A Change of Heart 7B
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A Change Of Hearts
Chapter 7 Part 2
Adam
Before I can swallow it a down a laugh of complete disbelief rips its way out of my chest. This desperate attempt to turn me against Sean is ridiculous and I can't even begin to believe him, no matter how adamant he is.
"You're lying!" I manage to splutter out between gasps.
He turns to look at me with a deadly look on his face. He walks towards me and grabs me quickly by the shoulders. He screams in my face so closely and loud I can smell the arid stench of his breath and feel the spit on my face as he shouts.
"Do you think I would lie about something like this!?! MY LIFE IS OVER and it is all that bastards fault! He killed me and then he thinks he can walk away and have the life that should be mine I'm young I should have my whole life ahead of me but instead I'm wondering who will turn up at my fucking funeral!"
I'm reeling I can't take it all in. I want him to be lying, need him to be lying. I will not, cannot believe him.
"How did it happen? Were you two together?" I ask praying the answer is no.
"We weren't together no. He was my dealer. You see after everything that happened with you Adam as you can imagine I was pretty fucking down. Imagine knowing the thing you love more than anything in the world is being kept from you. All because you made a mistake. All because you went too far just one time. So I needed a pick me up, something to get me through the day. I met Sean when I was out clubbing one night. He was dealing coke in the toilets. He gave me a couple of lines so I gave him blowjob. I was on the best high while I was swallowing his length and savouring the taste and after that I was hooked. It started out as just when I went out he would give me a couple of lines and I would swallow his seed for his trouble. Win win. But then the highs stopped being so good and the lows got even worse. I needed more. I moved onto mdma and then onto crack before I knew it I was shooting up in the toilets like some piece of shit from the streets. I got my stash from Sean he promised me everything was clean. I found out a few months ago I have HIV. Most likely from my unsavoury lifestyle the doctor tells me. One of those needles that prick gave to me were dirty and it stole my life from me" He speaks level headedly.
I'm reeling, Sean? A drug dealer? What the hell?
Sean
They say we learn from the past. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Makes you work harder. What if what you've done in your past altered the future of someone else? What if your actions cut someone else's life short? Can you really learn from that? Everyone makes mistakes but some mistakes can't be forgiven right.
When I met Michael I was in a dark place myself and couldn't deal with life myself. I was moving from to job and living between each pay check. When I found myself out of work for a little while one of my friends offered to help me out. I thought why not? It's easy money, it's good money. He wanted me selling drugs in the gay clubs. Nothing heavy just couple of e's and some cocaine. I could even have a little myself as long as I sold the rest of it. I saw him in Flame a local gay bar one night and he looked so dejected, broken, empty and I felt sorry for him. I offered him a line of coke just to give him a little bit of a pick me up. Before he knew it he was on knees sucking me feverishly like his life depended on it and it felt amazing. We quickly had an arrangement of sorts. I would give him a few lines and he would suck on my dick like his life depended on it.
This went on for a while until he wanted harder stuff. His weight plummeted and he started to look even worse than he did before. I had started distancing myself from him and avoiding him. I was coming out of the club one night and he raced across the street towards me. He was begging me to get him some smack crying on his knees and trying to pull me out of my trousers to suck me off. I couldn't see him like that anymore so I went to my guy and got him something to calm him down. He took it and I didn't see anything from him for a while.
A few months later I was coming home when he stepped out of the shadows. He starts screaming and shouting and telling me I had killed him. He had gotten HIV, from the smack I gave him. I knew that the guy I worked for wasn't he cleanest of guys but I didn't even think that night, I just got the stuff and gave it to Michael and signed his death certificate at the same time. I packed up and moved away too ashamed to face my friend or Michael again. That was 2 years ago and Michael is living proof that the past will always come back to haunt you.
Now he has Adam and I have to face him one more. I need Adam back and I need to protect him how I should have protected Michael. I need to do the right thing. As I turn to leave the room the live feed starts up again and I am once again faced with the image of the boy I love crying. My heart breaks in two for him and the air is pushed out my lungs sending me crashing towards the ground bereft of all strength. The screen is suddenly filled with Michaels face smiling at me.
"What's up Sean you're not looking too great?" He says with fake concern. I had felt sorry for him before but now I am certain I hate him. This is between me and him and has nothing to do with Adam. Why did he have to bring him into this?
"Mikey come on let him go. You're only getting yourself into trouble here" I say quietly trying desperately to calm down the situation and save my brown eyed boy.
"Shut up Sean. You're not a teacher now your just a stupid fuck who's in way over your head. I don't have to listen to you anymore. Remember I know the real you. The sad fucked up drug dealer who handed me a dirty needle. I thought we were friends I trusted you." He speaks calmly. I'm scared I know he's unstable.
"Sean! I'm at Sycamore Farm! In the basement" Adam shouts to me desperately trying to wrestle himself free.
"Big Mistake!" shouts Michael as he rushes towards Adam trying to shut him up. I watch helplessly as Adam tries to fight a losing battle with Michael. Michael manages to hold his arms down but Adam pushes his knee up into his groin and manages to get free. Just as he reaches the door Michael jumps up and wrestles him to the ground. I hear one thump and Adam goes still. The video feed is switched off moments later and I rush out the door grabbing my keys. Without a thought I'm speeding down the road to Sycamore Farm and the man that I love.
Adam
Pain courses through me as Michael slams my head into the ground and I can't breathe as the room spins. I fight to not lose consciousness as Michael shouts at me.
"Why did you do that? WHY!?! I had a plan and again you have messed it all up. You made me hurt you again. I swore I would never hurt you and you made me hurt you again! I'll have to move you now before he gets here" He rants before sitting in a corner.
"How long do you think you can keep this up? What do you plan on doing with me?" I ask tentatively sitting up and checking my head, luckily it's not bleeding.
"I'm going to make you love me again. How it was when it first started. When I was your whole world and you was mine. When we would whisper to each other in the darkness and cling on like it was our last moments. I'm going to get back to that" He says with conviction crying.
"That's never going to happen Mike. It's over it's always going to be over" I say as quietly as possible.
"WHY!?! I made one simple mistake. One mistake and we are going to throw everything away over that? No I won't let you. I won't let you go"
"Yes you will! We broke up because you hit me and because you harassed me you fucked up there. And while we're on the list of your fuck ups, Sean didn't kill you, you did! You took the drugs he only provided them! No one forced you. It's time you grew the fuck up and took some responsibility for your actions" I scream unable to hold my anger in any longer.
"Shut up! Shut up! Shut Up!" He screams back.
"No! You're a little fucking coward. You hit me because you couldn't deal with it. You took drugs because you couldn't take how fucked up your life was and you've done this now and you want me to feel sorry for you? I'll die before that fucking happens" I'm raging and even though the sensible part of me is telling me to stop I just cant.
"Shut the fuck up or I'll silence you myself. I don't wanna hit you again but if it's the only way to keep you quiet" He says dangerously quiet.
"AND I'LL HIT YOU RIGHT BACK!! And right now I may not be much of a contest but I'll be a fantastic runner up. I'm not scared of you Mike!" I stand up and make my way towards the door as he watches me in pure silence. I open the door and I am about to make my way up the stairs when I hear a click behind me. I stop dead still and turn slowly towards him. He is pointing a gun at me and my breath hitches in my throat. I knew he had gone far but this far? Really?
"You scared of me now? You see Adam I brought this gun in case of any emergencies or in case we had to get out of here quick but I see now there is only one solution. You see I can't live without you and I sure as hell can't die knowing you'll be with someone else. But it's better this way. Now no one can touch us. We'll be safe from everyone that wants to ruin everything we have".
As he speaks I walk steadily back into the room with my hands up. Where did he even get the gun from? He moves closer and closer to me until the gun is right under my chin. I'm barely breathing and just thinking about everything I won't get to do with my life. Stuff I won't get to do with Sean. As he gets ready to fire I impulsively grab a bottle off a shelf and hit him with it. He drops to the ground cold and I scream more for the fact that I'm alive than anything else.
I gather myself together for a moment and then bolt out of the room desperate for safety. My legs are a little stiff at first from not moving for so long but I make quick work of the stairs. As I reach the back door I realise its locked and bolt towards the front door praying I'll find a way out. As I pass the stairs Michael jumps out and knocks me to the ground. Screaming he tries to pin me to the ground. I manage to get him off and run outside screaming help. Michael's house stands alone surrounded by fields and small forests. I head for the closest one hoping I can lose him.
My vision is blurred as I run desperately trying to find my way through the forest to the main road which I can hear close by. I stop for a second to catch my breath and get my bearings. I listen carefully trying to work out whether he has followed me or not. I hear his footsteps behind me and start off running not caring whether he hears me or not. I can see the lights of the main road I'm nearly there. I can hear him screaming my name.
"Adam!! I grew up in this place do you really think you can hide from me? I'll find you. I always do!" he shouts.
I get to the fence and plant one foot on it when I'm dragged back and suddenly were both rolling down into a ditch. I look and see Michael scrambling up to get me. I lurch forward but he tackles me sending me straight into the ground.
"Adam? Why did you run? Why do you insist on ruining all of my plans" He says breathlessly into my ear.
"Please Michael. Let me go please. I'll do anything" I whisper desperate to live. Sean where are you?
"I can't do that Adam. We need to die together. Don't you see that's the only possible ending to a love like ours" He whispers as I cry sure I will die today.
"Now stay still. We're going to make love and then were going" He says smiling down at me.
"What? No! No! Don't you touch me! Sean! Sean! Help me! Oh gods help me!" I scream as he tears at my clothes and fights with our belt buckles.
"Shh baby. Shh" He whispers.
I fight as much as I can screaming and crying for him to stop as he roughly pushes himself inside of me. Pain sears through me as tears sting my eyes. I feel disgusting, helpless and above all broken.
"Get off him you sick cunt!" Sean shouts. My eyes fling open as I search desperately for Sean's voice. I hear the click of the gun. Michael must have lost it when we fell into the ditch.
"I can't do that Sean. I'm not done yet" Michael Sneers at him continuing to rape me.
"One last chance Michael. I don't wanna hurt you" Sean says levelly.
"You can't hurt me worse than you already have. And Now I'm going to take away the thing we love most of all. You can't always win Sean" Michael sneers again as out of nowhere he pulls out a knife and prepares to sink it into my chest. I scream as everything moves so fast. I hear two shots and watch Michael's face turn into one of utter shock.
"I guess you really did kill me" HE whispers as the life drains from him and collapses on top of me. I scream hysterically as I feel the blood of Michael draining onto me.
Sean
BANG! BANG! The shots from the gun ring out as the bullets hit Michael in the back. He turns to me and says something I can barely hear before he collapses onto Adam. Dead. Adam instantly starts crying and screaming.
"Get him off me! Sean! Get him off me please! Help me!" He shouts as I rush to him and manage to get Michael off him. I manage to get Adam to the car and rush him to the hospital calling his parents on the way. As I get there I run in and meet his parents rushing out with a wheelchair. They help him in crying and making sure he is ok.
I am told to wait outside as they rush him into the emergency room to check him over. The next hour is a blur as the police arrive and take our statements separately. I shudder as I explain where Michael's body is along with the weapon I used to kill him. By the end I'm shaking so badly I struggle to calm down as the police send someone to check the murder sight.
Adam's mother comes out and runs over to me hugging me and crying thankful that I found her son and assures me that Adam will be ok. I break the news to her of Michael having HIV and she assures me they are already checking to see if he has been infected. Though it is almost impossible to tell this early. I'm allowed to go and see Adam and as soon as I run into the room I swoop him into my arms and kiss him like I needed the kiss to breathe. He returns the kiss feverishly and my heart swoons at his touch.
"Are you ok?" I manage to breathe out to him.
"Not really. I think it will be a while before I'm ok if I'm honest with you. It all seems like a blur to me. Like it couldn't have happened to me. I wish.." Adam is cut off as a police officer comes into the room.
"Well did you find him?" I ask apprehensively.
"We searched the whole area and we found no trace of him anywhere" He says shocking us both.
"That's impossible. He died. I shot him" I stutter to the police officer.
"Look I don't know what happened out there but whoever you shot isn't dead"
TO BE CONTINUED
Authors Note:
Hey Guys! So that is the kidnapper conclusion! What did you all think? I think it was important for you to find out some more of Sean's past as we haven't really looked at it so far. What did you think of the chapter this time? Michael is proving impossible to get rid of lol what would you like to see happen to him? And do you think it's time Sean and Adam got to have a chilled out time of it or do you think bumpy roads are still ahead?
I hope you keep reading and enjoying the story and giving me feedback I love to hear from you all. I know the turn-around for the chapters is sometimes a little slow but I am really busy with University at the moment and I got cast as the Lead in our play Scenes From An Ecstatic Bible so things are a bit hectic. For more info on the show check out obscuredelights.webs.com!
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Much Love
J x