopped me. Placing his hand to my arm. I looked at him as he looked at me. And I could see he was for ing up a question for me. I swallowed hard as I pondered what that question may be.
"Can I ask you something?" He asked "And please be honest" "I am yer best friend and you will always be mine" "Nothing will ever change that"
I looked at him, knowing somehow what his question would be. And fearing what my answer may bring. Would it be an end to my only friendship. And then he asked
"I know they were calling you queer and shit" he started "And it's shitty. Regardless if you were or not" "But . "
He paused before saying anything else. Letting me think my answer out. Then he finished it, his question
"I mean, it's cool if you are" he stated "But. Are you, uhm you know.?"
I felt tears start to well up. I didn't really know the answer. I was still young and had very little idea of it all. I just knew that Terry was someone that brought me joy. Somehow he made me happy. Even just to see him. But I answered Tommy as best as my mind could under the circumstances
"I really have no idea what I am" I then said "I had a girlfriend and it was cool" "But when it hit too intense, I wasn't sure I like the whole idea" "Boyfriend, girlfriend. And all the sex shit" "But him.."
I took in a deep breath just to try and calm myself. Tommy placed a hand on my shoulder. A great comforting hand. Something I appreciated from him. He seemed not to want to judge or make me feel bad about any of my confusion. And he seemed to want to support me in what ever I decided here.
"I don't know" I continued "There is something soothing and comforting about him" "So maybe you have a crush on him" Tommy then suggested
Explaining that because Terry was my hero in what had happened. That I was infatuated with him because if that. But then reiterating a positive note
"But if you're gay. It's cool" he said "You are still young man" "And I will still back you in any fucking fight"
His hand squeezed at my shoulder. Then he smiled at me. I wanted to hug my friend for his attitude and just being there. Just listening. Then as we were talking I looked up and saw Terry waving at us. He must have seen us. I was instantly embarrassed as we had been there watching him. He waved us over.
"Shiit!" I huffed "Well. Looks like he wants to say hi" Tommy stated "Let's go man" "No. Can't" I huffed nervously. "Awe come on. Don't be a wuss"
I took a breath and we walked over to where Terry stood. He was wiping sweat off his incredible body as he got closer. Deep in the back of my head I wished to be his towel. He was so damned stunning standing there. I felt my loins get a tingle again at seeing him like this.
"Hey there neighbor" he said
He introduced up to his 'friend' Jack and he asked me who Tommy was.
"Tommy is my best friend" I said back
He asked how everything was. Whether I had been bullied anymore. I let him know that so far no more bullying. Tommy then interjecting that they would have to go through him.
"He is my best friend. You fuck with him, you fuck with me" he barked "That's good to hear" Terry said back
He said something else but I found myself lost in his lips as they moved. Also he was growing a mustache. I could see the light colored hairs in his upper lip as the sweat beaded there. his naked chest was strong and it too seemed to have tiny hairs coming up. and just the sight of his body had my intranced. He continued and let me know that if i needed help, to always call him. I thanked him and then me and Tommy turned to leave. I looked back as we walked off and saw him at Jack move in closer to one another. Then I wondered at that moment if Terry was gay. It reeled about inside my head for the rest of the day. Save for the jibe Tommy have me a out 'my boyfriend'
"Don't be stupid" I said back "He is older and I still have no idea what in my head"
Then Tommy suggested that Terry was gay. That was why he whelped me as he did. And that guy he was with was his boyfriend. I but back starting that he was not gay. But later in my bed I pondered this over and over. Wondering if Jack was Terry boyfriend. He was good looking after all. And Terry could only have some one good looking. Tall, but not as tall as Terry. Muscular and with dark hair. And I could see them together. Even if it made me slightly jealous. And I fell asleep to the images of the near naked Terry. That stunning face and incredible body. A body I was huddled next to ever so briefly when he came to my rescue that one time. And Tommy was right. I was utterly smitten by this beautiful man. Wishing I was a bit older and on his radar. My head pump the thought
"Is Terry gay?"...
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