This story is different than i normally write. It's a love story. My first.
I was going through some old boxes of things and found some adult magazines I used to have. I hadn't seen them in years. As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course. But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.
As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I found he was the guy in my magazines. This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
Enjoy.... ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ All for Terry (Chapter 39) ... Passion Again ...
... The dreams somehow changed after knowing Terry was holding me in his arms. Or maybe it was the glowing warmth his body was giving me. But there was no darkness, no sinister shapes moving out of the corner of my eye. There was only his warmth. And nothing in the world felt better. There was water. But more like the sounds of lapping water against the hull of a boat. I wondered as this dream seemed familiar. I could see clouds and that was all. Just the clouds and the sounds of the gently tapping water. That and that glorious warmth. Then what followed was a faint and familiar smell. Like an almost softly laden cologne that lingered in my nose. It was Terry's smell. I knew it almost instantly it was him. So I softly said his name.
"Terry" I said in my dream state "I love you"
It was just words that so easily slipped from my lips. So I said them. Then I heard him speak back at me.
"I love you to baby" his voice said
Then I felt a kiss on my cheek. And the the sky fell away and the water did as well. Then for a moment there was the darkness. But then i opened my eyes. I looked and saw the large widows of a room. And room I hed not been in before. And then I turned and there was Terry's face right above me. Then I remembered I had stayed at his place last night. I remembered sitting outside, just watching the storm in rhe distance. And then sleep. Yes sleep gad fallen on me as I sat there outside. But now I was in bed, his bed and he was next to me. His hair was a bit tossled but he was still beautiful even in a wake up morning mode.
"Hi. Morning" he said "You feeling better?" "Mm hmm" I huffed back
Then I smiled at him. His eyes were gazing at mine. Then he leaned down and kissed my lips ever so tenderly. There was a distant coolness in the center of my chest. It was my love pushing out again. I gazed back at those eyes I adored. Then at the nose and cheeks of the man. His face was rough looking and unshaven a bit of full beard starting on his face. There was almost gingery flecks of color in the hairs on his face. Then my eyes fell to his lips. Oh those lips that had just kissed me. Those soft moist lips that even in morning rise tasted good. Terry smiled at me as I looked at him. His hand them came up and caress my face and pressed my hair down too. I knew i probably had morning hair. I always did. But he didn't seem to mind it at all. He just stroked it and caressed my face. His hand gliding softly to my cheek and just around my eye.
"I love you too, by the way" he then said "In case you didn't hear me. "
Then he leaned down and kissed me again. I swear my heart was melting inside of me as his kiss poured his loving warmth through me. My hand came up and touched his face now. Feeling the roughness of his facial hair. My eyes closing as I took in his soft lips again. Then gis scent again invaded into my skull. I adored the way this man smelled. Flesh and sweat and hints of his cologne that seemed to always linger about. That smell that had stayed on his shirt he had left behind what seemed so long ago now. I was surrounded by it. And surrounded by him. I opened my eyes and looked back at his face. His lips pursed to a smile and he just gazed at me. Turning his head slightly as he looked down at me.
"Sleep better?" He asked
I nodded at him as I touched his brawny arm. I looked at his neck and shoulder. Tiny blonde hairs gleamed there in the light coming in to the room from the huge windows. I moved my hand over his arm. Caressing at the soft flesh. Just looking at his man, and him looking at me. No words exchanged. Just eyes looking at ome another's.
"So how did I get here?" I finally asked "I found you asleep out on the balcony" he said back "And a little wet" "Ohh. Shit I am sorry" I came back "I couldn't sleep. Nerves I guess"
I looked away from his face a bit embarrassed about my nerves. But Terry just reached for me cheek and pressed to my face again. Then he softly held my face. His thumb moving back and forth on my cheek as he rubbed it.
"Its okay baby" he then said "I understand." "What ever speed you need. I won't rush you"
Then he leaned in and kissed me again. Still holding my head in his hand. I leaned into his hand and let him kiss me. Feeling those soft lips to mine again. Then he stroked my hair again and turned back in bed.
"Hungry?" He asked "I will go make us some eggs and brew some coffee"
He then rolled out of the bed on his side. I just looked at his body again. Chest arms and shoulders as he got up. He was so damned beautiful, I lost my breath. I could not believe I was here with him. Then he turned and headed to the door. His broad back just as perfect as the front. Light hairs showing along hus lower back just above his briefs. That back tapering up and outward.
"Come on. Get up" he said with a wink
Then he stepped out. The last I saw was his back and strong butt. Firm and solid even trapped in those briefs. I looked around the room and the sheets. Then glanced out the window. The trees beyond it swayed lightly in the breeze outside. I sighed deeply as I felt that ache in my chest again. I got up and then headed for the other room where my bag was. I grabbed my toothbrush and went to the spare bathroom and brushed my teeth. I then smelled the coffee as it started to brew. That grand aroma of the morning elixir that wakes up my trust body. Then I saw in the mirror behind me Terry cone into view. He handed me a cup if coffee. I wiped my face with the towel as I looked at him then took the cup from him. The thing fekt hot in my hand.
"Here. Cream and two sugars right?" He asked
I smiled as he knew how I liked it. I was taken aback that he knew this about me.
"How..?" I asked "I remembered form out trip that was how you took it" "At least I hope I got it right"
I smiled as I took the cup and brought it to my lips. Looking at him passed the heat on my face from the hot brew.
"Come on" he then said "Lets get some food" "We can shower after"
And then he winked at me. He then took my hand and pulled out if the bathroom and into the kitchen. He sat me down at the table and then placed a plate in front of me. Just some eggs and toast. But more than enough dor me as all I could do was watch him. I could starve just watching him. Then he came and sat to my left. Placing a plate down for himself. Then we sat down to have a nice home cooked breakfast.
"I am so glad you decided to stay" he said
I took a drink as he spoke. Then his hand reached for my my other hand and squeezed it. Then he just held it as i placed down my cup and grabbed the fork again.
"Just wanted again to say how sorry I am.." He started to say "No. No. Its okay" I tried to reply "No its not." He chirped back "I should have seen it that you were not like everyone else." "The way you touch, you kiss, you love" "It was soo much more. And I felt it" "But i guess it was just me self sabotaging my relationships"
I had to shut him up. I grabbed his hand and pulled it to my face. I kissed his knuckles tenderly. Holding my loving lips to them for a moment.
"I get it" I said back "But I don't know how else to love some one other than what I give" "And you..."
I paused as I felt emotion trickle in to my chest. I felt i may cry again. But took in a breath and tried to continued. My words coming out a bit chopped from that same emption that threatened to take over me.and even as I spoke I felt silly at hiw emotional I was when it came to Terry.
"With you. II could not hide the instant love I felt" I added "It's like that old belief that you just know..." "You know"?.
Terry's hand moved to my face and cheek again. Holding it again. My eyes close as I was pulled into his palm again breathless at his touch. Just feeling him hand against me. Then he pulled close to me. Actually moving his chair next to me as I released his hand. And again he kissed me. Hus fingers touching my chin and jawline. My hand grasped at his arm and squeezed at it. Not wanting to be taken from his kiss. And then as he pulled from my moth again, he again promised it would be different. That he would love me as I deserve to be loved. And just hold g my hand for the rest if breakfast. We finished and placed the dished in the dishwasher. Then he suggested we take a shower. So we went to the master bathroom and went to bath together. It was a big walk in shower surrounded by glass block. He turned on the water and let it run dor a few moments. Then he pulled down his briefs and tossed them to the floor. And then he walked into the shower. His stunning form seeming to disappear behind the wall of glass. I looked at hus form beyond the rippled waves if glass block. Lear yet unclear what I could see. Just his form and skin tone. Terry then moved and peered his head around the wall.of glass. Telling me to get in there with him
"It's a big shower" he stated "Plenty of room for us"
I then followed suite and dropped my underwear. Then I cautiously stepped around the blocks and into the shower. It indeed was a very big shower. I surmised enough room for five to be comfortable in there. Maybe more. It was a great shower to have. Multiple shower heads and nozzles. Even a removable hose connection so ine could use it. In themselves, or someone else sharing. Fantastic. But even though the shower was awesome. It paled at the beauty of the man in it. The light coming through the blocks seemed to make his body almost glow as he stood there under one of the nozzles. Letting the water fall over him. The hairs in his body growing darker as they got wetter. I was again in awe of him. There was not a blemish or unfit mark in this man. And I could not help but to lick at my lips as I gazed at his sheer fantastic beauty.
"What?" He said as he saw me looking at him "Nothing." I replied "Just looking at you" "You truly are the most beautiful man i have ever seen"
Terry looked at me like I was silly. But I could not deny what I saw and felt.
"Still can't believe you would choose me" I added
Terry then grabbed me and pulled my under the same water falling on his body. Then pulled me to him and his chest. My hand caught between us was pressed to the chest. And I could feel his heart beat. It was thumping hard and fast. Like I knew mine was. And then he kissed me under the rainfall shower head. His strong arms holding ti his body. I felt that if I were to dir there and that moment. That all would be okay. That I would welcome it. So long as I was lost in Terry's embrace.... ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
To be continued