Adam to Allan pt.1
I wasn't sure I was ready. It had all happened so fast. Well it wasn't that fast. It was planned, very well actually, but my heart still was pounding. Had I made a mistake? I didn't think so, but what if I had? What if I just didn't go? Then I'd be an ass. I had to go. It'd be ok. What could happen? He could kidnap me. Rape me. Kill me. But that's ok. Anyone could do that. Time was ticking by and my heart sped up, feeling as if it would break free of my chest. I could hear the blood in my ears. I could hardly breathe. And then it was time.
"I'm taking Sasha for a walk.", I told my dad.
I bundled up and opened the door into the bitter cold and uncertainty. Sasha and I slowly made our way up the street, making our way closer to the destination. The ice seemed to carry me to my destination instead of causing me to drop to my face. The cold air bit at my face and tried to crawl through my jacket. I checked my phone for the time every few seconds thinking they were hours. Half my heart hoping he wouldn't show, the other half hoping he would. My heart fluttered. i didn't know what to think. he seemed so nice. but what is it that everyone says about the crazy neighbor?
"he was so nice! i can't believe he would do something like that."
but what if he wasn't? Thousands of questions pooled into my mind as i walked and waited for his arrival. ---
The car drove up slowly. I could tell it was him the moment i saw him. His expression was intense. he was searching. or maybe he felt the same way i did and was some what hoping i wasn't there. then i eyes met. and his face changed totally. his intensity softened from what seemed to be a grimace to a warming shy smile. he didn't look the way he looked in his photo but i could tell it was him. i felt like throwing up. i stood on the side of the road similar to a hooker. had he picked me up that day I'm sure the situations wouldn't have been far from each other. He slowly drove up beside me and rolled down his window. "hi," i said awkwardly.
"hi, its nice to finally meet you!" he said in an excited business/car sales man voice. It made me smile.
"yea," i said smiling. not sure what to say.
He was handsome, his eyes soft and blue like the sky one a perfect day, his smile genuine so i decided i liked him. after studying him and feeling his presence i felt i had nothing to worry about. i could feel his kindness actually pouring out of him. we stood/sat there just lightly talking. introducing ourselves formally. telling each other things that we had mentioned before online as if testing to see if it were really the same person. but it was him. i eased up and moved over to his window. i could smell him. it was him. not some cheap Cologne. his smell was unique, but in a good way. i couldn't describe anything that smelt similar so i tagged it adam. I found myself imagining sitting in the car. driving away with him. my mind pushed the thought away. it was far too soon for that, although i didn't completely object to it. i looked at him and noticed his face had changed.
"are you ok?" he looked sad and concerned.
"yeah, I'm good." but in truth i wasn't sure if i was.
should i be doing this? the look in his eyes pointed to yes.he looked like he really cared. and i felt he did. so far he has helped me and hasn't asked for anything in return. and he made me smile. it would have been dumb to let him go. even if it meant being selfish to keep him.
"good" he said, smile returning back in full. "oh! and take this in case someone asks who you were talking to."
He handed me a church pamphlet. i giggled inside a little.
"ok," i said smiling back at him.
"good bye handsome. can't wait to talk to you again." he said as he pulled off and drove away. my heart was pounding harder still. no longer because i was nervous, but because i was excited for the next time i got to see him. i walked home staring at the pamphlet. not noticing the mounds of snow, the slippery ice, or the burning cold. i held the paper with a tight shaking fist. so excited that i finally met adam.
Adam to Allan pt.2 We talked often after our first meeting. filling each other in on our histories and the daily events. talking each other out of bad moods, tho i must say his record for talking me out a funk is much higher than mine. we talked almost daily. once in a while a quick chat on the phone. he always answers in his carsales man voice slowly easing into his natural relaxed voice. i liked his car sales voice but i liked his natural vice even more. so much so, i found myself hearing that voice while masturbating at times. id be laying in bed, stroking ferociously watching some sort of porn id obtain from the internet. as id get closer i could hear him talking to me, almost whispering in my ear. what was said i do not remember, but it was more than enough to bring me over the edge. leaving me sweating and out of breath. the more we talked the more i thought of him. not always sexually, but in general situations. i could be trying on shoes and wonder if he liked them, or washing dishes wondering if he did it the same way. i had developed a major crush on this man. in many ways i felt bad. he was married. he had kids and a family. if anyone found out it would ruin him. i didnt want that to happen to him. i knew he loved his family. i questioned the ethics of it all. is it ok? hes been with other men, so maybe she knows and just isnt saying? what if i dont? he'll just find someone else. and thats all the ammo i needed. i liked him. i didnt want to lose him to some other guy. he was already married so i wanted him anyway i could.
over time we started to talk of another meeting. there were hints that there would be more than just talking. but i wasnt sure.
"is tuesday at 3 good for you?" he asked "yea, thats cool. I have nothing going on." heart racing with every key typed. "ok, we will meet at the park. you know where i mean?" "i do. cant wait!" and that was no lie.
Two days past and they dragged like one legged turtles. I couldnt sleep. my stomach was in knots. I was a mess. I couldnt wait to see him again. and i couldnt wait to see what would happen.---
the day arrived. i felt on the urge of being sick the entire night and up till the point it was time to leave. i pulled myself together and wobbled out the door. it was cold again. not much snow or ice but there were patches here and there. the air froze my mustach with every breath i took. my legs worked hard as i made my way down the road, out the housing gate, and across the track. its beyond me how they didnt give out not once. i got to the end of the track and saw his car sitting in the shade just down the hill. i was sweating and tired. i hadnt walked all that far but the adrenalin and anxiety over worked my body. step by step i made it closer to the car. and then i made it. i opened the door when i heard the locks click. i slipped in and sat down.
i felt shy all over again. as if i hadnt met him before. i couldnt bring myself to look at him. i just held my eyes to the floor and out the window. he grabbed my hand and rubbed it. his hands were dry and kinda sand papery. its added sensation made me shiver. it also caused me to become erect.
"hey there handsome, how are you today?" in his car sales man voice.
we sit in the parking lot talking. using many words to fill the tension. id take quick peeks at him out of the corner of my eyes. he was looking dead at me. smiling. that smile only made me more nervous. we talk for a but longer and we get out of the car to walk around. in my head i wondered if anything was gonna happen. i really wanted it to. i really wanted him. but i wasnt gonna make the first move. we walk to a bathroom and i stop.
"i'll wait out here." i say, not having to use it.
He gives me a funny, disappointed look. "oh. well...umm..."
then i realized why we were going in. for privacy.
"Oh!!!" i say finally getting things,
"you don't have to if you dont want to. really." he says.
I could tell he didnt really want me to say no. he was just being polite as usual.
"no no no, i just thought you had to use the bathroom," i say giggling
he smiles to.
i agree and we walk to the door. only to find its locked.
"bathrooms and water will be shut down until spring."
we both just look at each other and walk back to the car.i sat there. a little disappointed. i looked at him and he was looking at me. he had an odd look in his eyes. as if he were looking at the sun or a bright light bulb. i just look at him and dont say anything. he takes my hand and holds it. rubbing his thumb across it.
"can i kiss you?" he asked.
my heart felt like it exploded. i was afraid to look down thinking it would have burst all over him and he'd scream and i'd die. but it hadnt.
"yeah" i said quietly.
He leaned over placing his lips on mine. they were so firm and soft. his mouth tasted sorta sweet as if he had eaten candy before he came to me. i closed my eyes and felt his tongue reach into my mouth. he was a great kisser. i was shaking badly at this point. and to make matters worse i was so hard it hurt. he seemed to read my mind and let go of my hand and gently grope me as if trying to ease the pain. he pulled back and looked me in the eyes again.
"do you want to?" he asked still groping and fondling my jeans.
I shake my head yes, not able to do much else. he unzipped me, reaching in grabing my hardon. his hands stroked gently before pulling it out all the way. he looked at it for a moment. stroking it. smiling slightly. he turned back to me and kissed me hard. still stroking me. it felt amazing. its a wonder how i didnt cum at that moment but i didnt. he pulled away again looking at me. giving the "are you sure?" look. i nodded and he gave me another long kiss. then he went down.
he sucked and licked and kissed and i squirmed and moaned and watched. his mouth was so warm and soft it felt like i belonged there. he bobbed up and down. taking most of it and coming back up to kiss the tip. he was a pro. it didnt take me long. i told him i was cumming and he sucked faster and harder. i bucked deeper into his mouth. feeling myself throbbing. about to bust. and then it happened. i saw fire works. it was so amazing. i could feel him swallowing all of what i shoot into his mouth. he came up and kissed me. slipping some of what was left into my mouth. then he looked at me smiling. the only thing i could bring myself to say was "wow..."