A Safe Place By James
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Chapter 6
Continuing in 2015
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Kevin
As the days continued after I said and did what I did to Caleb that night, my parents had tried to talk to me and they grounded me from TV and my computer, but they hadn't taken my privileges to go out. It was a good thing, since Richie was demanding me to come with him for sex every afternoon after school and on the weekends.
I was getting beaten down by it all and several times, I thought about taking my own life. I knew that one thing in my dad's medical bag was a scalpel. I knew where his medical bag was and I kept the thought in the back of my mind.
As I got ready to go out on a Friday night after Richie called my cell, I heard a knock on my door. I opened it and Alicia was standing in the hall. I let her in and she looked at me.
"Are you alright Kevin?" she asked truly concerned.
"I'm fine," I said as my rage began to build. "I'm so sick of you, Caleb and mom and dad asking me that all the time!"
"I'm sorry," she said close to tears. "It's just that you're not acting like yourself lately and what was that a few nights ago about you hitting dad and grabbing Caleb like that. Then as for what you said to Caleb about his blindness. Kevin, how could you!"
She was close to crying now, but it didn't mean much to me. My focus was only on getting out of there, to Richie then back home so I could get to bed. Sleep was the only thing that helped, but in the past couple of nights I was beginning to have dreams where Richie outed me to the school, my other friends, Caleb, Alicia and our parents. I would wake up screaming and my mom would try to comfort me. I'd beg for her to leave me alone and thankfully, she would.
"Like I said," I replied stepping close to Alicia and feeling my rage spread over me like a cancer. "I'm fine. You better fucking watch your step. You keep fucking with me like this, I'll have to teach you a lesson."
"My god Kevin," she said stepping back. "I really don't even know who you are any more. You're so cold and hateful."
Something in me began to let go and I grabbed her by the arm and pulled her towards me.
"Kevin!" she yelled trying to pull away. "What the hell!"
"Back the fuck off now," I growled at her. "You just fucking back off now little girl."
Somehow, I calmed down and looked down at my hand holding tightly on to her arm. I quickly let go and looked at her. She had put her hands to her eyes and was crying.
"You're fucking psycho!" she yelled and fled my room. I then stepped out of my room and saw Caleb coming up to me.
"What happened?" he asked. "I heard Alicia yell."
I got up in his face and grabbed him by his shirt.
"You mind your own fucking business you fucking idiot blindy," I said softly and hatefully to him. "Maybe you'd learn a bit more about keeping out of other people's business if you'd get a set of working eyes you fucking blink."
I pushed him away from me and he lost his balance and fell on his face. He was crying now and I could hear pain, real pain in his sobs.
"I didn't think you hated me that much," he said through his tears.
"Just get the fuck out of my way!" I screamed at him at the top of my lungs. He got up as best as he could and ran to his room slamming the door. I quickly left and met up with Richie at the abandoned building.
"Got a new thing for ya tonight queer," he said pulling me inside. "You're going to quit holding out on me tonight. You're going to give me what I've been asking for."
I knew what he wanted. He had been pressuring me for several weeks now for me to let him take me in my ass. I kept saying no, but obviously he had run out of patients.
"I told you I'm not ready for that," I said trying to pull away.
"I am," he said pulling me back and up against him. "If you fight me, I'll go straight to your parents, brother and sister. I'll make sure that they will all hate you. I'll also make sure that I get them to think that you've been the one to force me to do things."
"You're sick," I said. The slap sounded like a pistol shot in the darkness. My face was on fire and I began crying. "Why Richie, why are you doing this to me?"
"Because I want sex and I want it now you faggot," he said and grabbed me. After slapping me on my shoulders and knocking me to the ground, he held a small pocket knife in front of my eyes. He moved it closer and smiled.
"This looks small, but it can do a lot of damage," he whispered. "Get undressed now."
I lay there for a moment, then he suddenly was on top of me getting my clothes off and broken down, I just lay there while he did it.
"Good thing I didn't have to cut off your clothes," he said laughing. "Would have liked to have seen how you would have explained that to your parents, brother and sister. That's okay, I would have done it for you. Now I'm going to get you lubed up with my spit. Didn't have much money for KY and I think you need some sting with this. Show you how a real man takes it."
"No Pleas!" I yelled as my tears began to fall again. "Richie, please don't do this to me! They say it really hurts and I'm not ready for this!"
"Shut up fag," he said softly.
It hurt when he slid in to me. He didn't slam in to me, which was what I was afraid of, and it still hurt never-the-less. It still hurt and as he got harder and faster, the pain began to get worse.
After it was over, I lay there on my back. I felt completely used, violated and I was worried that he had ripped something down there. He lay beside me turned towards me watching me with a satisfied smile on his face.
"Now I got what I wanted," he said and laughed. "I always figured that you'd be better than a girl's cunt and I was right. Thanks for that."
I didn't say anything, there wasn't anything to say.
"I guess you're still too over-come with the high after a good come to answer right now, but we still have more fun before the night is out."
I began to shake. What more could he have in mind? Then I heard it.
"Okay guys," he yelled turning to his left. "You can come out now!"
I was confused by the non sequitur, then I saw several blinding flashes. I then understood with horror that they were camera flashes. I looked once my vision cleared and saw all my friends, both the guys and girls with whom I made friends at school. They were all here, they must have been watching this whole time while Richie fucked me!
"What the hell!" I yelled trying to stand, but falling to my knees.
"Damn Richie," Greg, one of the guys said. "I didn't think you'd actually go through with it. Yeah, we joked about paying you money if you took his little faggot ass, but I thought it was going to be just that, a joke."
"What the fuck is he talking about Richie?" I asked with horror.
"Go ahead," Richie said with a sadistic smile on his face. "Tell him what we had in mind."
"Well K Boy," Greg began stepping close to me. "Or should I say Gay Boy, funny how those two rime isn't it. Anyway, I saw you looking at me and a few other guys in the showers after P.E. the past several months. I kind of don't like fags checking out my goods, that's only for a hot babe to do. Guess you didn't pick up on me not liking queers. So I told Richie about it and he kind of needs money."
"Yeah, gotta eat somehow," Richie said smiling at me.
"So anyway," Greg continued. "Richie and I were back in the woods a few months ago before 2012 began and we were just knocking back some beers I took from my old man's cooler. So I told Richie what I suspected and he was just as sickened by it as I was. That's when we thought of the plan and after we got with the other guys and found out their views against fags and after we found out that some of the chicks in our circle felt the same, we put our plan in to action. I just didn't think Richie would actually fuck you in the ass. I just thought he'd let you suck his dick. Then him going down on you the couple of times he did, damn Richie you must have been desperate for cash."
"Just kept the money in my mind's eye while I got personal with this fag," Richie said punching me hard on the shoulder. "And it was fucking nasty taking your junk in my mouth you fucking freak."
He said all that looking right at me and I saw the absolute disgust and hate in his eyes. They all were looking at me in that way.
"Oh yeah," Randy, another boy said. "We filmed all of this with our cell phones. We got it on video and if you agree to keep your mouth shut, we'll hold on to it and we won't send it to anyone."
"No!" I yelled completely panicked now. "You can't tell anyone, you can't send that to anyone, please!"
"Oh, you mean like the teachers?" Greg said. "Or the other kids, or our parents or your parents?"
"No!" I screamed and fell to the ground.
"Or maybe your brother and sister," Richie said smiling. "Hey, I've seen your sister around, fuck is she hot for 13. I'll bet she's fucking rocken in bed. I'll bet Caleb's going to turn out to be a fag. I don't know, something just tells me that. Anyway, he tries to make a pass at me, I'll fix him."
"No!" I yelled getting up on my knees to face Richie. "You stay the fuck away from both my brother and sister! You leave my parents alone also!"
"You know what the best part about teaching Caleb a lesson would be?" Richie went on as if he hadn't heard me. "It's that he's blind and can't see the fist coming until it lands. Taking him would be easy."
"No you Bastard!" I yelled and threw up a fist.
"Go ahead," Richie said. "Do it. I just have to press one button and this fucking movie goes viral."
I fell to the ground sobbing now. I wondered at that point, and not for the first time what the hell I had gotten myself in to with Richie. He had been over to my house a couple of times, but stayed long enough to pick me up and in all of that time, my family didn't ever get to know him at all. I wouldn't really give them the most enlightening answers about who he was either, so that further kept them in the dark.
"Aww," Greg said with mock sympathy. "The little fag is crying. Didn't get the second fucking he wanted?"
"Fuck that," Richie said. "I'm not getting my dick in that again, fuck that. I kept my end up, now hand it over!"
Unbelievably, Greg and the others actually pulled out of their pockets several bills and handed them over. Richie took one from the hand-full and held it out to me.
"No," I said looking down. "I don't want it."
"No, I insist," he said smiling. I looked up and he let the money fall to the ground. I saw the bill lying on the ground and the glow coming from their flashlights illuminated it and I saw that it was a one dollar bill. Richie picked it up and found my shorts. He stuffed it in one of the front pockets and turned to smile at me.
"You got your cut, now it's time to go," he said.
"Wait," I said standing on rubbery legs. "You're giving me money after what you did?"
"You mean after you let me take you in the ass," he pretended to correct. "You wanted it, I didn't do anything to you that you didn't already want from the start. And you now have money for it."
"So that makes me'''," I began to say.
"Yes Kevin," he said. "A whore; it makes you a faggot little whore."
One of the girls named Mandy stepped forward. She smiled and held her phone out. She took a couple of pictures, then looked down at me.
"I can't believe you'd turn out to be a fucking queer," she said. All of them took a turn at verbally insulting me, then Richie told me to get dressed. He walked me out of the building with the guys and girls following behind. I knew deep down that they'd go along with this. They were after all, followers.
"So, fag," Richie said turning to me. "I've had my fun with you. You call or come around me ever again, you'll lose your family. I'll even give Caleb a taste of what I did to you. So we shouldn't have any trouble understanding one another should we."
Over that weekend, I had shut down. I stayed in bed and kept my parents and siblings away by telling them that I was sick with a bug. I did have some stomach pains and diarrhea, but I just thought that it was stress. I didn't look in the toilet bowl, and had I done so, then I would have seen blood, but I wasn't worried about that at the time. Monday of that up-coming week was when it all came to a climax though.
Early that Monday morning, my parents told me that they were going to work and my siblings after quickly telling me that they'd be going out for the day, left my room as fast as they could. It wasn't lost on me at that moment, Caleb and Alicia were afraid of me. After I heard the door to the house close a second time when Caleb and Alicia left, I lay there in my bed. In the silence of that house, with my parents having just left and my siblings having just left as well, I was alone. I replayed for the millionth time the night where Richie took me. A small part of my mind called it rape, but I didn't fully accept that understanding of it at that time. Lying there in that moment on that morning, I felt the walls closing in on me. I felt my body begin to gush with sweat and my breathing began to get labored. I then could swear that I saw eyes looking in the windows at me while I lay in bed. Worse of all, I could have sworn that I saw Richie's hateful and mocking eyes watching me, looking directly at me. I sat up with what strength I had left and stared wide-eyed at the windows and the eyes I thought I saw there.
"Mooooooom, Daaaaaaaaaad!!!!!!!!" I screamed to the top of my lungs. Pleeeeeaaaaase! Coooooooooooooome baaaaaaaaack! Someone, anyone! Help meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!"
I fell back on the bed and was sobbing. I began to see figures materialize in the room. I saw Richie smiling cruelly at me and he was walking towards me with his erection leading the way.
"Noooooo!!!!!" I screamed and got up. I ran from the room and ran to my dad's study. I knew what I had to do. I wanted the fear, pain and terror to be over.
I found my dad's medical bag and got the scalpel out of it. I looked at it in the light and felt a sense of finality.
Author's Notes
This story line will probably run through the next chapter and though I realize it's a horrible part of the story to read, it's something we all need to be aware of.
So everyone have a good weekend and I'll see you all in Chapter Seven.