This story is different than i normally write. It's a love story. My first.
I was going through some old boxes of things and found some adult magazines I used to have. I hadn't seen them in years. As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course. But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.
As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I found he was the guy in my magazines. This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.
This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.
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All for Terry (Chapter 20) ....Off to some Fun....
..... It was a few days later that I found myself with Terry again. At first I didn't hear from him. It was over 24 hours and no call. Nothing. I began to assume that the man changed his mind. That I somehow said thw wrong thing, or did the wrong thing the other night. I was feeling a bit low after the Neil incident. And I still did not understand what happened. Why just few weeks after being with Neil, intimately. How all of a sudden being with him gave me no pleasure. How I could not get erect even as the good looking man was trying to pleasure me.
"What is wrong with me?" I said to myself "I really liked Neil alot."
But the mystery of that may never be solved. Or at least I didn't think so. But he was gone now from my life. Wanting nothing to do with me. And now, no call or even a message from Terry. Was I doomed to being alone again. I sighed a deep heavy sigh as I sat there at home the next evening. Staring at the TV at nothing. Even though something was on. I just wasn't paying attention to it.
"Should I try and call him?" I said aloud "But will it make me seem desperate?" "I don't want to push him"
I was definitely in a conundrum. Wanting to call Terry. He was the only thing that gave me a hope that I had a chance with anyone. Even if I still believed he was so far out of my league. So I didn't call. Fearing that he had changed his mind. I went to bed thinking the worst. So I stared at the ceiling with all kinds of dreadful thoughts floating in my head. Dreams were filled with voices saying all kinds if horrible things.
"He doesn't want you you fool" just to name one.
I awoke in a start. Sweat on my head and chest. I was falling in the last image. But could not see the ground. Or anything for that matter. Just falling in blackness. Hearing many voices. Neil's being one if them.
"You're a fool" he laughed in the shadows "Such a man cannot love you" "You are a fool..."
The echoes if the words pierce me in my freefall. But thats when I woke. Unsure if I had indeed fallen. I breathed in deeply in my started state. Looking around my dark room. Then over to the clock. It was still only 4 am. And now I could not sleep. So I clicked on the light. Then reached into the nightstand. Feeling around for the magazines I knew I still had. Then pulling them out.
"There you are" I said softly
I was now looking at Terry's face again. That beautiful sunlight smile of his. Touching it softly. Wanting him to be here with me so I could really touch him. I somehow dozed off again until the alarm rang. I looked over at the thing I wanted to break at that moment. But was instantly calmed by the magazine on the other side of my bed. I grabbed it and pulled it to my face. Kissing the face on it. Then I got up and showered. Got dressed and then headed out to work. When I got there I saw flowers on my desk. I stared at the curiously. Arpi saw me and said they arrived for me 15 minutes befire I arrived.
"Thats nice" I said. "I didnt read it" she said "But I hope they are from Neil"
I pulled at the card and opened it. Softly hoping it was from him. But I doubted it. Not after what he had said.
"Doubt it" I said to her "We broke up" "Noo!" She blirted "What did you do?"
I shrugged and then opened the card. Smiling as i looked at it.
"Its Terry" I said
She grunted frustration. Then said she didn't want this ro mess up his working for us. I of course promises it wouldn't. And at the moment I didn't think anything but joyous thoughts. Thw flowers were from Terry and it brought light to my day.
"Been busy." It read "Just wanted to swnd you something to let you know I am thinking about you"
My heart skipped a beat as I read it. Several times. Then note ended with a 'call me'. I closed it and held it to my nose. And somehow I knew it would smell like him. That cologne that was perfect on him and him alone. So I called him. It rang a few times and no one answered. Just just his voice mail. I heard his voice as he said to leave him a message.
"Got the flowers Terry" I said "Wanted to say thanks" "That was ever so sweet"
I was about to say call me back when the other line rang. It was him. And I looked atvthe phine and said bye to the voice mail. Hanging up I thought how silly it was that I said bye to the machine
"Hey sweet heart" he said "I saw the phone ring and saw it was you" "Was in the middle of a call" "Ohh Crap. I'm sorry.." I started to say "Don't worry about it babe." "Just a client" "An annoying one at that"
He told ne he wanted to send me something nice as he wanted to let me know how much he liked me. Then he went on about how crazy work had been in the last few days. He said he needed some down time. "Wanna go up to wine country this weekend?" he then asked me.
I pondered his quick statement. Thinking where this may lead. Would I be spending my first night with him? I was scared after what happened with Neil. I was afraid of freezing up with Terry too. But I wanted to try. So I took a deep breath and decided to say yes to him.
"Great" he said "I will make the reservation" "Get some things ready. And I will pick you up on Friday" "Okay" was all I said back
I hung up with him and smiled. I was going to be spending some alone time with Terry. And not just a nice dinner. This was serious. This was a weekend with him. I fekt my heart race in my chest as the days moved closer to the Friday we would be heading up to it. My nerves were an up and down rollercoaster. And there were at least 3 times that week I considered backing out. But didn't.
Then Friday came. The alarm went off early as I was going in early so I could leave at 3. I times over as the alarm screamed at me. Hitting snooze. And I almost went back to sleep. But then my phone rang. I huffed as I heard the symphony on the ring tone i had on it. So I grabbed it.
"Are you awake yet?" Came Terry's voice "Hmm. Getting there" I said back groggily "Get up"! He then chortled at me. "Get up or I will spank you" "Hmm" I sighed back
Liking his words. Then I said a 'yea sir' back to him. Then we hung up. I moved myself into the shower. I grabbed my overnight bag. I tossed a gee things into it. Then I made coffee and headed out to work. The day was actually boring. And by 3pm I was dying to get out of there. I set up my work voice mail to take any calls for the next few days and then drove home.
"I am so nervous" I said as I drove home "My heart is racing again. "
I got home and finished packing. Terry had told me what I should bring. Shorts, swim trunks and a set of nicer clothes. So I grabbed the small suitcase instead. Then stuffed it with my items, toothbrush, phone charger and then waited for him to get to my place. I actually poured myself some wine to try and calm my nerves. Then the doorbell rang. I got up and went to the door. Knowing it was him. I took a deep breath as I opened it. And there he stood. Terry.
"Hey there handsome" he said as he smiled at me.....
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To be continued