It was weird actually. I never felt this way about any body else before till now. First, I notice he looked different, but in a good way. Then I started to notice things like his smile, his eyes, and even his body. What was happening to me. All of a sudden I had this feeling. I don't know how to explain it. It took me awhile to make sure of what it 'WAS' that was happening to me. I fell in love.
Well, it wasn't anything special just a silly crush I thought. But the more I talked to him; the more I found out what a beautiful person he actually was. He's not just one of those people you meet and walk past. He wasn't just a face in a crowd of people. Eddie, seemed to be way more special than that, well to 'me' anyway. My first crush was a beautiful 13 year old boy, who was lean, but muscular from playing basketball. He had short hair, the most kissable lips, cute smile, and had a great body. Trust me, I saw his body while he took off his shirt when we played basketball.
And let me tell you this, he was so sexy and cute at the same time, you know? For a thirteen year old, his body wasn't ripped or anything, but it looked sexy enough to drool over. My name is Chris. I am just a typical boy in the typical world. Oh yeah, except I am a typical boy who has love interest with other boys. It sucks being gay, but what can I do about it. If you looked at me, I bet you couldn't even tell I am gay. I do everything normal just like any other boy. I ain't a sissy or anything. Those guys who act all girlish, it tends to be a big turn off for me. I don't know, but I respect who they are because I am one too, but I just don't like the fact they act like that. It is really giving us a bad name.
If it wasn't for that, then us gays won't be so looked down upon. Well that's how I feel anyway. If I offended you I am sorry. I guess I just want to be normal, but that chance was already taken away from me when I was young. See. I never chose to be this way, it just sorda happened. You can say I was born this way because it's like me having brown eyes, I can't help it. Could any actual good come out of this? You know for being gay. I hope so.
The only thing that was going to happen to me, I thought, was just ME being alone the rest of my life and it scared me. Alone, that's how I feel. My parents left me when I was a baby and the orphanage took care of me. I was luckily picked up by my new mommy. She was actually real sweet. Although I found out she was a lesbian; she was my role model and the only one I could talk to about my problems at the time. "Mom.I been having problems lately," I told her.
"Yes? Go on, tell me what's on your mine, honey. I been noticing you have been a little down lately. Having problems with your little girlfriends lately," she said chucking, but still kept her concerned face
She expected to me to have a girlfriend. I felt disappointed and started to sob to myself at that moment. Mommy comforted me by kissing me on the forehead and giving a motherly hug. I felt safe in her arms and finally had the courage to tell someone.
"Mom its not a girl; it's a boy," I said raising an eyebrow and looked at her face to see her reaction. We were at the kitchen and the room was dark with a little lighting from the ceiling; my mom drank her coffee and we had our discussion. She started to sob too and placed her hand on her mouth about to say something, but it seemed she couldn't get it out. She was shocked and I knew by her face, but when she hugged me that also shocked me. I know it was strange, and I know your thinking why I couldn't tell her in the first place, SHES A LESBIAN! But I just felt that she wanted me to be normal; to live a life and that's what I wanted to give her. Sadly though I couldn't and I thought I would of disappointed her by that.
I know it was stupid, but NOW I know I was wrong. She gave me another hug and I felt there was nothing wrong with the world and I felt loved. And you know what? It felt damn good to be loved. I am soo lucky to have a mother like her and I'm glad that we were put together and could be a family even though it was a weird one.
The morning light was shining down on my face and the alarm was also there to wake me up for another day of school. Today I felt extra good; probably from all that emotional release last night. It felt great to be free for the day. You know I did the normal morning things a teenager would do. For example, answering nature's call and occasionally a morning wank to start off the day. I took a quick shower and looked at myself on mirror. Actually I didn't look bad at all. Those developing six pack of mine with my average size penis if not bigger, made me look pretty damn cute. I can see why some of the girls like talking to me for no reason when I don't even talk to them at all. It was almost time for the bus to arrive and I made my quick escape from mom's kiss of the morning.
Mom was already coming down the stairs when I bolted out the door. It was like a race almost or a game that we played to see who loses. Obviously, I won today. I hope she doesn't kiss my cheek in front of everybody at school. That would be so embarrassing. Moms just got to do what they got to do I guess.
The bus pulled up to me and I went in. My friends were already waiting for me to arrive. On the bus, a seat was saved for me. It was our little place to chit-chat. Usually, it was a magical place for us. Lots of endless and hilarious conversations were made here. It would consist mostly of punk/ rock people, but they were my best friends. Laura, the red head; our relationship was like 'Will and Grace'. We had so many good times. Josh, was the skater boy who had started dating with girls since kindergarten. Brittany, was the quiet one, who didn't get to go out much, but she is about to bring out her wildness sooner or later. You could tell with people like us in this small town at New Jersey.
Everybody is always looking for a good time. This year was a little different for us though. It was a new year. That means new kids are coming. New kids for me, means that I might find a cutie to got out with. I've been trying to find a special someone for so long and that year I was hoping I might. As me and my friends entered the school, the hallways were crowded with students trying to go in the cafeteria. Students in our school always met at the cafeteria for at least ten minutes to settle down before we head to class. Laura was about to sit at our usual table, but it was already filled up with new freshman's. I can tell she wasn't too happy with that.
"Damn those freshman's. Now where are we going to sit now?" Said Laura folding her arms at the freshman's.
One of the freshman's could tell something was up and stood up to clear the problem. He was kind of cute from where I was watching. " Huh.are we in your seats?" The cute boy said. Laura shook her head yes. "Umm sorry, we took it, we didn't know. We are kind of new here."
" Fine.take it we can just sit on another one." Laura was in a bad mood; which was weird. She doesn't usually have those. Something was up. Laura walked a little ahead of us. Brittany couldn't take it anymore and ran up to Laura leaving me and Josh there standing next to the freshman's.
"What's up? Is there something wrong Laura? I never seen you get mad so easily." Brittany asked.
"Don't worry about it."
"Come on Laura. this is 'ME' you are talking to. You can tell me anything." Brittany told Laura.
"Fine." Laura sighed.
While. Laura and Brittany were talking, me and josh were left with the freshman's. Although the whole cafeteria was filled with people that I could of talked to. I felt stuck. My movements became stiff. My heart was beating faster than usual and I felt hotter than usual. The cute freshman was looking at me. Or that's what I think. I was too scared to look at him. So the only thing I could of done was look at him with the corner of my eye. Josh luckily broke the silence.
"You know what's wrong with Laura? She just freaked out man." Josh said. Josh was like a stoner. Him and his friends use to sell drugs. He never did drugs though. That's what he at least told me. He sounded 'high' most of the time.
I told him I wasn't sure what was wrong with Laura. Then, the cute boy came up to me.
"That's the guy you met at the Beach?" Brittany asked.
"Yeah, I saw him playing with his friends. And I thought 'wow he looked hot as hell'.
So I went up to him and said hi. He seemed interested and we went out on a romantic night at the carnival." Laura said while sighing a lot in between sentences.
Brittany laughed a little at how Laura was falling for someone so quick. "You know you only met him for a day at the beach."
"Have you ever heard of love at first sight?"
"I don't believe in that kind of stuff" Brittany told Laura.
"Well I think this is my first one then." Laura concluded and turned to look at the cutie.
The cute boy came up to me and asked, " You friends with that girl?" I told him yes. " I met her at the beach one time, she was a funny girl." He started to chuckle a little and I started too. Laura WAS a funny girl and when the cute boy laughed, it was contagious and it caught on to me. I felt so stupid laughing like that. After laughing for about ten minute it seemed I asked him what was his name. He told me he was Eddie. "Eddie?" I said raising an eyebrow. " Have we ever met before? I have this feeling like I met you somewhere.
Eddie answered, " Yeah. me too." We both smiled at each other. I was smiling because I felt light inside, but I didn't know why Eddie was. My stomach was having a ticklish feeling that was spreading through out my whole body and this was just because I was near the kid. I don't know what would happen if.
"CHRIS!!!!" Laura screamed running down the cafeteria while grabbing me by the arm to exit the place as quick as possible. Brittany got Josh and we both went out of the cafeteria before the bell rung. It was a good thing to because everybody was going to be crowded up again and we wouldn't be able to exit the damn room. I left the room thinking about Eddie and I hoped we would meet again soon.
'I hope I meet Eddie again' Laura thought to herself. But should I trust him after what he done to me. Should I trust him again?
Both of them fell for Eddie, but does Eddie have feelings for either of them? Eddie been having problems himself and you would find that out on the next chapter. If you have any questions or ideas you would like to submit to this story feel free.
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