Alive in the Lights ch.10
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---------------------------------------------------------------------- This is the final chapter of Alive in the Lights! I am starting a new story very soon, and I WILL be writing part 2 of Alive in the lights ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Grey Alexander Holden Age: 16-Main Character Victoria Holden- Age 35-Mother Neil Holden. Age 40-Father Tessa Palmer age: 19-Grey's PR/tutor Kaiden Ryan Barens Age: 16 Zeke Anthony Holden Age 15: Grey's half brother. ----------------------------------------------------------------------
It had been a week and a half since Ms. Anna's funeral. It was small just family, and I was there. I made sure she had the best I paid for most of the costs. I haven't turned on my phone since the day after I came back to Haysville. A place that once felt so warm and welcoming to me now felt so lonely and unwelcoming.
I haven't even stepped a foot outside of the house, I wrote so many songs but I trashed half of them, and the other half I recorded and I couldn't believe how some of them came out they were good, but I didn't have any pride in that fact I just was so frustrated and depressed and feeling sorry for myself that I loathed myself.
I had new locks installed on the house so no one had access in, and I changed the code at the gate. I am sure my father and the label are beyond pissed at me, but I really don't care.
I hate even leaving my room, but I do to go into the kitchen and every time I do I fucking break down and cry seeing the table Ms. Anna used to sit at and her reading glasses, and her crossword puzzles. This huge house feels so cold now.
I missed Kaiden so much that it physically hurt to think of him, but I was still bitter towards his jealousy. I can't tell you how many times I wanted to drive over to Tyler's house and knock the shit out of him, and take Kaiden in my arms and just hold him. I won't though I couldn't swallow my pride enough to do that.
I look at the unopened envelope that I say on Ms. Anna's table, her daughter gave it to me at the funeral. She told me that her mother had this in her side table at her bed, she had a letter to everyone she held close to her hart.
I picked up the envelope every day for the past ten days. I couldn't bring myself to open it. I was also scared of what Ms. Anna would think right now if she saw me in this emotional train wreck. She would probably tell me to straighten up that she didn't help raise me to act like this.
That was the problem she wasn't here and I would never get to hear her give me any more lectures. I would never hear her stick up for me against my mom, I would miss sitting down with her and she would help me read out the things I didn't feel like taking my time trying to read it out because of my dyslexia.
Thinking of my mother gave me a sour taste in my mouth I didn't want to think of her, not after what she did to me on national television. Just thinking about it started to get me pissed off all over again, and last time I destroyed a room in the house that I have yet to clean up.
I heard something coming from the living room. I knew no one else was able to get onto the property. I slowly make my way out of the kitchen and to the living room, I turn a corner and I didn't see anything that caused the noise, but I heard heavy footsteps. I jump out from the corner and I am flipped onto my back with a heavy foot coming down on my chest.
"Damnit baby boy, why would you try to sneak up on me." Dan says lifting his foot off me.
"How the hell did you get in here?" I say getting up off the floor.
He just chuckles, "Grey aint no locks going to keep me out of where I need to be, now the real question is what the hell have you been doing. You look like hell, and I love you but you need a shower."
I just roll my eyes, "I just wanted to be alone.' I say flopping down on the couch.
He comes and sits next to me, "Why so you can sulk in your own misery?"
"Look I am having a hard time. Shit hit the fan with my family, Ms. Anna died. Kaiden and I broke up just nothing is going well I only have a few songs done even I hate them. Just nothing is making sense." I tell him trying hard not to cry.
He just reaches over and pulls me into his thick chest. "It's okay baby boy, but shutting yourself off from the world is not going to help you at all deal with the things that are happening. My first priority is to make you sure you are okay, then we will talk label business. You know the whole freaking world is wondering where you are?"
"I doubt it and Tessa doesn't count nor my family." I tell him.
"Boy you haven't switched on the internet or TV have you?" He asks.
"No I haven't no use to all I'm going to see is garbage on it." I tell him.
He flips on the TV and surfs to the music channel. A host is on that was the teenage super star Grey Holden's new song that has been number one since the day it came out, but the real question is where is Grey? This is day 11 with him being MIA we have checked his twitter, and every social media he has nothing no word. His management team has even slipped and said they have no idea. Fans are beside themselves, wondering where there Grey has gone."
I shut the TV off, "I don't want to watch that shit."
Before I know it, Dan has picked me up under my arms and stood me on the couch so I was more level with him, "Damnit I haven't been here ten minuets and I am sick of your attitude. Loose the language Grey this isn't you, you are not one of those teen idols that adults hate and most other teenagers. Your problem is you don't know how to cope with real life things. I know it sucks you lost your boyfriend, your family is rocky and you lost someone close to you. It's life so take all these emotions and turn them into something you are good at and that's singing and writing!"
"You don't know anything about what I'm going through!" I scream back. "Ms. Anna practically raised me she was the only one who didn't care if I was famous or anything she treated me like her own grandchild, and I miss her! I miss her so much that I cant even fucking open that letter she wrote for me, because if I open it that means its real, it means she actually gone."
"I know plenty of what you are going through, I lost my whole family including my sister in a car wreck. I know plenty of grief, but I took it and turned it into something great I work with amazing musicians and people. Grey I have worked with many famous people, but I actually care about you. You have way too much talent to be set back like this baby boy you are just a teenager life hasn't even really started for you. You are going to have many different boyfriends I know that is bugging you too. You will lose more people it's life you enjoy what time you have with the people stop being pissed off at them and enjoy it."
I don't say anything I just wipe the tears from my face, and lean in to hug him. "Just it's so hard."
"I know, but read that letter. Anna wrote it for you for a reason it might bring you peace. I will be here after that I want you to shower and brush, that mop of a hair that is growing back. Kaiden has been blowing up Tessa's phone since the day you both came back I wont step in I understand you had a fall out, but that boy cares about you so much. You two should talk; now go read that letter I have phone calls to make. Tessa should be here soon and well I aint even protecting you from her she is pissed."
I step off the couch, "That's what you're here for is to protect me from her!" I say walking to the kitchens.
I walk to Ms. Anna's table and the letter is there, my name written on it with her handwriting. I shake as sit in the seat I would have sat in if she was at the table with me. I pick up the envelope and open it and unfold the letter.
Dear Grey,
My beautiful young man, I am sorry for the things you are feeling all the confusion with your family. I am also sorry that I am gone, but rest assure I am in peace I am with my husband who has been waiting for me since he left all those years ago. I haven't been feeling the best in some time and I know I should have said something to someone, but we all know what a stubborn bat I am. Grey I have watched you from a little boy walking around strumming aimlessly on a guitar to touring the world not once but twice at such a young age. I know you think that you took time away from me from my grandchildren but you didn't. You were as much as my own grandchild than my others I was so blessed to get to watch you grow into a fine loving young man, the passion you have for your singing and the intensity of your love is amazing. I know you are facing so many struggles right now but you are strong, and you will pull through this I know this. I don't know if you and Kaiden will stay together for a long time I hope you do, he is a great kid and I think once the shock of you being famous is over he will love you, and give you the support you will always need. No relationship is perfect you boys will fight breakup, make up, and fight some more. You will know if he is worth it and I think he is. Please Grey don't shut yourself off that is the worst thing you could ever do. Don't change yourself for no one and no matter what happens be that boy I love sitting at the table with you and seeing the puzzlement in your face as I did my puzzles. I want you to know I never saw working for you as a job, hell it could not be if I enjoyed every minuet of it. I know you are set to record a new album soon, Grey I want you to shock the whole world and show them what amazing talent you have do that for me, and for you. Now stop being angry and get you're head on straight I didn't raise you to be like this. I love you my precious boy.
Ms. Anna.
It took me 15 minuets to read it the first time to make out the whole letter, and I read it again this time faster. I missed her so much, and as always she is right about everything. I wipe the tears from my face and put the letter back in the envelope. I walk back out to the living room and Dan and Tessa are both there.
"Uh...Hi." I say awkwardly.
"Hi? That is all you have to say after disappearing and not calling me is hi? Grey I was worried about you then I couldn't get through the gate!" She says and pulls me into a hug.
I hug her back, she holds me at arms length, "Go shower now you stink." She says.
I just laugh, "Cause I'm a man!"
"No it's cause you're a stinky teenage boy!" She says.
"Hurry up baby boy, I have to get people here to start working on the songs, and recording some things. Label wants something by the end of next week." Dan says.
I bound upstairs, and into my room. I open the curtains and let the light shine in my room. I grab some boxers and clean gym shorts. I lock the bathroom door and turn on the shower as hot as it would go within a few minuets the bathroom filled with steam.
I shed off the gym shorts and boxers and stepped into the steaming hot shower. It felt good hitting my skin, I thought about the letter that Ms. Anna wrote me and what I really needed to do. I needed to get out of this mudslide I was in, I needed to make her proud plus I want to talk to Kaiden. We probably couldn't be together, until I was back to myself he deserves nothing but the full me nothing less.
I missed him, his bright eyes, those full lips his hair, and the way he would hug me. Thinking of him started to get me hard, I haven't released a load since the night me and him did those things. It was way to long, I grabbed my rapidly inflating dick and started to stroke it up and down. I let out a loud moan it felt so damn good to slip my hand over my prick.
I leaned against the shower wall as I started to jack my hard dick faster letting one hand run over my chest and tweaking my nipple cause me to shudder with another moan. I pump my dick faster, I know I am about to cum. It's a shame cause I haven't blown a load in so long that it takes me less than five minuets.
I cup my balls, as I arch my back and thrust out my hips as I start to cum, three quick shots of cum shoot in front of me followed by two litter ones. I lean against the wall panting it felt good to get a release.
I soap up my body and rinse off, and I start to think of a song and of course it's about Kaiden and how much I miss him, his touch, the laughter when I would say a lame joke. How it felt so good holding his hand on the beach and watching the sun rise.
I started to form the lyrics in my head from all the things I missed, yes I knew this is what I want to be my next single. For the first time in almost two weeks I smiled a sincere happy smile. I finished up washing my hair, and shut off the water getting out and drying off.
I had to hurry and get dressed, so I wouldn't lose what I had in my head as it was forming. I run to my side table and start jotting things down that I already had, just the first part and then the chouse. "Cause missing you is harder than anything I have ever faced, and missing you is something I don't want to do anymore." I sang out.
Running down the stairs and back into the living room I stop dead in my tracks. I see Tessa and Dan in a lip lock that me and Kaiden never did. "Ehmm." I say clearing my throat.
They pull apart and Tessa is fixing her hear and blushing, "Sorry..." she says laughing.
"When did this happen?" I ask.
"Well the whole time we were trying to get a hold of you it just kind of happened, we both love you so much, and well Dan is just a really funny guy. Plus hey my last boyfriend was a dick and couldn't stand my job and well Dan loves my job and all." She says.
"Only if it's okay with you that is." Dan says smiling.
I just smile, "So does this mean you are going to be around more when I head on tour?"
He looks at me, "Yes I am going to teach Tessa the touring position of managing and will be on your next tour, but I don't like that devilish grin you are giving me."
I just laughed, "Well how long till the people arrive I have my next single and it has to be my next single Dan you have to make the label agree to it!"
"Slow down baby boy I will work my magic." He says.
"Well Grey I set up a satellite interview by the way, we need to get you back into the public eye." Tessa says.
"Okay I just need to do something before anything else." I tell them.
Making it back to my room I reach into my sock drawer and pull out my phone and wait for it to turn on, I ignore most of the voice mails, and go directly to texting Kaiden.
Me: I'm sorry.
K: Omg you are okay? What the hell Grey I was worried about you.
Me: I know and I'm sorry just I needed to get away from the world.
K: Can I come over?
Me: I don't think it's the best idea yet. Kaiden I miss you so much it hurts, but you cant be with me right now.
K: What do you mean?
Me: You deserve me at my best, plus your school is about to start and I will be recording non-stop. I know it's not fair to you but I want you to wait for me...
K: Grey that is so selfish...but I don't want anyone but you. I have been so worried about you, I am sorry I was being stupid and trying to argue about everything. I miss you so much I hurt.
Me: I know I feel the same. Kaiden I just want to start over, and eventually I want to be with you non-stop I will be the boyfriend you deserve. I miss you so much, and don't give up on my just yet.
K: I will wait Grey, but I won't wait forever get yourself together do your album just don't forget about me.
Me: Me forget? Never could happen with you. I promise we will grab coffee soon okay?"
K: Sounds good.
I couldn't wipe the smile off my face, I was really happy at least he isn't mad at me. I start to write the rest of the song and after a few hours Tessa comes up and says I need to get downstairs that people are here for the satellite interview.
"Wait there are people? Who am I doing an interview with?" I ask.
"Ellen, look she has been wanting this interview since the new single came out. You can really use this since you went MIA on us all." Tessa says looking at me.
"Wait as in Ellen D? I ask. "Shit let me change, and I will be right down." I tell her she just laughs.
I grab my white skinny jeans, and a green tank top, I need to keep close to my image. I make my way down the stairs, and there are camera people set up in my living room. Tessa walks me over to the couch and tells me to sit, as she starts to put the mic on me. "I told them I would put it on you, didn't think you'd want someone touching you."
"Okay we are on in five..four..three...two...one.." he says counting down with his fingers as well.
"Grey! It's nice to see you!" Ellen says as her face pops up on the screen that they set up.
"Hi." I say smiling.
This gets her to laugh, "All I get is a shy hello? You deal with millions of screaming girls and you're shy to talk to me? I think I am flattered."
I just laugh, "Well it's an honor to actually be talking with you." I tell her.
"So you are really this sweet? So Grey tell us what underwear do you have today cause we all know that was a hit when you described them on the radio." She says laughing.
I laugh as well and stand up pulling my tank top up and unbuttoning my pants, and flashing my purple boxer briefs. I pull them back up and she is laughing so hard. "That answer that?" I say laughing.
"Hold on Grey do you hear that? I think that's ambulances being called out to check on all the teenage girls that just fell out. So Grey you are in an undisclosed location that is top secret right?" She asks.
I decide I will play along, "Yes Ellen, it's really top secret. I don't even know where I am!" I tell her and start to laugh. "No I am at my personal house."
"So Grey has his own personal house what exactly goes on in this house?"
"All sorts of bad things, from drinking soda, swimming, playing video games, working out, and writing songs."
"That's horrible drinking soda isn't that a crime?"
"Hahaha, yes I am normally on a strict diet when I am touring I am not allowed any junk food, and only water to drink. To keep me plenty hydrated, but honestly all it does is make me pee so much." I tell her.
She tries to stop laughing, "Grey I would have never guessed how open you are. So you write songs there at the house?"
"Yes, in fact I just wrote one right before this. I hope it's going to be my next single, and I actually will be recording my new album in the house. I had a studio built so I could be more comfortable and not under so much stress..."
"Talking about stress not lets be serious, what was with the ten day dark spree. Did you know that your fans had Where is Grey trending on twitter? They even made videos of fans screaming and crying. Would you tell us what happened?" Ellen asks.
"Ellen, I will be 100% honest with you, I was at the point of having a meltdown. My best friend and I had a huge fall out, and dealing with my parents divorce and my own mother announcing how I am dyslexic I was pretty fed up with almost everything, and I got news that someone who pretty much raised me when I was here at home passed away and Ellen it hit me really, really hard. I was in a heated argument with my father, and I got that news and honestly I fell apart so I flew back home, and I shut off my phone and locked the doors and pretty much hid away for ten days. I needed it, I didn't want to be one of those famous teens who have their infamous meltdowns and do crazy things. That's not me, and that's not what I want to do to my fans. I love them so much they are part of the reason I wake up everyday to write songs and perform." I tell her.
"Oh Grey I am so sorry to hear that, losing someone that meant a lot to you must be very hard. I can't imagine having to go through that, especially when everything seems so insane for you. Well Grey I don't want to keep you I know you are busy making that new record that you will be coming onto the show in person when you release it." She says smiling.
"Ellen I would love to be there for the release of my CD have your people contact my people." I tell her laughing.
"Well thank you for having us in your super secret home."
"Always a pleasure!"
(Two months later)
"That's a wrap!" Dan says.
I come running out of the vocal booth happy and all smiles!
"You have your second album complete baby boy!" He says.
Tessa hugs me, "How do you feel?"
"Tired and excited!" I tell her sitting in the chair.
"So got any names for the album?" Tom my producer asks me.
"Yeah I want it to be called Alive in the lights. Like I have always said its when I feel the most alive."
"Sounds like a winner, I cannot wait to see what the record thinks once we mix and master the songs." Dan says as he kisses Tessa again.
I just smile as I walk out of the recording room, and make my way down the stairs to the kitchen, to grab some lemon and honey. So I can prevent a sore throat, when the doorbell rings. I walk over and open the door.
Kaiden is standing there with his hands in his pockets. His sandy brown hair has gotten longer, as has my hair. Those bright green eyes locking onto mine. "Hey.."
I'm at a loss for words I haven't spoken to him since we texted two months ago. I walk out shutting the door behind me. "Hi." I say looking at him.
"How are you?" I stumble over my words.
"I'm great how are you?" He asks.
"I'm good, I have missed you." I tell him and lean to kiss him.
He moves and I kiss his cheek, "I've missed you too. It's been two months Grey."
I shuffle my feet, "I know I literally just finished my album not even five minuets ago."
"You didn't even call or anything." He says looking at me.
I reach for his hand and take it, "I'm sorry, how's school?"
"It's good, so what's next for you?" He asks.
"Well I will have a photo shoot for the album and start on a music video, do a few appearances and probably start on a tour soon." I tell him.
"So you won't be here will you?"
"Not for awhile, but we can skype, text, talk everything. I missed you so much, I wanted to give you space so you could adjust to your new life with Tyler and all."
"Grey, you just forgot about me, I've met someone." He finally tells me.
"Oh...are you two official?" I ask.
"Not yet, but I like him and he likes me."
"What about us though?" I ask.
"Grey there hasn't been an us in so long. I don't want to hurt you, that's why I am telling you this now. Think about it Grey what am I supposed to do. You are leaving soon, for who knows how long. You are going to be all over the country I'm going to be in Haysville with just the hope that you would come through just once in a year or half a year?"
"Then screw it come with me, you can go to home school like me!" I tell him.
He backs up from me, "I can't Grey. My life is here, all my friends are here. I would only know you and that's it. We wouldn't be able to even be with each other on the tour bus even."
"It was worth a shot." I tell him.
He moves closer to me and kisses me on the lips I have missed his soft lips so much I kiss him back, but he breaks the kiss. "Take care Grey."
"Kaiden, don't have sex with him." I tell him.
He gives me a weird look, "Grey.."
"I will show you we are worth it, just please don't have sex with him." I tell him going back into the house.
I shut the door and Tessa is right there, "was that Kaiden?"
"Yeah it was." I tell her.
"So not good I guess?"
"He found someone else." I tell her.
She hugs me, "It's okay hun, just remember give him some time you and him belong together."
"I know, he just doesn't know that yet." I tell her smiling.
"So lets start packing, we have so much to do."
"Sounds good to me, I can't wait to get out on the road again!" ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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