This story is different than i normally write. It's a love story. My first.
I was going through some old boxes of things and found some adult magazines I used to have. I hadn't seen them in years. As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course. But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.
As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I found he was the guy in my magazines. This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
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All for Terry (Chapter 26) ....Hopes of a Fool...
..... I was sad that we were leaving the bed and breakfast. Leaving the wonderful town and wine country. But I knew we had to get back to our lives. We got to the train station and waited to check in to get on the next train out. We sat outside on a nice patio area the station had. I grabbed myself a coffee there and sat next to my man.
"Did you have fun?" He asked again
I smiled and nodded at him. Then leaned over and rest my head on his shoulder. Feeling the broadness of it on my cheek. And his wonderful soft cologne infiltrated my face and nostrils. I sighed as I lay my head on him. Had I ever been this happy, I thought. No, I had not. And I did not want thia joy to ever leave me. Time paased and we waited there. Terry looked at his watch and wondered why we weren't boarding yet. I heard him sigh. Then he pulled from me. As he got up.
"Whats wrong?" I asked "We should be boarding already" he answered "Let me go find out whats wrong"
Then he got up and walked towards the ticket counters. He then leaned over on to talk to one of the agents. I saw then conversing. The guy at the counter was cute. I immediately saw him looking at terry. Trying to smile as he was interrogated by my man. 'My man' I huffed softly to myself. A smile started to form in my face. Could he be so? I looked at Terry as he talked to the guy behind the counter. His hair, and back and butt. I had seen and touch that. Him.
"He is mine buddy" I said to the guy at a whisper "Terry is my man"
I looked at the cute guy as he talked to Terry. And I thought that he wanted him. Of course I surmised everyone did. I figured once they saw Terry that everyone wanted him. Then after a bit more Terry turned from him and headed back towards me. He came back and sat next to me. Huffing as he seemed annoyed by something.
"Well, we are stuck here for at least an hour" he said "Why. What happened" "A train hit something at a crossing 40 mikes up" "So ours is sitting there wairing for the clean up"
I was bothered by it too. We would be getting home late. And I had to get back to working in the morning. Then Terry looked over at me and sighed
"Sorry" he said. "Its okay" I said back. "Can't control the Crap that happens on the tracks. Can we?"
He smiled at my silly comment. Then placed his hand on mine.
"Yeah. You are right" he said "You can always stay at my place tonight" I then offered "That way you aren't driving out there late" "And I can have you next to me a bit longer"
I smiled at him as I spoke. Hoping he would take me up on the offer. He looked down and smiled back. I looked at his beautiful mouth. I licked at my lips as I stared at it. He must have known what I wanted, because he touched my chin. Then pulled my face up to his and he kissed me again. And I tasted his lips again. Fekt the softness of them against the roughness od the hairs of his mustache.
"Sure" he then said "That would be nice"
When we finally boarded. It was over an hour after we were supposed to. And the train didn't leave for another 20 minites after that. So I knew we definitely would get home late. But I didn't mind one bit. I sat there with Terry for the whole trip. He was tired so I told him to rest. So I put my arm around his neck and let him lay his head on my shoulder. I turned and kiased his head. Smelling his hair and the scent that I adored. His. I almost fell asleep myself from the comfort of him next to me. We got back to our original starting point after 8:30. We still has disembarking and grabbing luggage and getting to the car for another 30 plus minute drive.
"Terry. We are here" I said to him as I lightly shook him "Hmm. Huh. What?" He huffed as he awoke "We're back babe" "Let get you home"
Ww grabbed the luggage in the luggage area and then took the shuttle to get to the car. It was several blocks away. Then we shoved everything in the car and got in.
"Are you okay to drive?" I asked. "Yeah. I am fine" he replied "Lets get going. Cuz I am tired" "Yeah. Me too" "Coming to my place to stay over I hope" I added "I don't want you to drive so late."
He looked over at me again. Smiling. Then shot a man at me about me wanting to jump his bones again. Which I was not gonna say no to. But he said yes again. We arrived at my place at almost 10. And we were beat. I gave him a toothbrush to use so he wouldn't have to hunt in the luggage for his. I watched him as he dropped his clothes next to the bed, save for his briefs. Then he brushed his teeth. I looked at his perfect back and ass as he stood there in front of the sink. Then he came into the bedroom and then we crawled into my bed. Pulling the sheets up to cover us.
"Let's get some sleep" he said as he lay there
I looked at his body, his chest and arms as they were the only things not under the sheets. His face. He yawned at me and the I leaned over to kiss him. Then turned off the lights and crawled into the crutch of his arms. Then laying my head on his perfect chest.
"Night" I said as I kissed his chest "Good night baby" he said back.
Then in minutes we were both fast asleep. I on his chest hearing his breathing. A soft almost silent snore coming from him lulled me into slumber. My dreams filled with images of him. His face, his smile, those eyes and the rest of his perfect body. Our lips entwined in passion as we lay on a beach. It was like a scene from that old movie 'From Here to Eternity'. Me on him as I kissed that mouth. His arms around me, rubbung at my back and rear.
"I love you" I said in sleep as I looked down on my man
And it appeared he was going to say it too. His mouth opening to say the words. But no sound came from his lips. But I looked into his eyes and knew. Then there was a heavy grumble and I awoke from sleep. I looked at Terry as he lay there. A dim light from outside pasaed through the curtain to allow me the visage of his body. The hairs on his chest seemed to sparkle in the dimness of my room. But I xoild aee him nonetheless. I looked from his body and then to his chin. Also dim light cast shadow on his face. But even in shadow he was stunning. I tenderly kissed his chest again and lay back on him. Falling back into slumber in moments. Morning came with the buzzing of my alarm. I set it early so we could get up and prepare for work. I knew he probably would have to go home from here too. So as the alarm rang I awoke. I turned and hit the stop on the machine.
"Hey. Baby" I said as I turned back. "Time to get up" "Hmm. Fuuck. Uhh yeah. Up" he grumbled
I looked at him as I sat up. His eyes opened and he looked at me. He smiled up at me as he lay there. I told him to go take a shower first. "Okay. Thaks" he replied
Then my beautiful man got up out of bed. He headed to the bathroom. Kicking off his briefs as he went. I saw his hot furry ass. Then he disappeared into the bathroom. I went to the hall closet to get him a towel. Then I placed it on the towel rack in the bathroom. I heard the water splashing as he washed himself behind the curtain.
"Should I step in there with him" I thought. "Would be nice"
But I knew my apartment had. A tub shower, and not a very big one. So I waited for him. I brushed my teeth as he bathed. Then I heard the water stop. Then Terry opened the curtain before me. I looked at his awesome body as he stood there, wet. His chest hair looking darker as it was wet. He saw me and smiled. Then he grabbed the towel and dried himself off. He then steppes out if the shower and kissed me. I then steped into the shower as he went to get dressed.
"Hey baby. Do you have a throat drop?" He asked "Have a raspiness in my throat" "Yes." I called out to him from the shower "Check the nightstand Terry"
He said thanks and then I went back to my shower. It grew quiet as I finished off. Then grabbed the other towel and dried off. I hadnt heard him brushing his teeth so I figured he was just getting dressed. So I stepped out. Towel still on my head as I dried my hair. Theb as I stepped into the bedroom again I looked at Terry. He was giving me a stern almost angry look.
"What's up?" I then asked
Then I saw he had something in his hand. A magazine. And then he shook it at me.
"What the fuck is this?" He growled "What are you doing with these?"
My eyes grew wide with dread. It was the magazines with him in them. I forgot they were in the nightstand. And he had just found them. I wanted to say something to deny what he was about to ask. But I knew I could not lie to this man. I adored him. It was that simple. And lying to him would not do
"I thought I told you" he stated to sway with anger "I don't date stalkers" "No. Its not like that..!" I cried "Terry. Please..!"
But he cut me off. He then verbally assaulted me. Reminding me that he saud he would never date someone that knew he was on those magazines. That he would not be some trophy to show off to friends.
"So you lied to me" he croaked "When I asked if you knew me" "You said it was from work" "But it was.!" I cried back
Then he shook the magazine again. Then he threw them on the bed. "You know what I mean!" He shouted "And to think. I was really liking you!"
I moved over to him. Trying to calm his anger. Trying to explain myself. But he just pushed me and I fell to the floor next to the bed. Then he grabbed his things. Pulling on a shirt from his bag amd grabbing his briefs from the floor near me. I reached for his arm. Emotion overwhelmed me at that moment. I felt tears start to well up.
"You are no better than anyone else" he growled
And it was then I bit back. I was stricken with pain and anger all at once. He didn't understand. I never thought he would ever think I was worthy of him. And no I just assumed he found an out. Found a way of just discarding me. Using his blasted magazine shoot as a reason to crush my heart.
"I didn't tell you!" I shouted "Because of this" "I didn't tell you because of this" "Please. Terry!" "I care about you"
He yanked his hand from my grasp and I fell back again.. Then he stared to move towards the door.
"Thats what all you fuckers say" he blurted hatefully "I told you!" "Would you have stayed if I told you!" I then yelled back
He paused at the door. Then looked back for a moment
"No" he then blurted back "No I wouldn't have" "See..." Was the last thing I said
Thats whem he pished out the bedroom and out to the living area. I heard the door as he opened it and the slammed it shut. I just my there on the floor. My heart wanted to just stop. It just wanted to end. And I did as well. And then my heart exploded in the tearing at me he just caused. I fell in a heap to the floor. And the tears started. And they didn't stop.
"Noo. Noo. Noo!" I screamed "I care about you." "Ohh God I love you. Please." "I love you"
I stayed there on the floor for hours as the tears would not stop. I certainly was in no consition to go anywhere. So I grabbed my phone and texted my boss. I could even talk. I just texted that I was sick and could not come in today. Then I just retirned to my pace on the floor in my tears. I managed to crawl back into bed. Crawling under the covers to continued my bawling. Emotional gasps as I cried like I never had before.
"Why?" Was all I could say over and over "Why?"
I had hoped that one day all my failed and unhappy relationships would lead me to the love I so longed for. The love that I saw when I watched happy couples holding hands in the park. Or some other place I view what was ovbious love between two people. Straight, gay whathaveyou. Just undying love. And I thought I had found it. The hope of love fulfilled with Terry. This man that I had found to somehow be connected to emotionally even before i had met him. This beautiful man that I ached for even before our first touch. Before our first kiss.
"Stupid, stupid" then realized as I lay there drowning in my tears. "Hw was too perfect." "For me"
And so I was left crushed by my love for him. All in my silly hopes. The hopes if a fool.....
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