A Safe Place By James
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This is a story that deals with sexual as well as romantic situations between teenaged males. Should you not be of the legal age to read such material, or if you're offended by this type of story then please find something else to read. Also please remember to donate to Nifty so that these stories can remain free to the public.
Caleb
I awoke later that night needing something to drink. I got up and got a glass of milk and sat down at the table to drink it. Sitting there, I was happy and felt relaxed. I could hear snow falling outside. It seemed to be coming down hard since the ticking sound on the glass was louder than it had been since snow began falling for that month.
I finished my milk and went to sit in the living room for a few minutes. As I sat on the couch, I began thinking back to when Nathan and I were young and our life together at that point. I'll always treasure those memories along with the ones we make every day.
Chapter 12
Caleb
It was now towards the end of October of 2015 and things were going well for Nathan and I. Kevin and Cody were getting to know one another really well too and I was happy for them. As Nathan and I continued to become closer as boyfriends, I was enjoying what we had.
On the weekend that closed October, Nathan and I were sitting in my room at my house talking and he was telling me about a dance that the school was having and that they usually had every November, in the middle of the month. It was held to welcome in the nearing of Thanks Giving. I listened as he talked and I figured that there was a reason he was telling me about it.
"It all sounds good," I said and kissed him. He kissed back and came to what I figured his point was.
"Would you like to be my date for that night?" he asked.
"I would," I replied and hugged him, then placed a deep kiss on his lips. He kissed back and we just held each other for a moment.
We then separated and he must have picked up on another thought I had since he knew when I was holding something back.
"What?" he asked and rested his head against my chest.
"You know that with doing that and not getting girlfriends much less a girl for you and a girl for me that we're basically outing ourselves and who we are to each other to the school right?"
He lifted his head and looked at me.
"Are you worried about us being out to the school?" he asked.
"A little," I replied. "I know that most people would be fine with it and my parents and your mom are fine with us being boyfriends, but it's the other kids at school I'm worried about."
"I understand what you're saying," he said. "We can talk to our parents about it and see if they have any advice on how to deal with it so that there's no backlash and if there is, what to do about it."
We kissed and began talking about other things. We had come out as boyfriends to my parents in the middle of October and it went really well.
We had talked the week leading up to that weekend and we decided that we didn't want to hold back any longer about telling them. We wanted to be honest with them and we hoped that they'd understand. It wasn't that we thought that they would be closed-minded about us liking one another, but that they'd do the stuff about us being too young to know what we wanted.
We sat in a restaurant with my parents on Saturday of that weekend on which we came out to them and after we got part-way through our meal, we told them that we had something to tell them. After we told them, they asked us if we knew about every part of being respectful about boundaries and they also talked to us about using protection, especially when it came to sex, but mainly anal sex for both of us. They agreed to make sure that we had condoms and that was probably the more uncomfortable part of the conversation.
When they asked us what attracted us to one another, we told them basically what we had told one another. It went that same way with Nathan's mom when we talked to her the next day when we dropped Nathan off back home. The two of us sat with her while my parents waited in the living room drinking coffee. The conversation went well and Amy hugged me and Nathan both.
Kevin
Things had been going well with Cody and I as we got closer with one another. We had spent weekends at one another's house and that second weekend we spent at my house, I really enjoyed it. Cody enjoyed talking with Alicia, Caleb and Nathan. He also liked my parents and it was going well. I truly was happy that we found one another.
At the end of October of that same weekend that Nathan was staying with us, we were sitting on my bed on that Friday talking and I had just finished helping him with his homework. He had put everything in his bag and then sat back down beside me.
"Thanks for letting me stay over this weekend," he said and hugged me.
"You're welcome," I replied.
We sat there talking a little more, then he lay down full-length on the bed and motioned for me to join him. I did and we were fully clothed except for our shoes and socks which we had removed once we got to my room when we got home that afternoon.
"I love being with you like this," I said and stroked Cody's hair.
"Me too Kevvy," he said.
"I always treasure every moment you and I are together," I continued. "It truly means everything to me."
"I feel the same way about you also Kevvy," Cody responded.
We lay like that for a moment, then he spoke again.
"I don't think we'll be able to do this much longer though."
I felt a stab of panic at that.
"What do you mean?" I asked looking at him.
"Well, don't you ever want to find someone to be with like a girlfriend or something like that?" he asked.
I had wondered how I would deal with letting him know that I was gay. Sure, we'd give one another knowing looks and we knew that we both were sneaking glances at one another's equipment when naked, but what did I really know when it came down to it about whether or not Cody was gay like me, or much less that he liked me in that way even if he was?
"I'm not really looking for anyone right now," I said.
"Oh," he said and looked away. He then turned back to me and I could tell that he was trying to get the courage to ask me something.
"What?" I asked softly.
"Well," he began. "When I see you around school and you talk to your friends who are girls, you don't seem interested in the looks they give you."
"I guess I'm so focused on what I'm talking about with them, that I hardly notice it," I said.
"Yeah, but that one girl Sarah that follows you around," he began, then stopped. "Kevvy, I hope you don't get mad at me asking this, but you're not really in to girls are you?"
The moment for him to know about me was here and I thought about it many times, but I wasn't able to keep the fear from my mind and I began to get over-taken by my emotions. I also began to get scared about what he would think when I told him the story about what Richie did to me. I began losing control of my emotions and he looked at me.
"Kevvy!" he said getting worried. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do anything to make you cry! It's okay. I'm right here, I'm here for you."
He held me and moved my head so that it was resting on his chest. He held me as I cried and soon, my tears were over and I could speak again.
"Sorry Cody," I said as I dried my eyes. "I didn't think I'd get emotional like that. I want to be honest with you. I'm not in to girls. It's not because I haven't found the right girl and it's not because I had a bad experience with dating girls. It's because I'm actually gay and I've had a bad experience with a guy who was supposed to be my boyfriend back when I was 13."
"I don't understand," he said.
I could see that he was trying to follow what I was saying, but I must have been talking in circles enough to confuse him. I tried again.
"When I was 13, a guy at the school I had been going to at the time had tricked me in to thinking that we were at first friends, then he would get me to do things to him that I didn't want to do," I explained. "In the beginning, it felt good, but he didn't start making me feel scared at first."
"You mean that he made you have sex with him when you didn't want to?" Cody asked.
"Something like that," I said. Raping someone doesn't always have to involve holding their body down and forcing your penis in to them," I explained. "Just them threatening to tell people what's going on if you don't do what they want can keep you quiet and that's what this guy did to me. Eventually though, you eventually lose the understanding of who you are and you just do whatever you can to survive from one day to the next."
I began crying again and I felt one of my hands being taken in Cody's hand. I then felt his fingers tracing the shapes of the scars on my wrists.
"You tried to kill yourself didn't you?" he asked saddened.
I tried to answer him, but I was crying too hard.
"Kevvy, it's okay," he said softly and held me in his arms and put my head on his chest as I cried. "I'm right here and I'll always be here. What happened to you back then doesn't change how I feel and I don't think you're bad or dirty for what happened to you."
I also told him about what happened between my family and I and the inevitable break-down between all of us. He comforted me through that as well and soon my crying was over. He was wiping his eyes as well and I was calm again.
"I can see why you would have a hard time coming out to people," he said after a few minutes of us holding one another and just lying quietly in one another's arms.
"It hasn't been easy," I agreed.
"I hope you haven't tried to kill yourself since that first time," he said and stroked my hair away from my forehead.
"I promise you that I'll never try anything like that again," I said. "I don't think that way anymore and I would be honest with you if I was. Also, I haven't tried to kill myself since that time back then."
"Thank you for telling me that," he said and held me closer for a moment.
"You're welcome," I replied.
Later that night after we spent some time talking with Caleb and Nathan, Cody and I got our showers and then I lay down on the bed while he put on a pair of boxers. He came over to me and lay beside me and draped an arm across my stomach.
"About what we were talking about earlier," he said. "I hadn't told you yet, but I'm like you. I mean, that I'm gay also."
"I figured that you were," I replied turning to face him. I put an arm around him and pulled him closer. "When did you know that you were gay?"
"Back when I was 12," he answered. "I saw other boys without their shirts at the pool a few times and when I saw girls with their swim suits on, it didn't make me feel excited the way it did when I saw boys with their shirts off."
"That's basically how it was with me as well," I said.
We lay in one another's arms at this point and there was a long silence, then Cody broke it.
"I think you're really cute Kevvy," he said and I saw his face turn a bright red.
"I feel the same way about you too," I said. "Wow, you're blushing even harder."
He gave a shy laugh and I laughed along with him, then I looked deeply in to his eyes and he returned my look.
"You have really nice skin," he said moving his face closer to mine and speaking just above a whisper.
"So do you," I said. "You have a little hair starting to grow on your chest, but for the most part, your skin is like silk."
"I like the hairs on your chest," he said and touched them lightly.
"The hairs you're getting are nice too," I replied. "And thanks, I'm glad you like my chest hairs."
"I'm glad you like mine," he answered.
We talked a little more, then I was beginning to get more and more tired. Cody picked up on this and asked if I wanted to go to bed. I said that I did and I knew that he was getting tired as well.
Once the bedroom light was off and the bedside lamp was the only light still burning, Cody got back on the bed and I lay there watching him. He looked at me for a moment, then lay back down and turned towards me.
"I have a question Kevvy," he said.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Well, it's about us and I hope you won't think I'm getting too personal," he said.
"You can ask me anything," I said. "If you're worried about doing anything accidently to hurt me or make me afraid, I mean about what I told you having to do with Richie, I don't want you to be worried. I'll let you know if there's something I don't want to talk about. I don't want you to treat me like I'm delicate."
"Okay," he said. "I want to say before I ask my question, that you really are cute. Well, sexy is more like it. So I was wondering if you wanted to sleep naked with one another. I promise that I won't try to make you do anything sexual with me just because we're naked."
I wanted this for a long time. I smiled at him and hugged him.
"I'd love that," I said.
He looked at me as we had our arms wrapped tightly around one another and before I knew it, his lips were tenderly pressed against mine and we began kissing deeply.
The first couple of seconds were hesitant, but we fell in to a steady rhythm. Then I broke the kiss to say something.
"Wow!" I said. "You kiss really good."
"So do you," he replied. "I just couldn't help myself."
"I'm glad you did that," I replied. "I wanted to feel your lips on mine since we first met."
"Me too Kevvy," he said.
I then removed myself from Cody's arms and put my hands on my boxers to remove them, but Cody stopped me.
"May I?" he asked looking deeply in to my eyes.
"I'd like that," I replied.
I lay on my back as Cody moved to where my feet were and he reached up and took hold of the waistband of my boxers. He pulled and I lifted my hips up off the bed and he removed my boxers. I had him lay down where I had been a moment ago and he let me take off his boxers. I went and put them in the clothes hamper at the foot of my bed and came to lay back down beside him.
We turned on our sides to face one another and he looked all over my body.
"Your body looks so nice," he said.
"I like looking at your body as well," I responded. We wrapped our arms around one another and just lay there looking in to one another's eyes.
"Remember when we would sneak looks at one another when getting undressed for our showers?" I asked.
"I remember that," he replied. "Remember the first time we did it that first time we spent the weekend together?"
"Yeah," I replied.
"Did you like what you saw when I was getting my boxers out of my dresser?" he asked.
"Yeah, I liked it a lot," I replied. "Did you like looking at what I have between my legs?"
"I really enjoyed that," he answered.
I leaned in and pressed my lips to his and we made out for a few minutes, then he broke the kiss.
"You look so sexy," he said. "I definitely want to do stuff with you, but I want to at least get some sleep first."
"Yeah," I agreed. "I'm not ready right now though, and if we keep talking about sexual things and if we keep kissing like this then we'll probably come before we want to."
We kissed one final time, then I turned to shut off the bedside lamp and once in darkness save for a nightlight burning beside the foot of the bed where Cody could see it, I wrapped my treasure in my arms and we quickly fell asleep like that.
Caleb
Nathan and I had been making out after Kevin and Cody had gone back to their room. Once they left, we said goodnight to our parents and Alicia, then came back to our room. We began making out and touching each other all over.
We were enjoying one another's smells after our shower. We had been showering together for a while now and it was nice to soap one another up and make one another come in the shower, but that night we didn't do that. We showered, then came back to our bed and put our towels in the hamper. Once naked, we lay on the bed and began fiercely making out and our hands were caressing one another's bodies and rubbing each other's nipples.
Soon though, we were ready to begin making love. I got on top of Nathan and I did the usual. He moaned with every kiss I planted all over his body and I turned him on his stomach and after covering his back and shoulders with kisses, I moved down to his ass and began nibbling and licking all over his cheeks.
"Oooo!" he yelled in lust, but also in surprise. I hadn't given him any impression that I was ready to do any ass play much less that I was thinking about it.
"Surprised?" I asked.
"Yeah!" he said excitedly, but happy at the same time.
"I'm glad," I said. "I want to try something else as well."
"Okay," he answered. "Are you going to tell me what it is?"
"I'll show you," I said. "Then you can let me know what you think."
"Sounds good," he answered.
I moved so that my mouth was above his crack and I took my tongue and began to circle his rosebud with it in slow circles and I would tap the tip of my tongue against his rosebud a few times. I alternated between circling it with my tongue and tapping it and this was making him even hotter. He was twisting from side to side and I would also lightly brush his balls with my fingertips. Soon though, he was coming close so I stopped and moved up so I could hold him.
"That was fucking amazing!" he said and turned to deeply kiss me. "Thinking about being inside me sometime soon?"
"I've thought about it," I replied and we shared a few more deep kisses.
After we kissed a final time, he put my hand on his iron-hard cock and I knew he was ready to come. So I moved between his legs and began giving him the sucking in the way he liked it.
I began to circle around the head of his cock with my tongue and would caress the tip of his cock with my lips after making sure they were moist with my saliva. I'd do this for a few minutes, then I would slowly lower my mouth on to his cock. I would go up and down, and soon I was sucking up and down in a slow and steady rhythm.
"Ohhhoooohhhhhhh!" he yelled. "That's so good!"
I began going faster and he was thrusting his hips up and down and I began stroking his ballsack with my hands and then I took one hand up and alternated between each nipple, lightly caressing and pinching each one. Then it happened.
He thrust his hips up hard and was flooding my mouth with his thick and hot cum. I was swallowing it as quickly as I could and even then, some of it leaked out and on to his balls. I swallowed the last couple of drops, then licked up what spilled out. I shared this with my love in our special kiss and once we kissed a final time, he did the same for me and when I came, I almost passed out from how hard my orgasm hit.
Once we finished making love, we exchanged a couple of deep kisses, then just lay in one another's arms with the covers pulled up over us and I held my love close and stroked his hair.
"That always feels so good," he said.
"It definitely does when you do it to me too," I replied. "You were grate tonight."
"So were you," he answered.
"I truly do love you Nathan," I said. "You really have given my life joy and light. I don't ever want to lose you, not ever."
"I love you too Caleb," he said. "I feel the same way about you and since you're in my life, I feel like I can get through the bad times a little easier. Even when I have pain that's the worsed, thinking of you makes it a little bearable to deal with."
"I'm glad," I responded. "Anyway though, I think I'll sleep good tonight."
"So do I," he answered.
We said good night, then shared a final kiss for the evening and soon, we were asleep in one another's arms. Everything was falling in to place, or so I thought at the time.
Author's Notes
I'll be developing another part of the story line which will be a bit darker, but it's going to help with a little more of the boys' character development, I'm talking about Caleb, Nathan and Kevin.
So everyone have a good evening and I'll see everyone in Chapter 13.